sad sad i damn sad over here..
my tears just drop down...
one of my bro's bro call me just now...
his fathers just died on mondae and todae is thurdaes.. to todae then i know...let me tell u his story...
we call him ah cheong.. tt is not his name u know why we call him tt.. casue he is poor...
he is older thanme 7 years old... i know him when i am 8... we have been through thick and thin with the 12 of us....
ah cheong father is a principal in a sch in malaysia..but he is a gambler,smoker,drinker and a drug addict...
cheong has always been look down but ppl around him even his sch where his father is a principal...
cause his father is always out and back he scold them the sisters and bros of 5....
he hate his father more than anothers...
ppl always say u are just like ur father u can't do anything well...
he is very poor... he live abt 500m away from my house in malaysia...
but every morning at 4 he will wake up and deliver newspaper and milk to all along this road which is around 20km... with his cycle sometime even run...
to him even a egg is pericous...
he dun have money to buy toys so we always wenting fishing running..things tt no need money at all and can get back something for his family to eat...
abt 6 years ago.. his father got a stroke....
was send to hospital....cheong went to hospital with me.. all his family members were sad..
however not cheong... he is so angry tt he scold his father right in his face... u useless shit...
he went back to work tt dae... i cannot see any sadness in him...
he quit his job as a principal cause he can do not but eat shit and slp...
he was back to his small house.. lying there.. the 5 bros and sis got to take turns to take care of this father.....
one day he got no money to buy drugs he took one of his sis money...
cheong mum got so angry tt tt dae she ask all to come back...
and they all agree to kick his dad out..
he live ouside a temple....
they will bring him food and cig everydae..
and every year during chinese new year... cheong will bring his dad back and wash him...
stay at home for 3 daes..and back he goes...
just 3 months ago.. his father is back to hospital cause his ack got a big hole..
cause drug takers got sentitive skin...
bugs attack him and one very big hole in his black...
doc say he lucky got take drugs tt he can withstand the pain....
cheong was so angry....
just on mon his dad passed..but on the second dae then they know...
they bring his back for funnerl...
all relative come...all weep..family weep..but not cheong....
till wed... his father was send to brunt.. he stand at the back..
looking at the coffin brunt..
then the doc call him and say tt his dad left notes for him...
it wrote in chinese" Son i know u hated me..i am sorry..but son.. i love u and always do"
his tears drop...
and when from JB need to take the urn back to ipoh..
when he carried the urn he need to keep calling his dad name and where he is so the soul follow..
when he was toking he weep like a baby....
cause of his dad..even thought he is rich now..
he dun smk,drink and gamble..not to say drugs....
his bro call me jsurt now tt cheong does not eat anything..haiz i worry over here...
u see parents love u.. just tt they dun say....
cause ppl that say those very bad things to u are those that really care abt u...
now u can go to ur loves one and hug them tightly cause u nv know when they will be gone tt u wan to say sorry also cannot.. just like cheong he wan to say sorry to his dad but can't...
haiz....
sianz i injured my foot again...
pain lo.. sianz..
let me see wat to blog....todae morning to afternoon i was slping in my bro rm
cause td nite got alot ppl request me to go pfm.. then i go at 2a.m..
sianz lo..
then just now go play bb lo...
ytd afternnon also go work..12 to 6..
boring lo.. then meet my bro play ghost squad at jp...
fridae nite went to eat at sakura..gathering.. haha quite fun la..
haha.. thanks all.. hee...
fridae morning study sianz.. afternoon go play pool with cy then go afternoon class...
then i forget thursdae dow at liao.. haha... i going to put cream on my leg le... haha..
tml still got 9a.m de class..haha
hahaha.. log long time nv update cause my com return to ppl le..
he going to aifforce sch so need his lap top.. hahah
todae i wake up late le so nv go sch...
actually is lazy la.. hahah..
i got 1 month off work ar 0 degree..hahaa.. finallly...
i will extend my off until after new year i tihnki am the fist to take break..haha
dunno wat to update also..
haha..
sat nite went to MOS..
but sianz la...
haha..
duno wat to write next time ba...
Wa Lao FirSt dae of the year i am so BORED....................
sianz ar sianz.....
boring wake up very early slp very late.. boring ma.. cause ytd nite nth to do
at 209 basketball court toking with yan bin, ming chong and chun yip abt the past.. haha.
funny enough cause we from 1 tok to 3.30 without knowing the time.. lolz..
before i james and chun yip walk around..haha...
before tt were rotting at home lo.. boring......

and the last entry also dunno y become one K.. sianz lo...
eh.. the last entry i also forget wat i write le....
anyway...

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL
MaY AlL UR WiShEs CoMe TrUe

okok.. sianz i go back rush my project le.. cause tonite working.. bye...
K
haiz sianz... just woke up....
but later going to work at marriot...maybe nite goign 0 bar work also... ahiz..
will be damn tired ba....
ytd slp at 4.30 casue doing my sch project...stress ar....
haiz....
ytd i cut ym hair also.. free one.. casue i hepl my bro alex make his com.. then he say wan help me cut hair..
abit stranger but nvm la...
since he like to cut hair....
ytd morning go gym with yan then eat lunch then went home le...
thuesday i think i was at home until nite go co...
i forget wat i wanted to say le...
tired life...byes...
haha so boring..haha...
todae can say boring or smehow quite fun de christmas.. cause mostly i will be working or at home..
but todae i went out..wahahah
morning co sianz jvss de teacher sux lo.. damn sux ok... idiot...
then mdn peng come like reporter like tt take pics...lame lo..
then sch all go off.. we cc practice...
eat lunch at 2.. then continue.. to abt 5.30 ba.. or somewhere there lo...
actually ig ot somethng to do one.... sianz lo.. onli practice the stupid er hu song.. ahiz..
then go out with james yan and chun yip..
go harbour eat...then go vivo walk actually also nth to walk..
we go to the toys"R"us walk.. i play with the hand elmo the whole time lolz.. fun lei..haha...
then they went to arcade to paly some stupid game
and can i say james cannot be a fly a plane?? ahha...
then plahy paly is already 10.30..
haha yan and james went home
but chunyip wan go orchard...
go lo... kena ppl all things.. scold ppl also..
sianz..
then meet nan..
packet mac go home.. lolz..
now i am at home rotting..haha...
haha

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAFR TO ALL


haha..

haiz my family is getting from bad to worst...
haiz.. i am known for being bad in my home but i am not bad to tt extand that i have to steal my dad money..
dunno how or wat he do he found out tt he lost 100 bucks...
and he came back scolding and shouting at me tt i take it..
fuck lo.. y i need ur 100 when i have over 2k as my pay??
fucking lo.. cause morning he call to scold me first i told him i nv take he keep scold..
make my mood damn fuck lo...
todae go old folk home.. no mood alos... fuck sianz..
then when home rot lo.. no mood.. fuck sianz.. no ppl.. mood sux...family sux...
haiz.. so from afternooon 5 i have been doing my math online to now.. fuck sianz..
haiz... ok ba..
say to here i feel bit better.. wish i got someone to hear me nag all this.. nvm ba.. ok le.. i got to go work le.. my friend is downstair le...
tml got to go sch too.. to sell uniform to sec one lo...nvm.. i go le.. bye..
haiz my family is getting from bad to worst...
haiz.. i am known for being bad in my home but i am not bad to tt extand that i have to steal my dad money..
dunno how or wat he do he found out tt he lost 100 bucks...
and he came back scolding and shouting at me tt i take it..
fuck lo.. y i need ur 100 when i have over 2k as my pay??
fucking lo.. cause morning he call to scold me first i told him i nv take he keep scold..
make my mood damn fuck lo...
todae go old folk home.. no mood alos... fuck sianz..
then when home rot lo.. no mood.. fuck sianz.. no ppl.. mood sux...family sux...
haiz.. so from afternooon 5 i have been doing my math online to now.. fuck sianz..
haiz... ok ba..
say to here i feel bit better.. wish i got someone to hear me nag all this.. nvm ba.. ok le.. i got to go work le.. my friend is downstair le...
tml got to go sch too.. to sell uniform to sec one lo...nvm.. i go le.. bye..
haha.. ia m here to blog.. lolz..
i actually got alot to say and i am thnking alot of things cause cucumber(chun yip) tell me abt my bad things...
interm i am thinking it over...somehow i really think is true...
i thought i can just go over by quiting but not..
cause tt is not the problem the problem lies in me
me my char...cause i am a anything person i go along anywhere not idea no thinking...
tt where ppl actually dun like rite...
but i feel really hard on others... sorry ppl...
and i wan to change everyone...
i wan to change for better..
so help me can?
when ever i say anything or dunno plas scold me or hit me a u like.. cause i wan to change better..
and i got any others problem tell me i wan to change really...
maybe just for 'you" or myself...
haiz... I DUN LIKE MYSELF...
and i wan to learn how to communcate with others..
i get scolded over this too...
cause i always haha or hee.. or lol and tt all..
i dunno how to make a consevation better..long and interest..
i onli got tt little trick up my selvee and tt all..
haiz.. i start really hating myself.. ARHHHHH...
Haiz damn sad over this......arhhhhhhhh.....
why u have trouble u nv told me???i will lend my ear and lend even gif u.. to scold tok shout or watever u wan to do to it...casue i dun wan u to suffer anything alone..shared with me pls...thanks...

haiz....

todae mroning..wanted to meet shuinan and chun yip to lunch then see doc cause i got sore eyes.. but int he end i nv meet shuinan cause one lazy go up, one lazy come down.. haiz...
then go seng siong with chun yip cause he buy the absolute vokda ras..for his friend...stupid tt drink sux...then i went over to my workplace de meeting just now..stupid lo so long haven meet finished..haiz.....i dun wan work todae even thought it's ladies nite....no mood there..haiz..
then went home go down basketball court cause see them there...tok cock then went home.. then start to eat my dinner which is mac again..haiz...i am really getting sianz over my life.. so amny trouble that i can't take care of lo...haiz..
then tml got to go old folk home for my IAC project lo...haiz.. i tihnk i go there will be comfort by there de grandpa and grandma then i toking to them....then got to go to my class de steamboat. then after tt i got work think i getting so pay yto buy chirstmas present ba...HAIz.. my life is so trouble without u to speak to..haiz... bye...
haha..todae i am damn happy even thought i am damn tired....
haha.. get to see ppl tt are close with me in my sec life..
cause of shihui and yan.. thanks alot....Hope all ur wishes come ture..
and i am damn happy over someone..haha..get to see and disturb her... haha.. fun fun fun..
got to think of my things liao cause dun feel like going with jeff out... sianz...
haha.. go slp ba.. nite all....
haha.. back from training..wahahha,,
damn tired..
but song.. cause nv work i can really slp..wahaha..
but tml class 10..sianz...
after one more week test liao...
sianz lo...
tml got math quiz..i dunno how to do lei... wtf...
going to failed again...
haiz...
sianz lei.. now i cannot slp dunno do wat..
lazy to do work also..
ahaha.. so lazy.. i go see comics..wahhahaha
bb
haha..sianz ar..
boring lo..
my mum and dad go malaysia..
my 2 bros are out..
here i am at this tim 1.51a.m rotting
damn tired but i just can't fall slp..
missing her here abuit there abit..lolz..


todae went to tamn teach co as usual... before tt actually wan to go sch see ji lao shi one..
but over slept cause i woke ytd from 2-6 then went home slp..
haha.. befroe working went to ger,kelyn,hweeqi,yi xeun.
they all de bbq.. even thought they have so trouble on the way.
but i james and yan tried hard to make them smile..haha..
so ladies dun be sad... smile more be happy ok.. eveything got solutions as long as u think abt it longer and understand it.. haha..

sianz lei..
i am so bored.. i go watch tv le.. bye...
the moffac de Miss u like crazy and i wan to drow old with u by westlife is nice..haha
firstly i am going to talk about YAWNS..
haha.. i found out something human are really amzaming..
i on thurdae nite to fridae whole day working and study..
i counted my yawns...
MORE THAN 300 tijmes... haha.. my mouth is so tired..haha..

haha...todae went co....got meeting....
BTW james the stage ia lso a part need anything me to do must tell me.. i will help u...
i dunno write wat.. haha..

ok i going to talk abt something i think onli james and some of my close friend and bros would understand.....
firsty, james th one u love is still by ur side.. i felt tt u r really better than me in all ways...
maybe sometime u would say u envious me but i really envious u not myself...
i felt i am the most useless man in this world.. all things i do will hurtz someone or anyother..
haiz.... and ur love is still a very gd friend to u.. even tohugh u nv tell her...but she still friend with u eating movie sending her..not me...she drift far far away from this island to anyone where she seem really happy...when i get to see her i really really feel very very happy....but there is this very strange feeling.. even we are standing next to each othere i felt tt not close at all.. talk like friend but..somehow.. i tihnk it my feeling ba..haiz....i really dunno wat to do....james can tell me?? lolz.. haha... c u tml ba.. bb..
sian i am damn tired....
i have been working for 3 nites and studying at the same time.. working at 0 degree bar..
cause got bar man pfm.. damn tired....
work at 9 end at 6... todae i ahven even slp.. in three dae i onli slp for abt 8 hrs or less ba.. cause ytd early end sch so got time to slp...
haiz..
haven do my project.. and i am so tired here..
i better go do ba.. later go problem with it....
bye...
take care...
long time nv come this little blog le....
dunno wat to write.. but to say i really wan to thanks james and yan..
without them my life is really sianz....
hah..
todae together go sim lim see things really fun... laugh and laugh...
haha....
i also injuried my left wirst while out settle something with ast..
ass lo.. suckers...
tt dae sorry nan yan and james i nv go meet u all.. sorry...
suddenly ot problem...
sorry...
sianz.. i dunno wat to write liao.. i onli know i tml got to study while others holidae..
haha.. o lvl finishing le.. how i wished i still at o lvl...
haha....
i go do my things le... got to open my desktop check something...
bye.. take care.. tt finished exam... good luck for ur result...and enjoy life.. ahha
hahaha... long time nv update cause my laptop spoil...
so ytd find one of my b ros take this com.. same model but alot slower.. sux lo...
haha.. but need for sch so no chioces..
haha....todae very sianz day go sch... haha...
i wake yan up early casue thought wan to get safty goggles..
but i find alex on my own to sch so take from him..haha...
ytd go cc de co...
not bad cause the who not there so we no need to practice the er hu songs..so happy..
haha...
then sat nite i went to sgh overnite.. for my bone and muscles check up every 2 months...
haha... muscles no problem cause i dun have any.. lolz.. but bone is worst on knee and ankle.. and wirst.. haha.. nvm...the nite was hard to pass over there..sat afternoon teach lakeside.. but my group onli 1 person come so nv teach also... haha.. play with them onli..haha..
james also sick on tt dae....
others dae i also forget do wat...
i very forgetful liao..
blur like wat...
haiz...

btw...
to those taking o lvl now very gd luck to u all... jia you... wished u all have good result..haha..
take care too.. dun get sick in exam weeks.. haaha
haha....nth to do.. here watching tv and using com at the same time...
haha... todae morning go cc lo.. ok la... nth much to do...
after noon rot.. then at nite play bb with chun yip, alex and xiao ping....
haha.. play at cc....bored lo.. no ppl.....haha....
ytd let see...
morning nth to do.....
afternoon go there teach lo.. damn stress.....
they nv will listen to me.. haiz....
after tt eat with james... then on the way went home... see cc got damn lot ppl playing bb.. so go cc...
then find my friend there....
haha.. 3 is boon lay csc one.. one is national youth one.. then ask me to play awhile....
haha...but tt idiot chunyip ar.. birthdae ask wan to ask me out ar.. but nv...
then i went home at 8+.. then rot at home.. when n o one is at home lo... boring...
fridae i forget do wat le.. haha.. tml got sch...
machine..haiz.. boring lo.. 2 hrs break dunno wat to do...
haha.. late le...
dunno y i look at com my head is so dizzy like com shaking non-stop...
haha..... somemore my dark circles getting worse le..haha...
todae sianz lo....
go jp alone walk.... from 2 to 7...
but 1 hrs at lan shop play dota....
dun feel like going home.. then no ppl free...
alone rot lo...
then nite go colour court play bb..
james say saw me..haha.. nv c him..
but then i strain my right nknee again.. lolz.. now very pain..
must put straight.. haha...

todae chun yip birthdae le.....
haha.. happy birthdae ar....
finally 18 le ar....
haha...
tkae care la...
dun play gals liao...
find one and settle down pls...
i know u handsome.. i ugly...
cause i go out with u all gals c u....
haha... enjoy ur dae......

haha.. dizzy ar.. i go watch tv.. long time nv watch le....
almost forget how does the tv looks like haha..
cause can't slp alsoo..haha...
haha.. feeling much better now...wahahha...
todae busy dae..lolz...
morning nv go sch cause.. lazy lolz..
i am getting from bad to worse...
haha... very bad hor ....
haha... then afternoon meet james and yan out for lunch...
but yan nv go sch also.. lolz..
we take 198 to queenway just to eat the laska... before tt also at queenway there find the chicken rice but nv open...
haha... then go punch james face at the arcade..haha..
then take bus 123 from queenway to orchard to take pay money...
haha...
after tt we take bus again..
bus 7 to tg katong...cause james wan to buy dizi all tt...
in the end i also buy rosin..
and see bass and bows...
not bad... wan to ask shuinana to buy.. cause even thought 120
but really good to hold....
i wished i can buy cello..
but dun think so... haiz...
haha.. then mrt home....
by the time i reached hm is already 7 ++
haha.. from 12 to 7++..
haha.....
tml sch to 11 onli.. sianz...haha.... boring....
bye...

sad sad i damn sad over here..
my tears just drop down...
one of my bro's bro call me just now...
his fathers just died on mondae and todae is thurdaes.. to todae then i know...let me tell u his story...
we call him ah cheong.. tt is not his name u know why we call him tt.. casue he is poor...
he is older thanme 7 years old... i know him when i am 8... we have been through thick and thin with the 12 of us....
ah cheong father is a principal in a sch in malaysia..but he is a gambler,smoker,drinker and a drug addict...
cheong has always been look down but ppl around him even his sch where his father is a principal...
cause his father is always out and back he scold them the sisters and bros of 5....
he hate his father more than anothers...
ppl always say u are just like ur father u can't do anything well...
he is very poor... he live abt 500m away from my house in malaysia...
but every morning at 4 he will wake up and deliver newspaper and milk to all along this road which is around 20km... with his cycle sometime even run...
to him even a egg is pericous...
he dun have money to buy toys so we always wenting fishing running..things tt no need money at all and can get back something for his family to eat...
abt 6 years ago.. his father got a stroke....
was send to hospital....cheong went to hospital with me.. all his family members were sad..
however not cheong... he is so angry tt he scold his father right in his face... u useless shit...
he went back to work tt dae... i cannot see any sadness in him...
he quit his job as a principal cause he can do not but eat shit and slp...
he was back to his small house.. lying there.. the 5 bros and sis got to take turns to take care of this father.....
one day he got no money to buy drugs he took one of his sis money...
cheong mum got so angry tt tt dae she ask all to come back...
and they all agree to kick his dad out..
he live ouside a temple....
they will bring him food and cig everydae..
and every year during chinese new year... cheong will bring his dad back and wash him...
stay at home for 3 daes..and back he goes...
just 3 months ago.. his father is back to hospital cause his ack got a big hole..
cause drug takers got sentitive skin...
bugs attack him and one very big hole in his black...
doc say he lucky got take drugs tt he can withstand the pain....
cheong was so angry....
just on mon his dad passed..but on the second dae then they know...
they bring his back for funnerl...
all relative come...all weep..family weep..but not cheong....
till wed... his father was send to brunt.. he stand at the back..
looking at the coffin brunt..
then the doc call him and say tt his dad left notes for him...
it wrote in chinese" Son i know u hated me..i am sorry..but son.. i love u and always do"
his tears drop...
and when from JB need to take the urn back to ipoh..
when he carried the urn he need to keep calling his dad name and where he is so the soul follow..
when he was toking he weep like a baby....
cause of his dad..even thought he is rich now..
he dun smk,drink and gamble..not to say drugs....
his bro call me jsurt now tt cheong does not eat anything..haiz i worry over here...
u see parents love u.. just tt they dun say....
cause ppl that say those very bad things to u are those that really care abt u...
now u can go to ur loves one and hug them tightly cause u nv know when they will be gone tt u wan to say sorry also cannot.. just like cheong he wan to say sorry to his dad but can't...
haiz....
sianz i injured my foot again...
pain lo.. sianz..
let me see wat to blog....todae morning to afternoon i was slping in my bro rm
cause td nite got alot ppl request me to go pfm.. then i go at 2a.m..
sianz lo..
then just now go play bb lo...
ytd afternnon also go work..12 to 6..
boring lo.. then meet my bro play ghost squad at jp...
fridae nite went to eat at sakura..gathering.. haha quite fun la..
haha.. thanks all.. hee...
fridae morning study sianz.. afternoon go play pool with cy then go afternoon class...
then i forget thursdae dow at liao.. haha... i going to put cream on my leg le... haha..
tml still got 9a.m de class..haha
hahaha.. log long time nv update cause my com return to ppl le..
he going to aifforce sch so need his lap top.. hahah
todae i wake up late le so nv go sch...
actually is lazy la.. hahah..
i got 1 month off work ar 0 degree..hahaa.. finallly...
i will extend my off until after new year i tihnki am the fist to take break..haha
dunno wat to update also..
haha..
sat nite went to MOS..
but sianz la...
haha..
duno wat to write next time ba...
Wa Lao FirSt dae of the year i am so BORED....................
sianz ar sianz.....
boring wake up very early slp very late.. boring ma.. cause ytd nite nth to do
at 209 basketball court toking with yan bin, ming chong and chun yip abt the past.. haha.
funny enough cause we from 1 tok to 3.30 without knowing the time.. lolz..
before i james and chun yip walk around..haha...
before tt were rotting at home lo.. boring......

and the last entry also dunno y become one K.. sianz lo...
eh.. the last entry i also forget wat i write le....
anyway...

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL
MaY AlL UR WiShEs CoMe TrUe

okok.. sianz i go back rush my project le.. cause tonite working.. bye...
K
haiz sianz... just woke up....
but later going to work at marriot...maybe nite goign 0 bar work also... ahiz..
will be damn tired ba....
ytd slp at 4.30 casue doing my sch project...stress ar....
haiz....
ytd i cut ym hair also.. free one.. casue i hepl my bro alex make his com.. then he say wan help me cut hair..
abit stranger but nvm la...
since he like to cut hair....
ytd morning go gym with yan then eat lunch then went home le...
thuesday i think i was at home until nite go co...
i forget wat i wanted to say le...
tired life...byes...
haha so boring..haha...
todae can say boring or smehow quite fun de christmas.. cause mostly i will be working or at home..
but todae i went out..wahahah
morning co sianz jvss de teacher sux lo.. damn sux ok... idiot...
then mdn peng come like reporter like tt take pics...lame lo..
then sch all go off.. we cc practice...
eat lunch at 2.. then continue.. to abt 5.30 ba.. or somewhere there lo...
actually ig ot somethng to do one.... sianz lo.. onli practice the stupid er hu song.. ahiz..
then go out with james yan and chun yip..
go harbour eat...then go vivo walk actually also nth to walk..
we go to the toys"R"us walk.. i play with the hand elmo the whole time lolz.. fun lei..haha...
then they went to arcade to paly some stupid game
and can i say james cannot be a fly a plane?? ahha...
then plahy paly is already 10.30..
haha yan and james went home
but chunyip wan go orchard...
go lo... kena ppl all things.. scold ppl also..
sianz..
then meet nan..
packet mac go home.. lolz..
now i am at home rotting..haha...
haha

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAFR TO ALL


haha..

haiz my family is getting from bad to worst...
haiz.. i am known for being bad in my home but i am not bad to tt extand that i have to steal my dad money..
dunno how or wat he do he found out tt he lost 100 bucks...
and he came back scolding and shouting at me tt i take it..
fuck lo.. y i need ur 100 when i have over 2k as my pay??
fucking lo.. cause morning he call to scold me first i told him i nv take he keep scold..
make my mood damn fuck lo...
todae go old folk home.. no mood alos... fuck sianz..
then when home rot lo.. no mood.. fuck sianz.. no ppl.. mood sux...family sux...
haiz.. so from afternooon 5 i have been doing my math online to now.. fuck sianz..
haiz... ok ba..
say to here i feel bit better.. wish i got someone to hear me nag all this.. nvm ba.. ok le.. i got to go work le.. my friend is downstair le...
tml got to go sch too.. to sell uniform to sec one lo...nvm.. i go le.. bye..
haiz my family is getting from bad to worst...
haiz.. i am known for being bad in my home but i am not bad to tt extand that i have to steal my dad money..
dunno how or wat he do he found out tt he lost 100 bucks...
and he came back scolding and shouting at me tt i take it..
fuck lo.. y i need ur 100 when i have over 2k as my pay??
fucking lo.. cause morning he call to scold me first i told him i nv take he keep scold..
make my mood damn fuck lo...
todae go old folk home.. no mood alos... fuck sianz..
then when home rot lo.. no mood.. fuck sianz.. no ppl.. mood sux...family sux...
haiz.. so from afternooon 5 i have been doing my math online to now.. fuck sianz..
haiz... ok ba..
say to here i feel bit better.. wish i got someone to hear me nag all this.. nvm ba.. ok le.. i got to go work le.. my friend is downstair le...
tml got to go sch too.. to sell uniform to sec one lo...nvm.. i go le.. bye..
haha.. ia m here to blog.. lolz..
i actually got alot to say and i am thnking alot of things cause cucumber(chun yip) tell me abt my bad things...
interm i am thinking it over...somehow i really think is true...
i thought i can just go over by quiting but not..
cause tt is not the problem the problem lies in me
me my char...cause i am a anything person i go along anywhere not idea no thinking...
tt where ppl actually dun like rite...
but i feel really hard on others... sorry ppl...
and i wan to change everyone...
i wan to change for better..
so help me can?
when ever i say anything or dunno plas scold me or hit me a u like.. cause i wan to change better..
and i got any others problem tell me i wan to change really...
maybe just for 'you" or myself...
haiz... I DUN LIKE MYSELF...
and i wan to learn how to communcate with others..
i get scolded over this too...
cause i always haha or hee.. or lol and tt all..
i dunno how to make a consevation better..long and interest..
i onli got tt little trick up my selvee and tt all..
haiz.. i start really hating myself.. ARHHHHH...
Haiz damn sad over this......arhhhhhhhh.....
why u have trouble u nv told me???i will lend my ear and lend even gif u.. to scold tok shout or watever u wan to do to it...casue i dun wan u to suffer anything alone..shared with me pls...thanks...

haiz....

todae mroning..wanted to meet shuinan and chun yip to lunch then see doc cause i got sore eyes.. but int he end i nv meet shuinan cause one lazy go up, one lazy come down.. haiz...
then go seng siong with chun yip cause he buy the absolute vokda ras..for his friend...stupid tt drink sux...then i went over to my workplace de meeting just now..stupid lo so long haven meet finished..haiz.....i dun wan work todae even thought it's ladies nite....no mood there..haiz..
then went home go down basketball court cause see them there...tok cock then went home.. then start to eat my dinner which is mac again..haiz...i am really getting sianz over my life.. so amny trouble that i can't take care of lo...haiz..
then tml got to go old folk home for my IAC project lo...haiz.. i tihnk i go there will be comfort by there de grandpa and grandma then i toking to them....then got to go to my class de steamboat. then after tt i got work think i getting so pay yto buy chirstmas present ba...HAIz.. my life is so trouble without u to speak to..haiz... bye...
haha..todae i am damn happy even thought i am damn tired....
haha.. get to see ppl tt are close with me in my sec life..
cause of shihui and yan.. thanks alot....Hope all ur wishes come ture..
and i am damn happy over someone..haha..get to see and disturb her... haha.. fun fun fun..
got to think of my things liao cause dun feel like going with jeff out... sianz...
haha.. go slp ba.. nite all....
haha.. back from training..wahahha,,
damn tired..
but song.. cause nv work i can really slp..wahaha..
but tml class 10..sianz...
after one more week test liao...
sianz lo...
tml got math quiz..i dunno how to do lei... wtf...
going to failed again...
haiz...
sianz lei.. now i cannot slp dunno do wat..
lazy to do work also..
ahaha.. so lazy.. i go see comics..wahhahaha
bb
haha..sianz ar..
boring lo..
my mum and dad go malaysia..
my 2 bros are out..
here i am at this tim 1.51a.m rotting
damn tired but i just can't fall slp..
missing her here abuit there abit..lolz..


todae went to tamn teach co as usual... before tt actually wan to go sch see ji lao shi one..
but over slept cause i woke ytd from 2-6 then went home slp..
haha.. befroe working went to ger,kelyn,hweeqi,yi xeun.
they all de bbq.. even thought they have so trouble on the way.
but i james and yan tried hard to make them smile..haha..
so ladies dun be sad... smile more be happy ok.. eveything got solutions as long as u think abt it longer and understand it.. haha..

sianz lei..
i am so bored.. i go watch tv le.. bye...
the moffac de Miss u like crazy and i wan to drow old with u by westlife is nice..haha
firstly i am going to talk about YAWNS..
haha.. i found out something human are really amzaming..
i on thurdae nite to fridae whole day working and study..
i counted my yawns...
MORE THAN 300 tijmes... haha.. my mouth is so tired..haha..

haha...todae went co....got meeting....
BTW james the stage ia lso a part need anything me to do must tell me.. i will help u...
i dunno write wat.. haha..

ok i going to talk abt something i think onli james and some of my close friend and bros would understand.....
firsty, james th one u love is still by ur side.. i felt tt u r really better than me in all ways...
maybe sometime u would say u envious me but i really envious u not myself...
i felt i am the most useless man in this world.. all things i do will hurtz someone or anyother..
haiz.... and ur love is still a very gd friend to u.. even tohugh u nv tell her...but she still friend with u eating movie sending her..not me...she drift far far away from this island to anyone where she seem really happy...when i get to see her i really really feel very very happy....but there is this very strange feeling.. even we are standing next to each othere i felt tt not close at all.. talk like friend but..somehow.. i tihnk it my feeling ba..haiz....i really dunno wat to do....james can tell me?? lolz.. haha... c u tml ba.. bb..
sian i am damn tired....
i have been working for 3 nites and studying at the same time.. working at 0 degree bar..
cause got bar man pfm.. damn tired....
work at 9 end at 6... todae i ahven even slp.. in three dae i onli slp for abt 8 hrs or less ba.. cause ytd early end sch so got time to slp...
haiz..
haven do my project.. and i am so tired here..
i better go do ba.. later go problem with it....
bye...
take care...
long time nv come this little blog le....
dunno wat to write.. but to say i really wan to thanks james and yan..
without them my life is really sianz....
hah..
todae together go sim lim see things really fun... laugh and laugh...
haha....
i also injuried my left wirst while out settle something with ast..
ass lo.. suckers...
tt dae sorry nan yan and james i nv go meet u all.. sorry...
suddenly ot problem...
sorry...
sianz.. i dunno wat to write liao.. i onli know i tml got to study while others holidae..
haha.. o lvl finishing le.. how i wished i still at o lvl...
haha....
i go do my things le... got to open my desktop check something...
bye.. take care.. tt finished exam... good luck for ur result...and enjoy life.. ahha
hahaha... long time nv update cause my laptop spoil...
so ytd find one of my b ros take this com.. same model but alot slower.. sux lo...
haha.. but need for sch so no chioces..
haha....todae very sianz day go sch... haha...
i wake yan up early casue thought wan to get safty goggles..
but i find alex on my own to sch so take from him..haha...
ytd go cc de co...
not bad cause the who not there so we no need to practice the er hu songs..so happy..
haha...
then sat nite i went to sgh overnite.. for my bone and muscles check up every 2 months...
haha... muscles no problem cause i dun have any.. lolz.. but bone is worst on knee and ankle.. and wirst.. haha.. nvm...the nite was hard to pass over there..sat afternoon teach lakeside.. but my group onli 1 person come so nv teach also... haha.. play with them onli..haha..
james also sick on tt dae....
others dae i also forget do wat...
i very forgetful liao..
blur like wat...
haiz...

btw...
to those taking o lvl now very gd luck to u all... jia you... wished u all have good result..haha..
take care too.. dun get sick in exam weeks.. haaha
haha....nth to do.. here watching tv and using com at the same time...
haha... todae morning go cc lo.. ok la... nth much to do...
after noon rot.. then at nite play bb with chun yip, alex and xiao ping....
haha.. play at cc....bored lo.. no ppl.....haha....
ytd let see...
morning nth to do.....
afternoon go there teach lo.. damn stress.....
they nv will listen to me.. haiz....
after tt eat with james... then on the way went home... see cc got damn lot ppl playing bb.. so go cc...
then find my friend there....
haha.. 3 is boon lay csc one.. one is national youth one.. then ask me to play awhile....
haha...but tt idiot chunyip ar.. birthdae ask wan to ask me out ar.. but nv...
then i went home at 8+.. then rot at home.. when n o one is at home lo... boring...
fridae i forget do wat le.. haha.. tml got sch...
machine..haiz.. boring lo.. 2 hrs break dunno wat to do...
haha.. late le...
dunno y i look at com my head is so dizzy like com shaking non-stop...
haha..... somemore my dark circles getting worse le..haha...
todae sianz lo....
go jp alone walk.... from 2 to 7...
but 1 hrs at lan shop play dota....
dun feel like going home.. then no ppl free...
alone rot lo...
then nite go colour court play bb..
james say saw me..haha.. nv c him..
but then i strain my right nknee again.. lolz.. now very pain..
must put straight.. haha...

todae chun yip birthdae le.....
haha.. happy birthdae ar....
finally 18 le ar....
haha...
tkae care la...
dun play gals liao...
find one and settle down pls...
i know u handsome.. i ugly...
cause i go out with u all gals c u....
haha... enjoy ur dae......

haha.. dizzy ar.. i go watch tv.. long time nv watch le....
almost forget how does the tv looks like haha..
cause can't slp alsoo..haha...
haha.. feeling much better now...wahahha...
todae busy dae..lolz...
morning nv go sch cause.. lazy lolz..
i am getting from bad to worse...
haha... very bad hor ....
haha... then afternoon meet james and yan out for lunch...
but yan nv go sch also.. lolz..
we take 198 to queenway just to eat the laska... before tt also at queenway there find the chicken rice but nv open...
haha... then go punch james face at the arcade..haha..
then take bus 123 from queenway to orchard to take pay money...
haha...
after tt we take bus again..
bus 7 to tg katong...cause james wan to buy dizi all tt...
in the end i also buy rosin..
and see bass and bows...
not bad... wan to ask shuinana to buy.. cause even thought 120
but really good to hold....
i wished i can buy cello..
but dun think so... haiz...
haha.. then mrt home....
by the time i reached hm is already 7 ++
haha.. from 12 to 7++..
haha.....
tml sch to 11 onli.. sianz...haha.... boring....
bye...

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