sorry lao da..
just now saw u but cannot call u..
sorry.. i am with my grandma... sorry..


haiz... i am so loney..
no place to go
no ppl to accompany me
nth to do..
all day at home
haiz..
smal bro go OBS camp
and tt camp i am not in as leader
then just drive big bro back to his camp..
nth to do..
haiz.. sianz
rotting..
todae sat..
pfm dae..
xiao brng and ah ki
ok le... happy for they...
hope todae pfm
i wouldn't blur off...hee...
ok le i go practice le..bb
todaewent to cut my hair
maybe to change my feeling ba
so cut lo.
feeling better abit
todae went for syco
but shuinan changed alot
he now think he damn big lo
haiz.. dunno how la... he think got money big deal..
dunno wat to say alot.. things all happen so fast
before u can think and react and it is past
so now..
i think i will not plan forward anmore
i will take one step think one step..
haiz...
tml exam gagin.. bye..
haiz...
really no mood
later exam somemore..
nv study..
no mood to go for exam
but must go..
haiz..
can really get into slp this daes
trying to get other it
but however...
it seem to tie there..
cause they have been very nice to me..
we once were not good at all..
when i first get into the gang
he was at a higher ranked then me..
but less then a month i rished to a high ranked..
he complain.. and fight with me..
then we fight and fight for years
and to last years....
he told me he got cancer..
he told me not to fight anymore..
i agree with him and i quit the rank
of fighter..and changed to admin..
he will call us out even thought he know he cannot stay out long..
he will call us go hospital to play
have fun.. really fun..
but now.. he is gone..
i will refill ur wish
which is to stop fighting in gang
i maight as well quit it soon
but i scared they wouldn't let me go so easily
cause i am at the 3rd higher now...
haiz...
i will try to get out....
cause i can't help you to take O lvl
haiz....

By the way ppl whu see this post..
dun tell pppl tt i am in gang
cause i have been putting this as my secert
with sch frenz..
sorry.. and thanks..


Bye.. going to sch for exam..
haiz..
many daes nv come update le..
very unlucky this wk..
one frenz die
one frenz fall from bike and is in hospital
haiz...
why like tt
haiz...
u all must be careful and take care of urself
i cannot take it anymore...
i am going to die too....
u know it hurts so much in me
to see u all injuried...
haiz...




ok la... tt dae sat
celebrate james birthdae
then go arena with co de ppl
fun la..
but i now no mood to write..
sorry...
haiz..
now in sch
no mood
haiz...
now eltech
so damn sianz..
todae my bro mgo army le..
no chance to send him cause got sch..
i not feeling well at all now..
leg damn pain..
ytd training fall down lots of time
leg cramp no mood play
then kena hit by ppl..
pain lo.. haiz... next wk exma le and pofm... not feeling well
haiz... noone to tok to..haiz..
bye..
haiz..
todae i am sad
but not onli me..
my friend too..
xiao beng..
dun sad.. i know ur bro
beng beng is dead..
he got cancer
but he have passed away todae
u got to go on with life
pls bro..
i know is hard but got me..
afred xiao xiong they all..
we have lots time with u..
take care pls..
we bros are worried for u
really
sorry bro
i can't do anytihng
i'm really sorry...

todae i got ur phone call i am so shocked
i just visited him last wk
and he seem fine
how come todae?
haiz.. bro.. ned any help call me ok...
haiz..sorry
sorry

and
beng beng
take care on ur way down u onli 15
dun bully ppl liao
next life be a good person
dun be another beng liao
u take care on ur road..
sorry i can't help u
but u have made our life very happy though u have cancer
i am very grateful
i will help u take care of ur bro..and ur mum
ok... bye
nv to be seem again..
take care..=(
BYE!
haiz.. is morning liao
sianz..
my bro slping so good
u all holidae liao
me going to sch.. but going to be late
cause my class is at 10..
wahaaha
got test later
wahaha
but nv study one...
fridae nite went to drink with my working frenz cause is my bro last dae of work
before he went for NS..wahaha..
I AM FREE..
ok la.. same after all...
then went home at 3.. haha..
then sat nite went to ALEX birthdae bbq
actually not bbq la
is drinking session
got a little bbq onli
i go drink with him..
we have 7 bottles of chivas
2 box of chang beer and 1 box of ABC
and one big bomb of martell
u noe..the big bomb was finished by me and alex
i nv eat much but drink to full
alex was drunk tt nite
haha.. so funny
ut i can,t seem to get drunk by hard liqour
sianz.. cause i find beer not good to drink le...
haha.. ok la... i going to sch le... or really very late liao.. bb
haiz sianz lei...
so early in class
i so more very blur...
cause last 2 wks i slping.. so i nv do..now so blur
haiz... todae to 3...
so tired..
i slp on bus just now..
somemore injuried finger
coach ask me to chack X-rays cause feel likke a bone went off palce
but i feel noth lei
not pain.. haiz..
wait ba until my pfm and exam finished.. haha
i go do work le... bye..
haiz
so sianz
todae so free cause calss to 12 onli..
but still so sianz.. haiz so many days nv updayte le
but i still dunno wat to updatte also..
everydae just sch sch and sch...
now is my test daes..
so sianz.. haiz...
tired me..
got flu liao..haiz .sianz...
haiz..
i felt so useless..
i LOST MY KEYS AGAIN
and just for a walk down stair..haiz..
idiot me..haiz..
very tired todae.. go lakeside again
but not spending my time teaching
is helping the pipa to tune..
tired u know cause no ppl teaching them
ger is sick hwee qi not free then i dunno got whu le
but james got go
he went off early cause he have something after tt..
haiz.. i am so tired...
ytd at sch to 8++
cause the bloody coach ask me to help him test the year1
new bb player
then got one person play so rough then he wan to fight with me..
haiz.. lame hor
but coach come out scold him
cause i am not in wrong
so he is out
i am not playing for this year one
cause very tired with sch
i tihnk i next year then join
but coach really wan me to be in
he say no good ppl will call me in
see how ba.. better not...
haiz.. tired le.. i go bath le..bye...
now is ELTECH class
is u all so call de physics
hauz...
all about circuit one
so damn sianz...
all math...
so many ppl play game
haiz...
i dun feel like playing with them..
sianz..
shuinan change alot le..
i felt wierd
haiz..nvm
tired life...
got lots of project.. haiz.. i go study le...
haiz
busy life of mine
ppl all exam finished
playing le going out
me at home do project
damn tired lo
todae wake up so early tml also
everytime slp at bus
haiz
i really need so entertaiinment
or i will go crazy really really SOON
haiz...HELP ME
i dun think there is anyone whu can help me..
lolz
me going slp soon
tml got to wake up at 6 again
bye..
haiz... just back from training
knee and ankle damn pain
play againt tong whye todae
fun lei
i almost fight wit h one person
cause he is so rough elbow me
then i rough back
he make until his ankle
then he wan to fight
but i nv
i so happy
haha
i am tired man
really tired
busy with sch and there is this bitch tt dun listen
thinks she is so big with her OWN com and hp
haiz i dun wan to care abt her....
i got a new hp
VS6
ok la
quite nice
haha...
tml i am free
can slp late
so good....hee...
u all take care...
haiz now in my math class
wth
damn sianz lo
teacher sit there i sit here
he also nv tok
onli online math ques
and i dunno how to do
wth
ll wrong
need to redo
haiz
sianz lei
i to 5
later another 3 hr math again
haiz
..............
"TIME"
this is a very strange thing
time can do lots of things...
and really i belive time can make ppl change
for me
i nv know i will be so good even to go training when i am sick
even my coach scold me
but i still play
now i am so pale
time make me wan to study le
i now dun wan to jump classes le
i wan to study
eventhough my class is not tt gd..
haiz
now i am so busy
with sch
haiz
lots of projects coming out
haiz.. i better go rest le
or tml i cannot wake up...
feeling much much much better now
haha...
ytd go see doc
doc still ask me wan to go hospital anot
haha
i dun wan
cause he measure is 39.9
then i go back home rest lo
todae much better
now onli 38.3
HAHA
better le
just now go queenway with mum to buy my shoe
buy le my bb shoe and sch shoe
and knee quard strap and ankle wrap for my bb training tml
haha..
tml i will go sch le
hee...
got 2 dae mc le
haha....
i go rest so more le..bye...
haiz...
i sick le again?
high fever this time
now is 39.6
haha
0.4 more i will go hospital liao.. lolz
haiz.. this few dae feeling not well at all
but i stil go out...
from thurdae i feel not well after my bb trainning
then fridae go sch...
then go cmpb
then sat go lakeside pri sch help the co
tgot one gal like cello very much..
haha...
then sundae go to see my coach match
at kallang..
so far..
but they won..
new match
then reach home abt 12
then mondae fever got worst
but i still accompany my friend go jp to buy things
then reach home at 7
then todae
wake up
damn unwell
fever to 39.6
haiz...
haiz..
just back home
after training
cramp lei
sianz
now walk walk abit also cramp...
haiz.. useless me....
haiz...
sch is so sianz..haiz..
todae take the army letter to cmpb
at redhill
but damn fuck lo..
i reach there 5 sharp
and the bloody guard tell me
we close at 5 sharp
fuck lo.....
haiz...tired and tired..
my basketball shoe spolit liao..
no money buy..haiz..
sianz....
sianz.. now in class...
this class actually to 11 de..
but we all finished early
now can go le
but staying here to blog lo..
later de class is at 12.. so sianz..
still very long dunno go where lei...
haiz..
now my whoel body very de tired lei
cause ytd have bb trainning...
somemore play until my shoe spolit..
haiz..
todae wake up still cramp..
haiz.. later then continue ba...
haiz sch
u think poly life gd meh?
i think sec better
haiz
i long time study
no frenz
sianz
no time yo play
so busy
haiz
sick again
todae nv go scg
cause sick
haiz
wth
first wk opnli
haiz..
my finger haven recover
it is so pain when u move it
haiz..
but i dun wan banaged le
very ugly lei..=X
haiz
somemore tml is trainning
haha
nvm still go ba..
hopefully finger dun broke can le..
wahaha.. tml is morning de 8 o'clock
going to slp le
or tml i will not wake up for sch..
bye...
haiz..
haven eat dinner
haven bath
wat also haven do..
but my finger is very pain
got water bubble
cause i burnt my finger during work
then got this ubble on my finger
pain lei...
to go co..
ok la... very tired..
sianz lo
tml is my first day of sch le..
sianz i dunno is go for all the class or lecture...
haiz.. my class dun wan to tok
sux lo...
haiz... how i wished all the people i know is in my blk..
like secindary sch.. haiz
nvm.. tahan one year
next wk wait for shuiinan and acc to come
then i got someone to disturb le..wahaha..
ok la.. i go bath le...
then eat dinner
then slp
tml class start at 8A.m got to go out by 6.30..so early..
bye
back from work..
haiz actually work to 4 de..
but no enough ppl so work to 11
haha..
but until 9 i go down paly com..haha
too free le..
haha...
work and work
so tired.. tml go co..haha
fun.. sch is too boring for me..haiz.
how to spend my 3 yrs..haiz..
nvm.. i go play game le..
bye
todae haiz
another tired dae
haiz..
wake up at 7..
cause need to reach sch at 9
50 mins de bus then
20 mins from the gate to my blk
DAMN FAR
all this alone
sianz
then stupid ice breaker
briefing
the most stupid is the sch tour
still got games
along the way
so sianz
got one game is shoot bb
then my class can't even get in one ball in 2 mins
then onli got 3 mins
then i shoot lo
save them...
haiz simply sianz
the tour takes 4 hrs...
walk until leg tired
then they say is to 5 o'clock finished
but they pull to 7.. wth
tml will be even eariler
is 8.30 but i meeting yan
so even eariler...
wa...will die
like secondary sch
no ar
worst then tt
haiz..
then i see my timetable
mon wed all the way from 8 to 4
tues fri to 2
thur to 12
haiz..sianz liao....i am tired bye....
cause somemore after todae sch i still go
boon aly csc trainnig
now is nth but pain and tired...
wa.. todae very suay ar
damn it... damn suay
go out
forget bring money
fall down
raining
bow broke when practiceing cello in syco
dunno how to play
come home kena said
ez-link no money
wallet no money
wa..todae i really a very suay day lo
dunno why lei..haiz

tml i got to go sch le..
dunno wat briefing which is so long
from 9-5
damn long
haiz....
new sch...no friend
one person take bus then bus is so long
45 mins.. haiz..
think tml i go there rot
halfway will be gone
then tml nite still got boon lay csc bb training
then just now fall down my waist got black blue...
pain lei..haiz
i go pack my things then
try to slp early ba.. for tml sch...
bye
haiz so late le...
i jsut finished my dinner
which is a slice of cake
haha....
todae nth much
went sch with yan to taek o lvl cer lo
then saw mt teachers
all ask me to work hard
hope so ba
haha
todae when to taek my pay so little onli 46
haiz
work until so tired onli get half dae pay
haiz
then go co too early so go eat lo
then after co go home
rot
watch tv
nth le lo..



i heard tt she have found the him
hee
happy for her
not jealous cause
she will got someone to take care of her le
very de good
hope they will be happy and to him
DUN U DARE TO MIS TREAT HER
OR U KNOW WAT WIL HAPPEN TO U
CAUSE U DUNNO MY BSCKGROUND
BE CAREFUL HOR..
i will not let anyone bully her
anyway hope both of u will be happy and sweet




haha.. like tt 264 daes le
say long not long
say short not short
haha
nvm...i will continue on
and on and on...............................................
haiz.. tired
but dun feel like slping
ytd work to 4
so tired from 3 to 4
is not 1 hr
but 13 hrs
tired..
ppl drink like crazy
they clear our 240 l of beer in just 4 hrs
crazy man....
todae go co..
wan to pluck string use wrong finger
my middle finger is so pain...
nvm.... then play bb awhile to 2
then go home rot
now use com
going to slp soon
bro wan to use com
bye
haha... tt is is injuried finger
haha lame ba..
fucking lame lo
todae wake up phone spolit again
off le cannot on.. fuk lo
cannot tahan liao la... dulan
feel like dun wan use hp liao ar
fuk lo
now typing also so diff
sianz lo
du lan........
haiz......
later still need to go work... with my injuried finger.....haiz....
quite happy todae
cause i got back my phone
with everything still inside
if not i tihnk i wil cry
haha
happy lo things inside
hee..
i injuried my fingers and wrist again
damn it..haiz...old injuries...
like old man everything got injuries..
wahohoho..haha
old man le..todae nite at cc play bb with all those coaches
damn pro
elbow me also
haha
body and hands got black blue..haha
let see tml do wat..
iS good fridae ok..
haha
good rite those no need to go sch
haha
tml morning i got trainning again
haha
i got damn lots trainning
taman jurong csc
boon lay csc
both as player
grizzy
team with jeffery
to coach as well as play
so busy rite
haha
ok la
learning to cope with new surrounding
learning how to left go of things
to see this world in a nice way
haha..
i go see anime le
bb..take care all ok??..haha
todae is geraldine birthdae
wish her tt all her wishes come true
happy birthdae!!!!


me so sianz.. everydae go play bb
haiz
cause i dun wan to be in this home with "him"
then everydae i eat dinner at 1a.m
slp at 6a.m wake up at 10
everydae is just like tt
then go out in the afternoon
my home is just a place where i slp and eat dinner
use com
no more
no more family
life is so sianz
haiz
haiz
very bad news here
my father break ties with me
dunno wat happen
maybe i have nv been listening to him
now is like i have no father at home but someone else
this aopplied to him to less one child one idiot
nvm ba
then i no need to call him anymore
my middle fingers swollen le
big
haha
bb cause one lo
nvm
my mood is down
wake up le
from 10 to now
just wake up
but damn happy
hee..cause i got to see her
and hear her
hee....there was sianz but hear her voice make me so happy
hee...there majong all nite
lose money liao siao
lolz
nvm la
as long as i get to see her can le
hee..
now still bad term with family
dunno how la
they want to get me out of the house liao ba
haha
nvm i also dun like them
find other place lo.....hee..
happy happy to see her...bye
haiz
late in the nite
angry with my father
bro
mum
all family
haiz
i cfm tml not coming home...
maybe not back here anymore
this is not my home
wth i go trainning also cannot
kena lock outside
wth
fuck off lo
haiz
angry lo
why can't i
then u all can go out whole dae
me out for 4 hrs then got to be lock outside?
haiz..
i really cannot understand them anymore
haiz
my foot now likt tt wth..haiz.
nvm tml is a happy dae
cause i get to see her
it is just like a dream to me..
haha..thinking of her..
few daes nv log in le
phone spolit
fuck lo.. i love this phone
casue tt alot of things inseide tt is important to me
i think i will go repair it
no matter price..
but now no phone use...
sianz lo...
haiz..
dunno wat to write
next time then write ba..
byeZ
relived
cause know her hand not tt serious
cause she still can plsy..=X
ok la
but my ankle
dunno how lei..
can someone tell me??
really stop basketball??
or just rest for moment??
but it ankle takes years and money to heal lei..
haiz really confused
just like when i saw her
i dunno how to react
aviod her eye sight
but wan to notice her
onli to look from side
or mrrior lo
but saw smiling and laughting
i am gald..
hee..
todae go bugis with yan
buy bag and present
for ger birthdae coming
but tt nite
i tell her i not staying
but i told my mum i will not be back
and she say i better not come on tt nite
so thinking where to go..and ideas??
sms tell me ok...haha...ty
take care wors....to injured gal..
pain
slpless
tired
wat i have todae
morning use com
afternoon rot at jp myself
at coffenbean
finished my first story
buy tissue from one grandma
no change so gif her 2 dollar
then shuinan meet me 4
eat lo
buy present
he say damn exp
then went home
then trainning
run here and there
and one again
my ankle hurtz
bandage
scolded by coach
friend
family
dunno wat to say
btu i know wat doc going to say when i see him
u better stop playing basketball and running about
but i simply can't
cause if not i do wat?
phone going to spolit also
haiz
com no game
msn no ppl
phone nv ring
no ppl find me
so i find wat ever time i could to training
haiz
dunno see how lo
no one to consult
coach ask me to rest somemore
haiz
i am already getting fatter le lei
haiz
can't slp
saw ppl hand injurie also
haiz
dunno how cannot say anything also
haiz
bye
rot
daes passed
time fly
haiz
just like tt another dae passed
sick
coughing like couging out my lung
nv go co
think there also damn little ppl
all gone
dunno how
haiz
i sick i still go jogging
so lame
cause everydae at home
eat paly slp
nthing else
haiz
fatter n fatter
no choice
or i will die of boredness
haiz
damn sianz
haiz
haiz and nth else
still HAIIZ
haiz....
Alone
noone
loney
missed
is wat i have todae
todae simply alone
noone to tok
noone to accompany me eat
one person alone at home
handphone nv ring
onli music is all i have
no activity
began thinking of a person
wat ever i do
whereever i am
wat ever time
wat mood
wat person beside
i will think of this person
maybe i sld b e doing this for lifetime
i am happy thinking of her
alone...bye
many dae nv come here le....
many things to wrtie..
but
no mood..
dunno why..
haiz..
lots things happen..
going out with the wrong ppl..
i dun mean my bro...
my means my friend which ask me to go pub..
or others...
places which i dun wish to go...haiz..
lots of things wants and need to do
but
nv do..
due to myself...
haiz...when i get better..
then i will write
bye..
haiz...back le...from malaysia...go to tomb sweeping but is there to work la... no time to slp....even thought actually got 2 hrs to slp one....but i was coughing so badly tt i can't slp.... then is = 3 dae nv slp loh... alot things happen....tihnk i will write all this at nite....now simply no mood... sad and sad..haiz...
to nite then continue....
haiz... it is not early le..but i can't slp...cause of the coughing and flu i having....so i feel like waking up and think abt things....this is my nagging to myself..haha....

life....wat is life....many ppl will answer u study work earn money marry children die.. these are stages of life...but to me all these is not life.... to me... life is my very own things...it is something tt i myself passed through no matter happy sad bad good.... all these are my life.... there is this line" heaven send every little things tt u see hear touch feel and taste the 5 senes..but the most important are ppl"...there billions or even more in this world.... but every single one of them are diff..tt wat make us human very diff tt we can conques this very world...we may find a person with a same name or even same look or even same temper..but u can nv find a person with the very same thinking of urs.....so to me i really wan to be in my life knows as many friends as possible...know them understand them and to me they are like my teachers...they teach me... lessons for me in many diff topic chapther..and many more.... i dun wan to have ppl tt dun tok to me even as friends...maybe is me at fault sorry i haven understand the lesson of urs..and u stopped ur class with me...nvm maybe somedae iw ill understand...therefore i wan to know more ppl to teach me in my little life....and i wished to live my life happily..

ok...to here will be my life story...Choke chong hwee simple life.... from young i am a very naughty kids... i remember the first time my father scolded me and ask me to knee other my house is when i am K2... i remember last time there is this family centre on sundae to teach me something...tt very dae i went out the whole dae with ym friend ang teck loong....my mum found me under blk 207 just infont of my blk...she was taking a cane...hah... i know i am dead...i went home..my dad always sitted on a sofa just infront of the door... he will sit there and scolded u... i know my father is very strict..so i stand outside and cry..haha..i know all these years he have tt very fierce infonrt of us but a happy face outside....but i knos he care.... he dun let me anyhow go out cause he worried tt i will do bad things and get caught..but to here i wan to say sorry dad... to this very dae then i know tyhis... i am the trouble in this home... i stole money in my house...fight with my bros...talk back to u...scolded u....even late home or not home... i know u cares....but to me....haiz.. now i know i am idiot..really....i have done lots of bad things in this very world tt most of u dunno...cause no one will come and understand me...nono.. i sld not say this.. is i am not willing to share...nto afraid of throwing face but i think most ppl dun like ppl to be this bad..i can say i am not a good guy at all.... i am not the proud of my family... my bro are all more more cleverer then me really.... i belong to the lazy person....but to those important things in ym life i will be willing to work hard to it.....haha...maybe... siaz dun tok abt me le..haha....next time i will tok to u all abt my bros and those very good friend of mine....haaha..take care everyone..

nowadae many ppl are sick so take care ppl dun fall sick ok..hee..=)
haha... i felt so "heng".. in one simple wk i get to see both docs.....haha..chinese and english..haha..chinese cause i dislocated my ankle then he said need to be bandage for 3months..but i at nite must take out cause i dun wished my dad to scolded me..or he will not let me go play bb...i losted one important person in my life i dun wan to lost the important habit of mine...then i arpil got bb competition...in boon lay....dunno wan go anot..cause by then my leg will be the same....haha..reach le then say by cause no one to discuss with..last time have..now??? nvm... i am down with cough flu fever and sorethroat..haha..so many things...see doc he say wat weather hot then dislocated leg then nv drink much water..haha... i go eat lunch back later...
todae is not a good dae for me...or u can say i am very suay.. i dislocated my ritght ankle..now is bandage......but some idiots...pain like hell....waste my money go see the chinese doc..damn exp and damn pain....can see the bone when dislocated....dunno how yo passed life now...sianz...todae morning go co as usually lo...then next wk got pfm but i can't go neec to go back malaysia for tomb sweeping...important dae....then daryl got angry... ppl go out.....see ppl paly bb and i sit there looking at my bandage..haiz....then just now ger ask me got stay at her chalet anot i say nvm.... but i tell my mum i will be out and not coming back on tt dae....think i can onli throw myself somewhere to passed the nite ba...just now with the bandage i still go find the watch haha... th person see me say will help me check other stord for stock and call me..haha...hope they will find it.. pls...ty....todae is not a very good dae..think i faster go slp to end this dae....byeZ...
haha..just out of bath..just now go for morning run..lolz...run until very far..run until shuinan house there...haha...tired now..but running in the nite is so cool...i got sunburn at my shoudler..pain lei..haha..nite got no ppl also....but haven cough and flu..haha..taking the sea coconut drink like plain water..haha..then scolded by lots of ppl by doing tyhis...why lei??? cannot meh??haha..nvm la.. i am used to it..dunno why..missing important person in my very lousyt life makes a lots of different... i felt so uneasy.... haiz... see my bro around me so concern abt me in someways.... sorry bros i let u all down....not tt i dun wan to follow wat u told me but.... not everything is so easy like u all think... to this stage of my life i haven nv treated a gal so good like i treated her...nv u know not even my mum....this is where i know wat is call sweet talks, where i know how to love someone...listen to her is so nice...not able to see her make u feel so worried...her smell which makes u so happy....lastly her smiles...let u throw everything away then jsut her....to todae i still can't let go sorry.....maybe u all will say this is ur thinking onli....but this is where i know wat is call heartbroken and wat is really a promise..this word is very the powerful...not just to her..but to everything u do and everyone... so i decided to rot..so bros stop pushing me to new gal force me to taek phone no..use my phone msg ppl...say wat i like to be ur friend...look for a galfriend.... i dun wan...not tt they are not good..not u all are not helping me is tt..this is not the way.. i tried very hard to go along u all de wishes....get ppl nos..but..wat is the use??? u think i like u all so handsome meh??i am not ok... i tried my best to smiles infornt of u all...and i will continue to be not letting u all realise.. i wrting this out cause i know u all cares abt me..even thought not many of u are my bros...and u all come from different part of my life.. i am very grateful of ur all....accompany me to find wat i wan...helping me think of many diff ideas for many others things help out in my really small life... i belive tt heaven send u all here is to help me... make me learns and go along with life..i wan to thanks god really... i choke chong hwee have not done any good deed to this point of my life....but all is crime and things tt ppl will dislikes.... i really wan to help my friends bros to be happy too.. i know this may be very hard but u all just need to tell me ur problem and i choke chong hwee use wat ever skill or wat to help u....i know i may make ur things worst but i like to lend u my small ears to listen ti ur big things...ok...thanks....to everyone and to her..
just finished my dinner..haha...now online awhile..going out soon again...haha,,again to search for the watch..haha...bros..thanks for helping me...i tihnk i will find it myself....haha..todae go sentosa with james and nan..got call yan but he sick..get well soon......then now like so dark..haha...ok no time..faster go out find..update later ba...cya..
haiz bored....just now alfred come my house watch show de concert dvd...he got one alone house watch dun wan come find me...lame lei u...haha..he is a very good bro of mine..damn good...handsome ok..haha...the conert good nice...show is handsome..dance and sings really well..haha..alfred still wan copy him..haha..think cannot la..haha....sianz lei me... no aim in my life...damn sianz...haiz.....
haiz...long time nv update...dunno is not free or wat..think is no chance use com ba... very tired now..damn tired...ytd nv slp at all..not cause i dun wan slp is can't slp + got trouble..from12 i went to bed then wan slp but just turn here and there..then 3a.m got call say got trouble in company..then i take cab to tuas checkpoint..alone lei...wth..then faster drive all the way back...idiot..have meeting at 6....wth.....big trouble..haiz...then went home..see the big big pic of u hung on the wall....really missed u lots....haiz.... then slowly drive back...very suay lo....scolded by cousin..say i dunno how to see gals...haiz..dun tok abt it...then dad say go make passport since back le...then waited damn long lo...damn it...so tired....alot trouble..haiz..then dunno why malaysia lamp post got this stivk come out..dunno for flag or wat...the problem is it is too low ok...wth...haiz...i hit 3 times...suay rite..haiz....then back lo...tired like hell...

haha..many daes nv update since sundae...sundae nth la go co as usually..robert got go..ger also...nth happen ba..haha..then mondae go out with robert and shuinan..haha...cause no sy ma..haha....go suntec city..rmd tt time i siad will accompany u go there shop one....haha...we ate ice-cream..haha..tuesdae morning go shuinan gouse paly majong with yan and robert...then after tt go jp then to arena..then home....

i have been looking for thw watch damn long...mondae see 2 guys on mrt have lei..wth...nvm i will find it....now almost every nite go out look for it..later also..hee.....i go bath then go out look for it lo...cause JB also dun have....maybe really cannot find then i import le....byE
haiz... this few daes just doesn't wished to move at all....sianz...haiz..todae morning nv go co...cause lazy then shuinan and james meet me for luch..then go lo..then shuinan go orchard gif things james go home i went home too...sianz...until 6 went shuiann come back...find me for dinner..damn sianz ar...then go bb..but i sit there rot..haiz...just felt so sianz...
haiz..just missed her...a sudden plash of her slping cute face...it make it worst... todae is a bored dae.. i stayed at jp from 2 to 11...damn long.....haiz...sianz....dunno wat to do..wth....i am tired..but missed her lots...
haiz...tired...wake up ba shuinan..dunno him ytd nv go sch todae also..wth...he hor..later gif me scold....i dun wished him to be like me.....i wan him to study....haiz....todae later going to bring yan and james to interview...then i do my booking also then we 4 bros can work together..haha..even when sch start....haha...then i think i go find the watch somemore...i really wan to find it....no matter the price..ty bros for accompany me to find or u helping me find..ty alot....ytd the bloody shuinan nv go sch...call me at 7.30..wth ask me go his house cause he no keys..his keys with me...cause before tt dae he come my house....then we went to eat breadfast..then meet james..he go cut and dye his hair..nice lei....haha..i no money to dye one...haha..then we went to sing k at central..haha..it makes me think of lots of things before...haha....then go syco i rot there..haha....my dad dun let me buy cello even i have the money...haiz.....i think i will spend the money on ppl birthdae coming...so ppl those whu birthdae coming can tell me wat u wan then i will help u...haha...
haiz haiz...nth to do... i dunno wat happen to me..sometimes..dun even wan to move a inch of my body...then sometime purposely busy like hell here and there...i dunno why...todae half dae at home..then shuinan come find me eat lunch...suddenly one....then go play bb..he and si ping bully me....haiz.. i lousy ma...saw teck loong too...long time no see..haha..so handsome..where got like me so ugly..haha....then went home rot again....damn sianz..wat have happen to me??haiz..unable to cheer up at all..happy for wei long..break with gal friend but problem solve 6 hrs later..haha..so lame....then my daughter broke off with her stead....haiz...dunno why alos...make her so sad...nth i can do also..sorry.....
yoz....not early le...haha..nth to do so blog loh....ytd ar....morning and afternoon stay at home rot...the remote wan gif me press until spoiled liao la..haha..then meet james and yan say wan go out..then meet at jp saw ger kelyn and shuinan they just after sch....then go arena loh..no place le..haha....then shuinan come at 8.30..we play until 10..haha...crazy....then all go home...i and shuinan go drink...haha..awhile onli la...then go home loh..whereelse....nth much...then todae still thinking wan to go trainning anot... my old injuries still pain...haiz...i wan to blog abt something one...but i forget wat is it...haha.. next time ba...
just bath and ate my dinner..haha...todae out...haha.morning go to sp with james and yan..then meet irfan and hwee qi..haha....then go np...saw many ppl....all appealing to their course..then went to qeenway shopping centre with yan and james....eat the katong laksa..haha very the nice....haha then went back to sch..meet shuinan and yan packet for shi hui..haha so good..then meet shuinan and james again at 4.30 go out lo..haha.. play at jp to abt 6...then go marchie at HMV there...haha.. also help friend find watch..but all the other colour have but she wan de is white..dun have..haiz..nvm will keep finding ba...haha..then james go pick his gf..haha...at bugis...there also dun have white colour de le....his gf not bad....haha...with him very gd ma....haha....jealous...=X..haha.... then he send her home i and shuinan search the watch again but no news...haha..then we went home together....haha...then my leg damn pain...old injuries come out..haha..manyu cause todae out...haha...
wahaha.. i slp for more then 14 hrs....haha..the longest i ever slp.....ytd afternoon take slping pills then now then i wake up..haha...damn sianz....twice each dae once need to take 14pills of medi....sianz...ytd morning went co...then after ttt go eat..then went home...nth to go slp loh...since need to eat 14 pills then i eat 2 more slping pill to slp loh..haha..nth much le ba...later go cc de co need to go early cause kneed to make scpres again..haha..cya
haiz..can anyone tell me how to slp??? i can't slp..maybe should go see doc..haiz...dunno why....sianz loh... i see her also dunno how to face her....haiz...she seem like a book which i will not understand even though i used time...a mountain tt i will nv reach the summit...dunno la..haiz....collect pay le...vur also wan money for wat....got things also no mood use...i injure my left ankle again while playing bb...cannot see doc or he will kill me..ask me dun play bb le...bujt i cannot... how can i just simply throw away something i like so much... like her...haiz... maybe times will heal...actually i dun mind her not with me...but tt dae i sae her aleast she smile even though not to me..but i felt a better lots......i have no job now...at home rot..dunno wat to do... my mum very happy now.... cause my bill from$200++ to just $38 this month...wa big drop rite...wahaha....crazy..phone nv ring de..like useless...haiz...lot time nv see lots of ppl....especially aflred..haha.. i very gd bro of mine...went to usa to help in his father business...rich guy ar....todae he come back..wahhaa...i still need to go pick him..using his car..later i kena caught how??haha.....see ba..catch le then say la...before tt i still need to go scg de co later....9 but meeting shuinan for breadfast.....sld be ba.... now i am worried abt xiao xiong....a very big bro of mine and aflerd..he injurie..haiz...fight la fight so more......haha...hope u dun see this..nth le ba...
haiz..back le... sianz..more and more medicine le.....there is so sianz...no ppl...onli me and the tv....my life totally drop to the worst point..where i get to 40.3...so cold...where my body hot...even whet to the ice rm...torture is all i get....headache is everything..... rmd tt time tt i went to hospital the chair u sit...where i call u mummy..u were angry....but ytd tt very chair in the very same place were very empty....i could felt nth but cold and tohughts of onli tt chair..tt playing mood tt i used to have....maybe tt is the past...ok dun wished to sadded my blog anymore... i am just down....
haiz.. i am sick...since sundae...fever on and off...cough and running nose..damn sux..make me can't go work..then my dad dun let me wotk anymore..haiz..going to rot.... he still say tml still on anf off i going to go to hospital at nite..haiz.. i dun wan...so sianz there..alone.with 4 walls and no ppl to come to visit me...haiz.....i nv go work...sorry yan.. i can't work anymore...sorry....haiz...sick le...nth much...bye...
haiz...4 in the morning..so sianz..todae i nv go work..cause damn sianz..haiz....i lost contact with all ppl....lonely soulz here....realise tt time past can't really heals wounds.....todae go co....haiz..nth much...tml go co...then need to work again...tt my life.....haiz...how.. i dunno wat to do....i am at all lost now....really lost...i felt like crying out.....but there is no one to listen....to say out wat i feel to everything but there is none....in this very middle of the dawn..i am here...siting alone infront of my com...when all is slping...and then tears drop.. it makes my keyboard wet...but is there anyone to hold out one tissiue to lend it to me???? anyone beside me asking me why are u crying??? there is none... my father just saw me todae for a wk..and did he say anything..none....haiz...there goes my life...turning into somewhere there is worst....onli sadness and lonely....where i will be just alone in the darkness where no lights will be there to shone on to the path where i sld walk...i tumple and fall...and i just couldn't pick myself up anymore...how i wished just to end it here.....with all the pains and sufferings.....................................
just come out bath.....haha...back from work again...haha.... it is like a cycle....everydae same things...haha... go work at jp de bus stop...then come back abt 7.40a.m same bus stop...then walk to pioneer mall with yan..then he go home i walk past 706 then to shuinan house there the bus stop to go home.....then reached home on com..go bath..then blog..see got ppl online ma....but mostly no ppl de....then i go slp lo..then wake up then need to go work again....my life is just like tt... i lfelt like i am living in another country..cause i see no one other then yan and ppl working there...then no contact with others.....haiz...say until ppl..i felt i miss her lots..been a wk nv see her le... felt really strange...cause something really important is missing in my life....it changes..haiz...see ba...april her birhtdae..then see ba...cya..
just got back..rot for 12 hrs..whole 12 hrs do screen test..wa..sianz lo....not tired at all..the job is not tired but damn sianz....my department damn slask one...haha...just now going home walk with sufyan then we see one snake in the canal..at pioneer park there..haha..then when i walk past blk 708 de fitness park..i saw 1 old uncle and 1 indian male wearing a shirt write army.. then they both do the hand push..the uncle very old le but do like nth....then the indian boy do until wan to die like tt....haha..somemore very skinny...lolz....then go home loh...wan to eat no ppl accompany me....damn sianz... i tihnk i go bath le slp..since nth to do le....bye...work later...
juat back not long ago...still having fever headach like hell....the job not tired but damn sianz...timw slow down...haiz.....i onli get to tok to yan on break and sometime break diff time then cannot tok..haha.....

i belive tt a min of happy moments with ur loved one will a forever picture....cause during the 40 mins break...i went to sit then my head damn pain.. i look at the sky i saw the stars..so nice..abd then i see her face in the sky...and the time she was laughing happily..haha..tt is the onli time i dun feel my head any pain..it last for 30 mins..so good.. i simply miss her.....
omg..working later..wth..todae got fever...wa lao....sianz....head and body all very tired and pain...haiz...bo bian still got to work...haiz....i dun dare to eat medi cause scared later work half then fall aslp....haiz....very dizzy now...bye...
haiz..todae is a damn suay dae for me....sauy unitl fall down 6 times...wth...leg and but very de pain ar.....suay ar.....2 itmes fall down at stair at cc cause run up and down....for scores..then 2 times fall at my block de stairs.....then 2 times cause floor wet..then i slip and fall..this 2 is the most painful one...haiz...then sitll having this idiots running nose....haiz...sneezeing non-stop also..haiz..todae when to co in the morning..then i run up and down to make scores then take out bass nv even play a note and it is time to go home..after tt go find shuinaneat lo..he ask me one...since he so free go lo..then is ask me go bowling cause mondae he got bowling competition in sch....haha..but i still win him..lame..haha...then when home fall down...ar.....dun tok abt fall down anymore..how i wished i could take oput my nose....ar.........tml start work le...7 pm-7a.m..hope it go well ba...then it will change my life le...actually nth much will change....if i can change the way i am tihnking i will had change not to todae friends...i know u all care abt me..but this kind of things not i say gif up it will gif up de....there are damn lots feeling in it..sorry guys...maybe times will drift it away...making me less painful..haa...i dun mind having this pain...haha..dun tok le la..wahaha..sianz at home...ar.....bye...
just got home not long....todae when to taman jurong to help out in the chingay..lolz...sianz..but fun also..but aleast i get to see her....i todae whole dae sneezing...so sux....todae morning wake up late cause 2 daes i nv slp then ytd slp at 5 then wake up at 11..haha..nv go co...then shuinan come find em eat lunch...then he go see doc cause he fridae nv go sch..then go see doc..the nurse ask whu see doc...shuinan say is he..then the nurse ask comfirm anot..haha.. i look more sick then him..lolz...then go taman jurong le...after tt see rhino..long time nv see this bro of mine...then go drinking session..lolz...jujst drinking and toking cock ok..cause u all cfm i will smk de..but i nv..haha.. i also shocked....drinking session i nv smk..haha.....then now just bath come out...chat alot up with my bro.. he is much much more better then me..haha...ok la...nth much le...
haiz.. i am tried from smileing and laughing infront of ppl....how i wished i can cry infront of they....haiz...no choice...whereever i go i see memories of u...even alone i tihnk of u...haiz...todae go job interview..then start work on mondae...7p.m to 7a.m....going to be working then slp then work again....haiz.....
haiz...i live my life aimlessly and sadly now...haiz...i dunno why i got so many promise in so manyt ppl and i broke the one tt is to my most important one...and just now will cause everything between us...so i decided to fulfilled tt promise back..i know it will not do any help between us anymore..but i wan to go back to the promise...haiz..sorry.....i hurtz more for u to be in disappointed with me than anyother things...haiz....sorry....u take care ba...byeZ...
end of my life here....did things really wrong over here...damn wrong...i fault here..breaking ppl promise...nth more i can say..cause i really did break it...life is so stressful for me...haiz... i lost things really important to me now...i thought i lost it long ago but now it is really lost...i regert picking up the thing i throw away...now i am sad...disappiont with myself... i can onli say sorry...sorry for beaking ur promise...sorry...

i know i break my promise here but not all...haiz..but i am wrong..nvm..sorry
valentine dae have just passed... ppl happy???hope u all are happy and not like me..haha...ppl go out..and i stay at home...even my mum ask me why nv go out..so lame...i see lots of happy couple here and there...so jealous of them..haha..nvm...i however not angry with anyone but myself..haha..nv cherish tt person...regrets comes..haha.. so ppl hope ytd u all have a happy time with ur loved one and together..and those single will have ur loved one out to u very very soon..=)..and me?? miss her lo..can do nth.. ppl ask me gif her things..even thought nv go out..i have things but nv contaact...ask me to wait outside her house.. u all very the funny..u tihnk she live alone ar......haha..nvm the things is with me and i will keep it to somedae...haha...


i still can't eat lots of things..haiz...then i cook myself loh...other then eating outside...then i at home just come and com..haha..so bored rite.....then actually todae got work one..damn it...the mike la..bluff me and yan...fuck off...angry lei...waste my time....haiz....then later back at home again....nth to do again.. i can't seem to go to aslp again....how??? slping pills...useless le...le....nvm..bang my head againt the walls..haha good ideas rite..haha...todae i do one kind things tt is to help my frienz create blog...haha..so lame....nth to do..haha...
nth much loh..my life...nvm it is going to change..erm let say todae..i dunno wat time i wake up...haha..then meet yan at 12 in jp..see wat course he wan to take..then meet ger and kel..after they go to sch...then go eat..then pool for awile..they go off..to shopping i tihnk...dunno nv tell me..haha...then i and yan call the sing hitech..to ask got work anot since we doing nth...then say got..say 4.30 must reach or will be gone..but the time they call is 4...we rush hm then there but it was too late it is gone...haha...then go jp loh....then he go home le.. i contineue loh...saw thoedore...play again..so sianz...then go syco but late le..go cc onli...meet shuinan and james..tok on the way home...james is very de fine...with galfriend le....wa...tml i still need to help him see got rose anot..haha..he wan gif his galfriend...haha..i dun have...no ppl wan....bought something but.....nvm.....next time ba....not on valetine..haha..tml i got to work le...nite shift...going to be tired... i think i now go force myself to slp first...bye...

HAPPY VALETINE PPL....


this is also the 201 dae i wait for her and i will be still waiting..cause i love her...and this is the every first time i pass valetine dae and it is waiting for my love one...i know now i am not the best guy for u i will try to be..and till the dae i willbe the guy for u...i will still be waiting...4ever..nv going to say goodbye..
haiz...haven been feeling well at all...dunno why...and i am sick..damn sick..wat i eat come out....haiz..onnli plain things...therfore i seem like not eating everything....todae i saw a father pushing his baby in a baby chair and taking pics...both of they laugh and smile so happily..and i realsie i haven been doing this since a long time..i even forget how to laugh out...something is bothering me...but i dunno how to solve it...ppl just say things tt wouldn't works...just plain toking...so i can onli reply yes yes...and nth more...i have been trying very hard to smile and laugh it out.. i feel so strange and wierd when i smile or laugh....something really bad is putting me away from my past....maybe things change..i dunno..now my time pass like a min=a year.. so long..so pain...so..watever...dunno.... tml going poly with yan..he wan ask his corse..me? dunno..actually nth to ask..nvm..go ba...since no ppl need me..i am a loner...haiz...i can't speak myself out to ppl....even thought they may be the best ppl around i just can't pass myself this lvl..sorry ppl...maybe sch start i will be busy with myself to make me feel nth?? maybe i will go find one nite shift job..where i work at nite when ppl slp and morning slp when ppl is around...finding in process ba....nth much le..dunno wat to write....bye
haiz..i can't slp again.. i am worried sick for her...i dunno how....really i am worried..just tok with shuinan over this matter just now...he after work come find me..then tok loh..haiz...i feel very the wat u know...dunno how to speak to her also....haiz... i got my result but i am not worry at all for myself..but other.. i see jerome drop his tear...first time....i felt so useless..before tt he is so nervous...tiong zi cheng too...but he scores..ok loh... i am very worried for this ppl...as a frenz or wat.. i dun care...i dunno wat to do...when i heard she can't go up... i almost cry out u know...haiz...me felt so useless now...wan to help other but can;t do a single thing of my own where do i get this rite to help others...i am stressful now....and simply worried sick for her...
Good morning ppl..haha..a brand new year....5.15 now... haha..now many ppl are going to be awake to sch or wat..but me??? haha..haven even slp...cannot fall aslp lei....haiz...worried for others......praying hard here............good luck everyone....
dunno wat to update.....nth to update lei... no programme for me..so nth happen at all...todae wake up damn late 11.46....dunno why also..tired.... i dun understand human... nv slp also tired...slp too much also tired.....haha..very lame hor.... then 3 o'clock go down eat with loo hick..but i nv eat...drink water onli...then play com outside....play until $5.30..like idiot..got com at home dun wan play go out waste money..hhaha..scold me ba..haha..then got call from singapore hi tech make motorola phone one ask me go work...todae.. 7p.m to 7 a.m..dunno why i dun wan work..i tell him sat ba..he say will call me again..i tihnk no hope le..haha..idiot me again rite..haha....then when home....keep sneezeing..like someone have keep scolding me after i bath...until now...haha...tt person very good can scold me so long..must tell me whu u.. i be good frienz with u.. i like being scolded by ppl..haha...very cold todae... no ppl to tok to... i have lots of things to tok to..but i need a listening ear...haha..not to com..haha...haiz...tml result le... i have no feeling for it at all...even thought is my first time taking o lvl...haha...but i think thousand of ppl are nervous now.. some can't even slp.... but here i am very nervous..but not for myself..but for my frienz and her...really hop they get wat the really wished for..so heaven pls help them...hee...thanks heaven..have a nice straight path for them... for me??? anything..even the worst one also can... i know i will not have a good path de...haha..so i am willing to let ,my path go chaos and they clear..hee..thanks heaven...Best Luck to all.... LasT Thanks you heaven....Nite..
nth much happen...stay at home loh....haha..tv and com whole dae....haha...go out walk walk awhile inthe afternoon...too boring le....haha...then just now my dad tok to me abt the result...he onli think tt i will failed...keep asking me failed how??? how do i know?? ite loh....wat more??haiz...then is the last sentence he said make me real sad.... he say" i see u also will not passed de la better think wat to do" this make me real sad..i know i haven been good in anything...but also no need for this kind of words ba....haiz...no comment....

nowadae i see tt many ppl like to keep saying wan to die..dun wan carry on..dunnno wat to go on in life..life is meaningless and so on.... haiz...this not the ways of life....u know how many ppl wan to continue to live on with frienz and family and they can't???u whu have a good family and lots of friends keep saying no meaning in life....i dunno wat to say to u..but u shouldn't say all this...this makes all ur friends and family real sad...they felt tt they are meaningless to u tooo..u see.... sorry i am not shooting anyone....i get very down nowadaes..dunno why....but dun worry i will smile to all...even the darkest moment of my life....and tt have past....
hee...bro just use finished for his project so i use loh...dunno wan to slp anot...haha..lame...nth much loh...just plain not feeling well so many things i can't eat and do....so sianz my life....fridae getting results le...very the fast loh....like tt is already 3 months after exam...not feeling at all for myself but nervous for my bros..and friends....u all will do well de la...no worry..haha...but me???dunno haha...

time passed fast and slow....is just wat we are feeling...ppl feeling time passing in diff pace...when happy times files...sad times slow....missing ppl..time simply stop...there is many things in this life of mine tt i miss...not get the hold of it..and let it pass..nv work for it or not working hard...this is all due to human feelings....we or me...just to think of past..and get bother abt it...and we can do nth..just think and think and get worst and worst....when u are abt to bee gone..u realise tt u have alot of things tt u wan to do but haven...u dun wished to hurt ppl but not telling them..but to thise really important u wanted to tell them but does they care or even hurtz???not really sure by others...but me would like to hear problem from anyppl so tt i could help them as much as i could...not until it get worse till it cannot be solved...i will try to help as much as possible....not like me..wher no one can help anymore...haha...

now is my things le..wahaha..this is the most boring part..haha..i very lame..ytd i cut the thick skin of my foot then bleed...i thoough stop liao then i go to cut hair...i feel my foot very sticky after cutting my hair...then i reached home see my blue slippers become brown..haha...cause bleed alot..wahaha..but not pain de lei...haha...nt ba...stay at home watch tv..no ppl ask me out..haha..boring loh...haha...just now go out with shuinan then when we go home we nv eat dinner then we buy bread and water at 7-11...sit at the playground..haha..lame loh...we litter..wahaha..tok cock...then we know got ppl we know live at 5 floor..shuiann say wan call her from below...i say crazy..haha..he really crazy liao..but he also sad...his gal dun wan him...same thing..cause the gal like another guy le....i dunno wat to tell him so just tok cock to make him smile...but i realise one thing making a guy smile is alot easiler than making a gal smile..haha...nth much le...haha

LASTLY TO ALL TAKING RESULT THIS FIRDAE ALL THE BEST..WITH FLYING COLOURS..HEE..=)
back from malaysia ytd nite..hee....nth in malaysia..i onli stay at my house...in my room and nth le.....sick...todae morning go cc for pfm then very not well....haiz...dunno why...but i get to see her....so happy...but very unwell so nv tok to anyone even to her..haiz.....
yoz..early in the morning..i still awake..haiz..wth man..i can't slp..haha..........i find this very nice web...haha...

http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1114762677/The_F_word

haha...all abt how to use fuck..haha...lame one..haha..
haiz..now 3 le..dun feel like slping...last few dae..haha..to enjoy my small little life..haha.....dunno why...i am onli worried abt one person b4 i go..haha..nvm ba...think she will be ok..since i am there or anot makes no diff...haha...dun care le.....since no ppl will rmb me de...onli will be relive..tt i will not be nagging her..haha...cheers.....for chong hwee tro be gone..haha...todae nite i am gone....and sundae moring..i wil be.................................................haha..=P not telling..haha..bye everyone..no need to vist anymore..thanks for all urs care to me....and i have fun in my life..thx....
haha..these few dae sick..haha...stay at home....haha..nth much happen just miss lot of things.....sch and friend.....haha.... i also very de blur nowadaes..haha..cuts on my hands..haha...stupid ma..open can also cut myself..haha...sick onli can stay at home eat maggie..so open can oh....haha..

haha..this will be my last post....i going back to malaysia...for dunno how long..maybe will not be back le..haha..not going to tell u all the reason..shuinan know..but i tell him not to say dn ask him ok..haha...tml going to sch to help him with pfm..haha..miss lots of ppl...they going to go areana tml..haha..i can't go..cause i will be back at malaysia le...haha..u all must enjoy ar...haha..take care everyone..and dun miss me..hee..forget me..haha...BYE...happy chinese new year....take care everone...bye....=(
haiz...i am going to live in a shut up world now.....i going to shut up ant tok to anyone in my family....since wat i say is all lies...so wat is the use????? i ytd when to syco..but thry dun belive..so wat....and deletle my messages.....wth....it is my percious message u know...blood hell...she will onli send once and u do this to me...i hate u...fuck off family....

i am badly sick todae..so morining nv go wait....having fever and headach.....nvm noone cares...home also no ppl..onli me and myself....lunch????not eating le...no mood + sick...actually wan to go jpb interview with sufyan one...but wth...i sick....haiz...dunnno wat to do...all ppl so busy...i am very worried abt her now...dunno how is she....and just a few more daes before i am gone.....unable to see her....she is now very far from me now....haiz..miss her lot lot..but nth i can do..dunno how to approach her...haiz....shuinan good loh...he like one sec 2 gal in his sch..then she now got reply him le..think he happy like hell....good loh..wished this is something he will treasure....
haiz...sianz loh....broke le..now adult fare...got to pay for my travel.....afternoon eat instant noodle...no good de...eeeee...morning same thing...wait for her 1 hr but nv see..haha..nvm..then i walk home..cause bus very exp lei...haha..ok la..is my ez-Link just no money..haven top up...then at home rot loh.....see tv....nth much so bored..think of this fridae night need to go malaysia le..haiz.....can i dun go???? i am off with my family....haiz..nvm...i dun care...later neeed to go find shuinan go syco todae....so sianz also...haiz...i onli wan to see her....arhhhhhhhhhhhhh...damn bored lei...wth...haiz....having very bad headache.....maybe is nv slp well ba..haha..nvm no one cares....
haiz...ytd very late slp so play maple with sufyan..to 3..then think todae got co so slp le...then wake up late at 11.30...then rush there l,oh..nth much also...no ppl one...haha..bored then at home all the ways since no ppl at home so good..haha..nth much lei..sorry...bye...miss her lots...haiz..
haiz..bored..can't slp again....todae mornign meet shuinan go sch de co...ji nv come...morning de time waiting for shuinan come down saw kelyn and geraldine they going to work..haha..both of them look so tired...then with shuinan go eat breadfast....then go sch...then got 2 new come one come to our grp..haha..then i teach the 5 lines scores..ok la...they got the basic le...easy for me also...then after tt help ger take things from her house to her workplace..then go jp..sae audrey doing flag day..lame....then we went home le.... i at home damn bored loh....nth to do de..watch tv.... then 7 went to cc de dinner...but wet..cause suddenly rain..i wet..haiz..go there also nth de...waste my 10 dollar..cause most of them nv go..i at there so bored then ai lian come entertain me..haha..her husband also..lolz.....then they all sing chinese new year de songs....i dun like sings song de..so rot loh..after tt 10 finish..dunn feel like going hm..went to bb court saw andrew then play awhile loh..reached home at 11..then come my bill...now is this..cause i quarrel with my whole family...espically my fucking older bro....act big onli...fuck u la...bro so wat... i dun wan fight with u onli...u think i will lose u..go die la....my bill is damn high..cause i go malaysia last time i still use..$440++..i see liao also shocked...nvm la....scolded liao..also like tt...haiz..the problem is me la...dun liek like toking anymore...damn sianz,,haiz,,life change suddenly.....
haiz..i can't fall asleep...haha..dunno why la..todae ok la..morning meet shuinan he nv go sch...say sick..lolz....then we send ger to work...then i accompany him go see doc...nth much..then we go arcade..he playy i see loh..haha..i cononel liao he still knight..haha..so i let him play loh..i also no money play..poor..no job...haha..nvm la..new year coming....then come my house ..then go his house..lolz....then meeet james..go syco..haha...we tok abt lots of thing..haha...bros ma...syco damn boring ar....after tt we walk to cityhall..have a drink then go home...we walk home loh..haha..then i tok to shuinan abt how life is meant to be..lolz..i onli know how to tok...like i always like to say.....heaven gif u ppl not to change u..but be part of your life...to make u learn things..so behind everything there is a reason of it to be there...haha...then now at home..can't fall aslp..dun feel like playing game..then todae saw her finger the skin shredded cause of her working there carry things..heart pain u know...but i dunno wat to do...she seem ignore to me...to here ba...tml got cc de dinner...omg i forget tell mom..nvm la..they dun care de..
haiz..i felt tt i have change or ppl around me had change...i felt really diff todae...dunno why...morining is ok..i do back wat i do..but nv will i have thought..she came down..haha..really happy to send her to work even thought nv tok not even eyes contact..lolz..think is me la..dunno lei..i got alot of things wan to ask her and tell her one..but i see her so tired and i open my mouth no words come out..dunno why i dun even dare to look at her straight...me ar me..dunno lei haiz....wat had happen??? then after tt go home rot...then meet shuinan.. he ask me to meet him one..then we go eat luch loh...then he got call for work..haha..then i accompany him go to work..then i one person take bus from orchard to boon lay..1 hrs++..haha...nvm la....then go home rot...then at nite got friendly match...we won.. 98 to 64..haha..but my leg is getting worse... my coach tell me to go see doc.....haha...or will be like him...walk also damn pain...haha..nvm i got wear ankle support and spray the deep heating le..but still very de pain...dunno how..quit bb??? i dunno from young this is the leg i make it myself.....all because of bb..haha..nvm i like wat.. like the gal i like i put in lots of effort..haha..then after the match my leg very pain..so i go jurng east there find my medi..but cannot find lei..then is 10+ le..i go to take bus 99 wished can see her there but no..my leg is really pain..then i go back le..sorry..haha..not at home still pain.. my bro wan use com for his project le..cya..
haiz..back from waiting for abt 1hrs and 30 mins.. cause i thought she working 10 ma..then she go out at 8+ de..but nv see her...haiz..nvm is i nv ask her...i dunno why...i really wan to message her..but i got a force tt is pulling me back...i know i am not important to u ..but u are the most important things in my life....all the things u say i rmb..and when u say to me like up to u or anything..it hurts...but it's ok... i nv put the blame on u...cause as i have said u had say clearly...so i just wished i could glance at u from far..to see u fine..

btw..sorry ppl..ur gathering on 27 of jan..icannot go...is not i dun wan go..sorry..i going back to malaysia..i tell my mom i late one dae go in can..she say cannot..sorry..i dun wished too...but hope u all enjoy ba.....

haiz...going back to malaysia...from 27 jan nite to 4 fed....haiz...going to miss lot of things...haiz...but is her the most...
haiz....wth...now suay things come to me ar...wtf.....firstly the bloodly job...wth...sale of the bloodly kompang senga card....tok to 200+ ppl onli sale of 15 cards...wat.. at lavender for the whole dae....i go training also dun have so tired....leg pain like hell..so both of us dun wan work le..haha....then ppl see u holding the card they will run .. like i am a monster...wth..now i understand why i dun like to see those ppl to..like my leader damn sux..not sux to me..but to the ppl he selling to..it seem tt must buy dde...damn fuck...he push the card to ur hand u hold and there it goes...ur 10 dollar...omg..if i see him outside..i cfm run 2km then i stopped...scary lei...nv stop...ok la i learn alot of things...and some of u know i am the "inside' person..dun tok much one...no topic..this is the first time in my life i tok to soooooo many stranger..wth....nvm nvm...this si sad..but the second one is worst to me..haiz...

then the lastly is hor...her attitude suddenly change...damn sad loh....dunno why...maybe cause i cannot pick her from work?? dunno..haiz..nvm..she had told me before le...she is not my girlfriend...haha...so no link..onli friend..haha...i am tired..but free back..no work le...haiz..dunno how to tell her...think ba..then she also sick le...no comment...cause she dun reply me one..ahahahahahahahahahahahhahahah...byeZ..
haiz....just finished my dinner....bored loh..dun feel like eating....need to buy myself somemore..haiz...i like a maid....father call me to go down packet....then he come bacl eat le going out..but then before he go out..he is nagging at me again.....say me is a making him worried at all time..wth...as if ok....then tell my small bro to study and not be like me..haha.. the biggest joke of my life..haha...my small bro..wahaha..big joke lei..haha...funny....u think he is still the small boy tt u play with him 5 yrs ago..wahaha..wake up..father...he is worst then me..not tt he had done bad things more then me..is tt he attuitlde..aiya..i know spell wrong dun care la...he is damn pretty....he wouldn't treat u anything one...and then u go out.. u must treat him some how...he is oppsite of me interm of handling of money..haha..he safe like hell like there is an bank onli for him to full it..haha..then me???haha...spend money like there is no tomorrow..haha..to me there is no plan at all.. this is true...me had no plan one...dae pass like tt loh..haha..then my bro can talk back to him u know..and me??? tok back i get rewarded..haha..slap on my face..haha..my father is a very old feeling man..he dun go with fashion..maybe this is the onli point i can tell he is my father..haha..but his thinking..haiz..old like ancient???worst then tt ok...tt is the small like my big bro..haha..he had went out to pick my mum..haha...feel so quiet..haha...but he dun let me go out....haiz...how????? i am going to be worried again....haiz...the uneasiness is here already...nth much ba..all this is abt my father..how much i "like" him..haha..tml course le....hee...
haha..dunno how many daes nv update le...wahaha....nth much...got back my sim card le..hee... then found a job..mondae need to go for the course....haha...2p.m..haha...nth much ba...still sending ppl to and from work...but ytd nv..wth...then i damn worried sia....can do nth...wth....at last got her message then..phew...nth much le ba...life pass....father keep scolding me...haiz...i say before and many times le ok... i nv smk le...u dun belive go ask ppl la...wth...everydae say i smk smk smk...wth...hate u ....i go where also must tell u... the other two bro go where u also dun care one... late come back got nth..me???? every now and then u will have somthing to scold me...wth.. i buy the spary leg one u also wan scold me..... wth..it is for the old injures of my ankle then ask wat... me play basketball...wth..scold me... u blood ass....u think i like to be in this home meh??? u think i like u meh??? so wat u are my father....so???? just cause of stupid sperm???...=PP so??? i must listen to ur everything??? so wat i am naughty..so wat??? i haven go kill ok....i wan i would have kill a dozen...so wat??? i simply HATE U......ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHgoing crazy over this blood thing.....
haiz..at home loh....nth to do..i everydae do my daily job..haha...mornign and nte onli...afternoon is like rotting at home...slp during afternoon...cause at nite cannot slp properly..scare will be late....haha..nth much happen in my life..but i am abit more happy..ahaha...dun tell u all lei..=p.. me still jobless lei...yan say wan to go find job todae... i waiting for his call onli..haha..bored lei...haha....byeZ..
HIHI...haha..dunno wat to write lei..alot things happen..but can't really rmb..haha...i know my phone lost but find back by ways....by sim cards lose..haha...erm..lazy to write...i findind ways to slp..haha..can't slp la....bored..next time then write ba...lazy lei....
haiz...everydae cannot slp well....blocked nose and cough...wth..damn long le lei...haiz...then now whole body pain...especially stomach cough also pain..wth...must be ytd de trainning.. i go train ppl then i also train with them..then feeling down then i train double...then forget to drink salt water..haiz...pain ar.....haiz...let see.... ytd SHUINAN BIRTHDAE.....haha...HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA BRO......haha...i promise wat i will buy for u..sorry lei...late present....wahaha...sorry agfain..nv plan anything for u..cause i know ur family cfm will go out with u de...wahaha..unlike mine..haha...ytd moring rot at home loh...then afternoon go find shuinan..haha..his birthdae ma..accompany him loh...haha..then we go eat and buy my slippers..haha...exp lei...3.50..haha..bo bian my slipper very easily spoil one cause i got elephant leg...haha..then we go play arcade..wahha...lucky i still win shuinan..haha..nvm.i also let him win..let him happy..or he say i bully him..haha...then he went home at 5 cause he going out with family...so jealous...haha.. then i go back home rest awhile..at 7 go down with little bro to have dinner...then i go trainning...i at there coach still wan to do with them haha...see where u find so goos de coach...whahaha...nth much ba.... waiting for sufyan de friend seng kiat for job...haha..then we two work together tok cock together..haha....ar muscles damn pain...later still meeting shuinan..cause he need to go make his ez-link card ma.. since i nv do anything for his birthdae so accompany him ba...since i going to back malaysia soon liao..haha..chinese new year la..and tyhen need to go cc do things..haha...still ok la...i am just bored....haiz..not feeling really good... down at times..haha..ok la so nagging ..=P..byeZ..
arh..my face..got many pimples coming out..haha...i dun mind it make me ugly as i am ugly already..noones wan....haha..but itcy and pain when touch tt is the problem..haiz....bored lei..nth to do one....todae morning wake up late..then meet ppl late loh..cause ppl to late for work also..haiz..useless me..then alone go jp..play myself as meeting shuinan after his sch end to go jurong est to buy his uniform loh... then he late also..i from 11 to 3 in arcade...omg damn bored..in order to save money i play those i game for 1.5hrs one..haha..cheat one ma...then finally he reached...when we chinese garden there we went to eat first loh...then rainning..my slipper very the f**k one...i keep wanting to fall..haiz....then got one very wierd boy think abt our age also...like to stare at me..as if i have kick his ass..then walk like wat like tt...ganster lei.."i scared" lame loh...onli infont of us..and i dun even know him...haiz..nth much le ba..my dae is roting roting and rot....haiz....dunno wat to say..life getting worse...relationship even worse dunno wat have i done wrong....haiz....
now really bored at home..nth to do...all go to sch liao..and to work for those..me still need to wait for call...haiz...dunno la...me feeling down..dunno why..amybe her blog???no ba..not because she is writing the blog for others...but is to see her sad and sianz make me really down...haiz..i can do nth to make her happy the onli thing i can do is to be not around her..cause think she see me wouldn/t be happy or even more sianz ba... i am a boring guy to be truth...brain thinks of lame things tt no conerns to ppl...haiz...dunno la...at home no ppl...tidy my things then i find this paper...."26 Things That A PERFECT Guy Would Do"..haha... write out ba...haha..


1. Know how to make her SMILE when she is down........i can help if i can't rite???guys???

2.Try to secretly SMELL HER HAIR, but she always notice...she dun let u go close her u also can do nth rite guy???or she may slapped u....

3.Stick up to her,but still respects hers INDEPENDENCE....normal guys would do this except for some...but i will respect..haha..

4.GIVE her the remote control during the GAME..surly ba....we are gentlemen..=X..

5.Come up behind her and put your arms around her...we wished we could..but think ok...wat if she dun like????gals are complicateed....haha..

6.PLAY with her hair....later we put until her hair???she will scolded u for sure...

7.Your hands always find HERS...dunno how to say this..erm..guys are shy too????

8.Be CUTE When she really wants somethings...can we guy really ast cute???

9.Offer you plenty of MASSAGES...again..can really get close to her??

10.DANCE with her,even if we feel like a dork....can we surly would....really!!

11.Never run out of love...we will love u no matter wat ok..just wat can we do to love u to make u happy???tell us pls...

12.Be FUNNY,but know how to be serious....we are always trying to make u smile..and we are serious in love with u...

13.Realize we are being Funny when we need to be serious..i dunno wat this mean?????haha

14.Be PATIENT when she take forever to get ready..ya..we will surly wait for u no matter how long....

15.React So cutely when she hit us and it actually hurts...we may not act cute..but we surly wouldn't hit u back...or scolded we...ok?

16.SMILE a lot...we will and is onli when u are..we can't smile while u are sad ba...

17.Plans a ROMANTIC date full of cheesy things, we wouldn't normsilly like to do' just because he knows it means alot to her....we will on some specials dae..but usually u gals are not free for us as u all have sisters gand..ok...we can't do anything

18.APPRECIATE her....we are ok..if not wat for to be with you making so much efforts???

19.Help others out..i dunno wat this means..but when we help others u all will say why u nv treat this to me???so...

20. Drive 5 just to see you for 1....we will..cause u all dun have time for us....we really need to see u...

21. ALWAYS gives her a PECK ON THE CHEEK when she depart from each other company' even when HIS friends are watching....this problems doesn't lies on us is u gal..u dun let us gif it to u infront of ur frens....

22.SING,even if we can't.... i can onli say this...UR WISH IS MY COMMAND...hee if u dun mind ur ear drum to break...

23.Hve a creative SENSE OF HUMOR.....dun worry we are always trying to makw u happy and laugh no matter wat time wat dae....and wat happens...

24.Call for NO reason....hey..ur bills need money too ok....

25.STARE AT YOU..we will look at u and not stare or u will say wat!? stare wat stare...

26.QUIT smoking,chewing,drinking,drugs-just because we LOVES YOU that much to quit it.... this is true la..not to others maybe but to me...i really quit smoking and cut down my drinking even though she nv say..but guys will..as long as u say u dun like it....ok..?

So u may think tt i am giff u reason...u think gals i am not biase here..i tihnking from a guy brain gif me ur thinking if u are not happy..since i have nth to do....
OMG!!! tml ppl is going to sch le..wished all ppl studying happy...hee...not like me...haha...take care all... i am going to work tml also....9a.m to 6p.m lei...got 1 hr break la... at warehouse...hmmm... a month 900 then o.t 1 hrs 7...haiz.. my dad wan me to work one..ok la..but just now he suddenly gif me 50 dollar ask me to slowly use...hahha..think is dun wan me get from the money box myself..cause i everytime take extra..haha...my parents nagging me to go slp le..but i can't seem to slp all this time..ytd also slp at 5 then wake up at 8..but i ly on bed loh....then nth much...went to ger house play majong..lolz....i bored ma..haha....ok la i offline liao..go act act slp..=P...take care everyone..dun be like me sick for so long..hahhaa..byeZ..
hiaz...now 2006 le...wahaha..dunno wat to expect in this new year... new sch...o lvl de result..wat to do...wat ppl will i meet..wat happen to those old frenz..haiz...i getter less social nowadays... not going out..or out for something then will bbe back home le...let say ytd..haha..bored loh...alone walked home from central..feeling low..damn low...then reached boon lay..over 12 liao..ppl spary and spary those things... i kena lots..cause many frenz in this area...haiz..they so happy...but i just can happy up...haiz...then go 209 there sit...bored loh...then reached home at 2..bath le go online....then see sufyan online both of us chat loh....both cannot slp de ppl... then we chat until bored le..find out hwee qi online then yan intive her...then we find something to do le..haha..we bully her....lolz...then 5 o'clock morning i go make my things... nv slp le..haha...then todae..nth loh...afternoon eat with father and bro....then go play cs at downstair de shopping centre...but i lose until siao..long time nv play...no mood also...then go home le loh..bored..then watch tv and ly on my bed miss her...nth to do le..dun wan see books or words....haiz..sometime i dun even wan to see ppl...lolz..haha...now dunno wat to do also..new year le..bored lei.. i miss last year de time...haiz... i go back rot le...
happy new year to all...a new year began...happy yet sad..i dun wan to leave those times i have last year..happy year of my life...really...nv been so happy...love it..haha...haoz..me can't slp...feeling very the uneasy..haiz..not sick ar..is somethings is bothering me...me dun tihnk i will say it out..but really all this got to do with love..haiz..me ar me....haiz..new hyear dun even have the mood to passed..haiz..bored...
haiz...nowadays dunno why feeling restless....ytd even though my sickness is gone..but i still can't slp....haiz...my life seem busy to others..but i am really free...bored at times...but nv too busy..i felt very uneasily ytd nite...hiaz..dunno why maybe it is cause of her..but not her fault is mine...dunno wat happening to me.....mouth dun like to open..even open liao also no sound come out..haiz...all ppl is busy working or is going back to sch...oooo man...wat is going to happen to me??/?whu the hell know..haiz....
haiz...dunno slp for how long think is 3 hrs++..even though is 8 hrs on bed...causze of my nose and cough..make me wake up and unable to slp.....in the mornign and afternoon still ok lei..but once it reached nite time...i am dead...cough like hell..nose blocked...sore throat...wth...painful life....then cannot eat also...throat is really in pain....eat porrige loh..but also the most eat half onli..haiz....me dunno...now daes is like a routine to me...wake up rot...send ppl come baclk rot...nite ly on bed wait for call then cough..haha...my life routine..lolz....nth happen in my life....just a cycle of my routine..haha...byeZ..
hiaz...just wake up...nono..is come up from bed...can't slp at all...keep waking up ..cause of my blocked nose and cough....i feeling tt my throat will be tear apart when i cough...hiaz....dieing soon..ba...arh....pain...my heart too..i mean real pain...dunno wat happing to me...no really happy and not really sad....dunno wat..haiz...ytd whole dae nv eat at all...dun feel like eating with this throat...drink lots of water like water tank..haiz..hhahaa.....at home rot..haha....todae?? still sick..haha....nth more le ba...lazy to play maple also....

sorry lao da..
just now saw u but cannot call u..
sorry.. i am with my grandma... sorry..


haiz... i am so loney..
no place to go
no ppl to accompany me
nth to do..
all day at home
haiz..
smal bro go OBS camp
and tt camp i am not in as leader
then just drive big bro back to his camp..
nth to do..
haiz.. sianz
rotting..
todae sat..
pfm dae..
xiao brng and ah ki
ok le... happy for they...
hope todae pfm
i wouldn't blur off...hee...
ok le i go practice le..bb
todaewent to cut my hair
maybe to change my feeling ba
so cut lo.
feeling better abit
todae went for syco
but shuinan changed alot
he now think he damn big lo
haiz.. dunno how la... he think got money big deal..
dunno wat to say alot.. things all happen so fast
before u can think and react and it is past
so now..
i think i will not plan forward anmore
i will take one step think one step..
haiz...
tml exam gagin.. bye..
haiz...
really no mood
later exam somemore..
nv study..
no mood to go for exam
but must go..
haiz..
can really get into slp this daes
trying to get other it
but however...
it seem to tie there..
cause they have been very nice to me..
we once were not good at all..
when i first get into the gang
he was at a higher ranked then me..
but less then a month i rished to a high ranked..
he complain.. and fight with me..
then we fight and fight for years
and to last years....
he told me he got cancer..
he told me not to fight anymore..
i agree with him and i quit the rank
of fighter..and changed to admin..
he will call us out even thought he know he cannot stay out long..
he will call us go hospital to play
have fun.. really fun..
but now.. he is gone..
i will refill ur wish
which is to stop fighting in gang
i maight as well quit it soon
but i scared they wouldn't let me go so easily
cause i am at the 3rd higher now...
haiz...
i will try to get out....
cause i can't help you to take O lvl
haiz....

By the way ppl whu see this post..
dun tell pppl tt i am in gang
cause i have been putting this as my secert
with sch frenz..
sorry.. and thanks..


Bye.. going to sch for exam..
haiz..
many daes nv come update le..
very unlucky this wk..
one frenz die
one frenz fall from bike and is in hospital
haiz...
why like tt
haiz...
u all must be careful and take care of urself
i cannot take it anymore...
i am going to die too....
u know it hurts so much in me
to see u all injuried...
haiz...




ok la... tt dae sat
celebrate james birthdae
then go arena with co de ppl
fun la..
but i now no mood to write..
sorry...
haiz..
now in sch
no mood
haiz...
now eltech
so damn sianz..
todae my bro mgo army le..
no chance to send him cause got sch..
i not feeling well at all now..
leg damn pain..
ytd training fall down lots of time
leg cramp no mood play
then kena hit by ppl..
pain lo.. haiz... next wk exma le and pofm... not feeling well
haiz... noone to tok to..haiz..
bye..
haiz..
todae i am sad
but not onli me..
my friend too..
xiao beng..
dun sad.. i know ur bro
beng beng is dead..
he got cancer
but he have passed away todae
u got to go on with life
pls bro..
i know is hard but got me..
afred xiao xiong they all..
we have lots time with u..
take care pls..
we bros are worried for u
really
sorry bro
i can't do anytihng
i'm really sorry...

todae i got ur phone call i am so shocked
i just visited him last wk
and he seem fine
how come todae?
haiz.. bro.. ned any help call me ok...
haiz..sorry
sorry

and
beng beng
take care on ur way down u onli 15
dun bully ppl liao
next life be a good person
dun be another beng liao
u take care on ur road..
sorry i can't help u
but u have made our life very happy though u have cancer
i am very grateful
i will help u take care of ur bro..and ur mum
ok... bye
nv to be seem again..
take care..=(
BYE!
haiz.. is morning liao
sianz..
my bro slping so good
u all holidae liao
me going to sch.. but going to be late
cause my class is at 10..
wahaaha
got test later
wahaha
but nv study one...
fridae nite went to drink with my working frenz cause is my bro last dae of work
before he went for NS..wahaha..
I AM FREE..
ok la.. same after all...
then went home at 3.. haha..
then sat nite went to ALEX birthdae bbq
actually not bbq la
is drinking session
got a little bbq onli
i go drink with him..
we have 7 bottles of chivas
2 box of chang beer and 1 box of ABC
and one big bomb of martell
u noe..the big bomb was finished by me and alex
i nv eat much but drink to full
alex was drunk tt nite
haha.. so funny
ut i can,t seem to get drunk by hard liqour
sianz.. cause i find beer not good to drink le...
haha.. ok la... i going to sch le... or really very late liao.. bb
haiz sianz lei...
so early in class
i so more very blur...
cause last 2 wks i slping.. so i nv do..now so blur
haiz... todae to 3...
so tired..
i slp on bus just now..
somemore injuried finger
coach ask me to chack X-rays cause feel likke a bone went off palce
but i feel noth lei
not pain.. haiz..
wait ba until my pfm and exam finished.. haha
i go do work le... bye..
haiz
so sianz
todae so free cause calss to 12 onli..
but still so sianz.. haiz so many days nv updayte le
but i still dunno wat to updatte also..
everydae just sch sch and sch...
now is my test daes..
so sianz.. haiz...
tired me..
got flu liao..haiz .sianz...
haiz..
i felt so useless..
i LOST MY KEYS AGAIN
and just for a walk down stair..haiz..
idiot me..haiz..
very tired todae.. go lakeside again
but not spending my time teaching
is helping the pipa to tune..
tired u know cause no ppl teaching them
ger is sick hwee qi not free then i dunno got whu le
but james got go
he went off early cause he have something after tt..
haiz.. i am so tired...
ytd at sch to 8++
cause the bloody coach ask me to help him test the year1
new bb player
then got one person play so rough then he wan to fight with me..
haiz.. lame hor
but coach come out scold him
cause i am not in wrong
so he is out
i am not playing for this year one
cause very tired with sch
i tihnk i next year then join
but coach really wan me to be in
he say no good ppl will call me in
see how ba.. better not...
haiz.. tired le.. i go bath le..bye...
now is ELTECH class
is u all so call de physics
hauz...
all about circuit one
so damn sianz...
all math...
so many ppl play game
haiz...
i dun feel like playing with them..
sianz..
shuinan change alot le..
i felt wierd
haiz..nvm
tired life...
got lots of project.. haiz.. i go study le...
haiz
busy life of mine
ppl all exam finished
playing le going out
me at home do project
damn tired lo
todae wake up so early tml also
everytime slp at bus
haiz
i really need so entertaiinment
or i will go crazy really really SOON
haiz...HELP ME
i dun think there is anyone whu can help me..
lolz
me going slp soon
tml got to wake up at 6 again
bye..
haiz... just back from training
knee and ankle damn pain
play againt tong whye todae
fun lei
i almost fight wit h one person
cause he is so rough elbow me
then i rough back
he make until his ankle
then he wan to fight
but i nv
i so happy
haha
i am tired man
really tired
busy with sch and there is this bitch tt dun listen
thinks she is so big with her OWN com and hp
haiz i dun wan to care abt her....
i got a new hp
VS6
ok la
quite nice
haha...
tml i am free
can slp late
so good....hee...
u all take care...
haiz now in my math class
wth
damn sianz lo
teacher sit there i sit here
he also nv tok
onli online math ques
and i dunno how to do
wth
ll wrong
need to redo
haiz
sianz lei
i to 5
later another 3 hr math again
haiz
..............
"TIME"
this is a very strange thing
time can do lots of things...
and really i belive time can make ppl change
for me
i nv know i will be so good even to go training when i am sick
even my coach scold me
but i still play
now i am so pale
time make me wan to study le
i now dun wan to jump classes le
i wan to study
eventhough my class is not tt gd..
haiz
now i am so busy
with sch
haiz
lots of projects coming out
haiz.. i better go rest le
or tml i cannot wake up...
feeling much much much better now
haha...
ytd go see doc
doc still ask me wan to go hospital anot
haha
i dun wan
cause he measure is 39.9
then i go back home rest lo
todae much better
now onli 38.3
HAHA
better le
just now go queenway with mum to buy my shoe
buy le my bb shoe and sch shoe
and knee quard strap and ankle wrap for my bb training tml
haha..
tml i will go sch le
hee...
got 2 dae mc le
haha....
i go rest so more le..bye...
haiz...
i sick le again?
high fever this time
now is 39.6
haha
0.4 more i will go hospital liao.. lolz
haiz.. this few dae feeling not well at all
but i stil go out...
from thurdae i feel not well after my bb trainning
then fridae go sch...
then go cmpb
then sat go lakeside pri sch help the co
tgot one gal like cello very much..
haha...
then sundae go to see my coach match
at kallang..
so far..
but they won..
new match
then reach home abt 12
then mondae fever got worst
but i still accompany my friend go jp to buy things
then reach home at 7
then todae
wake up
damn unwell
fever to 39.6
haiz...
haiz..
just back home
after training
cramp lei
sianz
now walk walk abit also cramp...
haiz.. useless me....
haiz...
sch is so sianz..haiz..
todae take the army letter to cmpb
at redhill
but damn fuck lo..
i reach there 5 sharp
and the bloody guard tell me
we close at 5 sharp
fuck lo.....
haiz...tired and tired..
my basketball shoe spolit liao..
no money buy..haiz..
sianz....
sianz.. now in class...
this class actually to 11 de..
but we all finished early
now can go le
but staying here to blog lo..
later de class is at 12.. so sianz..
still very long dunno go where lei...
haiz..
now my whoel body very de tired lei
cause ytd have bb trainning...
somemore play until my shoe spolit..
haiz..
todae wake up still cramp..
haiz.. later then continue ba...
haiz sch
u think poly life gd meh?
i think sec better
haiz
i long time study
no frenz
sianz
no time yo play
so busy
haiz
sick again
todae nv go scg
cause sick
haiz
wth
first wk opnli
haiz..
my finger haven recover
it is so pain when u move it
haiz..
but i dun wan banaged le
very ugly lei..=X
haiz
somemore tml is trainning
haha
nvm still go ba..
hopefully finger dun broke can le..
wahaha.. tml is morning de 8 o'clock
going to slp le
or tml i will not wake up for sch..
bye...
haiz..
haven eat dinner
haven bath
wat also haven do..
but my finger is very pain
got water bubble
cause i burnt my finger during work
then got this ubble on my finger
pain lei...
to go co..
ok la... very tired..
sianz lo
tml is my first day of sch le..
sianz i dunno is go for all the class or lecture...
haiz.. my class dun wan to tok
sux lo...
haiz... how i wished all the people i know is in my blk..
like secindary sch.. haiz
nvm.. tahan one year
next wk wait for shuiinan and acc to come
then i got someone to disturb le..wahaha..
ok la.. i go bath le...
then eat dinner
then slp
tml class start at 8A.m got to go out by 6.30..so early..
bye
back from work..
haiz actually work to 4 de..
but no enough ppl so work to 11
haha..
but until 9 i go down paly com..haha
too free le..
haha...
work and work
so tired.. tml go co..haha
fun.. sch is too boring for me..haiz.
how to spend my 3 yrs..haiz..
nvm.. i go play game le..
bye
todae haiz
another tired dae
haiz..
wake up at 7..
cause need to reach sch at 9
50 mins de bus then
20 mins from the gate to my blk
DAMN FAR
all this alone
sianz
then stupid ice breaker
briefing
the most stupid is the sch tour
still got games
along the way
so sianz
got one game is shoot bb
then my class can't even get in one ball in 2 mins
then onli got 3 mins
then i shoot lo
save them...
haiz simply sianz
the tour takes 4 hrs...
walk until leg tired
then they say is to 5 o'clock finished
but they pull to 7.. wth
tml will be even eariler
is 8.30 but i meeting yan
so even eariler...
wa...will die
like secondary sch
no ar
worst then tt
haiz..
then i see my timetable
mon wed all the way from 8 to 4
tues fri to 2
thur to 12
haiz..sianz liao....i am tired bye....
cause somemore after todae sch i still go
boon aly csc trainnig
now is nth but pain and tired...
wa.. todae very suay ar
damn it... damn suay
go out
forget bring money
fall down
raining
bow broke when practiceing cello in syco
dunno how to play
come home kena said
ez-link no money
wallet no money
wa..todae i really a very suay day lo
dunno why lei..haiz

tml i got to go sch le..
dunno wat briefing which is so long
from 9-5
damn long
haiz....
new sch...no friend
one person take bus then bus is so long
45 mins.. haiz..
think tml i go there rot
halfway will be gone
then tml nite still got boon lay csc bb training
then just now fall down my waist got black blue...
pain lei..haiz
i go pack my things then
try to slp early ba.. for tml sch...
bye
haiz so late le...
i jsut finished my dinner
which is a slice of cake
haha....
todae nth much
went sch with yan to taek o lvl cer lo
then saw mt teachers
all ask me to work hard
hope so ba
haha
todae when to taek my pay so little onli 46
haiz
work until so tired onli get half dae pay
haiz
then go co too early so go eat lo
then after co go home
rot
watch tv
nth le lo..



i heard tt she have found the him
hee
happy for her
not jealous cause
she will got someone to take care of her le
very de good
hope they will be happy and to him
DUN U DARE TO MIS TREAT HER
OR U KNOW WAT WIL HAPPEN TO U
CAUSE U DUNNO MY BSCKGROUND
BE CAREFUL HOR..
i will not let anyone bully her
anyway hope both of u will be happy and sweet




haha.. like tt 264 daes le
say long not long
say short not short
haha
nvm...i will continue on
and on and on...............................................
haiz.. tired
but dun feel like slping
ytd work to 4
so tired from 3 to 4
is not 1 hr
but 13 hrs
tired..
ppl drink like crazy
they clear our 240 l of beer in just 4 hrs
crazy man....
todae go co..
wan to pluck string use wrong finger
my middle finger is so pain...
nvm.... then play bb awhile to 2
then go home rot
now use com
going to slp soon
bro wan to use com
bye
haha... tt is is injuried finger
haha lame ba..
fucking lame lo
todae wake up phone spolit again
off le cannot on.. fuk lo
cannot tahan liao la... dulan
feel like dun wan use hp liao ar
fuk lo
now typing also so diff
sianz lo
du lan........
haiz......
later still need to go work... with my injuried finger.....haiz....
quite happy todae
cause i got back my phone
with everything still inside
if not i tihnk i wil cry
haha
happy lo things inside
hee..
i injuried my fingers and wrist again
damn it..haiz...old injuries...
like old man everything got injuries..
wahohoho..haha
old man le..todae nite at cc play bb with all those coaches
damn pro
elbow me also
haha
body and hands got black blue..haha
let see tml do wat..
iS good fridae ok..
haha
good rite those no need to go sch
haha
tml morning i got trainning again
haha
i got damn lots trainning
taman jurong csc
boon lay csc
both as player
grizzy
team with jeffery
to coach as well as play
so busy rite
haha
ok la
learning to cope with new surrounding
learning how to left go of things
to see this world in a nice way
haha..
i go see anime le
bb..take care all ok??..haha
todae is geraldine birthdae
wish her tt all her wishes come true
happy birthdae!!!!


me so sianz.. everydae go play bb
haiz
cause i dun wan to be in this home with "him"
then everydae i eat dinner at 1a.m
slp at 6a.m wake up at 10
everydae is just like tt
then go out in the afternoon
my home is just a place where i slp and eat dinner
use com
no more
no more family
life is so sianz
haiz
haiz
very bad news here
my father break ties with me
dunno wat happen
maybe i have nv been listening to him
now is like i have no father at home but someone else
this aopplied to him to less one child one idiot
nvm ba
then i no need to call him anymore
my middle fingers swollen le
big
haha
bb cause one lo
nvm
my mood is down
wake up le
from 10 to now
just wake up
but damn happy
hee..cause i got to see her
and hear her
hee....there was sianz but hear her voice make me so happy
hee...there majong all nite
lose money liao siao
lolz
nvm la
as long as i get to see her can le
hee..
now still bad term with family
dunno how la
they want to get me out of the house liao ba
haha
nvm i also dun like them
find other place lo.....hee..
happy happy to see her...bye
haiz
late in the nite
angry with my father
bro
mum
all family
haiz
i cfm tml not coming home...
maybe not back here anymore
this is not my home
wth i go trainning also cannot
kena lock outside
wth
fuck off lo
haiz
angry lo
why can't i
then u all can go out whole dae
me out for 4 hrs then got to be lock outside?
haiz..
i really cannot understand them anymore
haiz
my foot now likt tt wth..haiz.
nvm tml is a happy dae
cause i get to see her
it is just like a dream to me..
haha..thinking of her..
few daes nv log in le
phone spolit
fuck lo.. i love this phone
casue tt alot of things inseide tt is important to me
i think i will go repair it
no matter price..
but now no phone use...
sianz lo...
haiz..
dunno wat to write
next time then write ba..
byeZ
relived
cause know her hand not tt serious
cause she still can plsy..=X
ok la
but my ankle
dunno how lei..
can someone tell me??
really stop basketball??
or just rest for moment??
but it ankle takes years and money to heal lei..
haiz really confused
just like when i saw her
i dunno how to react
aviod her eye sight
but wan to notice her
onli to look from side
or mrrior lo
but saw smiling and laughting
i am gald..
hee..
todae go bugis with yan
buy bag and present
for ger birthdae coming
but tt nite
i tell her i not staying
but i told my mum i will not be back
and she say i better not come on tt nite
so thinking where to go..and ideas??
sms tell me ok...haha...ty
take care wors....to injured gal..
pain
slpless
tired
wat i have todae
morning use com
afternoon rot at jp myself
at coffenbean
finished my first story
buy tissue from one grandma
no change so gif her 2 dollar
then shuinan meet me 4
eat lo
buy present
he say damn exp
then went home
then trainning
run here and there
and one again
my ankle hurtz
bandage
scolded by coach
friend
family
dunno wat to say
btu i know wat doc going to say when i see him
u better stop playing basketball and running about
but i simply can't
cause if not i do wat?
phone going to spolit also
haiz
com no game
msn no ppl
phone nv ring
no ppl find me
so i find wat ever time i could to training
haiz
dunno see how lo
no one to consult
coach ask me to rest somemore
haiz
i am already getting fatter le lei
haiz
can't slp
saw ppl hand injurie also
haiz
dunno how cannot say anything also
haiz
bye
rot
daes passed
time fly
haiz
just like tt another dae passed
sick
coughing like couging out my lung
nv go co
think there also damn little ppl
all gone
dunno how
haiz
i sick i still go jogging
so lame
cause everydae at home
eat paly slp
nthing else
haiz
fatter n fatter
no choice
or i will die of boredness
haiz
damn sianz
haiz
haiz and nth else
still HAIIZ
haiz....
Alone
noone
loney
missed
is wat i have todae
todae simply alone
noone to tok
noone to accompany me eat
one person alone at home
handphone nv ring
onli music is all i have
no activity
began thinking of a person
wat ever i do
whereever i am
wat ever time
wat mood
wat person beside
i will think of this person
maybe i sld b e doing this for lifetime
i am happy thinking of her
alone...bye
many dae nv come here le....
many things to wrtie..
but
no mood..
dunno why..
haiz..
lots things happen..
going out with the wrong ppl..
i dun mean my bro...
my means my friend which ask me to go pub..
or others...
places which i dun wish to go...haiz..
lots of things wants and need to do
but
nv do..
due to myself...
haiz...when i get better..
then i will write
bye..
haiz...back le...from malaysia...go to tomb sweeping but is there to work la... no time to slp....even thought actually got 2 hrs to slp one....but i was coughing so badly tt i can't slp.... then is = 3 dae nv slp loh... alot things happen....tihnk i will write all this at nite....now simply no mood... sad and sad..haiz...
to nite then continue....
haiz... it is not early le..but i can't slp...cause of the coughing and flu i having....so i feel like waking up and think abt things....this is my nagging to myself..haha....

life....wat is life....many ppl will answer u study work earn money marry children die.. these are stages of life...but to me all these is not life.... to me... life is my very own things...it is something tt i myself passed through no matter happy sad bad good.... all these are my life.... there is this line" heaven send every little things tt u see hear touch feel and taste the 5 senes..but the most important are ppl"...there billions or even more in this world.... but every single one of them are diff..tt wat make us human very diff tt we can conques this very world...we may find a person with a same name or even same look or even same temper..but u can nv find a person with the very same thinking of urs.....so to me i really wan to be in my life knows as many friends as possible...know them understand them and to me they are like my teachers...they teach me... lessons for me in many diff topic chapther..and many more.... i dun wan to have ppl tt dun tok to me even as friends...maybe is me at fault sorry i haven understand the lesson of urs..and u stopped ur class with me...nvm maybe somedae iw ill understand...therefore i wan to know more ppl to teach me in my little life....and i wished to live my life happily..

ok...to here will be my life story...Choke chong hwee simple life.... from young i am a very naughty kids... i remember the first time my father scolded me and ask me to knee other my house is when i am K2... i remember last time there is this family centre on sundae to teach me something...tt very dae i went out the whole dae with ym friend ang teck loong....my mum found me under blk 207 just infont of my blk...she was taking a cane...hah... i know i am dead...i went home..my dad always sitted on a sofa just infront of the door... he will sit there and scolded u... i know my father is very strict..so i stand outside and cry..haha..i know all these years he have tt very fierce infonrt of us but a happy face outside....but i knos he care.... he dun let me anyhow go out cause he worried tt i will do bad things and get caught..but to here i wan to say sorry dad... to this very dae then i know tyhis... i am the trouble in this home... i stole money in my house...fight with my bros...talk back to u...scolded u....even late home or not home... i know u cares....but to me....haiz.. now i know i am idiot..really....i have done lots of bad things in this very world tt most of u dunno...cause no one will come and understand me...nono.. i sld not say this.. is i am not willing to share...nto afraid of throwing face but i think most ppl dun like ppl to be this bad..i can say i am not a good guy at all.... i am not the proud of my family... my bro are all more more cleverer then me really.... i belong to the lazy person....but to those important things in ym life i will be willing to work hard to it.....haha...maybe... siaz dun tok abt me le..haha....next time i will tok to u all abt my bros and those very good friend of mine....haaha..take care everyone..

nowadae many ppl are sick so take care ppl dun fall sick ok..hee..=)
haha... i felt so "heng".. in one simple wk i get to see both docs.....haha..chinese and english..haha..chinese cause i dislocated my ankle then he said need to be bandage for 3months..but i at nite must take out cause i dun wished my dad to scolded me..or he will not let me go play bb...i losted one important person in my life i dun wan to lost the important habit of mine...then i arpil got bb competition...in boon lay....dunno wan go anot..cause by then my leg will be the same....haha..reach le then say by cause no one to discuss with..last time have..now??? nvm... i am down with cough flu fever and sorethroat..haha..so many things...see doc he say wat weather hot then dislocated leg then nv drink much water..haha... i go eat lunch back later...
todae is not a good dae for me...or u can say i am very suay.. i dislocated my ritght ankle..now is bandage......but some idiots...pain like hell....waste my money go see the chinese doc..damn exp and damn pain....can see the bone when dislocated....dunno how yo passed life now...sianz...todae morning go co as usually lo...then next wk got pfm but i can't go neec to go back malaysia for tomb sweeping...important dae....then daryl got angry... ppl go out.....see ppl paly bb and i sit there looking at my bandage..haiz....then just now ger ask me got stay at her chalet anot i say nvm.... but i tell my mum i will be out and not coming back on tt dae....think i can onli throw myself somewhere to passed the nite ba...just now with the bandage i still go find the watch haha... th person see me say will help me check other stord for stock and call me..haha...hope they will find it.. pls...ty....todae is not a very good dae..think i faster go slp to end this dae....byeZ...
haha..just out of bath..just now go for morning run..lolz...run until very far..run until shuinan house there...haha...tired now..but running in the nite is so cool...i got sunburn at my shoudler..pain lei..haha..nite got no ppl also....but haven cough and flu..haha..taking the sea coconut drink like plain water..haha..then scolded by lots of ppl by doing tyhis...why lei??? cannot meh??haha..nvm la.. i am used to it..dunno why..missing important person in my very lousyt life makes a lots of different... i felt so uneasy.... haiz... see my bro around me so concern abt me in someways.... sorry bros i let u all down....not tt i dun wan to follow wat u told me but.... not everything is so easy like u all think... to this stage of my life i haven nv treated a gal so good like i treated her...nv u know not even my mum....this is where i know wat is call sweet talks, where i know how to love someone...listen to her is so nice...not able to see her make u feel so worried...her smell which makes u so happy....lastly her smiles...let u throw everything away then jsut her....to todae i still can't let go sorry.....maybe u all will say this is ur thinking onli....but this is where i know wat is call heartbroken and wat is really a promise..this word is very the powerful...not just to her..but to everything u do and everyone... so i decided to rot..so bros stop pushing me to new gal force me to taek phone no..use my phone msg ppl...say wat i like to be ur friend...look for a galfriend.... i dun wan...not tt they are not good..not u all are not helping me is tt..this is not the way.. i tried very hard to go along u all de wishes....get ppl nos..but..wat is the use??? u think i like u all so handsome meh??i am not ok... i tried my best to smiles infornt of u all...and i will continue to be not letting u all realise.. i wrting this out cause i know u all cares abt me..even thought not many of u are my bros...and u all come from different part of my life.. i am very grateful of ur all....accompany me to find wat i wan...helping me think of many diff ideas for many others things help out in my really small life... i belive tt heaven send u all here is to help me... make me learns and go along with life..i wan to thanks god really... i choke chong hwee have not done any good deed to this point of my life....but all is crime and things tt ppl will dislikes.... i really wan to help my friends bros to be happy too.. i know this may be very hard but u all just need to tell me ur problem and i choke chong hwee use wat ever skill or wat to help u....i know i may make ur things worst but i like to lend u my small ears to listen ti ur big things...ok...thanks....to everyone and to her..
just finished my dinner..haha...now online awhile..going out soon again...haha,,again to search for the watch..haha...bros..thanks for helping me...i tihnk i will find it myself....haha..todae go sentosa with james and nan..got call yan but he sick..get well soon......then now like so dark..haha...ok no time..faster go out find..update later ba...cya..
haiz bored....just now alfred come my house watch show de concert dvd...he got one alone house watch dun wan come find me...lame lei u...haha..he is a very good bro of mine..damn good...handsome ok..haha...the conert good nice...show is handsome..dance and sings really well..haha..alfred still wan copy him..haha..think cannot la..haha....sianz lei me... no aim in my life...damn sianz...haiz.....
haiz...long time nv update...dunno is not free or wat..think is no chance use com ba... very tired now..damn tired...ytd nv slp at all..not cause i dun wan slp is can't slp + got trouble..from12 i went to bed then wan slp but just turn here and there..then 3a.m got call say got trouble in company..then i take cab to tuas checkpoint..alone lei...wth..then faster drive all the way back...idiot..have meeting at 6....wth.....big trouble..haiz...then went home..see the big big pic of u hung on the wall....really missed u lots....haiz.... then slowly drive back...very suay lo....scolded by cousin..say i dunno how to see gals...haiz..dun tok abt it...then dad say go make passport since back le...then waited damn long lo...damn it...so tired....alot trouble..haiz..then dunno why malaysia lamp post got this stivk come out..dunno for flag or wat...the problem is it is too low ok...wth...haiz...i hit 3 times...suay rite..haiz....then back lo...tired like hell...

haha..many daes nv update since sundae...sundae nth la go co as usually..robert got go..ger also...nth happen ba..haha..then mondae go out with robert and shuinan..haha...cause no sy ma..haha....go suntec city..rmd tt time i siad will accompany u go there shop one....haha...we ate ice-cream..haha..tuesdae morning go shuinan gouse paly majong with yan and robert...then after tt go jp then to arena..then home....

i have been looking for thw watch damn long...mondae see 2 guys on mrt have lei..wth...nvm i will find it....now almost every nite go out look for it..later also..hee.....i go bath then go out look for it lo...cause JB also dun have....maybe really cannot find then i import le....byE
haiz... this few daes just doesn't wished to move at all....sianz...haiz..todae morning nv go co...cause lazy then shuinan and james meet me for luch..then go lo..then shuinan go orchard gif things james go home i went home too...sianz...until 6 went shuiann come back...find me for dinner..damn sianz ar...then go bb..but i sit there rot..haiz...just felt so sianz...
haiz..just missed her...a sudden plash of her slping cute face...it make it worst... todae is a bored dae.. i stayed at jp from 2 to 11...damn long.....haiz...sianz....dunno wat to do..wth....i am tired..but missed her lots...
haiz...tired...wake up ba shuinan..dunno him ytd nv go sch todae also..wth...he hor..later gif me scold....i dun wished him to be like me.....i wan him to study....haiz....todae later going to bring yan and james to interview...then i do my booking also then we 4 bros can work together..haha..even when sch start....haha...then i think i go find the watch somemore...i really wan to find it....no matter the price..ty bros for accompany me to find or u helping me find..ty alot....ytd the bloody shuinan nv go sch...call me at 7.30..wth ask me go his house cause he no keys..his keys with me...cause before tt dae he come my house....then we went to eat breadfast..then meet james..he go cut and dye his hair..nice lei....haha..i no money to dye one...haha..then we went to sing k at central..haha..it makes me think of lots of things before...haha....then go syco i rot there..haha....my dad dun let me buy cello even i have the money...haiz.....i think i will spend the money on ppl birthdae coming...so ppl those whu birthdae coming can tell me wat u wan then i will help u...haha...
haiz haiz...nth to do... i dunno wat happen to me..sometimes..dun even wan to move a inch of my body...then sometime purposely busy like hell here and there...i dunno why...todae half dae at home..then shuinan come find me eat lunch...suddenly one....then go play bb..he and si ping bully me....haiz.. i lousy ma...saw teck loong too...long time no see..haha..so handsome..where got like me so ugly..haha....then went home rot again....damn sianz..wat have happen to me??haiz..unable to cheer up at all..happy for wei long..break with gal friend but problem solve 6 hrs later..haha..so lame....then my daughter broke off with her stead....haiz...dunno why alos...make her so sad...nth i can do also..sorry.....
yoz....not early le...haha..nth to do so blog loh....ytd ar....morning and afternoon stay at home rot...the remote wan gif me press until spoiled liao la..haha..then meet james and yan say wan go out..then meet at jp saw ger kelyn and shuinan they just after sch....then go arena loh..no place le..haha....then shuinan come at 8.30..we play until 10..haha...crazy....then all go home...i and shuinan go drink...haha..awhile onli la...then go home loh..whereelse....nth much...then todae still thinking wan to go trainning anot... my old injuries still pain...haiz...i wan to blog abt something one...but i forget wat is it...haha.. next time ba...
just bath and ate my dinner..haha...todae out...haha.morning go to sp with james and yan..then meet irfan and hwee qi..haha....then go np...saw many ppl....all appealing to their course..then went to qeenway shopping centre with yan and james....eat the katong laksa..haha very the nice....haha then went back to sch..meet shuinan and yan packet for shi hui..haha so good..then meet shuinan and james again at 4.30 go out lo..haha.. play at jp to abt 6...then go marchie at HMV there...haha.. also help friend find watch..but all the other colour have but she wan de is white..dun have..haiz..nvm will keep finding ba...haha..then james go pick his gf..haha...at bugis...there also dun have white colour de le....his gf not bad....haha...with him very gd ma....haha....jealous...=X..haha.... then he send her home i and shuinan search the watch again but no news...haha..then we went home together....haha...then my leg damn pain...old injuries come out..haha..manyu cause todae out...haha...
wahaha.. i slp for more then 14 hrs....haha..the longest i ever slp.....ytd afternoon take slping pills then now then i wake up..haha...damn sianz....twice each dae once need to take 14pills of medi....sianz...ytd morning went co...then after ttt go eat..then went home...nth to go slp loh...since need to eat 14 pills then i eat 2 more slping pill to slp loh..haha..nth much le ba...later go cc de co need to go early cause kneed to make scpres again..haha..cya
haiz..can anyone tell me how to slp??? i can't slp..maybe should go see doc..haiz...dunno why....sianz loh... i see her also dunno how to face her....haiz...she seem like a book which i will not understand even though i used time...a mountain tt i will nv reach the summit...dunno la..haiz....collect pay le...vur also wan money for wat....got things also no mood use...i injure my left ankle again while playing bb...cannot see doc or he will kill me..ask me dun play bb le...bujt i cannot... how can i just simply throw away something i like so much... like her...haiz... maybe times will heal...actually i dun mind her not with me...but tt dae i sae her aleast she smile even though not to me..but i felt a better lots......i have no job now...at home rot..dunno wat to do... my mum very happy now.... cause my bill from$200++ to just $38 this month...wa big drop rite...wahaha....crazy..phone nv ring de..like useless...haiz...lot time nv see lots of ppl....especially aflred..haha.. i very gd bro of mine...went to usa to help in his father business...rich guy ar....todae he come back..wahhaa...i still need to go pick him..using his car..later i kena caught how??haha.....see ba..catch le then say la...before tt i still need to go scg de co later....9 but meeting shuinan for breadfast.....sld be ba.... now i am worried abt xiao xiong....a very big bro of mine and aflerd..he injurie..haiz...fight la fight so more......haha...hope u dun see this..nth le ba...
haiz..back le... sianz..more and more medicine le.....there is so sianz...no ppl...onli me and the tv....my life totally drop to the worst point..where i get to 40.3...so cold...where my body hot...even whet to the ice rm...torture is all i get....headache is everything..... rmd tt time tt i went to hospital the chair u sit...where i call u mummy..u were angry....but ytd tt very chair in the very same place were very empty....i could felt nth but cold and tohughts of onli tt chair..tt playing mood tt i used to have....maybe tt is the past...ok dun wished to sadded my blog anymore... i am just down....
haiz.. i am sick...since sundae...fever on and off...cough and running nose..damn sux..make me can't go work..then my dad dun let me wotk anymore..haiz..going to rot.... he still say tml still on anf off i going to go to hospital at nite..haiz.. i dun wan...so sianz there..alone.with 4 walls and no ppl to come to visit me...haiz.....i nv go work...sorry yan.. i can't work anymore...sorry....haiz...sick le...nth much...bye...
haiz...4 in the morning..so sianz..todae i nv go work..cause damn sianz..haiz....i lost contact with all ppl....lonely soulz here....realise tt time past can't really heals wounds.....todae go co....haiz..nth much...tml go co...then need to work again...tt my life.....haiz...how.. i dunno wat to do....i am at all lost now....really lost...i felt like crying out.....but there is no one to listen....to say out wat i feel to everything but there is none....in this very middle of the dawn..i am here...siting alone infront of my com...when all is slping...and then tears drop.. it makes my keyboard wet...but is there anyone to hold out one tissiue to lend it to me???? anyone beside me asking me why are u crying??? there is none... my father just saw me todae for a wk..and did he say anything..none....haiz...there goes my life...turning into somewhere there is worst....onli sadness and lonely....where i will be just alone in the darkness where no lights will be there to shone on to the path where i sld walk...i tumple and fall...and i just couldn't pick myself up anymore...how i wished just to end it here.....with all the pains and sufferings.....................................
just come out bath.....haha...back from work again...haha.... it is like a cycle....everydae same things...haha... go work at jp de bus stop...then come back abt 7.40a.m same bus stop...then walk to pioneer mall with yan..then he go home i walk past 706 then to shuinan house there the bus stop to go home.....then reached home on com..go bath..then blog..see got ppl online ma....but mostly no ppl de....then i go slp lo..then wake up then need to go work again....my life is just like tt... i lfelt like i am living in another country..cause i see no one other then yan and ppl working there...then no contact with others.....haiz...say until ppl..i felt i miss her lots..been a wk nv see her le... felt really strange...cause something really important is missing in my life....it changes..haiz...see ba...april her birhtdae..then see ba...cya..
just got back..rot for 12 hrs..whole 12 hrs do screen test..wa..sianz lo....not tired at all..the job is not tired but damn sianz....my department damn slask one...haha...just now going home walk with sufyan then we see one snake in the canal..at pioneer park there..haha..then when i walk past blk 708 de fitness park..i saw 1 old uncle and 1 indian male wearing a shirt write army.. then they both do the hand push..the uncle very old le but do like nth....then the indian boy do until wan to die like tt....haha..somemore very skinny...lolz....then go home loh...wan to eat no ppl accompany me....damn sianz... i tihnk i go bath le slp..since nth to do le....bye...work later...
juat back not long ago...still having fever headach like hell....the job not tired but damn sianz...timw slow down...haiz.....i onli get to tok to yan on break and sometime break diff time then cannot tok..haha.....

i belive tt a min of happy moments with ur loved one will a forever picture....cause during the 40 mins break...i went to sit then my head damn pain.. i look at the sky i saw the stars..so nice..abd then i see her face in the sky...and the time she was laughing happily..haha..tt is the onli time i dun feel my head any pain..it last for 30 mins..so good.. i simply miss her.....
omg..working later..wth..todae got fever...wa lao....sianz....head and body all very tired and pain...haiz...bo bian still got to work...haiz....i dun dare to eat medi cause scared later work half then fall aslp....haiz....very dizzy now...bye...
haiz..todae is a damn suay dae for me....sauy unitl fall down 6 times...wth...leg and but very de pain ar.....suay ar.....2 itmes fall down at stair at cc cause run up and down....for scores..then 2 times fall at my block de stairs.....then 2 times cause floor wet..then i slip and fall..this 2 is the most painful one...haiz...then sitll having this idiots running nose....haiz...sneezeing non-stop also..haiz..todae when to co in the morning..then i run up and down to make scores then take out bass nv even play a note and it is time to go home..after tt go find shuinaneat lo..he ask me one...since he so free go lo..then is ask me go bowling cause mondae he got bowling competition in sch....haha..but i still win him..lame..haha...then when home fall down...ar.....dun tok abt fall down anymore..how i wished i could take oput my nose....ar.........tml start work le...7 pm-7a.m..hope it go well ba...then it will change my life le...actually nth much will change....if i can change the way i am tihnking i will had change not to todae friends...i know u all care abt me..but this kind of things not i say gif up it will gif up de....there are damn lots feeling in it..sorry guys...maybe times will drift it away...making me less painful..haa...i dun mind having this pain...haha..dun tok le la..wahaha..sianz at home...ar.....bye...
just got home not long....todae when to taman jurong to help out in the chingay..lolz...sianz..but fun also..but aleast i get to see her....i todae whole dae sneezing...so sux....todae morning wake up late cause 2 daes i nv slp then ytd slp at 5 then wake up at 11..haha..nv go co...then shuinan come find em eat lunch...then he go see doc cause he fridae nv go sch..then go see doc..the nurse ask whu see doc...shuinan say is he..then the nurse ask comfirm anot..haha.. i look more sick then him..lolz...then go taman jurong le...after tt see rhino..long time nv see this bro of mine...then go drinking session..lolz...jujst drinking and toking cock ok..cause u all cfm i will smk de..but i nv..haha.. i also shocked....drinking session i nv smk..haha.....then now just bath come out...chat alot up with my bro.. he is much much more better then me..haha...ok la...nth much le...
haiz.. i am tried from smileing and laughing infront of ppl....how i wished i can cry infront of they....haiz...no choice...whereever i go i see memories of u...even alone i tihnk of u...haiz...todae go job interview..then start work on mondae...7p.m to 7a.m....going to be working then slp then work again....haiz.....
haiz...i live my life aimlessly and sadly now...haiz...i dunno why i got so many promise in so manyt ppl and i broke the one tt is to my most important one...and just now will cause everything between us...so i decided to fulfilled tt promise back..i know it will not do any help between us anymore..but i wan to go back to the promise...haiz..sorry.....i hurtz more for u to be in disappointed with me than anyother things...haiz....sorry....u take care ba...byeZ...
end of my life here....did things really wrong over here...damn wrong...i fault here..breaking ppl promise...nth more i can say..cause i really did break it...life is so stressful for me...haiz... i lost things really important to me now...i thought i lost it long ago but now it is really lost...i regert picking up the thing i throw away...now i am sad...disappiont with myself... i can onli say sorry...sorry for beaking ur promise...sorry...

i know i break my promise here but not all...haiz..but i am wrong..nvm..sorry
valentine dae have just passed... ppl happy???hope u all are happy and not like me..haha...ppl go out..and i stay at home...even my mum ask me why nv go out..so lame...i see lots of happy couple here and there...so jealous of them..haha..nvm...i however not angry with anyone but myself..haha..nv cherish tt person...regrets comes..haha.. so ppl hope ytd u all have a happy time with ur loved one and together..and those single will have ur loved one out to u very very soon..=)..and me?? miss her lo..can do nth.. ppl ask me gif her things..even thought nv go out..i have things but nv contaact...ask me to wait outside her house.. u all very the funny..u tihnk she live alone ar......haha..nvm the things is with me and i will keep it to somedae...haha...


i still can't eat lots of things..haiz...then i cook myself loh...other then eating outside...then i at home just come and com..haha..so bored rite.....then actually todae got work one..damn it...the mike la..bluff me and yan...fuck off...angry lei...waste my time....haiz....then later back at home again....nth to do again.. i can't seem to go to aslp again....how??? slping pills...useless le...le....nvm..bang my head againt the walls..haha good ideas rite..haha...todae i do one kind things tt is to help my frienz create blog...haha..so lame....nth to do..haha...
nth much loh..my life...nvm it is going to change..erm let say todae..i dunno wat time i wake up...haha..then meet yan at 12 in jp..see wat course he wan to take..then meet ger and kel..after they go to sch...then go eat..then pool for awile..they go off..to shopping i tihnk...dunno nv tell me..haha...then i and yan call the sing hitech..to ask got work anot since we doing nth...then say got..say 4.30 must reach or will be gone..but the time they call is 4...we rush hm then there but it was too late it is gone...haha...then go jp loh....then he go home le.. i contineue loh...saw thoedore...play again..so sianz...then go syco but late le..go cc onli...meet shuinan and james..tok on the way home...james is very de fine...with galfriend le....wa...tml i still need to help him see got rose anot..haha..he wan gif his galfriend...haha..i dun have...no ppl wan....bought something but.....nvm.....next time ba....not on valetine..haha..tml i got to work le...nite shift...going to be tired... i think i now go force myself to slp first...bye...

HAPPY VALETINE PPL....


this is also the 201 dae i wait for her and i will be still waiting..cause i love her...and this is the every first time i pass valetine dae and it is waiting for my love one...i know now i am not the best guy for u i will try to be..and till the dae i willbe the guy for u...i will still be waiting...4ever..nv going to say goodbye..
haiz...haven been feeling well at all...dunno why...and i am sick..damn sick..wat i eat come out....haiz..onnli plain things...therfore i seem like not eating everything....todae i saw a father pushing his baby in a baby chair and taking pics...both of they laugh and smile so happily..and i realsie i haven been doing this since a long time..i even forget how to laugh out...something is bothering me...but i dunno how to solve it...ppl just say things tt wouldn't works...just plain toking...so i can onli reply yes yes...and nth more...i have been trying very hard to smile and laugh it out.. i feel so strange and wierd when i smile or laugh....something really bad is putting me away from my past....maybe things change..i dunno..now my time pass like a min=a year.. so long..so pain...so..watever...dunno.... tml going poly with yan..he wan ask his corse..me? dunno..actually nth to ask..nvm..go ba...since no ppl need me..i am a loner...haiz...i can't speak myself out to ppl....even thought they may be the best ppl around i just can't pass myself this lvl..sorry ppl...maybe sch start i will be busy with myself to make me feel nth?? maybe i will go find one nite shift job..where i work at nite when ppl slp and morning slp when ppl is around...finding in process ba....nth much le..dunno wat to write....bye
haiz..i can't slp again.. i am worried sick for her...i dunno how....really i am worried..just tok with shuinan over this matter just now...he after work come find me..then tok loh..haiz...i feel very the wat u know...dunno how to speak to her also....haiz... i got my result but i am not worry at all for myself..but other.. i see jerome drop his tear...first time....i felt so useless..before tt he is so nervous...tiong zi cheng too...but he scores..ok loh... i am very worried for this ppl...as a frenz or wat.. i dun care...i dunno wat to do...when i heard she can't go up... i almost cry out u know...haiz...me felt so useless now...wan to help other but can;t do a single thing of my own where do i get this rite to help others...i am stressful now....and simply worried sick for her...
Good morning ppl..haha..a brand new year....5.15 now... haha..now many ppl are going to be awake to sch or wat..but me??? haha..haven even slp...cannot fall aslp lei....haiz...worried for others......praying hard here............good luck everyone....
dunno wat to update.....nth to update lei... no programme for me..so nth happen at all...todae wake up damn late 11.46....dunno why also..tired.... i dun understand human... nv slp also tired...slp too much also tired.....haha..very lame hor.... then 3 o'clock go down eat with loo hick..but i nv eat...drink water onli...then play com outside....play until $5.30..like idiot..got com at home dun wan play go out waste money..hhaha..scold me ba..haha..then got call from singapore hi tech make motorola phone one ask me go work...todae.. 7p.m to 7 a.m..dunno why i dun wan work..i tell him sat ba..he say will call me again..i tihnk no hope le..haha..idiot me again rite..haha....then when home....keep sneezeing..like someone have keep scolding me after i bath...until now...haha...tt person very good can scold me so long..must tell me whu u.. i be good frienz with u.. i like being scolded by ppl..haha...very cold todae... no ppl to tok to... i have lots of things to tok to..but i need a listening ear...haha..not to com..haha...haiz...tml result le... i have no feeling for it at all...even thought is my first time taking o lvl...haha...but i think thousand of ppl are nervous now.. some can't even slp.... but here i am very nervous..but not for myself..but for my frienz and her...really hop they get wat the really wished for..so heaven pls help them...hee...thanks heaven..have a nice straight path for them... for me??? anything..even the worst one also can... i know i will not have a good path de...haha..so i am willing to let ,my path go chaos and they clear..hee..thanks heaven...Best Luck to all.... LasT Thanks you heaven....Nite..
nth much happen...stay at home loh....haha..tv and com whole dae....haha...go out walk walk awhile inthe afternoon...too boring le....haha...then just now my dad tok to me abt the result...he onli think tt i will failed...keep asking me failed how??? how do i know?? ite loh....wat more??haiz...then is the last sentence he said make me real sad.... he say" i see u also will not passed de la better think wat to do" this make me real sad..i know i haven been good in anything...but also no need for this kind of words ba....haiz...no comment....

nowadae i see tt many ppl like to keep saying wan to die..dun wan carry on..dunnno wat to go on in life..life is meaningless and so on.... haiz...this not the ways of life....u know how many ppl wan to continue to live on with frienz and family and they can't???u whu have a good family and lots of friends keep saying no meaning in life....i dunno wat to say to u..but u shouldn't say all this...this makes all ur friends and family real sad...they felt tt they are meaningless to u tooo..u see.... sorry i am not shooting anyone....i get very down nowadaes..dunno why....but dun worry i will smile to all...even the darkest moment of my life....and tt have past....
hee...bro just use finished for his project so i use loh...dunno wan to slp anot...haha..lame...nth much loh...just plain not feeling well so many things i can't eat and do....so sianz my life....fridae getting results le...very the fast loh....like tt is already 3 months after exam...not feeling at all for myself but nervous for my bros..and friends....u all will do well de la...no worry..haha...but me???dunno haha...

time passed fast and slow....is just wat we are feeling...ppl feeling time passing in diff pace...when happy times files...sad times slow....missing ppl..time simply stop...there is many things in this life of mine tt i miss...not get the hold of it..and let it pass..nv work for it or not working hard...this is all due to human feelings....we or me...just to think of past..and get bother abt it...and we can do nth..just think and think and get worst and worst....when u are abt to bee gone..u realise tt u have alot of things tt u wan to do but haven...u dun wished to hurt ppl but not telling them..but to thise really important u wanted to tell them but does they care or even hurtz???not really sure by others...but me would like to hear problem from anyppl so tt i could help them as much as i could...not until it get worse till it cannot be solved...i will try to help as much as possible....not like me..wher no one can help anymore...haha...

now is my things le..wahaha..this is the most boring part..haha..i very lame..ytd i cut the thick skin of my foot then bleed...i thoough stop liao then i go to cut hair...i feel my foot very sticky after cutting my hair...then i reached home see my blue slippers become brown..haha...cause bleed alot..wahaha..but not pain de lei...haha...nt ba...stay at home watch tv..no ppl ask me out..haha..boring loh...haha...just now go out with shuinan then when we go home we nv eat dinner then we buy bread and water at 7-11...sit at the playground..haha..lame loh...we litter..wahaha..tok cock...then we know got ppl we know live at 5 floor..shuiann say wan call her from below...i say crazy..haha..he really crazy liao..but he also sad...his gal dun wan him...same thing..cause the gal like another guy le....i dunno wat to tell him so just tok cock to make him smile...but i realise one thing making a guy smile is alot easiler than making a gal smile..haha...nth much le...haha

LASTLY TO ALL TAKING RESULT THIS FIRDAE ALL THE BEST..WITH FLYING COLOURS..HEE..=)
back from malaysia ytd nite..hee....nth in malaysia..i onli stay at my house...in my room and nth le.....sick...todae morning go cc for pfm then very not well....haiz...dunno why...but i get to see her....so happy...but very unwell so nv tok to anyone even to her..haiz.....
yoz..early in the morning..i still awake..haiz..wth man..i can't slp..haha..........i find this very nice web...haha...

http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1114762677/The_F_word

haha...all abt how to use fuck..haha...lame one..haha..
haiz..now 3 le..dun feel like slping...last few dae..haha..to enjoy my small little life..haha.....dunno why...i am onli worried abt one person b4 i go..haha..nvm ba...think she will be ok..since i am there or anot makes no diff...haha...dun care le.....since no ppl will rmb me de...onli will be relive..tt i will not be nagging her..haha...cheers.....for chong hwee tro be gone..haha...todae nite i am gone....and sundae moring..i wil be.................................................haha..=P not telling..haha..bye everyone..no need to vist anymore..thanks for all urs care to me....and i have fun in my life..thx....
haha..these few dae sick..haha...stay at home....haha..nth much happen just miss lot of things.....sch and friend.....haha.... i also very de blur nowadaes..haha..cuts on my hands..haha...stupid ma..open can also cut myself..haha...sick onli can stay at home eat maggie..so open can oh....haha..

haha..this will be my last post....i going back to malaysia...for dunno how long..maybe will not be back le..haha..not going to tell u all the reason..shuinan know..but i tell him not to say dn ask him ok..haha...tml going to sch to help him with pfm..haha..miss lots of ppl...they going to go areana tml..haha..i can't go..cause i will be back at malaysia le...haha..u all must enjoy ar...haha..take care everyone..and dun miss me..hee..forget me..haha...BYE...happy chinese new year....take care everone...bye....=(
haiz...i am going to live in a shut up world now.....i going to shut up ant tok to anyone in my family....since wat i say is all lies...so wat is the use????? i ytd when to syco..but thry dun belive..so wat....and deletle my messages.....wth....it is my percious message u know...blood hell...she will onli send once and u do this to me...i hate u...fuck off family....

i am badly sick todae..so morining nv go wait....having fever and headach.....nvm noone cares...home also no ppl..onli me and myself....lunch????not eating le...no mood + sick...actually wan to go jpb interview with sufyan one...but wth...i sick....haiz...dunnno wat to do...all ppl so busy...i am very worried abt her now...dunno how is she....and just a few more daes before i am gone.....unable to see her....she is now very far from me now....haiz..miss her lot lot..but nth i can do..dunno how to approach her...haiz....shuinan good loh...he like one sec 2 gal in his sch..then she now got reply him le..think he happy like hell....good loh..wished this is something he will treasure....
haiz...sianz loh....broke le..now adult fare...got to pay for my travel.....afternoon eat instant noodle...no good de...eeeee...morning same thing...wait for her 1 hr but nv see..haha..nvm..then i walk home..cause bus very exp lei...haha..ok la..is my ez-Link just no money..haven top up...then at home rot loh.....see tv....nth much so bored..think of this fridae night need to go malaysia le..haiz.....can i dun go???? i am off with my family....haiz..nvm...i dun care...later neeed to go find shuinan go syco todae....so sianz also...haiz...i onli wan to see her....arhhhhhhhhhhhhh...damn bored lei...wth...haiz....having very bad headache.....maybe is nv slp well ba..haha..nvm no one cares....
haiz...ytd very late slp so play maple with sufyan..to 3..then think todae got co so slp le...then wake up late at 11.30...then rush there l,oh..nth much also...no ppl one...haha..bored then at home all the ways since no ppl at home so good..haha..nth much lei..sorry...bye...miss her lots...haiz..
haiz..bored..can't slp again....todae mornign meet shuinan go sch de co...ji nv come...morning de time waiting for shuinan come down saw kelyn and geraldine they going to work..haha..both of them look so tired...then with shuinan go eat breadfast....then go sch...then got 2 new come one come to our grp..haha..then i teach the 5 lines scores..ok la...they got the basic le...easy for me also...then after tt help ger take things from her house to her workplace..then go jp..sae audrey doing flag day..lame....then we went home le.... i at home damn bored loh....nth to do de..watch tv.... then 7 went to cc de dinner...but wet..cause suddenly rain..i wet..haiz..go there also nth de...waste my 10 dollar..cause most of them nv go..i at there so bored then ai lian come entertain me..haha..her husband also..lolz.....then they all sing chinese new year de songs....i dun like sings song de..so rot loh..after tt 10 finish..dunn feel like going hm..went to bb court saw andrew then play awhile loh..reached home at 11..then come my bill...now is this..cause i quarrel with my whole family...espically my fucking older bro....act big onli...fuck u la...bro so wat... i dun wan fight with u onli...u think i will lose u..go die la....my bill is damn high..cause i go malaysia last time i still use..$440++..i see liao also shocked...nvm la....scolded liao..also like tt...haiz..the problem is me la...dun liek like toking anymore...damn sianz,,haiz,,life change suddenly.....
haiz..i can't fall asleep...haha..dunno why la..todae ok la..morning meet shuinan he nv go sch...say sick..lolz....then we send ger to work...then i accompany him go see doc...nth much..then we go arcade..he playy i see loh..haha..i cononel liao he still knight..haha..so i let him play loh..i also no money play..poor..no job...haha..nvm la..new year coming....then come my house ..then go his house..lolz....then meeet james..go syco..haha...we tok abt lots of thing..haha...bros ma...syco damn boring ar....after tt we walk to cityhall..have a drink then go home...we walk home loh..haha..then i tok to shuinan abt how life is meant to be..lolz..i onli know how to tok...like i always like to say.....heaven gif u ppl not to change u..but be part of your life...to make u learn things..so behind everything there is a reason of it to be there...haha...then now at home..can't fall aslp..dun feel like playing game..then todae saw her finger the skin shredded cause of her working there carry things..heart pain u know...but i dunno wat to do...she seem ignore to me...to here ba...tml got cc de dinner...omg i forget tell mom..nvm la..they dun care de..
haiz..i felt tt i have change or ppl around me had change...i felt really diff todae...dunno why...morining is ok..i do back wat i do..but nv will i have thought..she came down..haha..really happy to send her to work even thought nv tok not even eyes contact..lolz..think is me la..dunno lei..i got alot of things wan to ask her and tell her one..but i see her so tired and i open my mouth no words come out..dunno why i dun even dare to look at her straight...me ar me..dunno lei haiz....wat had happen??? then after tt go home rot...then meet shuinan.. he ask me to meet him one..then we go eat luch loh...then he got call for work..haha..then i accompany him go to work..then i one person take bus from orchard to boon lay..1 hrs++..haha...nvm la....then go home rot...then at nite got friendly match...we won.. 98 to 64..haha..but my leg is getting worse... my coach tell me to go see doc.....haha...or will be like him...walk also damn pain...haha..nvm i got wear ankle support and spray the deep heating le..but still very de pain...dunno how..quit bb??? i dunno from young this is the leg i make it myself.....all because of bb..haha..nvm i like wat.. like the gal i like i put in lots of effort..haha..then after the match my leg very pain..so i go jurng east there find my medi..but cannot find lei..then is 10+ le..i go to take bus 99 wished can see her there but no..my leg is really pain..then i go back le..sorry..haha..not at home still pain.. my bro wan use com for his project le..cya..
haiz..back from waiting for abt 1hrs and 30 mins.. cause i thought she working 10 ma..then she go out at 8+ de..but nv see her...haiz..nvm is i nv ask her...i dunno why...i really wan to message her..but i got a force tt is pulling me back...i know i am not important to u ..but u are the most important things in my life....all the things u say i rmb..and when u say to me like up to u or anything..it hurts...but it's ok... i nv put the blame on u...cause as i have said u had say clearly...so i just wished i could glance at u from far..to see u fine..

btw..sorry ppl..ur gathering on 27 of jan..icannot go...is not i dun wan go..sorry..i going back to malaysia..i tell my mom i late one dae go in can..she say cannot..sorry..i dun wished too...but hope u all enjoy ba.....

haiz...going back to malaysia...from 27 jan nite to 4 fed....haiz...going to miss lot of things...haiz...but is her the most...
haiz....wth...now suay things come to me ar...wtf.....firstly the bloodly job...wth...sale of the bloodly kompang senga card....tok to 200+ ppl onli sale of 15 cards...wat.. at lavender for the whole dae....i go training also dun have so tired....leg pain like hell..so both of us dun wan work le..haha....then ppl see u holding the card they will run .. like i am a monster...wth..now i understand why i dun like to see those ppl to..like my leader damn sux..not sux to me..but to the ppl he selling to..it seem tt must buy dde...damn fuck...he push the card to ur hand u hold and there it goes...ur 10 dollar...omg..if i see him outside..i cfm run 2km then i stopped...scary lei...nv stop...ok la i learn alot of things...and some of u know i am the "inside' person..dun tok much one...no topic..this is the first time in my life i tok to soooooo many stranger..wth....nvm nvm...this si sad..but the second one is worst to me..haiz...

then the lastly is hor...her attitude suddenly change...damn sad loh....dunno why...maybe cause i cannot pick her from work?? dunno..haiz..nvm..she had told me before le...she is not my girlfriend...haha...so no link..onli friend..haha...i am tired..but free back..no work le...haiz..dunno how to tell her...think ba..then she also sick le...no comment...cause she dun reply me one..ahahahahahahahahahahahhahahah...byeZ..
haiz....just finished my dinner....bored loh..dun feel like eating....need to buy myself somemore..haiz...i like a maid....father call me to go down packet....then he come bacl eat le going out..but then before he go out..he is nagging at me again.....say me is a making him worried at all time..wth...as if ok....then tell my small bro to study and not be like me..haha.. the biggest joke of my life..haha...my small bro..wahaha..big joke lei..haha...funny....u think he is still the small boy tt u play with him 5 yrs ago..wahaha..wake up..father...he is worst then me..not tt he had done bad things more then me..is tt he attuitlde..aiya..i know spell wrong dun care la...he is damn pretty....he wouldn't treat u anything one...and then u go out.. u must treat him some how...he is oppsite of me interm of handling of money..haha..he safe like hell like there is an bank onli for him to full it..haha..then me???haha...spend money like there is no tomorrow..haha..to me there is no plan at all.. this is true...me had no plan one...dae pass like tt loh..haha..then my bro can talk back to him u know..and me??? tok back i get rewarded..haha..slap on my face..haha..my father is a very old feeling man..he dun go with fashion..maybe this is the onli point i can tell he is my father..haha..but his thinking..haiz..old like ancient???worst then tt ok...tt is the small like my big bro..haha..he had went out to pick my mum..haha...feel so quiet..haha...but he dun let me go out....haiz...how????? i am going to be worried again....haiz...the uneasiness is here already...nth much ba..all this is abt my father..how much i "like" him..haha..tml course le....hee...
haha..dunno how many daes nv update le...wahaha....nth much...got back my sim card le..hee... then found a job..mondae need to go for the course....haha...2p.m..haha...nth much ba...still sending ppl to and from work...but ytd nv..wth...then i damn worried sia....can do nth...wth....at last got her message then..phew...nth much le ba...life pass....father keep scolding me...haiz...i say before and many times le ok... i nv smk le...u dun belive go ask ppl la...wth...everydae say i smk smk smk...wth...hate u ....i go where also must tell u... the other two bro go where u also dun care one... late come back got nth..me???? every now and then u will have somthing to scold me...wth.. i buy the spary leg one u also wan scold me..... wth..it is for the old injures of my ankle then ask wat... me play basketball...wth..scold me... u blood ass....u think i like to be in this home meh??? u think i like u meh??? so wat u are my father....so???? just cause of stupid sperm???...=PP so??? i must listen to ur everything??? so wat i am naughty..so wat??? i haven go kill ok....i wan i would have kill a dozen...so wat??? i simply HATE U......ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHgoing crazy over this blood thing.....
haiz..at home loh....nth to do..i everydae do my daily job..haha...mornign and nte onli...afternoon is like rotting at home...slp during afternoon...cause at nite cannot slp properly..scare will be late....haha..nth much happen in my life..but i am abit more happy..ahaha...dun tell u all lei..=p.. me still jobless lei...yan say wan to go find job todae... i waiting for his call onli..haha..bored lei...haha....byeZ..
HIHI...haha..dunno wat to write lei..alot things happen..but can't really rmb..haha...i know my phone lost but find back by ways....by sim cards lose..haha...erm..lazy to write...i findind ways to slp..haha..can't slp la....bored..next time then write ba...lazy lei....
haiz...everydae cannot slp well....blocked nose and cough...wth..damn long le lei...haiz...then now whole body pain...especially stomach cough also pain..wth...must be ytd de trainning.. i go train ppl then i also train with them..then feeling down then i train double...then forget to drink salt water..haiz...pain ar.....haiz...let see.... ytd SHUINAN BIRTHDAE.....haha...HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA BRO......haha...i promise wat i will buy for u..sorry lei...late present....wahaha...sorry agfain..nv plan anything for u..cause i know ur family cfm will go out with u de...wahaha..unlike mine..haha...ytd moring rot at home loh...then afternoon go find shuinan..haha..his birthdae ma..accompany him loh...haha..then we go eat and buy my slippers..haha...exp lei...3.50..haha..bo bian my slipper very easily spoil one cause i got elephant leg...haha..then we go play arcade..wahha...lucky i still win shuinan..haha..nvm.i also let him win..let him happy..or he say i bully him..haha...then he went home at 5 cause he going out with family...so jealous...haha.. then i go back home rest awhile..at 7 go down with little bro to have dinner...then i go trainning...i at there coach still wan to do with them haha...see where u find so goos de coach...whahaha...nth much ba.... waiting for sufyan de friend seng kiat for job...haha..then we two work together tok cock together..haha....ar muscles damn pain...later still meeting shuinan..cause he need to go make his ez-link card ma.. since i nv do anything for his birthdae so accompany him ba...since i going to back malaysia soon liao..haha..chinese new year la..and tyhen need to go cc do things..haha...still ok la...i am just bored....haiz..not feeling really good... down at times..haha..ok la so nagging ..=P..byeZ..
arh..my face..got many pimples coming out..haha...i dun mind it make me ugly as i am ugly already..noones wan....haha..but itcy and pain when touch tt is the problem..haiz....bored lei..nth to do one....todae morning wake up late..then meet ppl late loh..cause ppl to late for work also..haiz..useless me..then alone go jp..play myself as meeting shuinan after his sch end to go jurong est to buy his uniform loh... then he late also..i from 11 to 3 in arcade...omg damn bored..in order to save money i play those i game for 1.5hrs one..haha..cheat one ma...then finally he reached...when we chinese garden there we went to eat first loh...then rainning..my slipper very the f**k one...i keep wanting to fall..haiz....then got one very wierd boy think abt our age also...like to stare at me..as if i have kick his ass..then walk like wat like tt...ganster lei.."i scared" lame loh...onli infont of us..and i dun even know him...haiz..nth much le ba..my dae is roting roting and rot....haiz....dunno wat to say..life getting worse...relationship even worse dunno wat have i done wrong....haiz....
now really bored at home..nth to do...all go to sch liao..and to work for those..me still need to wait for call...haiz...dunno la...me feeling down..dunno why..amybe her blog???no ba..not because she is writing the blog for others...but is to see her sad and sianz make me really down...haiz..i can do nth to make her happy the onli thing i can do is to be not around her..cause think she see me wouldn/t be happy or even more sianz ba... i am a boring guy to be truth...brain thinks of lame things tt no conerns to ppl...haiz...dunno la...at home no ppl...tidy my things then i find this paper...."26 Things That A PERFECT Guy Would Do"..haha... write out ba...haha..


1. Know how to make her SMILE when she is down........i can help if i can't rite???guys???

2.Try to secretly SMELL HER HAIR, but she always notice...she dun let u go close her u also can do nth rite guy???or she may slapped u....

3.Stick up to her,but still respects hers INDEPENDENCE....normal guys would do this except for some...but i will respect..haha..

4.GIVE her the remote control during the GAME..surly ba....we are gentlemen..=X..

5.Come up behind her and put your arms around her...we wished we could..but think ok...wat if she dun like????gals are complicateed....haha..

6.PLAY with her hair....later we put until her hair???she will scolded u for sure...

7.Your hands always find HERS...dunno how to say this..erm..guys are shy too????

8.Be CUTE When she really wants somethings...can we guy really ast cute???

9.Offer you plenty of MASSAGES...again..can really get close to her??

10.DANCE with her,even if we feel like a dork....can we surly would....really!!

11.Never run out of love...we will love u no matter wat ok..just wat can we do to love u to make u happy???tell us pls...

12.Be FUNNY,but know how to be serious....we are always trying to make u smile..and we are serious in love with u...

13.Realize we are being Funny when we need to be serious..i dunno wat this mean?????haha

14.Be PATIENT when she take forever to get ready..ya..we will surly wait for u no matter how long....

15.React So cutely when she hit us and it actually hurts...we may not act cute..but we surly wouldn't hit u back...or scolded we...ok?

16.SMILE a lot...we will and is onli when u are..we can't smile while u are sad ba...

17.Plans a ROMANTIC date full of cheesy things, we wouldn't normsilly like to do' just because he knows it means alot to her....we will on some specials dae..but usually u gals are not free for us as u all have sisters gand..ok...we can't do anything

18.APPRECIATE her....we are ok..if not wat for to be with you making so much efforts???

19.Help others out..i dunno wat this means..but when we help others u all will say why u nv treat this to me???so...

20. Drive 5 just to see you for 1....we will..cause u all dun have time for us....we really need to see u...

21. ALWAYS gives her a PECK ON THE CHEEK when she depart from each other company' even when HIS friends are watching....this problems doesn't lies on us is u gal..u dun let us gif it to u infront of ur frens....

22.SING,even if we can't.... i can onli say this...UR WISH IS MY COMMAND...hee if u dun mind ur ear drum to break...

23.Hve a creative SENSE OF HUMOR.....dun worry we are always trying to makw u happy and laugh no matter wat time wat dae....and wat happens...

24.Call for NO reason....hey..ur bills need money too ok....

25.STARE AT YOU..we will look at u and not stare or u will say wat!? stare wat stare...

26.QUIT smoking,chewing,drinking,drugs-just because we LOVES YOU that much to quit it.... this is true la..not to others maybe but to me...i really quit smoking and cut down my drinking even though she nv say..but guys will..as long as u say u dun like it....ok..?

So u may think tt i am giff u reason...u think gals i am not biase here..i tihnking from a guy brain gif me ur thinking if u are not happy..since i have nth to do....
OMG!!! tml ppl is going to sch le..wished all ppl studying happy...hee...not like me...haha...take care all... i am going to work tml also....9a.m to 6p.m lei...got 1 hr break la... at warehouse...hmmm... a month 900 then o.t 1 hrs 7...haiz.. my dad wan me to work one..ok la..but just now he suddenly gif me 50 dollar ask me to slowly use...hahha..think is dun wan me get from the money box myself..cause i everytime take extra..haha...my parents nagging me to go slp le..but i can't seem to slp all this time..ytd also slp at 5 then wake up at 8..but i ly on bed loh....then nth much...went to ger house play majong..lolz....i bored ma..haha....ok la i offline liao..go act act slp..=P...take care everyone..dun be like me sick for so long..hahhaa..byeZ..
hiaz...now 2006 le...wahaha..dunno wat to expect in this new year... new sch...o lvl de result..wat to do...wat ppl will i meet..wat happen to those old frenz..haiz...i getter less social nowadays... not going out..or out for something then will bbe back home le...let say ytd..haha..bored loh...alone walked home from central..feeling low..damn low...then reached boon lay..over 12 liao..ppl spary and spary those things... i kena lots..cause many frenz in this area...haiz..they so happy...but i just can happy up...haiz...then go 209 there sit...bored loh...then reached home at 2..bath le go online....then see sufyan online both of us chat loh....both cannot slp de ppl... then we chat until bored le..find out hwee qi online then yan intive her...then we find something to do le..haha..we bully her....lolz...then 5 o'clock morning i go make my things... nv slp le..haha...then todae..nth loh...afternoon eat with father and bro....then go play cs at downstair de shopping centre...but i lose until siao..long time nv play...no mood also...then go home le loh..bored..then watch tv and ly on my bed miss her...nth to do le..dun wan see books or words....haiz..sometime i dun even wan to see ppl...lolz..haha...now dunno wat to do also..new year le..bored lei.. i miss last year de time...haiz... i go back rot le...
happy new year to all...a new year began...happy yet sad..i dun wan to leave those times i have last year..happy year of my life...really...nv been so happy...love it..haha...haoz..me can't slp...feeling very the uneasy..haiz..not sick ar..is somethings is bothering me...me dun tihnk i will say it out..but really all this got to do with love..haiz..me ar me....haiz..new hyear dun even have the mood to passed..haiz..bored...
haiz...nowadays dunno why feeling restless....ytd even though my sickness is gone..but i still can't slp....haiz...my life seem busy to others..but i am really free...bored at times...but nv too busy..i felt very uneasily ytd nite...hiaz..dunno why maybe it is cause of her..but not her fault is mine...dunno wat happening to me.....mouth dun like to open..even open liao also no sound come out..haiz...all ppl is busy working or is going back to sch...oooo man...wat is going to happen to me??/?whu the hell know..haiz....
haiz...dunno slp for how long think is 3 hrs++..even though is 8 hrs on bed...causze of my nose and cough..make me wake up and unable to slp.....in the mornign and afternoon still ok lei..but once it reached nite time...i am dead...cough like hell..nose blocked...sore throat...wth...painful life....then cannot eat also...throat is really in pain....eat porrige loh..but also the most eat half onli..haiz....me dunno...now daes is like a routine to me...wake up rot...send ppl come baclk rot...nite ly on bed wait for call then cough..haha...my life routine..lolz....nth happen in my life....just a cycle of my routine..haha...byeZ..
hiaz...just wake up...nono..is come up from bed...can't slp at all...keep waking up ..cause of my blocked nose and cough....i feeling tt my throat will be tear apart when i cough...hiaz....dieing soon..ba...arh....pain...my heart too..i mean real pain...dunno wat happing to me...no really happy and not really sad....dunno wat..haiz...ytd whole dae nv eat at all...dun feel like eating with this throat...drink lots of water like water tank..haiz..hhahaa.....at home rot..haha....todae?? still sick..haha....nth more le ba...lazy to play maple also....

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