just bath and ate my dinner..haha...todae out...haha.morning go to sp with james and yan..then meet irfan and hwee qi..haha....then go np...saw many ppl....all appealing to their course..then went to qeenway shopping centre with yan and james....eat the katong laksa..haha very the nice....haha then went back to sch..meet shuinan and yan packet for shi hui..haha so good..then meet shuinan and james again at 4.30 go out lo..haha.. play at jp to abt 6...then go marchie at HMV there...haha.. also help friend find watch..but all the other colour have but she wan de is white..dun have..haiz..nvm will keep finding ba...haha..then james go pick his gf..haha...at bugis...there also dun have white colour de le....his gf not bad....haha...with him very gd ma....haha....jealous...=X..haha.... then he send her home i and shuinan search the watch again but no news...haha..then we went home together....haha...then my leg damn pain...old injuries come out..haha..manyu cause todae out...haha...
wahaha.. i slp for more then 14 hrs....haha..the longest i ever slp.....ytd afternoon take slping pills then now then i wake up..haha...damn sianz....twice each dae once need to take 14pills of medi....sianz...ytd morning went co...then after ttt go eat..then went home...nth to go slp loh...since need to eat 14 pills then i eat 2 more slping pill to slp loh..haha..nth much le ba...later go cc de co need to go early cause kneed to make scpres again..haha..cya
haiz..can anyone tell me how to slp??? i can't slp..maybe should go see doc..haiz...dunno why....sianz loh... i see her also dunno how to face her....haiz...she seem like a book which i will not understand even though i used time...a mountain tt i will nv reach the summit...dunno la..haiz....collect pay le...vur also wan money for wat....got things also no mood use...i injure my left ankle again while playing bb...cannot see doc or he will kill me..ask me dun play bb le...bujt i cannot... how can i just simply throw away something i like so much... like her...haiz... maybe times will heal...actually i dun mind her not with me...but tt dae i sae her aleast she smile even though not to me..but i felt a better lots......i have no job now...at home rot..dunno wat to do... my mum very happy now.... cause my bill from$200++ to just $38 this month...wa big drop rite...wahaha....crazy..phone nv ring de..like useless...haiz...lot time nv see lots of ppl....especially aflred..haha.. i very gd bro of mine...went to usa to help in his father business...rich guy ar....todae he come back..wahhaa...i still need to go pick him..using his car..later i kena caught how??haha.....see ba..catch le then say la...before tt i still need to go scg de co later....9 but meeting shuinan for breadfast.....sld be ba.... now i am worried abt xiao xiong....a very big bro of mine and aflerd..he injurie..haiz...fight la fight so more......haha...hope u dun see this..nth le ba...
haiz..back le... sianz..more and more medicine le.....there is so sianz...no ppl...onli me and the tv....my life totally drop to the worst point..where i get to 40.3...so cold...where my body hot...even whet to the ice rm...torture is all i get....headache is everything..... rmd tt time tt i went to hospital the chair u sit...where i call u mummy..u were angry....but ytd tt very chair in the very same place were very empty....i could felt nth but cold and tohughts of onli tt chair..tt playing mood tt i used to have....maybe tt is the past...ok dun wished to sadded my blog anymore... i am just down....
haiz.. i am sick...since sundae...fever on and off...cough and running nose..damn sux..make me can't go work..then my dad dun let me wotk anymore..haiz..going to rot.... he still say tml still on anf off i going to go to hospital at nite..haiz.. i dun wan...so sianz there..alone.with 4 walls and no ppl to come to visit me...haiz.....i nv go work...sorry yan.. i can't work anymore...sorry....haiz...sick le...nth much...bye...
haiz...4 in the morning..so sianz..todae i nv go work..cause damn sianz..haiz....i lost contact with all ppl....lonely soulz here....realise tt time past can't really heals wounds.....todae go co....haiz..nth much...tml go co...then need to work again...tt my life.....haiz...how.. i dunno wat to do....i am at all lost now....really lost...i felt like crying out.....but there is no one to listen....to say out wat i feel to everything but there is none....in this very middle of the dawn..i am here...siting alone infront of my com...when all is slping...and then tears drop.. it makes my keyboard wet...but is there anyone to hold out one tissiue to lend it to me???? anyone beside me asking me why are u crying??? there is none... my father just saw me todae for a wk..and did he say anything..none....haiz...there goes my life...turning into somewhere there is worst....onli sadness and lonely....where i will be just alone in the darkness where no lights will be there to shone on to the path where i sld walk...i tumple and fall...and i just couldn't pick myself up anymore...how i wished just to end it here.....with all the pains and sufferings.....................................
just come out bath.....haha...back from work again...haha.... it is like a cycle....everydae same things...haha... go work at jp de bus stop...then come back abt 7.40a.m same bus stop...then walk to pioneer mall with yan..then he go home i walk past 706 then to shuinan house there the bus stop to go home.....then reached home on com..go bath..then blog..see got ppl online ma....but mostly no ppl de....then i go slp lo..then wake up then need to go work again....my life is just like tt... i lfelt like i am living in another country..cause i see no one other then yan and ppl working there...then no contact with others.....haiz...say until ppl..i felt i miss her lots..been a wk nv see her le... felt really strange...cause something really important is missing in my life....it changes..haiz...see ba...april her birhtdae..then see ba...cya..
just got back..rot for 12 hrs..whole 12 hrs do screen test..wa..sianz lo....not tired at all..the job is not tired but damn sianz....my department damn slask one...haha...just now going home walk with sufyan then we see one snake in the canal..at pioneer park there..haha..then when i walk past blk 708 de fitness park..i saw 1 old uncle and 1 indian male wearing a shirt write army.. then they both do the hand push..the uncle very old le but do like nth....then the indian boy do until wan to die like tt....haha..somemore very skinny...lolz....then go home loh...wan to eat no ppl accompany me....damn sianz... i tihnk i go bath le slp..since nth to do le....bye...work later...
juat back not long ago...still having fever headach like hell....the job not tired but damn sianz...timw slow down...haiz.....i onli get to tok to yan on break and sometime break diff time then cannot tok..haha.....

i belive tt a min of happy moments with ur loved one will a forever picture....cause during the 40 mins break...i went to sit then my head damn pain.. i look at the sky i saw the stars..so nice..abd then i see her face in the sky...and the time she was laughing happily..haha..tt is the onli time i dun feel my head any pain..it last for 30 mins..so good.. i simply miss her.....
omg..working later..wth..todae got fever...wa lao....sianz....head and body all very tired and pain...haiz...bo bian still got to work...haiz....i dun dare to eat medi cause scared later work half then fall aslp....haiz....very dizzy now...bye...
haiz..todae is a damn suay dae for me....sauy unitl fall down 6 times...wth...leg and but very de pain ar.....suay ar.....2 itmes fall down at stair at cc cause run up and down....for scores..then 2 times fall at my block de stairs.....then 2 times cause floor wet..then i slip and fall..this 2 is the most painful one...haiz...then sitll having this idiots running nose....haiz...sneezeing non-stop also..haiz..todae when to co in the morning..then i run up and down to make scores then take out bass nv even play a note and it is time to go home..after tt go find shuinaneat lo..he ask me one...since he so free go lo..then is ask me go bowling cause mondae he got bowling competition in sch....haha..but i still win him..lame..haha...then when home fall down...ar.....dun tok abt fall down anymore..how i wished i could take oput my nose....ar.........tml start work le...7 pm-7a.m..hope it go well ba...then it will change my life le...actually nth much will change....if i can change the way i am tihnking i will had change not to todae friends...i know u all care abt me..but this kind of things not i say gif up it will gif up de....there are damn lots feeling in it..sorry guys...maybe times will drift it away...making me less painful..haa...i dun mind having this pain...haha..dun tok le la..wahaha..sianz at home...ar.....bye...
just got home not long....todae when to taman jurong to help out in the chingay..lolz...sianz..but fun also..but aleast i get to see her....i todae whole dae sneezing...so sux....todae morning wake up late cause 2 daes i nv slp then ytd slp at 5 then wake up at 11..haha..nv go co...then shuinan come find em eat lunch...then he go see doc cause he fridae nv go sch..then go see doc..the nurse ask whu see doc...shuinan say is he..then the nurse ask comfirm anot..haha.. i look more sick then him..lolz...then go taman jurong le...after tt see rhino..long time nv see this bro of mine...then go drinking session..lolz...jujst drinking and toking cock ok..cause u all cfm i will smk de..but i nv..haha.. i also shocked....drinking session i nv smk..haha.....then now just bath come out...chat alot up with my bro.. he is much much more better then me..haha...ok la...nth much le...
haiz.. i am tried from smileing and laughing infront of ppl....how i wished i can cry infront of they....haiz...no choice...whereever i go i see memories of u...even alone i tihnk of u...haiz...todae go job interview..then start work on mondae...7p.m to 7a.m....going to be working then slp then work again....haiz.....
haiz...i live my life aimlessly and sadly now...haiz...i dunno why i got so many promise in so manyt ppl and i broke the one tt is to my most important one...and just now will cause everything between us...so i decided to fulfilled tt promise back..i know it will not do any help between us anymore..but i wan to go back to the promise...haiz..sorry.....i hurtz more for u to be in disappointed with me than anyother things...haiz....sorry....u take care ba...byeZ...
end of my life here....did things really wrong over here...damn wrong...i fault here..breaking ppl promise...nth more i can say..cause i really did break it...life is so stressful for me...haiz... i lost things really important to me now...i thought i lost it long ago but now it is really lost...i regert picking up the thing i throw away...now i am sad...disappiont with myself... i can onli say sorry...sorry for beaking ur promise...sorry...

i know i break my promise here but not all...haiz..but i am wrong..nvm..sorry
valentine dae have just passed... ppl happy???hope u all are happy and not like me..haha...ppl go out..and i stay at home...even my mum ask me why nv go out..so lame...i see lots of happy couple here and there...so jealous of them..haha..nvm...i however not angry with anyone but myself..haha..nv cherish tt person...regrets comes..haha.. so ppl hope ytd u all have a happy time with ur loved one and together..and those single will have ur loved one out to u very very soon..=)..and me?? miss her lo..can do nth.. ppl ask me gif her things..even thought nv go out..i have things but nv contaact...ask me to wait outside her house.. u all very the funny..u tihnk she live alone ar......haha..nvm the things is with me and i will keep it to somedae...haha...


i still can't eat lots of things..haiz...then i cook myself loh...other then eating outside...then i at home just come and com..haha..so bored rite.....then actually todae got work one..damn it...the mike la..bluff me and yan...fuck off...angry lei...waste my time....haiz....then later back at home again....nth to do again.. i can't seem to go to aslp again....how??? slping pills...useless le...le....nvm..bang my head againt the walls..haha good ideas rite..haha...todae i do one kind things tt is to help my frienz create blog...haha..so lame....nth to do..haha...
nth much loh..my life...nvm it is going to change..erm let say todae..i dunno wat time i wake up...haha..then meet yan at 12 in jp..see wat course he wan to take..then meet ger and kel..after they go to sch...then go eat..then pool for awile..they go off..to shopping i tihnk...dunno nv tell me..haha...then i and yan call the sing hitech..to ask got work anot since we doing nth...then say got..say 4.30 must reach or will be gone..but the time they call is 4...we rush hm then there but it was too late it is gone...haha...then go jp loh....then he go home le.. i contineue loh...saw thoedore...play again..so sianz...then go syco but late le..go cc onli...meet shuinan and james..tok on the way home...james is very de fine...with galfriend le....wa...tml i still need to help him see got rose anot..haha..he wan gif his galfriend...haha..i dun have...no ppl wan....bought something but.....nvm.....next time ba....not on valetine..haha..tml i got to work le...nite shift...going to be tired... i think i now go force myself to slp first...bye...

HAPPY VALETINE PPL....


this is also the 201 dae i wait for her and i will be still waiting..cause i love her...and this is the every first time i pass valetine dae and it is waiting for my love one...i know now i am not the best guy for u i will try to be..and till the dae i willbe the guy for u...i will still be waiting...4ever..nv going to say goodbye..
haiz...haven been feeling well at all...dunno why...and i am sick..damn sick..wat i eat come out....haiz..onnli plain things...therfore i seem like not eating everything....todae i saw a father pushing his baby in a baby chair and taking pics...both of they laugh and smile so happily..and i realsie i haven been doing this since a long time..i even forget how to laugh out...something is bothering me...but i dunno how to solve it...ppl just say things tt wouldn't works...just plain toking...so i can onli reply yes yes...and nth more...i have been trying very hard to smile and laugh it out.. i feel so strange and wierd when i smile or laugh....something really bad is putting me away from my past....maybe things change..i dunno..now my time pass like a min=a year.. so long..so pain...so..watever...dunno.... tml going poly with yan..he wan ask his corse..me? dunno..actually nth to ask..nvm..go ba...since no ppl need me..i am a loner...haiz...i can't speak myself out to ppl....even thought they may be the best ppl around i just can't pass myself this lvl..sorry ppl...maybe sch start i will be busy with myself to make me feel nth?? maybe i will go find one nite shift job..where i work at nite when ppl slp and morning slp when ppl is around...finding in process ba....nth much le..dunno wat to write....bye
haiz..i can't slp again.. i am worried sick for her...i dunno how....really i am worried..just tok with shuinan over this matter just now...he after work come find me..then tok loh..haiz...i feel very the wat u know...dunno how to speak to her also....haiz... i got my result but i am not worry at all for myself..but other.. i see jerome drop his tear...first time....i felt so useless..before tt he is so nervous...tiong zi cheng too...but he scores..ok loh... i am very worried for this ppl...as a frenz or wat.. i dun care...i dunno wat to do...when i heard she can't go up... i almost cry out u know...haiz...me felt so useless now...wan to help other but can;t do a single thing of my own where do i get this rite to help others...i am stressful now....and simply worried sick for her...
Good morning ppl..haha..a brand new year....5.15 now... haha..now many ppl are going to be awake to sch or wat..but me??? haha..haven even slp...cannot fall aslp lei....haiz...worried for others......praying hard here............good luck everyone....
dunno wat to update.....nth to update lei... no programme for me..so nth happen at all...todae wake up damn late 11.46....dunno why also..tired.... i dun understand human... nv slp also tired...slp too much also tired.....haha..very lame hor.... then 3 o'clock go down eat with loo hick..but i nv eat...drink water onli...then play com outside....play until $5.30..like idiot..got com at home dun wan play go out waste money..hhaha..scold me ba..haha..then got call from singapore hi tech make motorola phone one ask me go work...todae.. 7p.m to 7 a.m..dunno why i dun wan work..i tell him sat ba..he say will call me again..i tihnk no hope le..haha..idiot me again rite..haha....then when home....keep sneezeing..like someone have keep scolding me after i bath...until now...haha...tt person very good can scold me so long..must tell me whu u.. i be good frienz with u.. i like being scolded by ppl..haha...very cold todae... no ppl to tok to... i have lots of things to tok to..but i need a listening ear...haha..not to com..haha...haiz...tml result le... i have no feeling for it at all...even thought is my first time taking o lvl...haha...but i think thousand of ppl are nervous now.. some can't even slp.... but here i am very nervous..but not for myself..but for my frienz and her...really hop they get wat the really wished for..so heaven pls help them...hee...thanks heaven..have a nice straight path for them... for me??? anything..even the worst one also can... i know i will not have a good path de...haha..so i am willing to let ,my path go chaos and they clear..hee..thanks heaven...Best Luck to all.... LasT Thanks you heaven....Nite..
nth much happen...stay at home loh....haha..tv and com whole dae....haha...go out walk walk awhile inthe afternoon...too boring le....haha...then just now my dad tok to me abt the result...he onli think tt i will failed...keep asking me failed how??? how do i know?? ite loh....wat more??haiz...then is the last sentence he said make me real sad.... he say" i see u also will not passed de la better think wat to do" this make me real sad..i know i haven been good in anything...but also no need for this kind of words ba....haiz...no comment....

nowadae i see tt many ppl like to keep saying wan to die..dun wan carry on..dunnno wat to go on in life..life is meaningless and so on.... haiz...this not the ways of life....u know how many ppl wan to continue to live on with frienz and family and they can't???u whu have a good family and lots of friends keep saying no meaning in life....i dunno wat to say to u..but u shouldn't say all this...this makes all ur friends and family real sad...they felt tt they are meaningless to u tooo..u see.... sorry i am not shooting anyone....i get very down nowadaes..dunno why....but dun worry i will smile to all...even the darkest moment of my life....and tt have past....
hee...bro just use finished for his project so i use loh...dunno wan to slp anot...haha..lame...nth much loh...just plain not feeling well so many things i can't eat and do....so sianz my life....fridae getting results le...very the fast loh....like tt is already 3 months after exam...not feeling at all for myself but nervous for my bros..and friends....u all will do well de la...no worry..haha...but me???dunno haha...

time passed fast and slow....is just wat we are feeling...ppl feeling time passing in diff pace...when happy times files...sad times slow....missing ppl..time simply stop...there is many things in this life of mine tt i miss...not get the hold of it..and let it pass..nv work for it or not working hard...this is all due to human feelings....we or me...just to think of past..and get bother abt it...and we can do nth..just think and think and get worst and worst....when u are abt to bee gone..u realise tt u have alot of things tt u wan to do but haven...u dun wished to hurt ppl but not telling them..but to thise really important u wanted to tell them but does they care or even hurtz???not really sure by others...but me would like to hear problem from anyppl so tt i could help them as much as i could...not until it get worse till it cannot be solved...i will try to help as much as possible....not like me..wher no one can help anymore...haha...

now is my things le..wahaha..this is the most boring part..haha..i very lame..ytd i cut the thick skin of my foot then bleed...i thoough stop liao then i go to cut hair...i feel my foot very sticky after cutting my hair...then i reached home see my blue slippers become brown..haha...cause bleed alot..wahaha..but not pain de lei...haha...nt ba...stay at home watch tv..no ppl ask me out..haha..boring loh...haha...just now go out with shuinan then when we go home we nv eat dinner then we buy bread and water at 7-11...sit at the playground..haha..lame loh...we litter..wahaha..tok cock...then we know got ppl we know live at 5 floor..shuiann say wan call her from below...i say crazy..haha..he really crazy liao..but he also sad...his gal dun wan him...same thing..cause the gal like another guy le....i dunno wat to tell him so just tok cock to make him smile...but i realise one thing making a guy smile is alot easiler than making a gal smile..haha...nth much le...haha

LASTLY TO ALL TAKING RESULT THIS FIRDAE ALL THE BEST..WITH FLYING COLOURS..HEE..=)
back from malaysia ytd nite..hee....nth in malaysia..i onli stay at my house...in my room and nth le.....sick...todae morning go cc for pfm then very not well....haiz...dunno why...but i get to see her....so happy...but very unwell so nv tok to anyone even to her..haiz.....
yoz..early in the morning..i still awake..haiz..wth man..i can't slp..haha..........i find this very nice web...haha...

http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1114762677/The_F_word

haha...all abt how to use fuck..haha...lame one..haha..
haiz..now 3 le..dun feel like slping...last few dae..haha..to enjoy my small little life..haha.....dunno why...i am onli worried abt one person b4 i go..haha..nvm ba...think she will be ok..since i am there or anot makes no diff...haha...dun care le.....since no ppl will rmb me de...onli will be relive..tt i will not be nagging her..haha...cheers.....for chong hwee tro be gone..haha...todae nite i am gone....and sundae moring..i wil be.................................................haha..=P not telling..haha..bye everyone..no need to vist anymore..thanks for all urs care to me....and i have fun in my life..thx....
haha..these few dae sick..haha...stay at home....haha..nth much happen just miss lot of things.....sch and friend.....haha.... i also very de blur nowadaes..haha..cuts on my hands..haha...stupid ma..open can also cut myself..haha...sick onli can stay at home eat maggie..so open can oh....haha..

haha..this will be my last post....i going back to malaysia...for dunno how long..maybe will not be back le..haha..not going to tell u all the reason..shuinan know..but i tell him not to say dn ask him ok..haha...tml going to sch to help him with pfm..haha..miss lots of ppl...they going to go areana tml..haha..i can't go..cause i will be back at malaysia le...haha..u all must enjoy ar...haha..take care everyone..and dun miss me..hee..forget me..haha...BYE...happy chinese new year....take care everone...bye....=(
haiz...i am going to live in a shut up world now.....i going to shut up ant tok to anyone in my family....since wat i say is all lies...so wat is the use????? i ytd when to syco..but thry dun belive..so wat....and deletle my messages.....wth....it is my percious message u know...blood hell...she will onli send once and u do this to me...i hate u...fuck off family....

i am badly sick todae..so morining nv go wait....having fever and headach.....nvm noone cares...home also no ppl..onli me and myself....lunch????not eating le...no mood + sick...actually wan to go jpb interview with sufyan one...but wth...i sick....haiz...dunnno wat to do...all ppl so busy...i am very worried abt her now...dunno how is she....and just a few more daes before i am gone.....unable to see her....she is now very far from me now....haiz..miss her lot lot..but nth i can do..dunno how to approach her...haiz....shuinan good loh...he like one sec 2 gal in his sch..then she now got reply him le..think he happy like hell....good loh..wished this is something he will treasure....
haiz...sianz loh....broke le..now adult fare...got to pay for my travel.....afternoon eat instant noodle...no good de...eeeee...morning same thing...wait for her 1 hr but nv see..haha..nvm..then i walk home..cause bus very exp lei...haha..ok la..is my ez-Link just no money..haven top up...then at home rot loh.....see tv....nth much so bored..think of this fridae night need to go malaysia le..haiz.....can i dun go???? i am off with my family....haiz..nvm...i dun care...later neeed to go find shuinan go syco todae....so sianz also...haiz...i onli wan to see her....arhhhhhhhhhhhhh...damn bored lei...wth...haiz....having very bad headache.....maybe is nv slp well ba..haha..nvm no one cares....
haiz...ytd very late slp so play maple with sufyan..to 3..then think todae got co so slp le...then wake up late at 11.30...then rush there l,oh..nth much also...no ppl one...haha..bored then at home all the ways since no ppl at home so good..haha..nth much lei..sorry...bye...miss her lots...haiz..
haiz..bored..can't slp again....todae mornign meet shuinan go sch de co...ji nv come...morning de time waiting for shuinan come down saw kelyn and geraldine they going to work..haha..both of them look so tired...then with shuinan go eat breadfast....then go sch...then got 2 new come one come to our grp..haha..then i teach the 5 lines scores..ok la...they got the basic le...easy for me also...then after tt help ger take things from her house to her workplace..then go jp..sae audrey doing flag day..lame....then we went home le.... i at home damn bored loh....nth to do de..watch tv.... then 7 went to cc de dinner...but wet..cause suddenly rain..i wet..haiz..go there also nth de...waste my 10 dollar..cause most of them nv go..i at there so bored then ai lian come entertain me..haha..her husband also..lolz.....then they all sing chinese new year de songs....i dun like sings song de..so rot loh..after tt 10 finish..dunn feel like going hm..went to bb court saw andrew then play awhile loh..reached home at 11..then come my bill...now is this..cause i quarrel with my whole family...espically my fucking older bro....act big onli...fuck u la...bro so wat... i dun wan fight with u onli...u think i will lose u..go die la....my bill is damn high..cause i go malaysia last time i still use..$440++..i see liao also shocked...nvm la....scolded liao..also like tt...haiz..the problem is me la...dun liek like toking anymore...damn sianz,,haiz,,life change suddenly.....
haiz..i can't fall asleep...haha..dunno why la..todae ok la..morning meet shuinan he nv go sch...say sick..lolz....then we send ger to work...then i accompany him go see doc...nth much..then we go arcade..he playy i see loh..haha..i cononel liao he still knight..haha..so i let him play loh..i also no money play..poor..no job...haha..nvm la..new year coming....then come my house ..then go his house..lolz....then meeet james..go syco..haha...we tok abt lots of thing..haha...bros ma...syco damn boring ar....after tt we walk to cityhall..have a drink then go home...we walk home loh..haha..then i tok to shuinan abt how life is meant to be..lolz..i onli know how to tok...like i always like to say.....heaven gif u ppl not to change u..but be part of your life...to make u learn things..so behind everything there is a reason of it to be there...haha...then now at home..can't fall aslp..dun feel like playing game..then todae saw her finger the skin shredded cause of her working there carry things..heart pain u know...but i dunno wat to do...she seem ignore to me...to here ba...tml got cc de dinner...omg i forget tell mom..nvm la..they dun care de..
haiz..i felt tt i have change or ppl around me had change...i felt really diff todae...dunno why...morining is ok..i do back wat i do..but nv will i have thought..she came down..haha..really happy to send her to work even thought nv tok not even eyes contact..lolz..think is me la..dunno lei..i got alot of things wan to ask her and tell her one..but i see her so tired and i open my mouth no words come out..dunno why i dun even dare to look at her straight...me ar me..dunno lei haiz....wat had happen??? then after tt go home rot...then meet shuinan.. he ask me to meet him one..then we go eat luch loh...then he got call for work..haha..then i accompany him go to work..then i one person take bus from orchard to boon lay..1 hrs++..haha...nvm la....then go home rot...then at nite got friendly match...we won.. 98 to 64..haha..but my leg is getting worse... my coach tell me to go see doc.....haha...or will be like him...walk also damn pain...haha..nvm i got wear ankle support and spray the deep heating le..but still very de pain...dunno how..quit bb??? i dunno from young this is the leg i make it myself.....all because of bb..haha..nvm i like wat.. like the gal i like i put in lots of effort..haha..then after the match my leg very pain..so i go jurng east there find my medi..but cannot find lei..then is 10+ le..i go to take bus 99 wished can see her there but no..my leg is really pain..then i go back le..sorry..haha..not at home still pain.. my bro wan use com for his project le..cya..
haiz..back from waiting for abt 1hrs and 30 mins.. cause i thought she working 10 ma..then she go out at 8+ de..but nv see her...haiz..nvm is i nv ask her...i dunno why...i really wan to message her..but i got a force tt is pulling me back...i know i am not important to u ..but u are the most important things in my life....all the things u say i rmb..and when u say to me like up to u or anything..it hurts...but it's ok... i nv put the blame on u...cause as i have said u had say clearly...so i just wished i could glance at u from far..to see u fine..

btw..sorry ppl..ur gathering on 27 of jan..icannot go...is not i dun wan go..sorry..i going back to malaysia..i tell my mom i late one dae go in can..she say cannot..sorry..i dun wished too...but hope u all enjoy ba.....

haiz...going back to malaysia...from 27 jan nite to 4 fed....haiz...going to miss lot of things...haiz...but is her the most...
haiz....wth...now suay things come to me ar...wtf.....firstly the bloodly job...wth...sale of the bloodly kompang senga card....tok to 200+ ppl onli sale of 15 cards...wat.. at lavender for the whole dae....i go training also dun have so tired....leg pain like hell..so both of us dun wan work le..haha....then ppl see u holding the card they will run .. like i am a monster...wth..now i understand why i dun like to see those ppl to..like my leader damn sux..not sux to me..but to the ppl he selling to..it seem tt must buy dde...damn fuck...he push the card to ur hand u hold and there it goes...ur 10 dollar...omg..if i see him outside..i cfm run 2km then i stopped...scary lei...nv stop...ok la i learn alot of things...and some of u know i am the "inside' person..dun tok much one...no topic..this is the first time in my life i tok to soooooo many stranger..wth....nvm nvm...this si sad..but the second one is worst to me..haiz...

then the lastly is hor...her attitude suddenly change...damn sad loh....dunno why...maybe cause i cannot pick her from work?? dunno..haiz..nvm..she had told me before le...she is not my girlfriend...haha...so no link..onli friend..haha...i am tired..but free back..no work le...haiz..dunno how to tell her...think ba..then she also sick le...no comment...cause she dun reply me one..ahahahahahahahahahahahhahahah...byeZ..
haiz....just finished my dinner....bored loh..dun feel like eating....need to buy myself somemore..haiz...i like a maid....father call me to go down packet....then he come bacl eat le going out..but then before he go out..he is nagging at me again.....say me is a making him worried at all time..wth...as if ok....then tell my small bro to study and not be like me..haha.. the biggest joke of my life..haha...my small bro..wahaha..big joke lei..haha...funny....u think he is still the small boy tt u play with him 5 yrs ago..wahaha..wake up..father...he is worst then me..not tt he had done bad things more then me..is tt he attuitlde..aiya..i know spell wrong dun care la...he is damn pretty....he wouldn't treat u anything one...and then u go out.. u must treat him some how...he is oppsite of me interm of handling of money..haha..he safe like hell like there is an bank onli for him to full it..haha..then me???haha...spend money like there is no tomorrow..haha..to me there is no plan at all.. this is true...me had no plan one...dae pass like tt loh..haha..then my bro can talk back to him u know..and me??? tok back i get rewarded..haha..slap on my face..haha..my father is a very old feeling man..he dun go with fashion..maybe this is the onli point i can tell he is my father..haha..but his thinking..haiz..old like ancient???worst then tt ok...tt is the small like my big bro..haha..he had went out to pick my mum..haha...feel so quiet..haha...but he dun let me go out....haiz...how????? i am going to be worried again....haiz...the uneasiness is here already...nth much ba..all this is abt my father..how much i "like" him..haha..tml course le....hee...
haha..dunno how many daes nv update le...wahaha....nth much...got back my sim card le..hee... then found a job..mondae need to go for the course....haha...2p.m..haha...nth much ba...still sending ppl to and from work...but ytd nv..wth...then i damn worried sia....can do nth...wth....at last got her message then..phew...nth much le ba...life pass....father keep scolding me...haiz...i say before and many times le ok... i nv smk le...u dun belive go ask ppl la...wth...everydae say i smk smk smk...wth...hate u ....i go where also must tell u... the other two bro go where u also dun care one... late come back got nth..me???? every now and then u will have somthing to scold me...wth.. i buy the spary leg one u also wan scold me..... wth..it is for the old injures of my ankle then ask wat... me play basketball...wth..scold me... u blood ass....u think i like to be in this home meh??? u think i like u meh??? so wat u are my father....so???? just cause of stupid sperm???...=PP so??? i must listen to ur everything??? so wat i am naughty..so wat??? i haven go kill ok....i wan i would have kill a dozen...so wat??? i simply HATE U......ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHgoing crazy over this blood thing.....
haiz..at home loh....nth to do..i everydae do my daily job..haha...mornign and nte onli...afternoon is like rotting at home...slp during afternoon...cause at nite cannot slp properly..scare will be late....haha..nth much happen in my life..but i am abit more happy..ahaha...dun tell u all lei..=p.. me still jobless lei...yan say wan to go find job todae... i waiting for his call onli..haha..bored lei...haha....byeZ..
HIHI...haha..dunno wat to write lei..alot things happen..but can't really rmb..haha...i know my phone lost but find back by ways....by sim cards lose..haha...erm..lazy to write...i findind ways to slp..haha..can't slp la....bored..next time then write ba...lazy lei....
haiz...everydae cannot slp well....blocked nose and cough...wth..damn long le lei...haiz...then now whole body pain...especially stomach cough also pain..wth...must be ytd de trainning.. i go train ppl then i also train with them..then feeling down then i train double...then forget to drink salt water..haiz...pain ar.....haiz...let see.... ytd SHUINAN BIRTHDAE.....haha...HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA BRO......haha...i promise wat i will buy for u..sorry lei...late present....wahaha...sorry agfain..nv plan anything for u..cause i know ur family cfm will go out with u de...wahaha..unlike mine..haha...ytd moring rot at home loh...then afternoon go find shuinan..haha..his birthdae ma..accompany him loh...haha..then we go eat and buy my slippers..haha...exp lei...3.50..haha..bo bian my slipper very easily spoil one cause i got elephant leg...haha..then we go play arcade..wahha...lucky i still win shuinan..haha..nvm.i also let him win..let him happy..or he say i bully him..haha...then he went home at 5 cause he going out with family...so jealous...haha.. then i go back home rest awhile..at 7 go down with little bro to have dinner...then i go trainning...i at there coach still wan to do with them haha...see where u find so goos de coach...whahaha...nth much ba.... waiting for sufyan de friend seng kiat for job...haha..then we two work together tok cock together..haha....ar muscles damn pain...later still meeting shuinan..cause he need to go make his ez-link card ma.. since i nv do anything for his birthdae so accompany him ba...since i going to back malaysia soon liao..haha..chinese new year la..and tyhen need to go cc do things..haha...still ok la...i am just bored....haiz..not feeling really good... down at times..haha..ok la so nagging ..=P..byeZ..
arh..my face..got many pimples coming out..haha...i dun mind it make me ugly as i am ugly already..noones wan....haha..but itcy and pain when touch tt is the problem..haiz....bored lei..nth to do one....todae morning wake up late..then meet ppl late loh..cause ppl to late for work also..haiz..useless me..then alone go jp..play myself as meeting shuinan after his sch end to go jurong est to buy his uniform loh... then he late also..i from 11 to 3 in arcade...omg damn bored..in order to save money i play those i game for 1.5hrs one..haha..cheat one ma...then finally he reached...when we chinese garden there we went to eat first loh...then rainning..my slipper very the f**k one...i keep wanting to fall..haiz....then got one very wierd boy think abt our age also...like to stare at me..as if i have kick his ass..then walk like wat like tt...ganster lei.."i scared" lame loh...onli infont of us..and i dun even know him...haiz..nth much le ba..my dae is roting roting and rot....haiz....dunno wat to say..life getting worse...relationship even worse dunno wat have i done wrong....haiz....
now really bored at home..nth to do...all go to sch liao..and to work for those..me still need to wait for call...haiz...dunno la...me feeling down..dunno why..amybe her blog???no ba..not because she is writing the blog for others...but is to see her sad and sianz make me really down...haiz..i can do nth to make her happy the onli thing i can do is to be not around her..cause think she see me wouldn/t be happy or even more sianz ba... i am a boring guy to be truth...brain thinks of lame things tt no conerns to ppl...haiz...dunno la...at home no ppl...tidy my things then i find this paper...."26 Things That A PERFECT Guy Would Do"..haha... write out ba...haha..


1. Know how to make her SMILE when she is down........i can help if i can't rite???guys???

2.Try to secretly SMELL HER HAIR, but she always notice...she dun let u go close her u also can do nth rite guy???or she may slapped u....

3.Stick up to her,but still respects hers INDEPENDENCE....normal guys would do this except for some...but i will respect..haha..

4.GIVE her the remote control during the GAME..surly ba....we are gentlemen..=X..

5.Come up behind her and put your arms around her...we wished we could..but think ok...wat if she dun like????gals are complicateed....haha..

6.PLAY with her hair....later we put until her hair???she will scolded u for sure...

7.Your hands always find HERS...dunno how to say this..erm..guys are shy too????

8.Be CUTE When she really wants somethings...can we guy really ast cute???

9.Offer you plenty of MASSAGES...again..can really get close to her??

10.DANCE with her,even if we feel like a dork....can we surly would....really!!

11.Never run out of love...we will love u no matter wat ok..just wat can we do to love u to make u happy???tell us pls...

12.Be FUNNY,but know how to be serious....we are always trying to make u smile..and we are serious in love with u...

13.Realize we are being Funny when we need to be serious..i dunno wat this mean?????haha

14.Be PATIENT when she take forever to get ready..ya..we will surly wait for u no matter how long....

15.React So cutely when she hit us and it actually hurts...we may not act cute..but we surly wouldn't hit u back...or scolded we...ok?

16.SMILE a lot...we will and is onli when u are..we can't smile while u are sad ba...

17.Plans a ROMANTIC date full of cheesy things, we wouldn't normsilly like to do' just because he knows it means alot to her....we will on some specials dae..but usually u gals are not free for us as u all have sisters gand..ok...we can't do anything

18.APPRECIATE her....we are ok..if not wat for to be with you making so much efforts???

19.Help others out..i dunno wat this means..but when we help others u all will say why u nv treat this to me???so...

20. Drive 5 just to see you for 1....we will..cause u all dun have time for us....we really need to see u...

21. ALWAYS gives her a PECK ON THE CHEEK when she depart from each other company' even when HIS friends are watching....this problems doesn't lies on us is u gal..u dun let us gif it to u infront of ur frens....

22.SING,even if we can't.... i can onli say this...UR WISH IS MY COMMAND...hee if u dun mind ur ear drum to break...

23.Hve a creative SENSE OF HUMOR.....dun worry we are always trying to makw u happy and laugh no matter wat time wat dae....and wat happens...

24.Call for NO reason....hey..ur bills need money too ok....

25.STARE AT YOU..we will look at u and not stare or u will say wat!? stare wat stare...

26.QUIT smoking,chewing,drinking,drugs-just because we LOVES YOU that much to quit it.... this is true la..not to others maybe but to me...i really quit smoking and cut down my drinking even though she nv say..but guys will..as long as u say u dun like it....ok..?

So u may think tt i am giff u reason...u think gals i am not biase here..i tihnking from a guy brain gif me ur thinking if u are not happy..since i have nth to do....
OMG!!! tml ppl is going to sch le..wished all ppl studying happy...hee...not like me...haha...take care all... i am going to work tml also....9a.m to 6p.m lei...got 1 hr break la... at warehouse...hmmm... a month 900 then o.t 1 hrs 7...haiz.. my dad wan me to work one..ok la..but just now he suddenly gif me 50 dollar ask me to slowly use...hahha..think is dun wan me get from the money box myself..cause i everytime take extra..haha...my parents nagging me to go slp le..but i can't seem to slp all this time..ytd also slp at 5 then wake up at 8..but i ly on bed loh....then nth much...went to ger house play majong..lolz....i bored ma..haha....ok la i offline liao..go act act slp..=P...take care everyone..dun be like me sick for so long..hahhaa..byeZ..
hiaz...now 2006 le...wahaha..dunno wat to expect in this new year... new sch...o lvl de result..wat to do...wat ppl will i meet..wat happen to those old frenz..haiz...i getter less social nowadays... not going out..or out for something then will bbe back home le...let say ytd..haha..bored loh...alone walked home from central..feeling low..damn low...then reached boon lay..over 12 liao..ppl spary and spary those things... i kena lots..cause many frenz in this area...haiz..they so happy...but i just can happy up...haiz...then go 209 there sit...bored loh...then reached home at 2..bath le go online....then see sufyan online both of us chat loh....both cannot slp de ppl... then we chat until bored le..find out hwee qi online then yan intive her...then we find something to do le..haha..we bully her....lolz...then 5 o'clock morning i go make my things... nv slp le..haha...then todae..nth loh...afternoon eat with father and bro....then go play cs at downstair de shopping centre...but i lose until siao..long time nv play...no mood also...then go home le loh..bored..then watch tv and ly on my bed miss her...nth to do le..dun wan see books or words....haiz..sometime i dun even wan to see ppl...lolz..haha...now dunno wat to do also..new year le..bored lei.. i miss last year de time...haiz... i go back rot le...
happy new year to all...a new year began...happy yet sad..i dun wan to leave those times i have last year..happy year of my life...really...nv been so happy...love it..haha...haoz..me can't slp...feeling very the uneasy..haiz..not sick ar..is somethings is bothering me...me dun tihnk i will say it out..but really all this got to do with love..haiz..me ar me....haiz..new hyear dun even have the mood to passed..haiz..bored...
haiz...nowadays dunno why feeling restless....ytd even though my sickness is gone..but i still can't slp....haiz...my life seem busy to others..but i am really free...bored at times...but nv too busy..i felt very uneasily ytd nite...hiaz..dunno why maybe it is cause of her..but not her fault is mine...dunno wat happening to me.....mouth dun like to open..even open liao also no sound come out..haiz...all ppl is busy working or is going back to sch...oooo man...wat is going to happen to me??/?whu the hell know..haiz....
haiz...dunno slp for how long think is 3 hrs++..even though is 8 hrs on bed...causze of my nose and cough..make me wake up and unable to slp.....in the mornign and afternoon still ok lei..but once it reached nite time...i am dead...cough like hell..nose blocked...sore throat...wth...painful life....then cannot eat also...throat is really in pain....eat porrige loh..but also the most eat half onli..haiz....me dunno...now daes is like a routine to me...wake up rot...send ppl come baclk rot...nite ly on bed wait for call then cough..haha...my life routine..lolz....nth happen in my life....just a cycle of my routine..haha...byeZ..
hiaz...just wake up...nono..is come up from bed...can't slp at all...keep waking up ..cause of my blocked nose and cough....i feeling tt my throat will be tear apart when i cough...hiaz....dieing soon..ba...arh....pain...my heart too..i mean real pain...dunno wat happing to me...no really happy and not really sad....dunno wat..haiz...ytd whole dae nv eat at all...dun feel like eating with this throat...drink lots of water like water tank..haiz..hhahaa.....at home rot..haha....todae?? still sick..haha....nth more le ba...lazy to play maple also....
bored...all alone at hm.. no place to go..cause all is out with others..haha.. i dun really mind as long a they are happy... my motor happy pls..hee... my flu is etting better le but i am getting sore throat le..going to be no sound..haha...haiz..but i am really bored...dunno maybe getting a job....i know is not early but...haiz....my parents is asking me to get a job...see me so sianz and bored at home looking at my own ohone wishing it will ring..message or call also can... haiz..bored..if i get to work i can't do the things i wan...i onli wan to accompany her to anf fro work..but..haiz...dunno...todae is chirstmas le....MERRY CHIRSTMAS TO ALL!!!!!haha...blessed nites too....me?ahah...at home blessed myself ba....wished everyone happy always smile hang on ur face nv drop and smooth sialing in all things in ur life..and last of all....wan u all wan will come to u..if cannot contact me..haha......me like stans...haha..nono cannot haha..is ho ho ho!!! hahahahaha...i am bored..just to miss her..byeZ..
hiaz... i am sick.. my nose is getting worse...then i getting cough le...haiz..
my younger bro come back le..haiz....he got lots of birthdae present form his frenz... me???? haiz...dun tok abt it..it my own fault....haiz...sick sick....haiz...
haiz..just back from dinner....just a few mouth of rice i am damn full..haiz..moodless is eating less..just now with them la kopi also.. i wanted to call milo ice one then i call until teh ice...wth...dunno got make her angry anot..like i nv care abt her like tt....haiz..me useless..haiz..sad..
haiz....life just pass as it goes..haha..or wat else...haiz...really dunno wat is happening to me getting more and more groomy....even when i when to prctice my bb.... everytime my frenz got gal i will go disturb one....or when new gal come i will go act act wan court her like tt..but no more...dunno why no mood le....think this is childish...even when they say i gay..no comment...me stupid??? idiots??? no goals in life.....simply..I AM JUST A USELESS PERSON...haiz..dunno why...todae go sch sell uniform...ok la..not really tired...fun at times... then we go jp eat..no mood eat rice..so eat carrot cake loh...dunno way also..haiz..me and my brain..haiz...useless...then accompany ger to see doc..she sick le...awhile hot awhile cold..cough and flu.....GET WELL SOON ok????u still got to work..take care ar...then go shuinan house play majong awhile loh...no mood also..then even the flow of direction also wrong..wth..haiz...as the sky get darker my mood drop....by the time i reached the bus stop to go home...can't even smile out to shuinan to say bye....haiz..he still sak me at happen..but there is no answer..haiz..dunno why..no mood..come here rot rot..to scold myself to make me feel abit better..but sadly it does not ok..haiz...byez...no mood...................
haha..daes pass just like tt...todae many ppl birthdae...haha....happy birthdae to all haha... got sharon..my younger bro..kelvin...alfred..haah......but all away or not tt close ..haha...no persent for u all cause i am broke ...lolZ....dunno wat is lacking in my life...i getting bored and bored...dun feel like toking anymore.....haiz....dunno why.....nvm...
back from malaysia..sorry for those tt find me...sorry...go back also nth to do..haha..come back also....haha..all ppl working liao...or going aboard...haiz..think i am going to be bored le...haiz..nth to worite...byeZ
boring dae...practice and practice...haiz...bored...injury my right little finger tt dae during bb trainning then dunno how i slash my finger it got blood..haha...small cut onli la..haha... todae is my pfm liao...haha...useless one ba..hhaaha... i onli got 2 songs other then the encore ba...not cfm..haha...bored...need to go early... to practice abit more on my own..haha...last pfm le....for sy...haha..good luck...lolZ...not for myself.....haha..to others...=PPPPPppp...nth to write .....bored.... long time....haiz..nvm..forget wat i wan to write le.....me become assitant coach for jerffery tt team..haha...so nice can be coach..haha....go rest awhile then going out to pfm soon...byeZ...
just got back...tired....too long nv go gym liao....hands damn tired....legs too..now bady very stiff...haven cold down fromthe excerise...haha..tired....nth much haha..now alone at hm...wa...damn sianz......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..bored...
haha...ytd go watch chicken little..haha...boring la...really....=X...the show ok la...but too short loh... i just wake up not long....haha....ytd after watching chicken little with them i went to play frendly and trainning...until 10....tired..now whole body very tired lei....wth..haiz....muscles in pain..haha...nvm...like tt go down the road i am going to slim down..wahahahah..kidding la...where got so easy????haha... ok la...me going to meet rhino to go gym..he crazy ytd trainning liao todae go gym wth...wan me to die????haiz..nvm...cause maybe need to work at his place there...haha....hard labour...haha.....ok la me nth to write also..haha...miss her..hee...byeZ..
haiz..boring..miss her lots....but can do nth....

ok another boring daes of mine is going to past..dae by dae....my life rots...haha...ytd nv slp at all..rot and rot...then todae morning go cc de co...then shuinan and ger nv go...haha..i go there rot..forget to bring my scores then photocopy machine spoiled..then i become no scores..then i go to help daryl...bored...take out bass then nv touch...haha..then go luch with ai lian and others...haha..then come back rot... nothing much to write..cause i nth to do except to miss her.. llok at her photo and nth more...
haiz...boring life...haha..really bored...headach continues...life seem so bored at times.... and so times u wan times to past fast and some u wished the time could just stop...haiz...human ar human...always like tt.... thinking is just not rite when it is time..is just after tt then ur thinking come back...wth man...human most powerful animal in the world..so???? happy animal?? i dun agree...we may life gd bbut dun u think simple life like sniamls will be much better???? i am not toking abt working or studying.....is the thinkings of human changes as we grow by generration.. u knows...human thinks differently at diff ages.... this is so complaited tt we can get the hell answer out ourselves...oh man...u may thinks tt i am toking rubbish but u thinks... thinks abt the sad things tt happen to u.... wat is the source???? do u have fault??? or not??? u may tthinks not...but if u are not at fault....then how would it happen on u.. u say heaven or even god is making fun of u...but why dun u be yourself and dun be control by heaven or god??? be yourself tt wat makes ur life not god or heaven... u got to make ur own path out.... heaven or gods is good enough to send in many diff types of ppl into ur path....not to harm u...but to make u learn something good or bad. u learned...ok..i dunno wat happen to me...i just suddenly thinks of this when i see someone so sianz so boed and maybe sad...dunno..i know myself tt i am not feeling gd when someone around me is like tt...i may be fan at times..but i am thinking on u sides not on mine...ok...things can be told out...not to be kept...sercets are nth...someone know...so let it out..dun keep in yourself pls...haiz...enough..i feeling down too now...
haiz...another boring dae of mine past... no job avalible for me..haiz....no money= no play=no outings...haiz...boring..... todae went to play pool with shuinannth to do ba..haha..then pool i win 5:0 then 9-Balss 5:3..haha..bored la..dunno why...cannot concentrate in playing pool also..all tyco win him one..by 1 ball or just black ball...haiz...boring daes...seem so long...haiz....then after tt he went hm at abt 6...he cannot late go hm one de ma..his mom will scolded him....i understand..last time i am like this or worst then this....then now after exam...alot better just say when i am and i can go out....then i went to my house downstair de bb court...got ppl play..but i dun wan play team...leg pain come back le..haiz..then shoot shoot onli...then they play full court for trainning..then i become the tatics planner for them wth...waste my time onli...haiz...then come jeffery my vice-captain in my primary sch bb team..haha long time ago..he live just above me..haha...but he went to army le...haha...then now oc le...every week can come out..haha.. he ar...funny loh....but nv studies one..haha...but bb very pro....remember last time we train together so happy...haha...everydae together...haha...basketball is not to be play rough and not meant to be always winning... i may be pro or not...but when i play serious i very bad by myself while others say pro...but i long long time nv play serious...i think tt basketball is a very fun game where many joys and laughter comes.....good ma..play play onli... haha..thinks of my primary sch bb life is so fun everydae bb..haha..so lame...now?? cannot le...old le...play liao here pain there pain..haiz....old le la...haha...then i play until very late dad call from hm... i say at my house below de bb court... he belived but he say i am with those smking frenz....i can say nth....some of them are smking but i am not smking with them... they are human too...can tok one rite??? we speak human laugues and we play bb together..so???? wth...... to everyone... I HAVE QUIT SMOKING OK!!!!!!!!!!UNDERSTAND......haiz...nvm i know i have been i have been very bad...haha...nvm la...let him scolded ba..no comment whu tell he is my dad....haiz... blame myself for being naughty not others...haha...ok enough.... tml is going to be another boring daes for me....pls someone ask me out man...i dun wan to rot...anywhere anytime..pls just ask me...i dunno whu to go to..haiz.......ok it is late i going to be infront of the tv and rot le...i can't slp...byeZ
haiz...just wake up...dunno why slp so long... cannot fall aslp one..but eyes very de tired so closed eyes and ly there..haha..until now.....haha...boring day ytd....actually got go out one...then all throw me away... one cannot go out.....then the other say no need ma fa me to go out..haha..then rot all day at hm...damn bored man...i am going to go out todae...lolZ..but dunno where and with whu...maybe i am not liked by ppl ba...haha...go out myself ba...since i am a loner...boring...nth much happen..just tt i am rotting at hm or somewhere nearby all by myself....byeZ...
hee....alot better...no more fever liao...hee...but there is still headach every now and then...haha...ytd no time to update....haha...cause go syco....morning meeting shuinan at jp he say 7.30....but come at 8..wth....then meet james at mrt station..think he also kena trick by shuinan cause his face not rite...haha....then i no cello use...cause ji wan me to use jasmine one..but she nv bring hm..so morning de practice..i just sit there and rot....haha...listen to the music...nice ok.... must come for the pfm....haha....all tohugh i onli got 2 songs..haha..no group solo...haha..cause i got exam....then afternoon both of us...rot ar.....need to wait until 6++= then exam time...wth...then we sit infont of sch de kopitiam sit and la kopi..lolZ...rot ar...haha..then go in saff louge sit..cause got air con..haha...nth to do...sit for damn long atleast 4 hrs.....then 6++ take out cello and practice..haha...say practice but play 5 mins...walk 20 mins..haha....then got 3 other cello ppl whom i dun know caome and take the exam..haha....1 gal and 2 boys.....haha..werid ppl...haha...then 3 of them is not good....ji lao shi tell me one..haha...he say the gal abit better..but no basics..haha..so lame.....got her own cello...so nice..i wan also dun have..=(....mom dun wan buy for me..haiz.....ok then audrey xuan wei shuinan there practice like playing like tt..haha... i keep joking over there cause can see they are very nervous..haha..so i joke and joke...haha..then my turn le...but hor...my exam time write 6.35 le..but i go in at 7.45...wth....haha....then i go in and play....dunno why see the teachers my hands start to sweat..haha...lame ba...then keep playing wrong...then ji lao shi say.... dun nervous la...haha..then i try loh...then play finished the song...haha..short short onli...i know i play until very lousy..haha...think i either going to be out or i will in bass...haha...the teacher other then ji lao shi wan me to go bass ba...then shuinan..haha..he no need to say one cfm in one....his bass skill is so gd...unlike me....like shit...haha...then we went hm....i went to return perice her cello..haha...then went hm...when i on bus it started to rain....then i sit at bus stop...then ji lao shi call me..haha... come and nag at me loh..haha...dun tell u all wat he nag...come ask me la...haha..=P.....then wait le very long..then nvm walk in the rain..haha..long long nv walk in rain liao...hhaa...then reached hm...ji call me again..haha...lame....nag again...haha...then go bath.....haha..then nth le loh......later i am going out le...haha....byeZ....YEAH I AM GOING OUT!!!!!!
aloha....haha..nth to do...ytd have very sweet dreams..hee....but wake up my sick get worst.... my head spinning and pain...fever higher..cause i get colder.....wth...now gastric pain also...wth...pain...my heart pain just now also....i am going to die liao..haiz..idiot body..useless one... dunno wan for wat..haiz....

hee...ytd actually cannot slp one...then take out the jacket tt got her smell hee...love her smell..so nice...hee.... i realise just by looking at her i am very happy liao...during camp..i gto the keys so i can't slp need to patrol..hee...eyes very tired..but when i look at her slping i felt a feeling so nice..haha...she seem damn sweet when slping..damn nice..how i wished she were to slp beside me everyday and let me look after her....i will be damn happy..haha..know this is my own thinking hee... hee.... really i dun mind whether she is going to be mine or not...frenz is also gd... i just wished she is happy and live her life properly...nth more...i dun wished to be her most important person or wat....but need help can find me...hee...the gift tt i gif her is not for her to remember me but just a gift to remember this past..hee.. can throw away also nvm as long as i remember this...hee...thanks her for giving me this very nice and good menories in this very sch and this part of my very life..hee..thanks....

sorry..i am really sick ca't tok more....sorry...but i can't slp.....sorry..byeZ...pain..somemore alone at home....nth to eat or do...wth...byez
yoZ!!!...long time nv come to tyhis blog le...O lvl finished le...co caomp finished le..coming to syco exam le..tuesday...sch daes over..haha..time files..when u dun realise...haiz...haha..times files..but i am happy with it..haha...frenZ gone..times files..haha...going to be sianz...haha...o lvl seem diff..but pass le..haha..no money..cause no job...haha...
three daes two night camp in sch.... co camp..haha...fun...haha...many ppl sick... haha..then all complain here and there..haha...but ok la... can see teachers working very hard..me need to take keys so nv slp..haha..but aleast i make ppl slp..haha..especially someone..haha...shuinan get sick ther..haha..so i let him slp ba..haha..then i wake up all the time to check on those ppl..haha.. then morning i nned to help them prepared things...then practices also...haha...nvm la...i not complaining...cause is i wan de..hee....ok la..me now having fever liao...byeZ..
my bro is rite.... my father hope had become sad over the years and now to angry to me..haha..i understanding just like me getting worse and worse each year....he scoded me ytd..late homw money spender....he is going to cut my money again ba..i think...hee...think i am going to a road of depress.....i finally understand wat he hope for in me..but it is too late le...me have just killed myself..with no furture liao...my 2 most important for my ME course in poly is not going to do well...where am i going??? dover??? Bukit batok???lolZ..or even not studying anymore go out to work??? as sweeper???rubbish collecter???dish washer???lolZ...whu know???
I just know tt i am going down a dead road..now i reached the end.... i am just like murder whu had killed myself and running away..now came to a dead end of the road....i had no place to go....no way of my choice...i am sad...really sad...tears dropped...haiz...i am rally sad...going to be in depression liao...even though todae is the last o lvl paper..i dunno wat to say...simply i am sad...ytd i am unable to slp....i cried...not because of others...but for myself...why do i killed myself leaving no heart beat at all....i am lazy,like to play, do bad things,etc...all this cause my life...i dunno...confused..sad..depress now really...haiZ..I know tt i am going to be dead....think is a very gd new to all of u...i know i have been fan and always disturb u all....i am sorry..i will br gone for soon...and u all will not be able to find me to disturd u again.....i doubt ppl will care abot me...if there is tell me and i will sincerly say sorry to u..really...byeZ...-={[DePrEsSIoN]}=-
haiz..bored...wth....bored...no place to go...no ppl accompany me....i am a loner liao..wth..i dun wan...haiz...ytd really nth to do..whole dae in front of the stupid tv then at nite study my D&T..to quite late ba..haiz..todae got exam at 2....wth...why at 2...somemore is 2hrs and 30 mins..wtf..haiz..felling no gd.....dunno la..fan ar...........................................................................
hiaz...boring lei....message shuinan also nv reply me de...wth....bored..without his touch i also rotting at hm...lolZ....bored le.....ytd pfm...bored also..haha...but relaxed la...ok ba...i found out i got 2 sticky glue..haha..some of u wouldn't know one...haha...ytd pfm break i go opps playground sit..haha...bored....nth much ba....haha....then todae dun have co..haha..long long time nv eat with parents on this so call family dae..hhaha..then eat until i so full...then not at hm rot..wat is this family dae for??? haha..nth loh....bored...bored...i also nth to do....watch my tv until fall aslp just now....haha..rotting in process....ya.... i ytd slp damn early about 12++ to 1...cause promise ppl tt i will slp early....haha..then todae slp until 11.30 then is wake up by my mom one..haha..so long nv slp for this long liao..haha...i also cannot use com for long cause my bro wan to play the maple then i also nth to do..haiz..bored...bored bored bored.....ok la i go back to rot infront of my tv liao..byeZ
hee...just reached hm from mac...haha...alone sitting down there..morning go sch de co then go cc put my cello for tonite pfm...then come back hm bath..then go mac...they change meeting time nv tell me..haha..nvm la....then now back le...boring..just now rushed like wat..then they change time..lolZ..haha..nvm...nth much le ba..haha...byEz
just got home....mom ask my faster come hm then she not at hm wth....haha..todae fun dae ba... morning shuinan come my house type his time table..haha...then want to go eat liao..then geraldine message me ask me to accompany her go eat...then we went to meet her...then go her old house there eat....but i nv eat..lolZ..dunno why waited until full..lolZ..then go play pool... come joh and fan..haha...shuinan very lucky todae..keep winning and i am very the suay kena slap beat hit...haha...then pool also keep losing...then otw hm..i was helping shuinan to clean his shirt got chalk then he turn thought i was hitting him he hit me..i shocked then shouted out.... then geraldine shocked by my voice ba...suddenly so loud..she also nv listen to my really loud before..haha..so guilty now..sorry sorry...i shouldn't have shouted..sorry...=(..hope u are ok ba..sorry...now at hm so boring.....haiz..dunno why???.....tml need go sch de co..tml got pfm...then cello de scores i haven even read..wth...


there are many treats and tricks in this world...there is a reason why all this things come..hee
just come up to my com from my bed..ytd nv slp at all..cause my my stupid stomach or gastric..pain ok..now still in pain..i dun think i will be able to walk out of my house a step..it is pain..really pain...wtf man....ar......................................................................................................... O lvl going to finished..happy and sad...happy cause no sch no books no nagging....free from parents..able to go out in the nite......really onli this is my happiness..... my sad lot more....frenz gone....ppl gone...they not free.....how to meet them??? happyiness in sch gone....this is human thinking...when u have it...u just let it be...then when u are going or they are gone...u will feel the world is putting u into prison.....haiz....lot more sad think....wth man...shuinan come my house liao..i let him do his things liao...bye...
yoZ just back hm...no ppl at hm....going to be alone..hate the feeling of alone...wth....todae...morning wake up..nth to do..lolz....meet shuinan for breadfast one then become combine of breadfast and lunch..haha...cause i went to his house at abt 12..then he looked like just wake up like tt....hair standing like the cartoon dragon ball...haha.lame...then go his house there eat...cause no money to go jp eat....but after eating walk to jp also..lolZ..lame ba...see many ppl going to sch for poa exam....then there rot at the arcade..i am getting worse...too long nv go ply liao..now shuinan can win me liao....haha..nvm let him win ba...then abt 4.30 went to colour court...then lent ball shoot...haha..shuinan bb still lose to me...he still dare say no gal ma..no need to play like pro...haha...lame ba...then abt 5 liao...saw yong cai and gao wen...they finished f&n test liao...haha..then i and shuinan walk to his house...see no ppl..lolZ....then i lost my dog..dunno go where liao....=(((((..sad lei.....then walk back hm....haha..then nth le...now rotting in process..nth to do..no game to play also..haiz...
hi...long time nv write le.....hee...dunno wat to write also...hee... felling sleepy..haha...just wake up..hands tired from ytd de syco practice...i practice alone le....in the staff louge..haha...now i know which teacher is lazy and everytime go to the staff louge to rest....i was late for the practice..haha...not because of tt then i practice there one..hee..is because i nv pfm the fantasy song in the dec pfm....i got o lvl ma..so long time nv go then nv practice with them then i tell ji lao shi i dun wan to pfm tt song..he did ask me to pfm for the song before..hhaa...cause i lazy ba..SYCO exam is on the 29 nov lei..very fast...me haven really perfect the song...haiz......legs also tired....ytd run&walk the same place for abt 1hrs++..haha..finding things ma.....haha.....ytd walk hm with shuinan cause i need to return his sister the cello...then chat loh...dunno wat happen to him...i can't belive he say he dun wan to chio the gal he liked liao...haiz..he is giving up...i have nth to say....help him think of so much things he dun wan liao...maybe he is just notthose going to be "waiting " de guy ba.....nvm he is handsome ma..haha..mature in so ways...haha...i watch the just like heaven le.....haha...not bad...got laugh one got cry one..but not sad la...is too happy for them until cry..haha..but me???how to cry????lolZ.....later also dunno wan to do wat????borign....anyone will find me put????=XXXX....mr left 2 more paper and is end of bks life..haha....i realise shuinan is a lousy planner..and a lazy bum..haha..ytd in sch help him plan the time-table for co camp..then become all i say out one..he just stand there and write...haha....nth much le ba...dunno wat to write..sorry..byeZ..
boring ok.....damn bored....dunno wat.....haha...todae wake up by my phone..not cause it ring..it is because it droped..u know it dropped..then a sudden wake me up...it felt like my wife fell off my bed....i quickly pick it up...haha...heart pain even though it is an old phone....haha..but got mermoies inside..hee....then go cc de co....shuinan got go ok...haha...cause ger ask him go ba...not like me.. ask him go he will not move abit....haha...nvm he is a guy after all...lolZ....then after tt i make my scores for cello bass and for james he coming to perform next wk..haha..happy...we are back!!! the three of us..long time le..since i nv go for syco...three of us nv chat much...haha...gd frenz...to me is also a bro..everyone is a bro..=X...haha..then almost forget to eat my lunch...she reminded me...haha..or i dun tihnk i will remember....lame ba...then walk hm...buy newspaper...come back sit on sofa all the way to just now...haha...butt pain ok....boring life of mine...actually though shuinan rarely come can take bus with him..but he got ai lian de car ma...hee....so nvm..hee....dunno..laft geo d&t and sc paper 1 onli...just 3 more and i am free...still got to work le....or i have no money......boring life....
boring at hm...sianz like hell....play game...haiz...today wake up go co with shuinan..haha...mr ji shocked to see me..haha.....nv practice cello for a long time..then gif him say...haha..very lame..nth much le...haha..dunno la...still feeling not gd....shunan is gd..he keep making me laugh..haha...gd bro of mine....unlike the real one....



to the idiots whu fuck on my tag booard...so wat????say care abt me....go off....u make harm to me...tell dad....ask me to save money????he already cut my money by 50% liao...ask me save???? haha..all thanks to u..thanks you ar.....yaya..i am a liar u can say tt....so??? ask around...i haven been smoking for how long??? fucker...ya...maybe u say stress dun need snk one rite?? so wat? i liked...as if u nv try before....just one thing dun like dun come see my blog..i am not going to tell anything to u....stop toking the stupid u....get the hell off..i am feeling gd...
haiz...sianz.......................................................................................................sway ba.................todae english paper 1...i dunno wat the hell am i writing then i know i really going to failed english laio...stresss....then go smk before paper 2 start.........the paper also sux....sux to core man...i can't belive it.........................then kena caught cause the smell too strong ba...................nvm kena tok cock at onli.....from his toking i know he dun wished to caught me de.... he is care for other student.....from his toking...he say the smell may be discomfort to others.....from his voice...reallly a gd teacher.... really i am touched...by his ths concern....really...thanks you teacher...i am not kow ur name but ur face is in my mind..............thanks......but sorry...i think i will failed my "o"lvl liao............sorry to those whu put in effort in helping me...thanks....those whu put hope on me..i am sorry...scold me if u wan...but i am sad enough....sorry.........................................................................................................
yoZ...just finished studying my SS...haha...tml test le...devil is on the way to lead me to hell..lolZ...YEAH..todae is the 100th dae of waiting..haha..nth much ba...haha...cannot use long..next time free then tell u all something else ba...take care..and last to all "o" lvl one..GOOD LUCK AND DO UR BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ChEeRS.............
just woke up....dunno why nowadays i keep slping late....just read someone blog...quite sad..cause the person have so family relative problems...then i put myself into her shoe..it is diff to cope..really...without greeting relative...as for me i do have...but onli 1 treat me really gd..other then tt still ok... cause all they know i was one a really naught kid from young... from young forunte telling told my parents tt i am an unlucky star.. u keep him u either will go poor or he will be damn naught.... it come out both liao...i have done alot of things illegal and unable to face my parents even my bros... two of my bro are all better then me other then temper...all thry more handsome then me studies no need to say is like heaven and hell...then they are very gd to my parents...gd loh..haha not like me...everyday kena scolded by them...haha..then the poor thing also coming through le...haiz dun tok abt it liao..haha..tok abt my life liao...hee... nth much..just think of tt dae go mac study with them then see a very cute little boy celebrating his birthday there but his mum look away like it is none of her business..then keyln say so pitiful..haha..it is truth..the boy will feel very sad caused it happen to me..but at least he is better then me aleast his dad help him..but me??? none..i celebra on my own or..no celebra at all..haha..ok stop this sad thigns..haha...i am scared of books now....haiz..keep studying....haha..
haha..know it's not early and it is too late....haha..i always call ppl to slp early and i am always the last to slp or even not slping..am i selfish??..haha..think i am really sick le..whole body no force..haiz...morning woke up at 10..very late then go pay town council de money..then go hm... headache in the morning..then meet shuinan to eat lunch cause i dun wan eat alone....then he need to go co....i walk to jp..walk walk awhile..really awhile..not even 20 mins...walk one round then take bus hm le..cause become dizzy le....haiz..useless body...then at hm sit there then heart become to pain...WTf man..all come in one dae....then no energy to move..sit there..then mum call..ask me to cook... haiz..bo bian got to cook...cook half way dad come back...he nv like me cooking so he cook..then i go rest le....nv eat dinner...lolz...sick ma..then call shuinan chat abt crap..lolz...lame loh...he all brain is her her and her...haha...then help him think of ideas to woo the gal...i gif alot lei..i also dunno come from where de ideas..they just floated to my brain..haha.. then shuinan ask me why i nv use all these ideas before..i say dunno..haha..gif u use ma..u my bro..ahaha...then nth much le..look at the com..the com look at me....haha....
yoz!!!! just finished cutting my finger nail..ahah..very boring lazy to srudy...haha..fourth time bloging todae...lolz...haha..just now i cook dinner with my mum..but my mum just sit there and eat her orange and nag and nag at me....while i was so hardworking to cook for her...haiz...somemore not enough rice....wan me go down buy..but i lazy..=X.. haha..then add the unpolised rice..not bad lei the taste..haha..she keep nagging at me... think finally she got time to be alone with me this naught son to dig the things inside of me ba...haha..but luckly she dig nth but crap..haha...i keep toking crap with her...haha..then she go nag and nag...haha...say i dunno why seem happier at once and sadder and once..haha..then i tell her i study until crazy liao..haha..then she wack me..then i add too much salt to the veg..then salty..haha..then my dad fish back liao first mouth eat the veg then he ask my mum why so salty..haha..then i say dunno..my mum keep quiet..haha..lame ba.....todae listen to waiting for u and lonely until i can sing the whole song liao la...haha...bored...everyone sleep early pls..haha
wanted to rest but...dunno why just cannot go to slp...haiz....missing her ....really..haha..sorry i come here cause i got noth to do le...really miss her..onli 1 dae u know...haiz...dunno how....... how am i going to lgo on after exam??? haiz...how?...i am dead man.....i have no exp in missing a gal so much...maybe last time de relationship is i am still young and useless ba...play with ppl..haiz...regret now tt i play with her.....sorry..lolz..i am crazy come here write this...lolz..haha.. boring ba...miss her lot...ar.... when ever i look at a blank space her face come to my image...looking at her photo..haha..lame ba...haha.. maybr this is heaven telling me tt i can't live without frenz..lolz...life like this really sux man...think i later going to mac to study myself ba..cause i cannot study at hm de...dunno why....shuinan painting his house so gd...how i wished i could paint my house too...if i have a room of my own here i will paint her name big big there..haha..boring ba...byeZ
ARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALONE AT HM.............DAMN SIANZ AR...........SICK LIAO AR............. THINK NV SLP BA....STUDY STUDY AND STUDY.............ALL CAN GO OUT....WAN FIND PPL ALL GO OUT.................DAMN SIANZ AR............NOW I SEE BOOKS AND PAPER I SCARED LIAO LA.................SIANZ LIKE HELL..NONO..THINK HELL IS BETTER THEN HERE.............SHUINAN WENT OUT...ALL OUT...WTF...SIANZ AR..........................I AM GOING TO BE CRAZY LE LA.............................................................................BORING AR............................................................SOMEONE PLS COME...........I AM CRAZY.....................................................BOOK ARE FREAK.............. PAIN PAIN PAIN..............
YaWnZ..just woke up...haha...tired lei..dunno why..haha..todae is festival of light..haha...wished ppl celebrating it will be damn happy.....lolZ..dunno come here write wat...so early in the morning brain is empty....okok...let tok abt shuinan..haha..this bro of mine is 16 this year...tall like hell..look like skinny but no la...haha...he finished his "n"lvl le...think he can do it de..cause his studies not bad de...haha..he now working at marriot where i havd been working..haha...now he no time to accompany me le...told u all liao...once work = no time...me will be worst then him alot..cause i captain liao...more work then him..he is just at the bar...can change shift..i almost need to work everydae 10a.m to nite 11.30p.m or with O.T to 3.30a.m..so..hiaz..dunno how... i will got no time for anybody...just like the song LoNely...lolz...so bored...ytd chinese paper...see they all say the paper quite easy..but i see all chinese paper the same de..lolZ..still can do ba..NV SLEEP DURING BOTH PAPER LEI..lolz...last time chinese paper i comfirm will fall asleep de..haha...then after tt go watch movie..watch the andy lau one..all rite la...not really gd...not much emotions...=X..but quite sad la..if tt happen to me...i dunno how...haiz..haha...then go hm rot loh.....haiz....ok la...i go wash up then look at my books le....byEz
hee...very stressed for the coming exam..monday is chinese le....my worst subject of all times...i remember the last time i get a for mother eongue is pri 2 ba..haha...then all the way drop and drop..haha...dunno how to study for mother tongue....haha..but need to study...acctually i dun intend to study liao de..cause... i know will be the same de...c6..haha..but she ask me to study or dun tok to her....=X..haha so study ba...since it means no harm...haha...friday go sch get award..haha..a little badge..for cca..dunno wat..then mr bong in front of whole sch gif some of the taf ppl a prize cause cut down over 5 kg...i cut down 8kg so i got something too..haha..it is a skipping rope..dunno for wat..hhaha..then after tt....went hm..nth to do...then went to play pool... hand pain still can play pool rite..not bad har...=X..haha..all rite la..cause play with shuinan onli not need like play with jerome they all need skill... shuinan one u ujse thinking can win him de...but lastly we have the score of 5:5....haha..i lose 5 match and win 5...but i think he onli win once or twice cause other is i in black ball..haha...then after tt go hm...cook le...but my mum say my things not good to eat...then i accompany her to go down...but she eat i see onli...haha..then sat meet shuinan at 1.30 we go jp walk walk cause actually wan to meet people when their class finished..but they with their teacher went to eat..so we dun disturb haha..i buy le the "f"amous choc cake for someone but nv meet haha...then shuinan ask me buy for whu de...then i say foe myself can?..then he say i dun belive..so i take out and eat down all the cake....haha...since i haven eat..haha..then send shuinan hm..then i slowly walk hm..since i really got nth to do...then i go cut my hair..now i very shory le..no tail...nothing..damn short..wan put also cannot..haha..then at nite study mother tongue...study to 2.00a.m..haha...think first time i can study chinese for so long...haha...ok le..i need to go for cc de co soon...somemore i haven wash up..=X..hee..byEzz..
hi..abt to go to slp.....come here tok tok awhile...very diffcult to type cause my right hand abit burnt..then mum wrap my hand with tape...so uncomfortable...haiz....dunno why..."her" had been playing cold war with me...no tok...sms little like none...bye bye ,hello also dun have...haiz..nth i can do.....sorry...me dun understand...i am not angry..but just confused..why u gif me cold shoulder???did i make u angry? did i do anything wrong?...u just tell me...i will and can change...sorry if there is sa need...but dun gif my cold shoulder can??? cold war is too tough for me from u...it hurts me...but u think like this is better..then ok...can tell me...dun wan to see me? tell me too....i will not appear infront of u....anything just tell me...todae is another boring dae..morning eat wat breakfast at jurong west..thne go jp play wat arcade..with shuinan..then he go sch meeting then i waited outside for him..then i ask him go mac study with me...he come..then "her" sms me tt they will be studying at BL mac too..ask me wan come anot..dun wan FORGET IT!!!..u know how much it hurts to see this sms...haiz...she come le...with her frenz..very happy...but i and her no commcaition..gtg cause need to go hm cook dinner..think she will not understand one..cause i go at 7...they still staying...not even a bye from her... me go hm le... reasiled tt my hand is too pain to hold the cooking pots...so i went down to packet for my family..still kena scolded by them say y no cook onli know how to go out play...haiz....they dun understand me too..haiz..i can do nth but gif them scold loh...haha..ok la..i tml still need to go sch...i go slp le..ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZZzzzZzzZZZZZ
haiz....boring dae of my life...just finished dinner but onli drink water cause no mood...todae morning wake up at 7.30 cause shuinan call me...he nth to do...haha...then actually he wan to go k-box...but i no mood..haiz....cause nv get to see her todae..no message also..i nv message her cause think she busy ba...so dun wan disturb her...haiz...no mood to do anything...then go areana play pool but i anyhow play...there no ppl...then onli 2 of us....then i win 10:01..lolz..anyhow play also can...haiz...then go jp..he go see wat phone he going to buy...but ii fan him like hell...then rain veru huge..take 240 one round..he gif me fan until wan to siao liao...then i take 99 with him one round..fan him again..cause he is my bro ma....my two others bro going to be not free le...alfred and xiao xiong...alfred is begin called by his father in USA to go back..he wouldn't be able to find me until next year jan..haiz...but still wished him gd luck in his business..then xiao xiong is going back to malaysia also cause of father business..haiz...still wished him lauck la.....Bros workhard..we will meet together one dae and chat abt all we wan....Go Go Go!!

ok,now is my things le....my now having "o" lvl....trying very hard to study but always thinks of her..happy tihnking of her...wander wat she is doing? whether is she fine...images of her smiling flow through my brain..haha..so happy... but i dun have time for her le...me dunno how..after "o"lvl i got to go SYCO,Work....haiz..then if she really work at her sister there then even worse..she work morning to evening then me from evening to midnite...Wa....HOW????? HEAVEN....pls..help me...teach me how....but she work also good ba...but the boss cannot bully her or i go kill him/her..=X.....me going back to my marriot hotel to work...shuinan working at there le....me after exam then go work...haiz...then need to go syco and co practices cause syco got pfm during dec..dunno she will go anot..haiz..nvm ba..since i at there also onli extra there..i so lousy..haiz...REALLY NO TIME LE..=(..i am going to cry...whenever i think of this qns...images comes out and tears cover my eyes...but i nv let them dropped cause i always think there is going to be a solution for everthing in this world..ok...i try to think of something ba...maybe change job or wat ba..haiz...dunno how..if u know pls tell me...and Heaven dun paly with me anymore ok...i have told u many things..and u have played with me alot of times...but this time pls...let it be ok....let her come to me can?..maybe no...but let let her smile more and laugh more...i really make my hearts bleed when i see her face sianz or sad or angry..pls...let her have the beautiful smile on her cute face..really damn beautiful and cute when she smile and laughs.....thanls heaven if u really help me..thanks...tml think she also not ffree..haha..lonely again ba..lolX....headache le..byeZ..
yoZ....boring at hm..haha...no need to go sch loh...haha..cause self-study le..haha...nthing to do...no ppl ask me to go out...haiz...nth to do damn boring..boring boring borging..BORING....
haha..just watch finished show at hm... very touching how i wished i could be like them...so happy togather..haha..sorry...this few daes nv update...no chance to use com...really...father at hm will nag at me..need to study..haiz....finished finished the notebook..haha..dunno she can read my words anot....not cfm ba..haha...let me think..tuesday nv go sch cause i need to go hospital for check up....haha...doc say better alot le..haha..dunno la...ask me to take care..then say look after me so many years le know tt i will not listen de..haha.... then wed..nv go sch again..cause is all science...sianz ma...cause thursdae is science practical...haha...thurdaes practical loh...ok la..but dunno i got write wrong anot..haha...then is keyln birthdae..go arena...but i go until 8 i go hm..cause my dad dun let me go out..then i take cab hm...luckily he haven reached hm..or i die again..haiz....then friday wan go sch de...but when i wake up got headach..then take bus to sch...it got worse..then meet shuinan gif him cd..then i go hm rest le...very pain..haiz....maybe cause wed finished the notebk at 3++ then late slp ba....cause have been staying up late to finshed the notebk fast for her to study...cause not much time le...she wan to pass onli can depend on her le...hope she will use the notebk ba...then nite go mac study with geraldine,kelyn and hwee qi... go hm at 10...see my dad face black black haha.... then shuinan sms sometihng very big..he told me tt he begin to like a gal... can see this is real..cause he tok abt it all the time...gd luck to him ba..=)..dun be like me can le...=X..then sat...which is todae..nono is ytd..haha..morning dunno why slp like pig intil geraldine message me say i gif the t-shirt ti mdn peng le ma..haha..then faster wash up then do the design..is touch up ba..cause i saved in my com one gone...die she see le will kill me...then after tt go mac study...after tt shuinan come my house.... we go eat at jurong west st?? dunno...near hong kah north cc there...we drink beer cause really no happy abt something..haha..drink a little onli then both act drunk..haha..lame like hell but chat alot..he told me something i dun belive....but he have no adantage to lie me abt tt...so..maybe it is truth..dunno..haiz....smk alot also... haha..then go back my house..he fell aslp on my bad..haha..then i watch tv... wake him up at 12.30..haha...then together watch tv..then 1.30 we walk hm together..i mean walk to his house...chat and chat..haha...bro ma...guy tok mostly abt gals la ok...haha...sad also....lolz...then walked back hm myself...raining somemore...haha..then come back cannot fall asleep cause shuinan tell me tt thing....can't belive it..haiz...then watch tv until now....haha..ok la i think i go watch tv until i slp...somemore tml still need to wake up for cc co haha....i wan go de...but shuinan not going he got to work..haiz...alone there...haiz...ok byeZ...
yoz...back to life...dead for a moment...lolz.....nth la...cause i got nothing to up ma...haha...let c....sat i went out....with ger and shuinan....go pool...haha..play 6hrs+... $35.80.....haha..i treat them play..also dunno why.......haha..nvm they both my really gd frenz..really really gd..think more then frenz...more like my family members le....really love them...haha...then shuinan fever come my house..say wan to slp but nv slp..come my house eat and play...haha...then at around 1 i walk with him to his house..haha....fun cause walk until half go vending machine buy things like free..haha...then i keep saying wrong things then keep laughing..ppl see thought we crazy...haha..buddy forever..haha..then i walk hm...nth to do ba....walk and think of my own tghings...count the daes waited for her....haha...still short la....others wait for 3 yrs le..me going to 3 months onli....haha..then my exam...my furture...after exam....how to keep contact with all...5 yrs passes really damn fast...primary school my be fun but secondary is the best...all my mermoies are here in BOON LAY SEC gd or bad..i love all...here is where i found out whu i really love and wat love is....really..and hardworking...gd frenz.....all fun...




ok now is story time...............haha
there was a boy whu had a tude in his heart crack where blood keep flowing out.....sometime it is really pain can feel...he knew it when he is in pri 1..he cried for a wk...u may think that he is really young dunno how it feel...he had to keep skipping sch for hospital....he had no frenz..he is like a monster in class.even teachers dun like to be close with him...he started to grow on his very own.....he doesn't wan his parents to have the angry or u all called sad face to gif me..why he can nv do his things rite...not study..no playing..all no.... in his pri 2 he start to be strong...hid everything inside him even the very pain he dun show out a bit...he just smile with all..=)...he started to onli go hospital during off sch hrs and when he really needs it...he started to have more frenz in pri3...fast he know lots lots...but he kept it a sercet....really noones knows....he started to play basketball to try whether it will be in pain...lucky it is not really pain and he enjoy it..he started playinh and pri4 he join the sch team..really gd....keep playing and playing...2 yrs past... he slowly onli go to doc twice a years onli...however maybe the heaven dun like him..he got muscles tear and a really big one...he knew it is going to be pain but he had tried wat even more painful then this..he keep quiet and when to hpspital to stay for 6 months..he cannot move his legs at all..he had his psle in hospital...really it is no gd feeling at all...he lose his frenz.... he felt alrite..then he moves to sec 1..he didn't tell anyone abt his past..he become a normal people..he is happy like hell haha....really happy..go on with life...stop basketball le....cannot play told by doc... he is sad..but nv show...he kept it all...he try all others...he knew all most all sport...he start to know a special frenz when in sec2 become buddy in sec3 ...really gd..now he told his stories to him acause he know he is going to be long buddies...really...and he started to notice a gal during his sec 4..but he dun dare to say cause he had dropped to na from express..then go to sec 5 realise she also liked him..happy awhile but broke off cause she liked others...haha..then becomes really gd frenz..more than frenz ba....haha...told her some of his stories...not to make her pitil him but to encourage her...there is someone worst then her..haha..i am not going to tell u whu this person is but dun guess...he dun like it...thanks...hee
just got back not long from sch de gradu nite..not bad..see all my frenz all so high and happy..really gd... me not really used to this kind of things....the really sad things is tt i have a really bad headache..till now it still really hurtz ok... dizzy too...dunno why..haha...i am so ugly can... i nv wear business suit out unless really need... feel so uneasy..nth much ba..cause i sit outside for a very long time cause of the headach... then after tt take phot with my class de..haha.. then nth much ba... geraldine was sent hm by her parents..she is so angry..and pulled a long face..think she ok ba...cause she still know her parents is care for her one..not like mine..onli know how to take away my freedom..sux ok...dun understand me at all...haiz..dun tok about them...shuinan is so tired..he started working....haha..he seem more mature...haha...ok le me got nth much...head really pain..i go take medi le..byEZ
hi all...finally my com is back on use again..lolzz...too long vn write also dunno wan write wat...onli know now my head damn pain...headache everydae....dizzy also...dunno why..maybe dieing???...whu know....?lolzz all test ba and all this stupid classes teachers gif...damn stress... haiz...how to pass life.... i have lose my freedom le...kena scolded by father..then no freedom no money... he cut my pocket money by HALF..u know HALF...haiz...then eat away all my money... haiz..wat kind of father is this ...i dun even know... maybe he is not my father..=X..whu cares..haha..boring life of mine...still the same...haiz...nth inproved over the daes onli got worst.. my result is even worst... cannot let ppl see one.... not A n B.. all Cs then 1 D and 1F...wtf...F9 u know..all CH...dunno why cannot remember one...damn sucks....haiz..nth to write le... byEZ

just bath and ate my dinner..haha...todae out...haha.morning go to sp with james and yan..then meet irfan and hwee qi..haha....then go np...saw many ppl....all appealing to their course..then went to qeenway shopping centre with yan and james....eat the katong laksa..haha very the nice....haha then went back to sch..meet shuinan and yan packet for shi hui..haha so good..then meet shuinan and james again at 4.30 go out lo..haha.. play at jp to abt 6...then go marchie at HMV there...haha.. also help friend find watch..but all the other colour have but she wan de is white..dun have..haiz..nvm will keep finding ba...haha..then james go pick his gf..haha...at bugis...there also dun have white colour de le....his gf not bad....haha...with him very gd ma....haha....jealous...=X..haha.... then he send her home i and shuinan search the watch again but no news...haha..then we went home together....haha...then my leg damn pain...old injuries come out..haha..manyu cause todae out...haha...
wahaha.. i slp for more then 14 hrs....haha..the longest i ever slp.....ytd afternoon take slping pills then now then i wake up..haha...damn sianz....twice each dae once need to take 14pills of medi....sianz...ytd morning went co...then after ttt go eat..then went home...nth to go slp loh...since need to eat 14 pills then i eat 2 more slping pill to slp loh..haha..nth much le ba...later go cc de co need to go early cause kneed to make scpres again..haha..cya
haiz..can anyone tell me how to slp??? i can't slp..maybe should go see doc..haiz...dunno why....sianz loh... i see her also dunno how to face her....haiz...she seem like a book which i will not understand even though i used time...a mountain tt i will nv reach the summit...dunno la..haiz....collect pay le...vur also wan money for wat....got things also no mood use...i injure my left ankle again while playing bb...cannot see doc or he will kill me..ask me dun play bb le...bujt i cannot... how can i just simply throw away something i like so much... like her...haiz... maybe times will heal...actually i dun mind her not with me...but tt dae i sae her aleast she smile even though not to me..but i felt a better lots......i have no job now...at home rot..dunno wat to do... my mum very happy now.... cause my bill from$200++ to just $38 this month...wa big drop rite...wahaha....crazy..phone nv ring de..like useless...haiz...lot time nv see lots of ppl....especially aflred..haha.. i very gd bro of mine...went to usa to help in his father business...rich guy ar....todae he come back..wahhaa...i still need to go pick him..using his car..later i kena caught how??haha.....see ba..catch le then say la...before tt i still need to go scg de co later....9 but meeting shuinan for breadfast.....sld be ba.... now i am worried abt xiao xiong....a very big bro of mine and aflerd..he injurie..haiz...fight la fight so more......haha...hope u dun see this..nth le ba...
haiz..back le... sianz..more and more medicine le.....there is so sianz...no ppl...onli me and the tv....my life totally drop to the worst point..where i get to 40.3...so cold...where my body hot...even whet to the ice rm...torture is all i get....headache is everything..... rmd tt time tt i went to hospital the chair u sit...where i call u mummy..u were angry....but ytd tt very chair in the very same place were very empty....i could felt nth but cold and tohughts of onli tt chair..tt playing mood tt i used to have....maybe tt is the past...ok dun wished to sadded my blog anymore... i am just down....
haiz.. i am sick...since sundae...fever on and off...cough and running nose..damn sux..make me can't go work..then my dad dun let me wotk anymore..haiz..going to rot.... he still say tml still on anf off i going to go to hospital at nite..haiz.. i dun wan...so sianz there..alone.with 4 walls and no ppl to come to visit me...haiz.....i nv go work...sorry yan.. i can't work anymore...sorry....haiz...sick le...nth much...bye...
haiz...4 in the morning..so sianz..todae i nv go work..cause damn sianz..haiz....i lost contact with all ppl....lonely soulz here....realise tt time past can't really heals wounds.....todae go co....haiz..nth much...tml go co...then need to work again...tt my life.....haiz...how.. i dunno wat to do....i am at all lost now....really lost...i felt like crying out.....but there is no one to listen....to say out wat i feel to everything but there is none....in this very middle of the dawn..i am here...siting alone infront of my com...when all is slping...and then tears drop.. it makes my keyboard wet...but is there anyone to hold out one tissiue to lend it to me???? anyone beside me asking me why are u crying??? there is none... my father just saw me todae for a wk..and did he say anything..none....haiz...there goes my life...turning into somewhere there is worst....onli sadness and lonely....where i will be just alone in the darkness where no lights will be there to shone on to the path where i sld walk...i tumple and fall...and i just couldn't pick myself up anymore...how i wished just to end it here.....with all the pains and sufferings.....................................
just come out bath.....haha...back from work again...haha.... it is like a cycle....everydae same things...haha... go work at jp de bus stop...then come back abt 7.40a.m same bus stop...then walk to pioneer mall with yan..then he go home i walk past 706 then to shuinan house there the bus stop to go home.....then reached home on com..go bath..then blog..see got ppl online ma....but mostly no ppl de....then i go slp lo..then wake up then need to go work again....my life is just like tt... i lfelt like i am living in another country..cause i see no one other then yan and ppl working there...then no contact with others.....haiz...say until ppl..i felt i miss her lots..been a wk nv see her le... felt really strange...cause something really important is missing in my life....it changes..haiz...see ba...april her birhtdae..then see ba...cya..
just got back..rot for 12 hrs..whole 12 hrs do screen test..wa..sianz lo....not tired at all..the job is not tired but damn sianz....my department damn slask one...haha...just now going home walk with sufyan then we see one snake in the canal..at pioneer park there..haha..then when i walk past blk 708 de fitness park..i saw 1 old uncle and 1 indian male wearing a shirt write army.. then they both do the hand push..the uncle very old le but do like nth....then the indian boy do until wan to die like tt....haha..somemore very skinny...lolz....then go home loh...wan to eat no ppl accompany me....damn sianz... i tihnk i go bath le slp..since nth to do le....bye...work later...
juat back not long ago...still having fever headach like hell....the job not tired but damn sianz...timw slow down...haiz.....i onli get to tok to yan on break and sometime break diff time then cannot tok..haha.....

i belive tt a min of happy moments with ur loved one will a forever picture....cause during the 40 mins break...i went to sit then my head damn pain.. i look at the sky i saw the stars..so nice..abd then i see her face in the sky...and the time she was laughing happily..haha..tt is the onli time i dun feel my head any pain..it last for 30 mins..so good.. i simply miss her.....
omg..working later..wth..todae got fever...wa lao....sianz....head and body all very tired and pain...haiz...bo bian still got to work...haiz....i dun dare to eat medi cause scared later work half then fall aslp....haiz....very dizzy now...bye...
haiz..todae is a damn suay dae for me....sauy unitl fall down 6 times...wth...leg and but very de pain ar.....suay ar.....2 itmes fall down at stair at cc cause run up and down....for scores..then 2 times fall at my block de stairs.....then 2 times cause floor wet..then i slip and fall..this 2 is the most painful one...haiz...then sitll having this idiots running nose....haiz...sneezeing non-stop also..haiz..todae when to co in the morning..then i run up and down to make scores then take out bass nv even play a note and it is time to go home..after tt go find shuinaneat lo..he ask me one...since he so free go lo..then is ask me go bowling cause mondae he got bowling competition in sch....haha..but i still win him..lame..haha...then when home fall down...ar.....dun tok abt fall down anymore..how i wished i could take oput my nose....ar.........tml start work le...7 pm-7a.m..hope it go well ba...then it will change my life le...actually nth much will change....if i can change the way i am tihnking i will had change not to todae friends...i know u all care abt me..but this kind of things not i say gif up it will gif up de....there are damn lots feeling in it..sorry guys...maybe times will drift it away...making me less painful..haa...i dun mind having this pain...haha..dun tok le la..wahaha..sianz at home...ar.....bye...
just got home not long....todae when to taman jurong to help out in the chingay..lolz...sianz..but fun also..but aleast i get to see her....i todae whole dae sneezing...so sux....todae morning wake up late cause 2 daes i nv slp then ytd slp at 5 then wake up at 11..haha..nv go co...then shuinan come find em eat lunch...then he go see doc cause he fridae nv go sch..then go see doc..the nurse ask whu see doc...shuinan say is he..then the nurse ask comfirm anot..haha.. i look more sick then him..lolz...then go taman jurong le...after tt see rhino..long time nv see this bro of mine...then go drinking session..lolz...jujst drinking and toking cock ok..cause u all cfm i will smk de..but i nv..haha.. i also shocked....drinking session i nv smk..haha.....then now just bath come out...chat alot up with my bro.. he is much much more better then me..haha...ok la...nth much le...
haiz.. i am tried from smileing and laughing infront of ppl....how i wished i can cry infront of they....haiz...no choice...whereever i go i see memories of u...even alone i tihnk of u...haiz...todae go job interview..then start work on mondae...7p.m to 7a.m....going to be working then slp then work again....haiz.....
haiz...i live my life aimlessly and sadly now...haiz...i dunno why i got so many promise in so manyt ppl and i broke the one tt is to my most important one...and just now will cause everything between us...so i decided to fulfilled tt promise back..i know it will not do any help between us anymore..but i wan to go back to the promise...haiz..sorry.....i hurtz more for u to be in disappointed with me than anyother things...haiz....sorry....u take care ba...byeZ...
end of my life here....did things really wrong over here...damn wrong...i fault here..breaking ppl promise...nth more i can say..cause i really did break it...life is so stressful for me...haiz... i lost things really important to me now...i thought i lost it long ago but now it is really lost...i regert picking up the thing i throw away...now i am sad...disappiont with myself... i can onli say sorry...sorry for beaking ur promise...sorry...

i know i break my promise here but not all...haiz..but i am wrong..nvm..sorry
valentine dae have just passed... ppl happy???hope u all are happy and not like me..haha...ppl go out..and i stay at home...even my mum ask me why nv go out..so lame...i see lots of happy couple here and there...so jealous of them..haha..nvm...i however not angry with anyone but myself..haha..nv cherish tt person...regrets comes..haha.. so ppl hope ytd u all have a happy time with ur loved one and together..and those single will have ur loved one out to u very very soon..=)..and me?? miss her lo..can do nth.. ppl ask me gif her things..even thought nv go out..i have things but nv contaact...ask me to wait outside her house.. u all very the funny..u tihnk she live alone ar......haha..nvm the things is with me and i will keep it to somedae...haha...


i still can't eat lots of things..haiz...then i cook myself loh...other then eating outside...then i at home just come and com..haha..so bored rite.....then actually todae got work one..damn it...the mike la..bluff me and yan...fuck off...angry lei...waste my time....haiz....then later back at home again....nth to do again.. i can't seem to go to aslp again....how??? slping pills...useless le...le....nvm..bang my head againt the walls..haha good ideas rite..haha...todae i do one kind things tt is to help my frienz create blog...haha..so lame....nth to do..haha...
nth much loh..my life...nvm it is going to change..erm let say todae..i dunno wat time i wake up...haha..then meet yan at 12 in jp..see wat course he wan to take..then meet ger and kel..after they go to sch...then go eat..then pool for awile..they go off..to shopping i tihnk...dunno nv tell me..haha...then i and yan call the sing hitech..to ask got work anot since we doing nth...then say got..say 4.30 must reach or will be gone..but the time they call is 4...we rush hm then there but it was too late it is gone...haha...then go jp loh....then he go home le.. i contineue loh...saw thoedore...play again..so sianz...then go syco but late le..go cc onli...meet shuinan and james..tok on the way home...james is very de fine...with galfriend le....wa...tml i still need to help him see got rose anot..haha..he wan gif his galfriend...haha..i dun have...no ppl wan....bought something but.....nvm.....next time ba....not on valetine..haha..tml i got to work le...nite shift...going to be tired... i think i now go force myself to slp first...bye...

HAPPY VALETINE PPL....


this is also the 201 dae i wait for her and i will be still waiting..cause i love her...and this is the every first time i pass valetine dae and it is waiting for my love one...i know now i am not the best guy for u i will try to be..and till the dae i willbe the guy for u...i will still be waiting...4ever..nv going to say goodbye..
haiz...haven been feeling well at all...dunno why...and i am sick..damn sick..wat i eat come out....haiz..onnli plain things...therfore i seem like not eating everything....todae i saw a father pushing his baby in a baby chair and taking pics...both of they laugh and smile so happily..and i realsie i haven been doing this since a long time..i even forget how to laugh out...something is bothering me...but i dunno how to solve it...ppl just say things tt wouldn't works...just plain toking...so i can onli reply yes yes...and nth more...i have been trying very hard to smile and laugh it out.. i feel so strange and wierd when i smile or laugh....something really bad is putting me away from my past....maybe things change..i dunno..now my time pass like a min=a year.. so long..so pain...so..watever...dunno.... tml going poly with yan..he wan ask his corse..me? dunno..actually nth to ask..nvm..go ba...since no ppl need me..i am a loner...haiz...i can't speak myself out to ppl....even thought they may be the best ppl around i just can't pass myself this lvl..sorry ppl...maybe sch start i will be busy with myself to make me feel nth?? maybe i will go find one nite shift job..where i work at nite when ppl slp and morning slp when ppl is around...finding in process ba....nth much le..dunno wat to write....bye
haiz..i can't slp again.. i am worried sick for her...i dunno how....really i am worried..just tok with shuinan over this matter just now...he after work come find me..then tok loh..haiz...i feel very the wat u know...dunno how to speak to her also....haiz... i got my result but i am not worry at all for myself..but other.. i see jerome drop his tear...first time....i felt so useless..before tt he is so nervous...tiong zi cheng too...but he scores..ok loh... i am very worried for this ppl...as a frenz or wat.. i dun care...i dunno wat to do...when i heard she can't go up... i almost cry out u know...haiz...me felt so useless now...wan to help other but can;t do a single thing of my own where do i get this rite to help others...i am stressful now....and simply worried sick for her...
Good morning ppl..haha..a brand new year....5.15 now... haha..now many ppl are going to be awake to sch or wat..but me??? haha..haven even slp...cannot fall aslp lei....haiz...worried for others......praying hard here............good luck everyone....
dunno wat to update.....nth to update lei... no programme for me..so nth happen at all...todae wake up damn late 11.46....dunno why also..tired.... i dun understand human... nv slp also tired...slp too much also tired.....haha..very lame hor.... then 3 o'clock go down eat with loo hick..but i nv eat...drink water onli...then play com outside....play until $5.30..like idiot..got com at home dun wan play go out waste money..hhaha..scold me ba..haha..then got call from singapore hi tech make motorola phone one ask me go work...todae.. 7p.m to 7 a.m..dunno why i dun wan work..i tell him sat ba..he say will call me again..i tihnk no hope le..haha..idiot me again rite..haha....then when home....keep sneezeing..like someone have keep scolding me after i bath...until now...haha...tt person very good can scold me so long..must tell me whu u.. i be good frienz with u.. i like being scolded by ppl..haha...very cold todae... no ppl to tok to... i have lots of things to tok to..but i need a listening ear...haha..not to com..haha...haiz...tml result le... i have no feeling for it at all...even thought is my first time taking o lvl...haha...but i think thousand of ppl are nervous now.. some can't even slp.... but here i am very nervous..but not for myself..but for my frienz and her...really hop they get wat the really wished for..so heaven pls help them...hee...thanks heaven..have a nice straight path for them... for me??? anything..even the worst one also can... i know i will not have a good path de...haha..so i am willing to let ,my path go chaos and they clear..hee..thanks heaven...Best Luck to all.... LasT Thanks you heaven....Nite..
nth much happen...stay at home loh....haha..tv and com whole dae....haha...go out walk walk awhile inthe afternoon...too boring le....haha...then just now my dad tok to me abt the result...he onli think tt i will failed...keep asking me failed how??? how do i know?? ite loh....wat more??haiz...then is the last sentence he said make me real sad.... he say" i see u also will not passed de la better think wat to do" this make me real sad..i know i haven been good in anything...but also no need for this kind of words ba....haiz...no comment....

nowadae i see tt many ppl like to keep saying wan to die..dun wan carry on..dunnno wat to go on in life..life is meaningless and so on.... haiz...this not the ways of life....u know how many ppl wan to continue to live on with frienz and family and they can't???u whu have a good family and lots of friends keep saying no meaning in life....i dunno wat to say to u..but u shouldn't say all this...this makes all ur friends and family real sad...they felt tt they are meaningless to u tooo..u see.... sorry i am not shooting anyone....i get very down nowadaes..dunno why....but dun worry i will smile to all...even the darkest moment of my life....and tt have past....
hee...bro just use finished for his project so i use loh...dunno wan to slp anot...haha..lame...nth much loh...just plain not feeling well so many things i can't eat and do....so sianz my life....fridae getting results le...very the fast loh....like tt is already 3 months after exam...not feeling at all for myself but nervous for my bros..and friends....u all will do well de la...no worry..haha...but me???dunno haha...

time passed fast and slow....is just wat we are feeling...ppl feeling time passing in diff pace...when happy times files...sad times slow....missing ppl..time simply stop...there is many things in this life of mine tt i miss...not get the hold of it..and let it pass..nv work for it or not working hard...this is all due to human feelings....we or me...just to think of past..and get bother abt it...and we can do nth..just think and think and get worst and worst....when u are abt to bee gone..u realise tt u have alot of things tt u wan to do but haven...u dun wished to hurt ppl but not telling them..but to thise really important u wanted to tell them but does they care or even hurtz???not really sure by others...but me would like to hear problem from anyppl so tt i could help them as much as i could...not until it get worse till it cannot be solved...i will try to help as much as possible....not like me..wher no one can help anymore...haha...

now is my things le..wahaha..this is the most boring part..haha..i very lame..ytd i cut the thick skin of my foot then bleed...i thoough stop liao then i go to cut hair...i feel my foot very sticky after cutting my hair...then i reached home see my blue slippers become brown..haha...cause bleed alot..wahaha..but not pain de lei...haha...nt ba...stay at home watch tv..no ppl ask me out..haha..boring loh...haha...just now go out with shuinan then when we go home we nv eat dinner then we buy bread and water at 7-11...sit at the playground..haha..lame loh...we litter..wahaha..tok cock...then we know got ppl we know live at 5 floor..shuiann say wan call her from below...i say crazy..haha..he really crazy liao..but he also sad...his gal dun wan him...same thing..cause the gal like another guy le....i dunno wat to tell him so just tok cock to make him smile...but i realise one thing making a guy smile is alot easiler than making a gal smile..haha...nth much le...haha

LASTLY TO ALL TAKING RESULT THIS FIRDAE ALL THE BEST..WITH FLYING COLOURS..HEE..=)
back from malaysia ytd nite..hee....nth in malaysia..i onli stay at my house...in my room and nth le.....sick...todae morning go cc for pfm then very not well....haiz...dunno why...but i get to see her....so happy...but very unwell so nv tok to anyone even to her..haiz.....
yoz..early in the morning..i still awake..haiz..wth man..i can't slp..haha..........i find this very nice web...haha...

http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1114762677/The_F_word

haha...all abt how to use fuck..haha...lame one..haha..
haiz..now 3 le..dun feel like slping...last few dae..haha..to enjoy my small little life..haha.....dunno why...i am onli worried abt one person b4 i go..haha..nvm ba...think she will be ok..since i am there or anot makes no diff...haha...dun care le.....since no ppl will rmb me de...onli will be relive..tt i will not be nagging her..haha...cheers.....for chong hwee tro be gone..haha...todae nite i am gone....and sundae moring..i wil be.................................................haha..=P not telling..haha..bye everyone..no need to vist anymore..thanks for all urs care to me....and i have fun in my life..thx....
haha..these few dae sick..haha...stay at home....haha..nth much happen just miss lot of things.....sch and friend.....haha.... i also very de blur nowadaes..haha..cuts on my hands..haha...stupid ma..open can also cut myself..haha...sick onli can stay at home eat maggie..so open can oh....haha..

haha..this will be my last post....i going back to malaysia...for dunno how long..maybe will not be back le..haha..not going to tell u all the reason..shuinan know..but i tell him not to say dn ask him ok..haha...tml going to sch to help him with pfm..haha..miss lots of ppl...they going to go areana tml..haha..i can't go..cause i will be back at malaysia le...haha..u all must enjoy ar...haha..take care everyone..and dun miss me..hee..forget me..haha...BYE...happy chinese new year....take care everone...bye....=(
haiz...i am going to live in a shut up world now.....i going to shut up ant tok to anyone in my family....since wat i say is all lies...so wat is the use????? i ytd when to syco..but thry dun belive..so wat....and deletle my messages.....wth....it is my percious message u know...blood hell...she will onli send once and u do this to me...i hate u...fuck off family....

i am badly sick todae..so morining nv go wait....having fever and headach.....nvm noone cares...home also no ppl..onli me and myself....lunch????not eating le...no mood + sick...actually wan to go jpb interview with sufyan one...but wth...i sick....haiz...dunnno wat to do...all ppl so busy...i am very worried abt her now...dunno how is she....and just a few more daes before i am gone.....unable to see her....she is now very far from me now....haiz..miss her lot lot..but nth i can do..dunno how to approach her...haiz....shuinan good loh...he like one sec 2 gal in his sch..then she now got reply him le..think he happy like hell....good loh..wished this is something he will treasure....
haiz...sianz loh....broke le..now adult fare...got to pay for my travel.....afternoon eat instant noodle...no good de...eeeee...morning same thing...wait for her 1 hr but nv see..haha..nvm..then i walk home..cause bus very exp lei...haha..ok la..is my ez-Link just no money..haven top up...then at home rot loh.....see tv....nth much so bored..think of this fridae night need to go malaysia le..haiz.....can i dun go???? i am off with my family....haiz..nvm...i dun care...later neeed to go find shuinan go syco todae....so sianz also...haiz...i onli wan to see her....arhhhhhhhhhhhhh...damn bored lei...wth...haiz....having very bad headache.....maybe is nv slp well ba..haha..nvm no one cares....
haiz...ytd very late slp so play maple with sufyan..to 3..then think todae got co so slp le...then wake up late at 11.30...then rush there l,oh..nth much also...no ppl one...haha..bored then at home all the ways since no ppl at home so good..haha..nth much lei..sorry...bye...miss her lots...haiz..
haiz..bored..can't slp again....todae mornign meet shuinan go sch de co...ji nv come...morning de time waiting for shuinan come down saw kelyn and geraldine they going to work..haha..both of them look so tired...then with shuinan go eat breadfast....then go sch...then got 2 new come one come to our grp..haha..then i teach the 5 lines scores..ok la...they got the basic le...easy for me also...then after tt help ger take things from her house to her workplace..then go jp..sae audrey doing flag day..lame....then we went home le.... i at home damn bored loh....nth to do de..watch tv.... then 7 went to cc de dinner...but wet..cause suddenly rain..i wet..haiz..go there also nth de...waste my 10 dollar..cause most of them nv go..i at there so bored then ai lian come entertain me..haha..her husband also..lolz.....then they all sing chinese new year de songs....i dun like sings song de..so rot loh..after tt 10 finish..dunn feel like going hm..went to bb court saw andrew then play awhile loh..reached home at 11..then come my bill...now is this..cause i quarrel with my whole family...espically my fucking older bro....act big onli...fuck u la...bro so wat... i dun wan fight with u onli...u think i will lose u..go die la....my bill is damn high..cause i go malaysia last time i still use..$440++..i see liao also shocked...nvm la....scolded liao..also like tt...haiz..the problem is me la...dun liek like toking anymore...damn sianz,,haiz,,life change suddenly.....
haiz..i can't fall asleep...haha..dunno why la..todae ok la..morning meet shuinan he nv go sch...say sick..lolz....then we send ger to work...then i accompany him go see doc...nth much..then we go arcade..he playy i see loh..haha..i cononel liao he still knight..haha..so i let him play loh..i also no money play..poor..no job...haha..nvm la..new year coming....then come my house ..then go his house..lolz....then meeet james..go syco..haha...we tok abt lots of thing..haha...bros ma...syco damn boring ar....after tt we walk to cityhall..have a drink then go home...we walk home loh..haha..then i tok to shuinan abt how life is meant to be..lolz..i onli know how to tok...like i always like to say.....heaven gif u ppl not to change u..but be part of your life...to make u learn things..so behind everything there is a reason of it to be there...haha...then now at home..can't fall aslp..dun feel like playing game..then todae saw her finger the skin shredded cause of her working there carry things..heart pain u know...but i dunno wat to do...she seem ignore to me...to here ba...tml got cc de dinner...omg i forget tell mom..nvm la..they dun care de..
haiz..i felt tt i have change or ppl around me had change...i felt really diff todae...dunno why...morining is ok..i do back wat i do..but nv will i have thought..she came down..haha..really happy to send her to work even thought nv tok not even eyes contact..lolz..think is me la..dunno lei..i got alot of things wan to ask her and tell her one..but i see her so tired and i open my mouth no words come out..dunno why i dun even dare to look at her straight...me ar me..dunno lei haiz....wat had happen??? then after tt go home rot...then meet shuinan.. he ask me to meet him one..then we go eat luch loh...then he got call for work..haha..then i accompany him go to work..then i one person take bus from orchard to boon lay..1 hrs++..haha...nvm la....then go home rot...then at nite got friendly match...we won.. 98 to 64..haha..but my leg is getting worse... my coach tell me to go see doc.....haha...or will be like him...walk also damn pain...haha..nvm i got wear ankle support and spray the deep heating le..but still very de pain...dunno how..quit bb??? i dunno from young this is the leg i make it myself.....all because of bb..haha..nvm i like wat.. like the gal i like i put in lots of effort..haha..then after the match my leg very pain..so i go jurng east there find my medi..but cannot find lei..then is 10+ le..i go to take bus 99 wished can see her there but no..my leg is really pain..then i go back le..sorry..haha..not at home still pain.. my bro wan use com for his project le..cya..
haiz..back from waiting for abt 1hrs and 30 mins.. cause i thought she working 10 ma..then she go out at 8+ de..but nv see her...haiz..nvm is i nv ask her...i dunno why...i really wan to message her..but i got a force tt is pulling me back...i know i am not important to u ..but u are the most important things in my life....all the things u say i rmb..and when u say to me like up to u or anything..it hurts...but it's ok... i nv put the blame on u...cause as i have said u had say clearly...so i just wished i could glance at u from far..to see u fine..

btw..sorry ppl..ur gathering on 27 of jan..icannot go...is not i dun wan go..sorry..i going back to malaysia..i tell my mom i late one dae go in can..she say cannot..sorry..i dun wished too...but hope u all enjoy ba.....

haiz...going back to malaysia...from 27 jan nite to 4 fed....haiz...going to miss lot of things...haiz...but is her the most...
haiz....wth...now suay things come to me ar...wtf.....firstly the bloodly job...wth...sale of the bloodly kompang senga card....tok to 200+ ppl onli sale of 15 cards...wat.. at lavender for the whole dae....i go training also dun have so tired....leg pain like hell..so both of us dun wan work le..haha....then ppl see u holding the card they will run .. like i am a monster...wth..now i understand why i dun like to see those ppl to..like my leader damn sux..not sux to me..but to the ppl he selling to..it seem tt must buy dde...damn fuck...he push the card to ur hand u hold and there it goes...ur 10 dollar...omg..if i see him outside..i cfm run 2km then i stopped...scary lei...nv stop...ok la i learn alot of things...and some of u know i am the "inside' person..dun tok much one...no topic..this is the first time in my life i tok to soooooo many stranger..wth....nvm nvm...this si sad..but the second one is worst to me..haiz...

then the lastly is hor...her attitude suddenly change...damn sad loh....dunno why...maybe cause i cannot pick her from work?? dunno..haiz..nvm..she had told me before le...she is not my girlfriend...haha...so no link..onli friend..haha...i am tired..but free back..no work le...haiz..dunno how to tell her...think ba..then she also sick le...no comment...cause she dun reply me one..ahahahahahahahahahahahhahahah...byeZ..
haiz....just finished my dinner....bored loh..dun feel like eating....need to buy myself somemore..haiz...i like a maid....father call me to go down packet....then he come bacl eat le going out..but then before he go out..he is nagging at me again.....say me is a making him worried at all time..wth...as if ok....then tell my small bro to study and not be like me..haha.. the biggest joke of my life..haha...my small bro..wahaha..big joke lei..haha...funny....u think he is still the small boy tt u play with him 5 yrs ago..wahaha..wake up..father...he is worst then me..not tt he had done bad things more then me..is tt he attuitlde..aiya..i know spell wrong dun care la...he is damn pretty....he wouldn't treat u anything one...and then u go out.. u must treat him some how...he is oppsite of me interm of handling of money..haha..he safe like hell like there is an bank onli for him to full it..haha..then me???haha...spend money like there is no tomorrow..haha..to me there is no plan at all.. this is true...me had no plan one...dae pass like tt loh..haha..then my bro can talk back to him u know..and me??? tok back i get rewarded..haha..slap on my face..haha..my father is a very old feeling man..he dun go with fashion..maybe this is the onli point i can tell he is my father..haha..but his thinking..haiz..old like ancient???worst then tt ok...tt is the small like my big bro..haha..he had went out to pick my mum..haha...feel so quiet..haha...but he dun let me go out....haiz...how????? i am going to be worried again....haiz...the uneasiness is here already...nth much ba..all this is abt my father..how much i "like" him..haha..tml course le....hee...
haha..dunno how many daes nv update le...wahaha....nth much...got back my sim card le..hee... then found a job..mondae need to go for the course....haha...2p.m..haha...nth much ba...still sending ppl to and from work...but ytd nv..wth...then i damn worried sia....can do nth...wth....at last got her message then..phew...nth much le ba...life pass....father keep scolding me...haiz...i say before and many times le ok... i nv smk le...u dun belive go ask ppl la...wth...everydae say i smk smk smk...wth...hate u ....i go where also must tell u... the other two bro go where u also dun care one... late come back got nth..me???? every now and then u will have somthing to scold me...wth.. i buy the spary leg one u also wan scold me..... wth..it is for the old injures of my ankle then ask wat... me play basketball...wth..scold me... u blood ass....u think i like to be in this home meh??? u think i like u meh??? so wat u are my father....so???? just cause of stupid sperm???...=PP so??? i must listen to ur everything??? so wat i am naughty..so wat??? i haven go kill ok....i wan i would have kill a dozen...so wat??? i simply HATE U......ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHgoing crazy over this blood thing.....
haiz..at home loh....nth to do..i everydae do my daily job..haha...mornign and nte onli...afternoon is like rotting at home...slp during afternoon...cause at nite cannot slp properly..scare will be late....haha..nth much happen in my life..but i am abit more happy..ahaha...dun tell u all lei..=p.. me still jobless lei...yan say wan to go find job todae... i waiting for his call onli..haha..bored lei...haha....byeZ..
HIHI...haha..dunno wat to write lei..alot things happen..but can't really rmb..haha...i know my phone lost but find back by ways....by sim cards lose..haha...erm..lazy to write...i findind ways to slp..haha..can't slp la....bored..next time then write ba...lazy lei....
haiz...everydae cannot slp well....blocked nose and cough...wth..damn long le lei...haiz...then now whole body pain...especially stomach cough also pain..wth...must be ytd de trainning.. i go train ppl then i also train with them..then feeling down then i train double...then forget to drink salt water..haiz...pain ar.....haiz...let see.... ytd SHUINAN BIRTHDAE.....haha...HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA BRO......haha...i promise wat i will buy for u..sorry lei...late present....wahaha...sorry agfain..nv plan anything for u..cause i know ur family cfm will go out with u de...wahaha..unlike mine..haha...ytd moring rot at home loh...then afternoon go find shuinan..haha..his birthdae ma..accompany him loh...haha..then we go eat and buy my slippers..haha...exp lei...3.50..haha..bo bian my slipper very easily spoil one cause i got elephant leg...haha..then we go play arcade..wahha...lucky i still win shuinan..haha..nvm.i also let him win..let him happy..or he say i bully him..haha...then he went home at 5 cause he going out with family...so jealous...haha.. then i go back home rest awhile..at 7 go down with little bro to have dinner...then i go trainning...i at there coach still wan to do with them haha...see where u find so goos de coach...whahaha...nth much ba.... waiting for sufyan de friend seng kiat for job...haha..then we two work together tok cock together..haha....ar muscles damn pain...later still meeting shuinan..cause he need to go make his ez-link card ma.. since i nv do anything for his birthdae so accompany him ba...since i going to back malaysia soon liao..haha..chinese new year la..and tyhen need to go cc do things..haha...still ok la...i am just bored....haiz..not feeling really good... down at times..haha..ok la so nagging ..=P..byeZ..
arh..my face..got many pimples coming out..haha...i dun mind it make me ugly as i am ugly already..noones wan....haha..but itcy and pain when touch tt is the problem..haiz....bored lei..nth to do one....todae morning wake up late..then meet ppl late loh..cause ppl to late for work also..haiz..useless me..then alone go jp..play myself as meeting shuinan after his sch end to go jurong est to buy his uniform loh... then he late also..i from 11 to 3 in arcade...omg damn bored..in order to save money i play those i game for 1.5hrs one..haha..cheat one ma...then finally he reached...when we chinese garden there we went to eat first loh...then rainning..my slipper very the f**k one...i keep wanting to fall..haiz....then got one very wierd boy think abt our age also...like to stare at me..as if i have kick his ass..then walk like wat like tt...ganster lei.."i scared" lame loh...onli infont of us..and i dun even know him...haiz..nth much le ba..my dae is roting roting and rot....haiz....dunno wat to say..life getting worse...relationship even worse dunno wat have i done wrong....haiz....
now really bored at home..nth to do...all go to sch liao..and to work for those..me still need to wait for call...haiz...dunno la...me feeling down..dunno why..amybe her blog???no ba..not because she is writing the blog for others...but is to see her sad and sianz make me really down...haiz..i can do nth to make her happy the onli thing i can do is to be not around her..cause think she see me wouldn/t be happy or even more sianz ba... i am a boring guy to be truth...brain thinks of lame things tt no conerns to ppl...haiz...dunno la...at home no ppl...tidy my things then i find this paper...."26 Things That A PERFECT Guy Would Do"..haha... write out ba...haha..


1. Know how to make her SMILE when she is down........i can help if i can't rite???guys???

2.Try to secretly SMELL HER HAIR, but she always notice...she dun let u go close her u also can do nth rite guy???or she may slapped u....

3.Stick up to her,but still respects hers INDEPENDENCE....normal guys would do this except for some...but i will respect..haha..

4.GIVE her the remote control during the GAME..surly ba....we are gentlemen..=X..

5.Come up behind her and put your arms around her...we wished we could..but think ok...wat if she dun like????gals are complicateed....haha..

6.PLAY with her hair....later we put until her hair???she will scolded u for sure...

7.Your hands always find HERS...dunno how to say this..erm..guys are shy too????

8.Be CUTE When she really wants somethings...can we guy really ast cute???

9.Offer you plenty of MASSAGES...again..can really get close to her??

10.DANCE with her,even if we feel like a dork....can we surly would....really!!

11.Never run out of love...we will love u no matter wat ok..just wat can we do to love u to make u happy???tell us pls...

12.Be FUNNY,but know how to be serious....we are always trying to make u smile..and we are serious in love with u...

13.Realize we are being Funny when we need to be serious..i dunno wat this mean?????haha

14.Be PATIENT when she take forever to get ready..ya..we will surly wait for u no matter how long....

15.React So cutely when she hit us and it actually hurts...we may not act cute..but we surly wouldn't hit u back...or scolded we...ok?

16.SMILE a lot...we will and is onli when u are..we can't smile while u are sad ba...

17.Plans a ROMANTIC date full of cheesy things, we wouldn't normsilly like to do' just because he knows it means alot to her....we will on some specials dae..but usually u gals are not free for us as u all have sisters gand..ok...we can't do anything

18.APPRECIATE her....we are ok..if not wat for to be with you making so much efforts???

19.Help others out..i dunno wat this means..but when we help others u all will say why u nv treat this to me???so...

20. Drive 5 just to see you for 1....we will..cause u all dun have time for us....we really need to see u...

21. ALWAYS gives her a PECK ON THE CHEEK when she depart from each other company' even when HIS friends are watching....this problems doesn't lies on us is u gal..u dun let us gif it to u infront of ur frens....

22.SING,even if we can't.... i can onli say this...UR WISH IS MY COMMAND...hee if u dun mind ur ear drum to break...

23.Hve a creative SENSE OF HUMOR.....dun worry we are always trying to makw u happy and laugh no matter wat time wat dae....and wat happens...

24.Call for NO reason....hey..ur bills need money too ok....

25.STARE AT YOU..we will look at u and not stare or u will say wat!? stare wat stare...

26.QUIT smoking,chewing,drinking,drugs-just because we LOVES YOU that much to quit it.... this is true la..not to others maybe but to me...i really quit smoking and cut down my drinking even though she nv say..but guys will..as long as u say u dun like it....ok..?

So u may think tt i am giff u reason...u think gals i am not biase here..i tihnking from a guy brain gif me ur thinking if u are not happy..since i have nth to do....
OMG!!! tml ppl is going to sch le..wished all ppl studying happy...hee...not like me...haha...take care all... i am going to work tml also....9a.m to 6p.m lei...got 1 hr break la... at warehouse...hmmm... a month 900 then o.t 1 hrs 7...haiz.. my dad wan me to work one..ok la..but just now he suddenly gif me 50 dollar ask me to slowly use...hahha..think is dun wan me get from the money box myself..cause i everytime take extra..haha...my parents nagging me to go slp le..but i can't seem to slp all this time..ytd also slp at 5 then wake up at 8..but i ly on bed loh....then nth much...went to ger house play majong..lolz....i bored ma..haha....ok la i offline liao..go act act slp..=P...take care everyone..dun be like me sick for so long..hahhaa..byeZ..
hiaz...now 2006 le...wahaha..dunno wat to expect in this new year... new sch...o lvl de result..wat to do...wat ppl will i meet..wat happen to those old frenz..haiz...i getter less social nowadays... not going out..or out for something then will bbe back home le...let say ytd..haha..bored loh...alone walked home from central..feeling low..damn low...then reached boon lay..over 12 liao..ppl spary and spary those things... i kena lots..cause many frenz in this area...haiz..they so happy...but i just can happy up...haiz...then go 209 there sit...bored loh...then reached home at 2..bath le go online....then see sufyan online both of us chat loh....both cannot slp de ppl... then we chat until bored le..find out hwee qi online then yan intive her...then we find something to do le..haha..we bully her....lolz...then 5 o'clock morning i go make my things... nv slp le..haha...then todae..nth loh...afternoon eat with father and bro....then go play cs at downstair de shopping centre...but i lose until siao..long time nv play...no mood also...then go home le loh..bored..then watch tv and ly on my bed miss her...nth to do le..dun wan see books or words....haiz..sometime i dun even wan to see ppl...lolz..haha...now dunno wat to do also..new year le..bored lei.. i miss last year de time...haiz... i go back rot le...
happy new year to all...a new year began...happy yet sad..i dun wan to leave those times i have last year..happy year of my life...really...nv been so happy...love it..haha...haoz..me can't slp...feeling very the uneasy..haiz..not sick ar..is somethings is bothering me...me dun tihnk i will say it out..but really all this got to do with love..haiz..me ar me....haiz..new hyear dun even have the mood to passed..haiz..bored...
haiz...nowadays dunno why feeling restless....ytd even though my sickness is gone..but i still can't slp....haiz...my life seem busy to others..but i am really free...bored at times...but nv too busy..i felt very uneasily ytd nite...hiaz..dunno why maybe it is cause of her..but not her fault is mine...dunno wat happening to me.....mouth dun like to open..even open liao also no sound come out..haiz...all ppl is busy working or is going back to sch...oooo man...wat is going to happen to me??/?whu the hell know..haiz....
haiz...dunno slp for how long think is 3 hrs++..even though is 8 hrs on bed...causze of my nose and cough..make me wake up and unable to slp.....in the mornign and afternoon still ok lei..but once it reached nite time...i am dead...cough like hell..nose blocked...sore throat...wth...painful life....then cannot eat also...throat is really in pain....eat porrige loh..but also the most eat half onli..haiz....me dunno...now daes is like a routine to me...wake up rot...send ppl come baclk rot...nite ly on bed wait for call then cough..haha...my life routine..lolz....nth happen in my life....just a cycle of my routine..haha...byeZ..
hiaz...just wake up...nono..is come up from bed...can't slp at all...keep waking up ..cause of my blocked nose and cough....i feeling tt my throat will be tear apart when i cough...hiaz....dieing soon..ba...arh....pain...my heart too..i mean real pain...dunno wat happing to me...no really happy and not really sad....dunno wat..haiz...ytd whole dae nv eat at all...dun feel like eating with this throat...drink lots of water like water tank..haiz..hhahaa.....at home rot..haha....todae?? still sick..haha....nth more le ba...lazy to play maple also....
bored...all alone at hm.. no place to go..cause all is out with others..haha.. i dun really mind as long a they are happy... my motor happy pls..hee... my flu is etting better le but i am getting sore throat le..going to be no sound..haha...haiz..but i am really bored...dunno maybe getting a job....i know is not early but...haiz....my parents is asking me to get a job...see me so sianz and bored at home looking at my own ohone wishing it will ring..message or call also can... haiz..bored..if i get to work i can't do the things i wan...i onli wan to accompany her to anf fro work..but..haiz...dunno...todae is chirstmas le....MERRY CHIRSTMAS TO ALL!!!!!haha...blessed nites too....me?ahah...at home blessed myself ba....wished everyone happy always smile hang on ur face nv drop and smooth sialing in all things in ur life..and last of all....wan u all wan will come to u..if cannot contact me..haha......me like stans...haha..nono cannot haha..is ho ho ho!!! hahahahaha...i am bored..just to miss her..byeZ..
hiaz... i am sick.. my nose is getting worse...then i getting cough le...haiz..
my younger bro come back le..haiz....he got lots of birthdae present form his frenz... me???? haiz...dun tok abt it..it my own fault....haiz...sick sick....haiz...
haiz..just back from dinner....just a few mouth of rice i am damn full..haiz..moodless is eating less..just now with them la kopi also.. i wanted to call milo ice one then i call until teh ice...wth...dunno got make her angry anot..like i nv care abt her like tt....haiz..me useless..haiz..sad..
haiz....life just pass as it goes..haha..or wat else...haiz...really dunno wat is happening to me getting more and more groomy....even when i when to prctice my bb.... everytime my frenz got gal i will go disturb one....or when new gal come i will go act act wan court her like tt..but no more...dunno why no mood le....think this is childish...even when they say i gay..no comment...me stupid??? idiots??? no goals in life.....simply..I AM JUST A USELESS PERSON...haiz..dunno why...todae go sch sell uniform...ok la..not really tired...fun at times... then we go jp eat..no mood eat rice..so eat carrot cake loh...dunno way also..haiz..me and my brain..haiz...useless...then accompany ger to see doc..she sick le...awhile hot awhile cold..cough and flu.....GET WELL SOON ok????u still got to work..take care ar...then go shuinan house play majong awhile loh...no mood also..then even the flow of direction also wrong..wth..haiz...as the sky get darker my mood drop....by the time i reached the bus stop to go home...can't even smile out to shuinan to say bye....haiz..he still sak me at happen..but there is no answer..haiz..dunno why..no mood..come here rot rot..to scold myself to make me feel abit better..but sadly it does not ok..haiz...byez...no mood...................
haha..daes pass just like tt...todae many ppl birthdae...haha....happy birthdae to all haha... got sharon..my younger bro..kelvin...alfred..haah......but all away or not tt close ..haha...no persent for u all cause i am broke ...lolZ....dunno wat is lacking in my life...i getting bored and bored...dun feel like toking anymore.....haiz....dunno why.....nvm...
back from malaysia..sorry for those tt find me...sorry...go back also nth to do..haha..come back also....haha..all ppl working liao...or going aboard...haiz..think i am going to be bored le...haiz..nth to worite...byeZ
boring dae...practice and practice...haiz...bored...injury my right little finger tt dae during bb trainning then dunno how i slash my finger it got blood..haha...small cut onli la..haha... todae is my pfm liao...haha...useless one ba..hhaaha... i onli got 2 songs other then the encore ba...not cfm..haha...bored...need to go early... to practice abit more on my own..haha...last pfm le....for sy...haha..good luck...lolZ...not for myself.....haha..to others...=PPPPPppp...nth to write .....bored.... long time....haiz..nvm..forget wat i wan to write le.....me become assitant coach for jerffery tt team..haha...so nice can be coach..haha....go rest awhile then going out to pfm soon...byeZ...
just got back...tired....too long nv go gym liao....hands damn tired....legs too..now bady very stiff...haven cold down fromthe excerise...haha..tired....nth much haha..now alone at hm...wa...damn sianz......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..bored...
haha...ytd go watch chicken little..haha...boring la...really....=X...the show ok la...but too short loh... i just wake up not long....haha....ytd after watching chicken little with them i went to play frendly and trainning...until 10....tired..now whole body very tired lei....wth..haiz....muscles in pain..haha...nvm...like tt go down the road i am going to slim down..wahahahah..kidding la...where got so easy????haha... ok la...me going to meet rhino to go gym..he crazy ytd trainning liao todae go gym wth...wan me to die????haiz..nvm...cause maybe need to work at his place there...haha....hard labour...haha.....ok la me nth to write also..haha...miss her..hee...byeZ..
haiz..boring..miss her lots....but can do nth....

ok another boring daes of mine is going to past..dae by dae....my life rots...haha...ytd nv slp at all..rot and rot...then todae morning go cc de co...then shuinan and ger nv go...haha..i go there rot..forget to bring my scores then photocopy machine spoiled..then i become no scores..then i go to help daryl...bored...take out bass then nv touch...haha..then go luch with ai lian and others...haha..then come back rot... nothing much to write..cause i nth to do except to miss her.. llok at her photo and nth more...
haiz...boring life...haha..really bored...headach continues...life seem so bored at times.... and so times u wan times to past fast and some u wished the time could just stop...haiz...human ar human...always like tt.... thinking is just not rite when it is time..is just after tt then ur thinking come back...wth man...human most powerful animal in the world..so???? happy animal?? i dun agree...we may life gd bbut dun u think simple life like sniamls will be much better???? i am not toking abt working or studying.....is the thinkings of human changes as we grow by generration.. u knows...human thinks differently at diff ages.... this is so complaited tt we can get the hell answer out ourselves...oh man...u may thinks tt i am toking rubbish but u thinks... thinks abt the sad things tt happen to u.... wat is the source???? do u have fault??? or not??? u may tthinks not...but if u are not at fault....then how would it happen on u.. u say heaven or even god is making fun of u...but why dun u be yourself and dun be control by heaven or god??? be yourself tt wat makes ur life not god or heaven... u got to make ur own path out.... heaven or gods is good enough to send in many diff types of ppl into ur path....not to harm u...but to make u learn something good or bad. u learned...ok..i dunno wat happen to me...i just suddenly thinks of this when i see someone so sianz so boed and maybe sad...dunno..i know myself tt i am not feeling gd when someone around me is like tt...i may be fan at times..but i am thinking on u sides not on mine...ok...things can be told out...not to be kept...sercets are nth...someone know...so let it out..dun keep in yourself pls...haiz...enough..i feeling down too now...
haiz...another boring dae of mine past... no job avalible for me..haiz....no money= no play=no outings...haiz...boring..... todae went to play pool with shuinannth to do ba..haha..then pool i win 5:0 then 9-Balss 5:3..haha..bored la..dunno why...cannot concentrate in playing pool also..all tyco win him one..by 1 ball or just black ball...haiz...boring daes...seem so long...haiz....then after tt he went hm at abt 6...he cannot late go hm one de ma..his mom will scolded him....i understand..last time i am like this or worst then this....then now after exam...alot better just say when i am and i can go out....then i went to my house downstair de bb court...got ppl play..but i dun wan play team...leg pain come back le..haiz..then shoot shoot onli...then they play full court for trainning..then i become the tatics planner for them wth...waste my time onli...haiz...then come jeffery my vice-captain in my primary sch bb team..haha long time ago..he live just above me..haha...but he went to army le...haha...then now oc le...every week can come out..haha.. he ar...funny loh....but nv studies one..haha...but bb very pro....remember last time we train together so happy...haha...everydae together...haha...basketball is not to be play rough and not meant to be always winning... i may be pro or not...but when i play serious i very bad by myself while others say pro...but i long long time nv play serious...i think tt basketball is a very fun game where many joys and laughter comes.....good ma..play play onli... haha..thinks of my primary sch bb life is so fun everydae bb..haha..so lame...now?? cannot le...old le...play liao here pain there pain..haiz....old le la...haha...then i play until very late dad call from hm... i say at my house below de bb court... he belived but he say i am with those smking frenz....i can say nth....some of them are smking but i am not smking with them... they are human too...can tok one rite??? we speak human laugues and we play bb together..so???? wth...... to everyone... I HAVE QUIT SMOKING OK!!!!!!!!!!UNDERSTAND......haiz...nvm i know i have been i have been very bad...haha...nvm la...let him scolded ba..no comment whu tell he is my dad....haiz... blame myself for being naughty not others...haha...ok enough.... tml is going to be another boring daes for me....pls someone ask me out man...i dun wan to rot...anywhere anytime..pls just ask me...i dunno whu to go to..haiz.......ok it is late i going to be infront of the tv and rot le...i can't slp...byeZ
haiz...just wake up...dunno why slp so long... cannot fall aslp one..but eyes very de tired so closed eyes and ly there..haha..until now.....haha...boring day ytd....actually got go out one...then all throw me away... one cannot go out.....then the other say no need ma fa me to go out..haha..then rot all day at hm...damn bored man...i am going to go out todae...lolZ..but dunno where and with whu...maybe i am not liked by ppl ba...haha...go out myself ba...since i am a loner...boring...nth much happen..just tt i am rotting at hm or somewhere nearby all by myself....byeZ...
hee....alot better...no more fever liao...hee...but there is still headach every now and then...haha...ytd no time to update....haha...cause go syco....morning meeting shuinan at jp he say 7.30....but come at 8..wth....then meet james at mrt station..think he also kena trick by shuinan cause his face not rite...haha....then i no cello use...cause ji wan me to use jasmine one..but she nv bring hm..so morning de practice..i just sit there and rot....haha...listen to the music...nice ok.... must come for the pfm....haha....all tohugh i onli got 2 songs..haha..no group solo...haha..cause i got exam....then afternoon both of us...rot ar.....need to wait until 6++= then exam time...wth...then we sit infont of sch de kopitiam sit and la kopi..lolZ...rot ar...haha..then go in saff louge sit..cause got air con..haha...nth to do...sit for damn long atleast 4 hrs.....then 6++ take out cello and practice..haha...say practice but play 5 mins...walk 20 mins..haha....then got 3 other cello ppl whom i dun know caome and take the exam..haha....1 gal and 2 boys.....haha..werid ppl...haha...then 3 of them is not good....ji lao shi tell me one..haha...he say the gal abit better..but no basics..haha..so lame.....got her own cello...so nice..i wan also dun have..=(....mom dun wan buy for me..haiz.....ok then audrey xuan wei shuinan there practice like playing like tt..haha... i keep joking over there cause can see they are very nervous..haha..so i joke and joke...haha..then my turn le...but hor...my exam time write 6.35 le..but i go in at 7.45...wth....haha....then i go in and play....dunno why see the teachers my hands start to sweat..haha...lame ba...then keep playing wrong...then ji lao shi say.... dun nervous la...haha..then i try loh...then play finished the song...haha..short short onli...i know i play until very lousy..haha...think i either going to be out or i will in bass...haha...the teacher other then ji lao shi wan me to go bass ba...then shuinan..haha..he no need to say one cfm in one....his bass skill is so gd...unlike me....like shit...haha...then we went hm....i went to return perice her cello..haha...then went hm...when i on bus it started to rain....then i sit at bus stop...then ji lao shi call me..haha... come and nag at me loh..haha...dun tell u all wat he nag...come ask me la...haha..=P.....then wait le very long..then nvm walk in the rain..haha..long long nv walk in rain liao...hhaa...then reached hm...ji call me again..haha...lame....nag again...haha...then go bath.....haha..then nth le loh......later i am going out le...haha....byeZ....YEAH I AM GOING OUT!!!!!!
aloha....haha..nth to do...ytd have very sweet dreams..hee....but wake up my sick get worst.... my head spinning and pain...fever higher..cause i get colder.....wth...now gastric pain also...wth...pain...my heart pain just now also....i am going to die liao..haiz..idiot body..useless one... dunno wan for wat..haiz....

hee...ytd actually cannot slp one...then take out the jacket tt got her smell hee...love her smell..so nice...hee.... i realise just by looking at her i am very happy liao...during camp..i gto the keys so i can't slp need to patrol..hee...eyes very tired..but when i look at her slping i felt a feeling so nice..haha...she seem damn sweet when slping..damn nice..how i wished she were to slp beside me everyday and let me look after her....i will be damn happy..haha..know this is my own thinking hee... hee.... really i dun mind whether she is going to be mine or not...frenz is also gd... i just wished she is happy and live her life properly...nth more...i dun wished to be her most important person or wat....but need help can find me...hee...the gift tt i gif her is not for her to remember me but just a gift to remember this past..hee.. can throw away also nvm as long as i remember this...hee...thanks her for giving me this very nice and good menories in this very sch and this part of my very life..hee..thanks....

sorry..i am really sick ca't tok more....sorry...but i can't slp.....sorry..byeZ...pain..somemore alone at home....nth to eat or do...wth...byez
yoZ!!!...long time nv come to tyhis blog le...O lvl finished le...co caomp finished le..coming to syco exam le..tuesday...sch daes over..haha..time files..when u dun realise...haiz...haha..times files..but i am happy with it..haha...frenZ gone..times files..haha...going to be sianz...haha...o lvl seem diff..but pass le..haha..no money..cause no job...haha...
three daes two night camp in sch.... co camp..haha...fun...haha...many ppl sick... haha..then all complain here and there..haha...but ok la... can see teachers working very hard..me need to take keys so nv slp..haha..but aleast i make ppl slp..haha..especially someone..haha...shuinan get sick ther..haha..so i let him slp ba..haha..then i wake up all the time to check on those ppl..haha.. then morning i nned to help them prepared things...then practices also...haha...nvm la...i not complaining...cause is i wan de..hee....ok la..me now having fever liao...byeZ..
my bro is rite.... my father hope had become sad over the years and now to angry to me..haha..i understanding just like me getting worse and worse each year....he scoded me ytd..late homw money spender....he is going to cut my money again ba..i think...hee...think i am going to a road of depress.....i finally understand wat he hope for in me..but it is too late le...me have just killed myself..with no furture liao...my 2 most important for my ME course in poly is not going to do well...where am i going??? dover??? Bukit batok???lolZ..or even not studying anymore go out to work??? as sweeper???rubbish collecter???dish washer???lolZ...whu know???
I just know tt i am going down a dead road..now i reached the end.... i am just like murder whu had killed myself and running away..now came to a dead end of the road....i had no place to go....no way of my choice...i am sad...really sad...tears dropped...haiz...i am rally sad...going to be in depression liao...even though todae is the last o lvl paper..i dunno wat to say...simply i am sad...ytd i am unable to slp....i cried...not because of others...but for myself...why do i killed myself leaving no heart beat at all....i am lazy,like to play, do bad things,etc...all this cause my life...i dunno...confused..sad..depress now really...haiZ..I know tt i am going to be dead....think is a very gd new to all of u...i know i have been fan and always disturb u all....i am sorry..i will br gone for soon...and u all will not be able to find me to disturd u again.....i doubt ppl will care abot me...if there is tell me and i will sincerly say sorry to u..really...byeZ...-={[DePrEsSIoN]}=-
haiz..bored...wth....bored...no place to go...no ppl accompany me....i am a loner liao..wth..i dun wan...haiz...ytd really nth to do..whole dae in front of the stupid tv then at nite study my D&T..to quite late ba..haiz..todae got exam at 2....wth...why at 2...somemore is 2hrs and 30 mins..wtf..haiz..felling no gd.....dunno la..fan ar...........................................................................
hiaz...boring lei....message shuinan also nv reply me de...wth....bored..without his touch i also rotting at hm...lolZ....bored le.....ytd pfm...bored also..haha...but relaxed la...ok ba...i found out i got 2 sticky glue..haha..some of u wouldn't know one...haha...ytd pfm break i go opps playground sit..haha...bored....nth much ba....haha....then todae dun have co..haha..long long time nv eat with parents on this so call family dae..hhaha..then eat until i so full...then not at hm rot..wat is this family dae for??? haha..nth loh....bored...bored...i also nth to do....watch my tv until fall aslp just now....haha..rotting in process....ya.... i ytd slp damn early about 12++ to 1...cause promise ppl tt i will slp early....haha..then todae slp until 11.30 then is wake up by my mom one..haha..so long nv slp for this long liao..haha...i also cannot use com for long cause my bro wan to play the maple then i also nth to do..haiz..bored...bored bored bored.....ok la i go back to rot infront of my tv liao..byeZ
hee...just reached hm from mac...haha...alone sitting down there..morning go sch de co then go cc put my cello for tonite pfm...then come back hm bath..then go mac...they change meeting time nv tell me..haha..nvm la....then now back le...boring..just now rushed like wat..then they change time..lolZ..haha..nvm...nth much le ba..haha...byEz
just got home....mom ask my faster come hm then she not at hm wth....haha..todae fun dae ba... morning shuinan come my house type his time table..haha...then want to go eat liao..then geraldine message me ask me to accompany her go eat...then we went to meet her...then go her old house there eat....but i nv eat..lolZ..dunno why waited until full..lolZ..then go play pool... come joh and fan..haha...shuinan very lucky todae..keep winning and i am very the suay kena slap beat hit...haha...then pool also keep losing...then otw hm..i was helping shuinan to clean his shirt got chalk then he turn thought i was hitting him he hit me..i shocked then shouted out.... then geraldine shocked by my voice ba...suddenly so loud..she also nv listen to my really loud before..haha..so guilty now..sorry sorry...i shouldn't have shouted..sorry...=(..hope u are ok ba..sorry...now at hm so boring.....haiz..dunno why???.....tml need go sch de co..tml got pfm...then cello de scores i haven even read..wth...


there are many treats and tricks in this world...there is a reason why all this things come..hee
just come up to my com from my bed..ytd nv slp at all..cause my my stupid stomach or gastric..pain ok..now still in pain..i dun think i will be able to walk out of my house a step..it is pain..really pain...wtf man....ar......................................................................................................... O lvl going to finished..happy and sad...happy cause no sch no books no nagging....free from parents..able to go out in the nite......really onli this is my happiness..... my sad lot more....frenz gone....ppl gone...they not free.....how to meet them??? happyiness in sch gone....this is human thinking...when u have it...u just let it be...then when u are going or they are gone...u will feel the world is putting u into prison.....haiz....lot more sad think....wth man...shuinan come my house liao..i let him do his things liao...bye...
yoZ just back hm...no ppl at hm....going to be alone..hate the feeling of alone...wth....todae...morning wake up..nth to do..lolz....meet shuinan for breadfast one then become combine of breadfast and lunch..haha...cause i went to his house at abt 12..then he looked like just wake up like tt....hair standing like the cartoon dragon ball...haha.lame...then go his house there eat...cause no money to go jp eat....but after eating walk to jp also..lolZ..lame ba...see many ppl going to sch for poa exam....then there rot at the arcade..i am getting worse...too long nv go ply liao..now shuinan can win me liao....haha..nvm let him win ba...then abt 4.30 went to colour court...then lent ball shoot...haha..shuinan bb still lose to me...he still dare say no gal ma..no need to play like pro...haha...lame ba...then abt 5 liao...saw yong cai and gao wen...they finished f&n test liao...haha..then i and shuinan walk to his house...see no ppl..lolZ....then i lost my dog..dunno go where liao....=(((((..sad lei.....then walk back hm....haha..then nth le...now rotting in process..nth to do..no game to play also..haiz...
hi...long time nv write le.....hee...dunno wat to write also...hee... felling sleepy..haha...just wake up..hands tired from ytd de syco practice...i practice alone le....in the staff louge..haha...now i know which teacher is lazy and everytime go to the staff louge to rest....i was late for the practice..haha...not because of tt then i practice there one..hee..is because i nv pfm the fantasy song in the dec pfm....i got o lvl ma..so long time nv go then nv practice with them then i tell ji lao shi i dun wan to pfm tt song..he did ask me to pfm for the song before..hhaa...cause i lazy ba..SYCO exam is on the 29 nov lei..very fast...me haven really perfect the song...haiz......legs also tired....ytd run&walk the same place for abt 1hrs++..haha..finding things ma.....haha.....ytd walk hm with shuinan cause i need to return his sister the cello...then chat loh...dunno wat happen to him...i can't belive he say he dun wan to chio the gal he liked liao...haiz..he is giving up...i have nth to say....help him think of so much things he dun wan liao...maybe he is just notthose going to be "waiting " de guy ba.....nvm he is handsome ma..haha..mature in so ways...haha...i watch the just like heaven le.....haha...not bad...got laugh one got cry one..but not sad la...is too happy for them until cry..haha..but me???how to cry????lolZ.....later also dunno wan to do wat????borign....anyone will find me put????=XXXX....mr left 2 more paper and is end of bks life..haha....i realise shuinan is a lousy planner..and a lazy bum..haha..ytd in sch help him plan the time-table for co camp..then become all i say out one..he just stand there and write...haha....nth much le ba...dunno wat to write..sorry..byeZ..
boring ok.....damn bored....dunno wat.....haha...todae wake up by my phone..not cause it ring..it is because it droped..u know it dropped..then a sudden wake me up...it felt like my wife fell off my bed....i quickly pick it up...haha...heart pain even though it is an old phone....haha..but got mermoies inside..hee....then go cc de co....shuinan got go ok...haha...cause ger ask him go ba...not like me.. ask him go he will not move abit....haha...nvm he is a guy after all...lolZ....then after tt i make my scores for cello bass and for james he coming to perform next wk..haha..happy...we are back!!! the three of us..long time le..since i nv go for syco...three of us nv chat much...haha...gd frenz...to me is also a bro..everyone is a bro..=X...haha..then almost forget to eat my lunch...she reminded me...haha..or i dun tihnk i will remember....lame ba...then walk hm...buy newspaper...come back sit on sofa all the way to just now...haha...butt pain ok....boring life of mine...actually though shuinan rarely come can take bus with him..but he got ai lian de car ma...hee....so nvm..hee....dunno..laft geo d&t and sc paper 1 onli...just 3 more and i am free...still got to work le....or i have no money......boring life....
boring at hm...sianz like hell....play game...haiz...today wake up go co with shuinan..haha...mr ji shocked to see me..haha.....nv practice cello for a long time..then gif him say...haha..very lame..nth much le...haha..dunno la...still feeling not gd....shunan is gd..he keep making me laugh..haha...gd bro of mine....unlike the real one....



to the idiots whu fuck on my tag booard...so wat????say care abt me....go off....u make harm to me...tell dad....ask me to save money????he already cut my money by 50% liao...ask me save???? haha..all thanks to u..thanks you ar.....yaya..i am a liar u can say tt....so??? ask around...i haven been smoking for how long??? fucker...ya...maybe u say stress dun need snk one rite?? so wat? i liked...as if u nv try before....just one thing dun like dun come see my blog..i am not going to tell anything to u....stop toking the stupid u....get the hell off..i am feeling gd...
haiz...sianz.......................................................................................................sway ba.................todae english paper 1...i dunno wat the hell am i writing then i know i really going to failed english laio...stresss....then go smk before paper 2 start.........the paper also sux....sux to core man...i can't belive it.........................then kena caught cause the smell too strong ba...................nvm kena tok cock at onli.....from his toking i know he dun wished to caught me de.... he is care for other student.....from his toking...he say the smell may be discomfort to others.....from his voice...reallly a gd teacher.... really i am touched...by his ths concern....really...thanks you teacher...i am not kow ur name but ur face is in my mind..............thanks......but sorry...i think i will failed my "o"lvl liao............sorry to those whu put in effort in helping me...thanks....those whu put hope on me..i am sorry...scold me if u wan...but i am sad enough....sorry.........................................................................................................
yoZ...just finished studying my SS...haha...tml test le...devil is on the way to lead me to hell..lolZ...YEAH..todae is the 100th dae of waiting..haha..nth much ba...haha...cannot use long..next time free then tell u all something else ba...take care..and last to all "o" lvl one..GOOD LUCK AND DO UR BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ChEeRS.............
just woke up....dunno why nowadays i keep slping late....just read someone blog...quite sad..cause the person have so family relative problems...then i put myself into her shoe..it is diff to cope..really...without greeting relative...as for me i do have...but onli 1 treat me really gd..other then tt still ok... cause all they know i was one a really naught kid from young... from young forunte telling told my parents tt i am an unlucky star.. u keep him u either will go poor or he will be damn naught.... it come out both liao...i have done alot of things illegal and unable to face my parents even my bros... two of my bro are all better then me other then temper...all thry more handsome then me studies no need to say is like heaven and hell...then they are very gd to my parents...gd loh..haha not like me...everyday kena scolded by them...haha..then the poor thing also coming through le...haiz dun tok abt it liao..haha..tok abt my life liao...hee... nth much..just think of tt dae go mac study with them then see a very cute little boy celebrating his birthday there but his mum look away like it is none of her business..then keyln say so pitiful..haha..it is truth..the boy will feel very sad caused it happen to me..but at least he is better then me aleast his dad help him..but me??? none..i celebra on my own or..no celebra at all..haha..ok stop this sad thigns..haha...i am scared of books now....haiz..keep studying....haha..
haha..know it's not early and it is too late....haha..i always call ppl to slp early and i am always the last to slp or even not slping..am i selfish??..haha..think i am really sick le..whole body no force..haiz...morning woke up at 10..very late then go pay town council de money..then go hm... headache in the morning..then meet shuinan to eat lunch cause i dun wan eat alone....then he need to go co....i walk to jp..walk walk awhile..really awhile..not even 20 mins...walk one round then take bus hm le..cause become dizzy le....haiz..useless body...then at hm sit there then heart become to pain...WTf man..all come in one dae....then no energy to move..sit there..then mum call..ask me to cook... haiz..bo bian got to cook...cook half way dad come back...he nv like me cooking so he cook..then i go rest le....nv eat dinner...lolz...sick ma..then call shuinan chat abt crap..lolz...lame loh...he all brain is her her and her...haha...then help him think of ideas to woo the gal...i gif alot lei..i also dunno come from where de ideas..they just floated to my brain..haha.. then shuinan ask me why i nv use all these ideas before..i say dunno..haha..gif u use ma..u my bro..ahaha...then nth much le..look at the com..the com look at me....haha....
yoz!!!! just finished cutting my finger nail..ahah..very boring lazy to srudy...haha..fourth time bloging todae...lolz...haha..just now i cook dinner with my mum..but my mum just sit there and eat her orange and nag and nag at me....while i was so hardworking to cook for her...haiz...somemore not enough rice....wan me go down buy..but i lazy..=X.. haha..then add the unpolised rice..not bad lei the taste..haha..she keep nagging at me... think finally she got time to be alone with me this naught son to dig the things inside of me ba...haha..but luckly she dig nth but crap..haha...i keep toking crap with her...haha..then she go nag and nag...haha...say i dunno why seem happier at once and sadder and once..haha..then i tell her i study until crazy liao..haha..then she wack me..then i add too much salt to the veg..then salty..haha..then my dad fish back liao first mouth eat the veg then he ask my mum why so salty..haha..then i say dunno..my mum keep quiet..haha..lame ba.....todae listen to waiting for u and lonely until i can sing the whole song liao la...haha...bored...everyone sleep early pls..haha
wanted to rest but...dunno why just cannot go to slp...haiz....missing her ....really..haha..sorry i come here cause i got noth to do le...really miss her..onli 1 dae u know...haiz...dunno how....... how am i going to lgo on after exam??? haiz...how?...i am dead man.....i have no exp in missing a gal so much...maybe last time de relationship is i am still young and useless ba...play with ppl..haiz...regret now tt i play with her.....sorry..lolz..i am crazy come here write this...lolz..haha.. boring ba...miss her lot...ar.... when ever i look at a blank space her face come to my image...looking at her photo..haha..lame ba...haha.. maybr this is heaven telling me tt i can't live without frenz..lolz...life like this really sux man...think i later going to mac to study myself ba..cause i cannot study at hm de...dunno why....shuinan painting his house so gd...how i wished i could paint my house too...if i have a room of my own here i will paint her name big big there..haha..boring ba...byeZ
ARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALONE AT HM.............DAMN SIANZ AR...........SICK LIAO AR............. THINK NV SLP BA....STUDY STUDY AND STUDY.............ALL CAN GO OUT....WAN FIND PPL ALL GO OUT.................DAMN SIANZ AR............NOW I SEE BOOKS AND PAPER I SCARED LIAO LA.................SIANZ LIKE HELL..NONO..THINK HELL IS BETTER THEN HERE.............SHUINAN WENT OUT...ALL OUT...WTF...SIANZ AR..........................I AM GOING TO BE CRAZY LE LA.............................................................................BORING AR............................................................SOMEONE PLS COME...........I AM CRAZY.....................................................BOOK ARE FREAK.............. PAIN PAIN PAIN..............
YaWnZ..just woke up...haha...tired lei..dunno why..haha..todae is festival of light..haha...wished ppl celebrating it will be damn happy.....lolZ..dunno come here write wat...so early in the morning brain is empty....okok...let tok abt shuinan..haha..this bro of mine is 16 this year...tall like hell..look like skinny but no la...haha...he finished his "n"lvl le...think he can do it de..cause his studies not bad de...haha..he now working at marriot where i havd been working..haha...now he no time to accompany me le...told u all liao...once work = no time...me will be worst then him alot..cause i captain liao...more work then him..he is just at the bar...can change shift..i almost need to work everydae 10a.m to nite 11.30p.m or with O.T to 3.30a.m..so..hiaz..dunno how... i will got no time for anybody...just like the song LoNely...lolz...so bored...ytd chinese paper...see they all say the paper quite easy..but i see all chinese paper the same de..lolZ..still can do ba..NV SLEEP DURING BOTH PAPER LEI..lolz...last time chinese paper i comfirm will fall asleep de..haha...then after tt go watch movie..watch the andy lau one..all rite la...not really gd...not much emotions...=X..but quite sad la..if tt happen to me...i dunno how...haiz..haha...then go hm rot loh.....haiz....ok la...i go wash up then look at my books le....byEz
hee...very stressed for the coming exam..monday is chinese le....my worst subject of all times...i remember the last time i get a for mother eongue is pri 2 ba..haha...then all the way drop and drop..haha...dunno how to study for mother tongue....haha..but need to study...acctually i dun intend to study liao de..cause... i know will be the same de...c6..haha..but she ask me to study or dun tok to her....=X..haha so study ba...since it means no harm...haha...friday go sch get award..haha..a little badge..for cca..dunno wat..then mr bong in front of whole sch gif some of the taf ppl a prize cause cut down over 5 kg...i cut down 8kg so i got something too..haha..it is a skipping rope..dunno for wat..hhaha..then after tt....went hm..nth to do...then went to play pool... hand pain still can play pool rite..not bad har...=X..haha..all rite la..cause play with shuinan onli not need like play with jerome they all need skill... shuinan one u ujse thinking can win him de...but lastly we have the score of 5:5....haha..i lose 5 match and win 5...but i think he onli win once or twice cause other is i in black ball..haha...then after tt go hm...cook le...but my mum say my things not good to eat...then i accompany her to go down...but she eat i see onli...haha..then sat meet shuinan at 1.30 we go jp walk walk cause actually wan to meet people when their class finished..but they with their teacher went to eat..so we dun disturb haha..i buy le the "f"amous choc cake for someone but nv meet haha...then shuinan ask me buy for whu de...then i say foe myself can?..then he say i dun belive..so i take out and eat down all the cake....haha...since i haven eat..haha..then send shuinan hm..then i slowly walk hm..since i really got nth to do...then i go cut my hair..now i very shory le..no tail...nothing..damn short..wan put also cannot..haha..then at nite study mother tongue...study to 2.00a.m..haha...think first time i can study chinese for so long...haha...ok le..i need to go for cc de co soon...somemore i haven wash up..=X..hee..byEzz..
hi..abt to go to slp.....come here tok tok awhile...very diffcult to type cause my right hand abit burnt..then mum wrap my hand with tape...so uncomfortable...haiz....dunno why..."her" had been playing cold war with me...no tok...sms little like none...bye bye ,hello also dun have...haiz..nth i can do.....sorry...me dun understand...i am not angry..but just confused..why u gif me cold shoulder???did i make u angry? did i do anything wrong?...u just tell me...i will and can change...sorry if there is sa need...but dun gif my cold shoulder can??? cold war is too tough for me from u...it hurts me...but u think like this is better..then ok...can tell me...dun wan to see me? tell me too....i will not appear infront of u....anything just tell me...todae is another boring dae..morning eat wat breakfast at jurong west..thne go jp play wat arcade..with shuinan..then he go sch meeting then i waited outside for him..then i ask him go mac study with me...he come..then "her" sms me tt they will be studying at BL mac too..ask me wan come anot..dun wan FORGET IT!!!..u know how much it hurts to see this sms...haiz...she come le...with her frenz..very happy...but i and her no commcaition..gtg cause need to go hm cook dinner..think she will not understand one..cause i go at 7...they still staying...not even a bye from her... me go hm le... reasiled tt my hand is too pain to hold the cooking pots...so i went down to packet for my family..still kena scolded by them say y no cook onli know how to go out play...haiz....they dun understand me too..haiz..i can do nth but gif them scold loh...haha..ok la..i tml still need to go sch...i go slp le..ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZZzzzZzzZZZZZ
haiz....boring dae of my life...just finished dinner but onli drink water cause no mood...todae morning wake up at 7.30 cause shuinan call me...he nth to do...haha...then actually he wan to go k-box...but i no mood..haiz....cause nv get to see her todae..no message also..i nv message her cause think she busy ba...so dun wan disturb her...haiz...no mood to do anything...then go areana play pool but i anyhow play...there no ppl...then onli 2 of us....then i win 10:01..lolz..anyhow play also can...haiz...then go jp..he go see wat phone he going to buy...but ii fan him like hell...then rain veru huge..take 240 one round..he gif me fan until wan to siao liao...then i take 99 with him one round..fan him again..cause he is my bro ma....my two others bro going to be not free le...alfred and xiao xiong...alfred is begin called by his father in USA to go back..he wouldn't be able to find me until next year jan..haiz...but still wished him gd luck in his business..then xiao xiong is going back to malaysia also cause of father business..haiz...still wished him lauck la.....Bros workhard..we will meet together one dae and chat abt all we wan....Go Go Go!!

ok,now is my things le....my now having "o" lvl....trying very hard to study but always thinks of her..happy tihnking of her...wander wat she is doing? whether is she fine...images of her smiling flow through my brain..haha..so happy... but i dun have time for her le...me dunno how..after "o"lvl i got to go SYCO,Work....haiz..then if she really work at her sister there then even worse..she work morning to evening then me from evening to midnite...Wa....HOW????? HEAVEN....pls..help me...teach me how....but she work also good ba...but the boss cannot bully her or i go kill him/her..=X.....me going back to my marriot hotel to work...shuinan working at there le....me after exam then go work...haiz...then need to go syco and co practices cause syco got pfm during dec..dunno she will go anot..haiz..nvm ba..since i at there also onli extra there..i so lousy..haiz...REALLY NO TIME LE..=(..i am going to cry...whenever i think of this qns...images comes out and tears cover my eyes...but i nv let them dropped cause i always think there is going to be a solution for everthing in this world..ok...i try to think of something ba...maybe change job or wat ba..haiz...dunno how..if u know pls tell me...and Heaven dun paly with me anymore ok...i have told u many things..and u have played with me alot of times...but this time pls...let it be ok....let her come to me can?..maybe no...but let let her smile more and laugh more...i really make my hearts bleed when i see her face sianz or sad or angry..pls...let her have the beautiful smile on her cute face..really damn beautiful and cute when she smile and laughs.....thanls heaven if u really help me..thanks...tml think she also not ffree..haha..lonely again ba..lolX....headache le..byeZ..
yoZ....boring at hm..haha...no need to go sch loh...haha..cause self-study le..haha...nthing to do...no ppl ask me to go out...haiz...nth to do damn boring..boring boring borging..BORING....
haha..just watch finished show at hm... very touching how i wished i could be like them...so happy togather..haha..sorry...this few daes nv update...no chance to use com...really...father at hm will nag at me..need to study..haiz....finished finished the notebook..haha..dunno she can read my words anot....not cfm ba..haha...let me think..tuesday nv go sch cause i need to go hospital for check up....haha...doc say better alot le..haha..dunno la...ask me to take care..then say look after me so many years le know tt i will not listen de..haha.... then wed..nv go sch again..cause is all science...sianz ma...cause thursdae is science practical...haha...thurdaes practical loh...ok la..but dunno i got write wrong anot..haha...then is keyln birthdae..go arena...but i go until 8 i go hm..cause my dad dun let me go out..then i take cab hm...luckily he haven reached hm..or i die again..haiz....then friday wan go sch de...but when i wake up got headach..then take bus to sch...it got worse..then meet shuinan gif him cd..then i go hm rest le...very pain..haiz....maybe cause wed finished the notebk at 3++ then late slp ba....cause have been staying up late to finshed the notebk fast for her to study...cause not much time le...she wan to pass onli can depend on her le...hope she will use the notebk ba...then nite go mac study with geraldine,kelyn and hwee qi... go hm at 10...see my dad face black black haha.... then shuinan sms sometihng very big..he told me tt he begin to like a gal... can see this is real..cause he tok abt it all the time...gd luck to him ba..=)..dun be like me can le...=X..then sat...which is todae..nono is ytd..haha..morning dunno why slp like pig intil geraldine message me say i gif the t-shirt ti mdn peng le ma..haha..then faster wash up then do the design..is touch up ba..cause i saved in my com one gone...die she see le will kill me...then after tt go mac study...after tt shuinan come my house.... we go eat at jurong west st?? dunno...near hong kah north cc there...we drink beer cause really no happy abt something..haha..drink a little onli then both act drunk..haha..lame like hell but chat alot..he told me something i dun belive....but he have no adantage to lie me abt tt...so..maybe it is truth..dunno..haiz....smk alot also... haha..then go back my house..he fell aslp on my bad..haha..then i watch tv... wake him up at 12.30..haha...then together watch tv..then 1.30 we walk hm together..i mean walk to his house...chat and chat..haha...bro ma...guy tok mostly abt gals la ok...haha...sad also....lolz...then walked back hm myself...raining somemore...haha..then come back cannot fall asleep cause shuinan tell me tt thing....can't belive it..haiz...then watch tv until now....haha..ok la i think i go watch tv until i slp...somemore tml still need to wake up for cc co haha....i wan go de...but shuinan not going he got to work..haiz...alone there...haiz...ok byeZ...
yoz...back to life...dead for a moment...lolz.....nth la...cause i got nothing to up ma...haha...let c....sat i went out....with ger and shuinan....go pool...haha..play 6hrs+... $35.80.....haha..i treat them play..also dunno why.......haha..nvm they both my really gd frenz..really really gd..think more then frenz...more like my family members le....really love them...haha...then shuinan fever come my house..say wan to slp but nv slp..come my house eat and play...haha...then at around 1 i walk with him to his house..haha....fun cause walk until half go vending machine buy things like free..haha...then i keep saying wrong things then keep laughing..ppl see thought we crazy...haha..buddy forever..haha..then i walk hm...nth to do ba....walk and think of my own tghings...count the daes waited for her....haha...still short la....others wait for 3 yrs le..me going to 3 months onli....haha..then my exam...my furture...after exam....how to keep contact with all...5 yrs passes really damn fast...primary school my be fun but secondary is the best...all my mermoies are here in BOON LAY SEC gd or bad..i love all...here is where i found out whu i really love and wat love is....really..and hardworking...gd frenz.....all fun...




ok now is story time...............haha
there was a boy whu had a tude in his heart crack where blood keep flowing out.....sometime it is really pain can feel...he knew it when he is in pri 1..he cried for a wk...u may think that he is really young dunno how it feel...he had to keep skipping sch for hospital....he had no frenz..he is like a monster in class.even teachers dun like to be close with him...he started to grow on his very own.....he doesn't wan his parents to have the angry or u all called sad face to gif me..why he can nv do his things rite...not study..no playing..all no.... in his pri 2 he start to be strong...hid everything inside him even the very pain he dun show out a bit...he just smile with all..=)...he started to onli go hospital during off sch hrs and when he really needs it...he started to have more frenz in pri3...fast he know lots lots...but he kept it a sercet....really noones knows....he started to play basketball to try whether it will be in pain...lucky it is not really pain and he enjoy it..he started playinh and pri4 he join the sch team..really gd....keep playing and playing...2 yrs past... he slowly onli go to doc twice a years onli...however maybe the heaven dun like him..he got muscles tear and a really big one...he knew it is going to be pain but he had tried wat even more painful then this..he keep quiet and when to hpspital to stay for 6 months..he cannot move his legs at all..he had his psle in hospital...really it is no gd feeling at all...he lose his frenz.... he felt alrite..then he moves to sec 1..he didn't tell anyone abt his past..he become a normal people..he is happy like hell haha....really happy..go on with life...stop basketball le....cannot play told by doc... he is sad..but nv show...he kept it all...he try all others...he knew all most all sport...he start to know a special frenz when in sec2 become buddy in sec3 ...really gd..now he told his stories to him acause he know he is going to be long buddies...really...and he started to notice a gal during his sec 4..but he dun dare to say cause he had dropped to na from express..then go to sec 5 realise she also liked him..happy awhile but broke off cause she liked others...haha..then becomes really gd frenz..more than frenz ba....haha...told her some of his stories...not to make her pitil him but to encourage her...there is someone worst then her..haha..i am not going to tell u whu this person is but dun guess...he dun like it...thanks...hee
just got back not long from sch de gradu nite..not bad..see all my frenz all so high and happy..really gd... me not really used to this kind of things....the really sad things is tt i have a really bad headache..till now it still really hurtz ok... dizzy too...dunno why..haha...i am so ugly can... i nv wear business suit out unless really need... feel so uneasy..nth much ba..cause i sit outside for a very long time cause of the headach... then after tt take phot with my class de..haha.. then nth much ba... geraldine was sent hm by her parents..she is so angry..and pulled a long face..think she ok ba...cause she still know her parents is care for her one..not like mine..onli know how to take away my freedom..sux ok...dun understand me at all...haiz..dun tok about them...shuinan is so tired..he started working....haha..he seem more mature...haha...ok le me got nth much...head really pain..i go take medi le..byEZ
hi all...finally my com is back on use again..lolzz...too long vn write also dunno wan write wat...onli know now my head damn pain...headache everydae....dizzy also...dunno why..maybe dieing???...whu know....?lolzz all test ba and all this stupid classes teachers gif...damn stress... haiz...how to pass life.... i have lose my freedom le...kena scolded by father..then no freedom no money... he cut my pocket money by HALF..u know HALF...haiz...then eat away all my money... haiz..wat kind of father is this ...i dun even know... maybe he is not my father..=X..whu cares..haha..boring life of mine...still the same...haiz...nth inproved over the daes onli got worst.. my result is even worst... cannot let ppl see one.... not A n B.. all Cs then 1 D and 1F...wtf...F9 u know..all CH...dunno why cannot remember one...damn sucks....haiz..nth to write le... byEZ

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