Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 23:07 | back to the top.
yo.. back here... as always it's been a long time. lots of things happened.chinese new year when back... was very stunt when i got the message when i was about to come back.
back then i was like hoping to see the message.. haha 1 week lei.. go there kena suay like dunno wat... ask me this ask me tt.. even ask when i going to give birth to let other paly.. crazy enough..haha
after tt back le went marina square with ping cum and his ber. done something so pia seh lo... first time in my life sia... wat to do??? the thing can onli be found there nearest to wat i wan le...haha
then something make me feel sian and heart sunken... is my bro bear.. he called me so happily really so happy.. i nv hear him so happy b4 even when his gf agree to marry him.. but then sorry bro u know tt is not the case.. sorry tt my effort doesn't make it there. sorry tt i mislead u.. sorry to let u drop down from such a high mood tt i nv see b4.. sorry..
then come my army... work work and work...
ya.. i went for my pes status check on tue.. i got no more high blood pressure and heart problem le... hahah glad to hear tt... i request to up my pes to become combat fit so tt i can slim down by the harsh way. but they still need my doc report. which is tml..i have ask my doc not to give my leg report... he didn't really say ok.. but just hope he do it my way.. just trying to look for my motivevation somewhere there... tt all thx
Friday, February 05, 2010 @ 18:08 | back to the top.
long time nv come back here..now i am in ns le...
boring lo.. onli work like 5 months and i am the 2ic of my dep le..
the sian part is i do so many things and i am onli getting 400 per month... sian..
nth much ba...
this year dunno is a bad year or wat??
lot of ppl breaking up or quarrel or watever la.. alot of stunts come out...
and sio ba too..
she not bad can make me so angry de... wth..
even my "bro" also DONE something not gd at ALL....another wth...
but u lucky she dun let me do lo...
u idiot.. dunno wat u thinking de la..haiz...
lucky she got her friend around... wth... dun talk about tt de la..
and stop destroying my effort... 5 and a half year le ok....
ZZZzzz
Wednesday, September 09, 2009 @ 03:15 | back to the top.
i have been think y does ppl in this world got so much to worry got so much to think.so much happen in relationship and life?
does heaven really wan to paly on us or does we make our fate?
cause alex is having relatioship, family and money issues. and i can't even do a single thing to help him feel better.
and i here have realtionship or no. is one sided ship lolz. i was wondering y when she is just a normal friend to me i got to worry so much thinking so much. and her ONE sms will like bring my happiness lvl up over 100%. just like wat ping say when we were working we keep looking into phone whu are we acctually thinking of??
when she ignore me, first i dunno wat have i done wrong. second can i have the reasons for the ignore?. lastly y i am feeling so really down? even alex can see it.
and then here is army. i am going in next mon.
and i also dunno la army is stressing me too... haiz
next is my study.. i really regret y i can't even finished my poly if not i no need to stress so much and wait for my army to finished and i can go to germany and study my uni. now i got to wake up every mon to fri 5a.m to study online class with them.it really stress me lots. cause i can't slp i need to listen to wat the prof say. and then got to do my tutorial and hand in by 4.30p.m everydae and tt the time i wake up..haiz. somemore tyhere is company tt sponser my study but wanting me to work there 8 very years. even thought the pay is really high. 11k pound even month plus house and car inclulded. but i got to gif up so much things. i dunno i am really really stress out. my bros say go lo. when they free they will go over is for my future. but to me i really hate gifing things up.. haiz
i am really stress out... i go read on my note b4 i start my class at 5.
Monday, July 27, 2009 @ 05:53 | back to the top.
heee... i just back home no long... haha.. i feel really happy todae.. not cause by ppl.. is by myself...
cause for 5 years todae is and one dae le.. cause ytd nv update..=X haha
thinking back all the stupid things i have done... haha.
but u are still there standing first out of anyone... haha.
i also dunno y i nv change in a way..=)
nv felt this happy....=)
wwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. haha
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 @ 00:08 | back to the top.
sian ar sian. dunno why i am more sian then ever.. first my dad keep nagging about the statement tt i am going to gif on thurs. which is why my mouth got 1 scar. sian and another thing which the about 90% tt it makes me feel sian is tt, dunno why i have this very very strong feelings tt i stand nowhere in ur heart, dun say ur heart i think even brain. i will not cross the path of ur thinking. tt is my feelings and this is the very first time i felt. heart just sank. even when bear just call to say hi. i was like so cool to him. even he knows tt i am tihnking about u. but maybe is tt he with me too long le ba.. forget it.. =) bye and my pay rise..which should be happy but i am not....Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 14:14 | back to the top.
haha long time since i blogged.. very very long sia. march to now is like 3 months.hahaa opps. dunno wat to write la. haha.just wan to say i am injuried haha.. my lips is broken now. the doc wanna stich me but i dun wan. i afraid of noodle and stuff la. pain lei.
cause i fight with my neighbour.haha lame story la.. haha.
now mc for 3 daes dunno wan to do wat. cannot even go work.. wtfZZZzzzzzz
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 04:25 | back to the top.
now the time is 4.25a.m i am suppose to be slping due to my mum cause she wan me to go and pray later in the morning but i going out at 6a.m..todae is a special dae for choke cause of this very best friend so call the first best friend he have in his life but then he end he life on this very dae 10 years ago 1998 when both of them was 10 years old.
actually up to now no knows actually knows much about this cuse is very specal to choke. on this very dae 10 years ago choke changes.
choke was a very timid and talk big boy when he was young. this friend he knows from K2 name garren keng plays with him, darren was a running boy run here and there and like tracksand feild and all the camps in pri sch. he si the same calss as choke all the way. choke treat him better then his ow bro. listen to him and everything he says mean alot to choke. choke join basketball and he join track and feild. they talk alot togther shared their dreams. but until this very dae 10 years ago, in corporation pri i was 4.40p.m choke was having his training so is garen and he is trying for javalin. thengarren was so happy he throw the javalin and it fflew quite far without wasiting he run for his javalin tt landed a distance away. and he teacher throw the javalin without notice him. and just as choke look by right infront of his eyes the javalin pierce through his body. choke ran there seeing al blood and garren was not moving at all. tt when choke really cry and feel his heart pain till now.
choke rmb this " when i grow up i wan to be an engineer, i wan to go outwads bound and have lot of camp and advanture i wan to throw javalin like how pro throw so far"
favourite waords of all tme"nomatter wat smile"
Till todae...
Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 14:19 | back to the top.
after not coming online for so long.. i come to write something..haha..actually got nth to type also..
just for inspiration u can see this video..
http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/nick_vujicic_105690.html
u will understand.. how ever i don't..
to say really i understanding tt he is trying so hard to stand up and continue walking with limbs...
but y ppl with limbs like ppl is like rotting of their life....
i dun quite understand even after i see the video..
now i have totally no aim in my life..
no goals.. goals have been taken away from me by noone but myself...
cause nth will happen without a cause...tt wat i belives in..
and when there is no pain there will no be no gain..
somemore i feel so strange cause i just wake up and i am here to type this kind of i dunno wat.... haha...
btw i having my driving test on 19 dec haha.. 13-14 zoukout working 16 i wan to change phone to LG KS20 =)..then 19 TP like so busy ar... 20 my younger bro birthdae... haha.. dun care..lolz..
ok i go back to play games le... cya
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 @ 03:10 | back to the top.
firstly it have been so long since i am back here...secondly really alots of things have changed... not to say the worst of all that i haven been thinking really came...
lastly my attitude have gone from worse to worst.. like tt dae.. bear call me got pro at st james there... i was so bad mood tt i go there without thinking i just wack those guys... i didn't even listen which wat i always will do first.. then i just ask bear send me back... even bear is stunt. my 11 bros have been tiring to contact me.. i will answer but with the bad attitude... sorry bros is not i dun wan to share with u.. i i dun even have the courage to face u all.. i know how much u all have done for me and tt why... i really dun even know whu i am le...
even todae.. went to play bb with si ping they all.. there come tong lin if not wrong... i know he always paly rough with elblow all those..todae he was with me the same tteam all tyhe time i also dunno y.. after i seen he eblow si ping in my brain was all fire.. therefore u will see me inside the red circle cause when i am in i dun think he will do things..even time change team i wan to be opp wit hhim but.. dunno la... dun let me have the chance is all i can sae....
haiz really la.. choke is no more choke... i think i can have the same name as bo yan.."zombie"...
Monday, September 01, 2008 @ 13:07 | back to the top.
it have been ages since i am back here...but my mood is like on fire due to someone...
i really can help it... what i wan to do is to really kill him..
i was toking to bear and fred ytd to settle on him...
what i can say is both of them ask me to cool down first dun look for him on my own account.. cause they know i really will kill him with my bare arms...
ppl u all nv know my background tt well so u dunno.. i am nto as good as all of u all thinks... i life is like so messy with this and that... haiz
no mod to even eat not to even say go out.... and cumber start his 6 month work le.. i am bored.... fuck la... i am angry again.. bye!@
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 14:05 | back to the top.
haha my birthdae pass lo.. i 20 liao so sian..like tt is my 20 years of my life passed...
hee... thanks those tt actually me for my birthdae as well as wishes me...
hee.. thanks for the very very nice video by ger...
now is exam period le.. everyone seem so busy but y am i so free.. actually i also dunno.. the mood of studying still not here yet.. but i will study cause i dun wan to be depress and stress again but the result...i dun wan to let my life down..
=).... and dunno y nowadae i wan to protect ppl so much..=)
tt all ba i going down to cut my hair... haha
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 01:34 | back to the top.
ok now i have learnt most of the thing and the most important just let it go..ok..so now i dun care le... just wan to study and paly...=).. bb... i tihnk u will nv see this too..haha
Wednesday, July 09, 2008 @ 22:23 | back to the top.
me very sick here..arhh... wanted to blog but really sick liao..doing project here and there..
thanks geraldine LEE.. dunno y she will pop out of my worst times everything and just by talking make me feel not better but good... dunno y she timing always so correct one.. =).. my nose sux now canot take it... i go lie on my bed le... u all take care dun be like me...
Friday, July 04, 2008 @ 00:05 | back to the top.
Choke here..really emoing..
worry over someone..
thinking this and that really tt mind is there thinking..
however choke here can do nth...
dunno y.. tihnk is my fault.. no handsome enough..
no courage at all.... shy like a fucker..
stupid like a dunno watever...
that isn't the pro..
the pro is wat am i worrying about??
why??? why can i say he will take over everything and i here nagging about??
wat man.. choke r u a man??? tell me.. wtf have u been doing...
ppl treat u good.. u like dun wan to say... I MISS YOU very diffvult to say meh???
ppl hint like so FUCKing LOTS IS LOTS OF TIMES..and u urself knows...was like SHY???
DUN cock with me SHY??? DUN see U FIGHTING SCOLD SCOLD PPL SHY...
IS lIKE u think ppl onli got u a guy??? ppl got so many guys out there u think u who..rich guy??? handsome??? wat u have u tell me??? SAY!!!
i know u have nth but records records and records in police centre...
then u think ppl wan??? u vn say onli.. say liao i think u no friends at all la... SUCKER.. IDIOTS FUCK OFF
see that wat u have done to urself... ppl will do their part is their choices.. not ur..
u bloodly idiot... u just fucked off and pass ur own messy life la...
wat can u really gif ppl.... u urself dunno.... tt it.. no use one fucked off CHOKE.........
Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 17:22 | back to the top.
at home slept to abt 2. due to work..tired tired i am... tt all i say and very sorry sam..
sick la cannot go down.. sorry...
kind of miss my friends and BROS...
2 weeks of holidae is like no holidaes la.. haiz..
i really miss my bros.. 3 of them went to swish..
for dunno how long le..haiz
still dun wan to come back.. sianz..
thinking my life is really diff le.. work and study.
cause wat to do if u drop out the qns keep coming in to my mind..
tt y now at home i will take out my books and look when last time is a nv..
and i nv go out much le.. like i am in a cage like tt..
at home listen to songs study play psp...
but i keep having this mindset tt my life is still in a very very messy way..
maybe cause life did not go as plan or watever..
i now really got the mind set to deletle everything in my mind..
and stat a new life..
but i know tt will nv happen..
cause just like walk u will leave trace on the floor no matter wat u do to it it will stay..
just like the example..
on a whiteboard there is a black dot in the centre..
wat is on the board??
all of u all will say black board..
however have anyone think of it??
wat about the white space??
ya tt wat...like u got millions of good thinks and once there a thing u do wrong tt it.. ur life will live in tt black dot..
ar....... emooooooooooooooooooo
dunno la.. i really wan to tidy up myself and my life...
tt y my msn nick is i smile when i am at my very best...
cause now i not smiling at all.......=(
ok tt all tml ther is sch...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 @ 12:18 | back to the top.
alot things happen haha.. but the same thing i am too lazy to blog everything out..actually i wan to blog one very long one but time la.. can now cumber is trying to ask me out for lunch..lolz
haha.. work is tiring but FUN... ok la maybe later then i continue ok??
cumber wan me go lunch.. cya
Monday, June 02, 2008 @ 23:15 | back to the top.
haiz sian lei...buddy sam happen lots of things.. my side too..
my dad things la...wat to do... haiz he really dunno how to be a father or i say a "true" father. all he know is i talk back. i am bad i go home late.. i dun study and so on so on...nvm dun tok about my dad..
btw i think all of u know i quit national le rite??? is my own thinking ba even though my coach is not happy with it..but it my health tt matter it getting worst.
haha.. now having exam but i am studying at all... ahha
Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 17:19 | back to the top.
haiz...emo is flooding into my brain.......
just not feeling anything good...
all the bad feeling coming back...
emo is all i have now.. bye
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 @ 23:12 | back to the top.
hee got to post todae...wahaha..cause i went to sam shop with zombie and I PAY FOR MY SAMBAL RIED RICE...WAHAHAHA
lame izzit?? no if u r our buddies u will know.. he nv let us pay...
but todae i see sam tok and smile to his mum..which is the first time i see felt quite happy..=)
sam come on she is no extra we buddies can chat and laugh together which is fun tt dae tt dinner rite?? just put in more effort and DUN emo with her la...
lolz.. jyjy...
just now when to play bb... fall down..haha u all nv feel earthquake just now???
haha... but i and cumber play serious cause our friend kena look down..nvm dun tok abt tt..
kind of moody in sch.... lonely...
kind of miss alot of ppl...
james, yan, ger, sam,alot more la..haha cause i am so lonely...
mr lonely..
favourite song...haha meant for me..
take care all...
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 @ 15:50 | back to the top.
i look at my buddies blog i am the lastest post..wahaha..i am quite happy now.. not because of anyone but me.. myself..
my mum were kepping the things in her room cuase we just got a new cupboard..
then my mum come across pictures..haha..
then i look at mine very own.. when i was 1-4 after tt no photos le..
haha... very cute tt wat i see la... but now so ugly..lolz...
funnny one...haha... i just brighter up cause i see those pictures...haha..
u all can try it too.. quite nice...haha...