Monday, January 30, 2012 @ 15:45 | back to the top.
really a long time since i came back here..erm... let see..
ok firstly this few month izzit good at all...
tons of things handle and tons of things happen..
in the most simple form of words..
3 person die in 3 months...
wth...
plus my had been having headache since fridae..
it just like sudden blood rush or some explosion happen..
and the effect just stay..
i was quite worry tt is blood vessel tt broke..
as i think u all bro knows.. i have high blood pressure when i am awake..
and normal when i am aslp..
it get higher when i am thinking over things and stress about it...
so that y boss have been calling me asking to meet or something...
and bros..
i know it's my wrong for hiding this...but i need time to think about it myself...
i know u all have been asking me and boss...
it is me whu tell him no to tell..
yes it something not good..
i think it's time to let u all know..
sorry i cannot make it to speak right into u all de face...
as u all know all of us got the yearly health report..
YES.. something very wrong with me...
something tt just bring every hope and dream down scatter on the floor..
it may not be very correct but the possibly is alot higher..
yes my left eyes has nv been good...plus i always rub my eyes..
yes there is 30% of me to kena left eye cornea cancer in the coming 5 years.
and the other one is 15% to have my right-back brain cancer in coming 5 years too.
so no matter wat it's sometihng shocking to me...
tt y boss had been rushing me to do lots of things..
this and tt la.. tt y he had been clinging to me...
yup i think tt all tt i could say..
ya.. tt y chinese new year r all drinking and smoking..
bad year... and i am old...
tt all ba... no really in the mood or wat...
Wednesday, July 06, 2011 @ 23:30 | back to the top.
the week isn't any good week,somehow like the worst week of my life...
say really i tohught i was heartless...
alot of things i can dun care dun give a damn..
but until mon nite...
i woke up at 230a.m seeing my dad crying and my bro trying to quarrel...
i thought it was normal aat first...
then i see my dad kneel on floor..
the action just stuck me...
something serious happening...
then i went out... to see my mum hugging my father both of them crying and breaking down...
at tt very second, tears drop heart hollow...
the very image tt come to my mind is whether have i done anything wrong to make him this sad...
i dun totally blame my bro..
is actually all 3 of us...
neverless we care much...
but when i see my dad and mum break down...
it seem to me tt i am useless...
i totally hurt like nv b4...
tears keep flowing...
until todae.. i still have tt very feeling when i think about it...
after tt i went to drik.. again... bottles after bottles of hard condon bleu...
tears flow as i drink...
then ytd.. the same feeling stuck me..
giving me the very reason to drink.. so i call alfred...
this group of bros are even closer to me than my real blood bros...
they stand by 21/7 346 dae a year. and had been doing tt since i know them...
tt y this teach me to be.. always ready 24/7 for others... but noone really needs me cause i can do nth..
i am noone....
ytd was counselling session from alfred....
this bro of mine counsel me is diff from others...
usually we go to facts to counsel ppl..
but he is throught scolding...
i was scolded by him ytd...
yes he also use my account to post on my wall saying i am useless...
i agree tt y i nv say anything...
and he is damn right aboout me drinking....
i can drink no matter good mood or bad... and when the mood get worst the more i drink...
drinking doesn't solve the problems, and it doesn't help at all...
i dunno wat i can do...
the onli thing is to keep it within ba...
nv talk to ppl much about this very incident.. cause it still haunting me...
and other problems still arise...
it a bad week for me...
got to clam myself down and get ready or tml work...
got off for 2 daes le...
sat is drinking again.. thinking fridae i going to drink ba...
this is call a leopard can nv change his spots...
Friday, May 27, 2011 @ 09:08 | back to the top.
this time is really a long time since i had blog..actually nth to hide.. most of my blog u can see i about her...
no need to say whu u all also know la..
yes she is important aleast to me... in fact very...
i know u all always say u can always find a better girl somewhere out there..
i know, but u all should know tt sentence is hurting.. not onli to her.. but alot to me..
even thought of my feelings???
an example...
let say like this car.. honda civil ...
and pl around u keep say.. y not buy accord it alot better and all those...
correct u cannot refer a person to a car...
it was just an simple example to let u all have a mindset of how am i feeling at tt moment when u all say all those...
next... i am also not hapy with u all saying the one side story...
u always try to as fair as possible...
so.. i hate one side...
cause i nv know wat she is thnking...
for me it's a very hard thing....
u all were always saying i see how well u try her all those ..
u nv see the others....
how she look into my eyes..
when she smiles and laughing...
how beautiful she is...
she had nv say anything tt rejects me.. i mean in a way not saying anything bad at me.. or behind i think.. haha..
in a way when i see her smile or just peacefully sitting.. it seem like the time just flies... when i thought i seen it for like 5 mins.. it was actually 20 mins le...
kind of hate it...
haha.. but all this is to be kept right here in me...
i am in no position to do anything..
dun even talk about asking for her...
the way she is now, i felt hapy for her..
always missing her bf all those...
which is not like last time all her relationship is kept unknown...
which i believe she is putting in her most effort in it, which shows tt she really love him ba... =)
Monday, April 11, 2011 @ 23:44 | back to the top.
sorry bro nv see ur post la...too lazy to comment on tt la... haha
u know me de la... heee
kind of think about it.
i'm quite useless.. alot of things i can't do..
i know ppl around me like to use nice words la...
meaning i have put enough effort la.. u ahve done more than wat u should do la..allt hose shit..
but when problems arise...my mind can just go blank or jammed...
btw is not emo...
just felt down...
just like present...
i got tons of things to give but then ton of reason tt i can't give will come back in..
it's like using my own hand to slap myself...
happy tt i slap something...
sad is tt i slap myself....
lame rite???
haha.. continuing this action...
Tuesday, March 01, 2011 @ 18:18 | back to the top.
Bro, you should know the aim of us here.we know big boss is in some health problems, dun forget you too.
your liver is already have that 1 percent harden.
like what we have talk to you.
we know you always scold him, ask him go die all those.
but you do not mean it.
there like like aleast 4 of us which is always around him.
we find no reasons for you to cancel your study trip.
you are way cleverer than all of us.
got a chance to make tons of money not on the dark side.
and you and him is too alike both so stubborn.
please consider bro.
Monday, January 24, 2011 @ 10:39 | back to the top.
i got nth to do here so i came here rmb tt i have a blog..=Xthis is a place just for me to say things maybe ppl may see and maybe not..
watever i say here really means....cause there is no use lying or wat...or saying things behind whoever back or wat.. all this have been wat i feel and wat i know and wat i mean... ppl may understand or misunderstand.. hee but watever u all misunderstand or wat can just call me or message me.. easiler for me and you..
i dun like to beat around the bush just go straight to the point.. hee..
ya..been in tekong for 2 weeks..everyday was very shag.. i was alone most of the time..
cause they all pes C then i a the onli one rushing for pes B.. so i am just a dog there.. tired like mad.. everydae i slp at around 12 and wake up at 430.. tt is provide timing for me to slp.. and u know de la.. still need to bath all those cut away how much liao.. plus i not tt type tt jsut lie on bed jiu slp de ppl.. haha..
rmb tt very dae when i was walking the 6km road march alone.. hee..fuckign shag... haha.. then i take out my wallet hee..
tt also wat i do everydae before i slp..
cause tt is my onli motivation.. =)
and sadly enough going to go back in later liao... another week..
and hopefully i can book out on sat...hee..
just praying tt nth happen to you out there... please please take care of urself...
u got a bf correct but i just wan u to be safe.. tt why i do those things tt u think is ma fan..but say really to me it isn't.. so please dun feel it tt way.. i tell all these to u is because i dun wan to hide things from u or even lieing to u... hee.. after all please take care...=)
Friday, January 07, 2011 @ 19:04 | back to the top.
ROGER! Bro rmb the things i tell u.
left her to us ba.
no worry.
@ 11:02 | back to the top.
bro like wat i said ytd..safety is my main concern..
anythinf call cumber.. or me la... if cannto contact.. u make the decicion...
i told u everything ytd liao.. ty
Monday, January 03, 2011 @ 21:45 | back to the top.
bro, people i settle le. you going on Wednesday with?
i go with you ba.
Sunday, January 02, 2011 @ 21:52 | back to the top.
bro manpower will be lesser.. onli 9 of u will be there.. i dun need bountry there all to be there as it's much safer...relax more ba bro.. this time is with her parents so chill more...
transport need to say meh??? just bring it over...
u still can call me... anything either u make the decision or u call cumber.. i will talk to him about it.. but watever not in planned.. u move please tell cumber..
she oversea wat i can do sia??? u cock lei...
anymore qns???
i will be going i over at wed nite ba.. thurs fri i will take off...
i will go over all the places in one go..
any update will tell u..
got thigns ask faster...
i cannot let u last min liao..
i goin in on 11 jan which is next tues..
i dunno i can use phone ma... so please work on it.. ty bro~
Thursday, December 30, 2010 @ 23:23 | back to the top.
bro so manpower how?same as thailand one ar?
follow closer this time or relax more?
transport how?
how i contact u when u in tekong?
she oversea u ok meh?
@ 03:59 | back to the top.
bro can i ask whu de fuck go to his own blog to read when he himself nv update sia????u cute lei...
wa lao...
ok.. i will going next week.. after tt week i going tekong liao so i will not be around..
so everything i will pass to u to settle...
same any emergency please call me...
same thing as Thailand...
so anyhting else call me...
tt dae is because i at warehouse playing PS3 in the morning ....
doing shit stuffs follow ups...
about the christmas is u all one by one call me to plan one...
u think i wan to plan meh???
when i myself no plan....zzzzzz
u know my standard la... flower onli 1 kind...
then all my da sao know is i plan one can claim credit ma..
u all idiot...
Monday, December 27, 2010 @ 18:40 | back to the top.
bro wat happen to your phone just buy not long ago and it spoiled?just want to ask a few qns.
dun think others will read here ba?
easy i'll make it sweet and short..
1) You are going to china to scout the area first rite?
2) when you go?
3) I bet this time is a free trip for us to china? =)
think that all bro~
thanks for the planning for Christmas.
all our gals knows that is you plan one.
which idiot will give daisy for Christmas?
still thanks alot bro.
Sunday, November 28, 2010 @ 21:42 | back to the top.
i miss my grandpa again...even thought i dun quite rmb how he look like cause he pass away when i was 12,.l.
i rmb wat he always tell me...
rmb tt when i was small i onli know runner and playing..
my grandpa will always shake his head...
but i will always smile and run...
when i was young my mouth always scold ppl de..
so grandpa will say.. sorry hwee ah..
ah gon nv born u with a good mouth..
i will always just slap him..
bad me...
always the naughty one..
i can always hang a couples of foul words on my mouth..
nth gd will come out..haha...
ya and i realised something..
EVERYONE REALLY IS EVERYONE~
have bf or gf liao.. hahaa..special... hahahahahaha
tml is another dae of rotting..
go nuh again in the afternoon...
Sunday, November 21, 2010 @ 13:27 | back to the top.
it been a long time ba..i dunno wat to post also..
first sorry Alfred.... i know the argument we have haven end yet...
there is so much to say.. little explanation i can give...
i got my iphone so i play my doodle find everydae...
my body seem to be having something wrong.. right eye start to blur out sometimes...
back pain.. dunno la...
actually i not in the mood to do anytihng...
i have been like this and i know i will be like this
Monday, November 15, 2010 @ 00:17 | back to the top.
hee.. last post before i go out ba..say really i dunno wat will happen later..
wat i can say is tt u ppl please take care..be happy and enjoy..
i dunno even know how safe am i.. going all out todae.
bear call me tt dae.. saying i had change...
i learn all these in the past is for protecting...
but now.. i using it to fight... haiz...
i understand hs point but then...
i can just let these matter climb to my head...
please do take care of urself ppl...
hopefully i will be back in one piece.. cya...
Sunday, November 14, 2010 @ 05:28 | back to the top.
just back no long ago..been training hard for tml nite.. to settle tons of stuff..
really all these are getting on to my head... i dun like it...
i nv like to be the one to get things started...
all thanks to you... making so much shit when i just get of my post... good..
been a period of time sine i talk to you and look in ur eyes...
i dunno any single thing tt happen to you.. other then wat u wrote on ur blog..
to me it seem that u r really good with him... happy enough for me..=)
jiaoyu ba..
rmb this " every problem got a solution"
problem reach u can sill transfer them to me...=)
take care of yourself..
Sunday, November 07, 2010 @ 15:42 | back to the top.
yaya.. all the SIS-IN-LAW...sao zi s...............
u all dun come disturb ar....
lolz... how u all???
been aleast 3 months nv see u all.. hee...
too bad.. dun wan to see u all..=P
haha.... ytd was full dae at warehouse again... haha
other than going to geraldine fu birthdae...
which i went for like 5 mins???
tt stupid bo yan keep calling me go...
then ask melvin send me over..
say hi.. then sit down ask bo yan things then say to her bb i got things..
haha.. faster birthdae party i ever been.. haha...
entertain idiot to go to another idiot party.. zzzzzz..
then go back warehouse do stuff..
then back home..meet yan and james at boon lay market..
haha chat to like 3 plus..
haha.. too bad dad nv come back.. nv send them back...
haha... after that went to dragonfly again..
cause a few old man ask me go... then go back warehouse drink again..
until 9 plus then reach home... haha..
sundae liao sundae liao.. sian sian..
tml no off or leave...
got to work... haiz.. course start...
tues duty.... thisweek dfo... sian la ...
Saturday, November 06, 2010 @ 11:11 | back to the top.
in warehouse now...it's the onli place i felt belong...
the place belong onli to myself..
full of my stuffs and of course others which is meant to be given but nv...
haha...firstly.. thanks jess which is melvin's gf for the breakfast bought for us..
which melvin is still drunk... haha..
ya.. ytd nite got nth to do so ask melvin to go powerhouse to drink together...
knowing his level of liquor is not gd i nv ask him to drink..
on opening my 4 bottle i turn and saw him lieing down le..
i was like wtf??? so fast.. i nv even force him to drink..
lolz... i drank until my 12 bottle of cordon bleu..
then decided to bring melvin back to warehouse to rest...
haha... tonite is another round... weeeeee..
cause i got nth to do....
Friday, November 05, 2010 @ 04:48 | back to the top.
bro u very fan la...not going not going.. i dun like tt place la.. stop irritating me.. ZZZZZZZ
got to shift my drinking session to sat lo.. cause then.. ping will not be in singapore
and cum is on duty... wahahahahha
SAT SAT SAT SAT SAT..
DRINKING~~~~~
this time 20 bottles... weeeeeeeeee
really feel like making myself drunk..=X