bored...all alone at hm.. no place to go..cause all is out with others..haha.. i dun really mind as long a they are happy... my motor happy pls..hee... my flu is etting better le but i am getting sore throat le..going to be no sound..haha...haiz..but i am really bored...dunno maybe getting a job....i know is not early but...haiz....my parents is asking me to get a job...see me so sianz and bored at home looking at my own ohone wishing it will ring..message or call also can... haiz..bored..if i get to work i can't do the things i wan...i onli wan to accompany her to anf fro work..but..haiz...dunno...todae is chirstmas le....MERRY CHIRSTMAS TO ALL!!!!!haha...blessed nites too....me?ahah...at home blessed myself ba....wished everyone happy always smile hang on ur face nv drop and smooth sialing in all things in ur life..and last of all....wan u all wan will come to u..if cannot contact me..haha......me like stans...haha..nono cannot haha..is ho ho ho!!! hahahahaha...i am bored..just to miss her..byeZ..
hiaz... i am sick.. my nose is getting worse...then i getting cough le...haiz..
my younger bro come back le..haiz....he got lots of birthdae present form his frenz... me???? haiz...dun tok abt it..it my own fault....haiz...sick sick....haiz...
haiz..just back from dinner....just a few mouth of rice i am damn full..haiz..moodless is eating less..just now with them la kopi also.. i wanted to call milo ice one then i call until teh ice...wth...dunno got make her angry anot..like i nv care abt her like tt....haiz..me useless..haiz..sad..
haiz....life just pass as it goes..haha..or wat else...haiz...really dunno wat is happening to me getting more and more groomy....even when i when to prctice my bb.... everytime my frenz got gal i will go disturb one....or when new gal come i will go act act wan court her like tt..but no more...dunno why no mood le....think this is childish...even when they say i gay..no comment...me stupid??? idiots??? no goals in life.....simply..I AM JUST A USELESS PERSON...haiz..dunno why...todae go sch sell uniform...ok la..not really tired...fun at times... then we go jp eat..no mood eat rice..so eat carrot cake loh...dunno way also..haiz..me and my brain..haiz...useless...then accompany ger to see doc..she sick le...awhile hot awhile cold..cough and flu.....GET WELL SOON ok????u still got to work..take care ar...then go shuinan house play majong awhile loh...no mood also..then even the flow of direction also wrong..wth..haiz...as the sky get darker my mood drop....by the time i reached the bus stop to go home...can't even smile out to shuinan to say bye....haiz..he still sak me at happen..but there is no answer..haiz..dunno why..no mood..come here rot rot..to scold myself to make me feel abit better..but sadly it does not ok..haiz...byez...no mood...................
haha..daes pass just like tt...todae many ppl birthdae...haha....happy birthdae to all haha... got sharon..my younger bro..kelvin...alfred..haah......but all away or not tt close ..haha...no persent for u all cause i am broke ...lolZ....dunno wat is lacking in my life...i getting bored and bored...dun feel like toking anymore.....haiz....dunno why.....nvm...
back from malaysia..sorry for those tt find me...sorry...go back also nth to do..haha..come back also....haha..all ppl working liao...or going aboard...haiz..think i am going to be bored le...haiz..nth to worite...byeZ
boring dae...practice and practice...haiz...bored...injury my right little finger tt dae during bb trainning then dunno how i slash my finger it got blood..haha...small cut onli la..haha... todae is my pfm liao...haha...useless one ba..hhaaha... i onli got 2 songs other then the encore ba...not cfm..haha...bored...need to go early... to practice abit more on my own..haha...last pfm le....for sy...haha..good luck...lolZ...not for myself.....haha..to others...=PPPPPppp...nth to write .....bored.... long time....haiz..nvm..forget wat i wan to write le.....me become assitant coach for jerffery tt team..haha...so nice can be coach..haha....go rest awhile then going out to pfm soon...byeZ...
just got back...tired....too long nv go gym liao....hands damn tired....legs too..now bady very stiff...haven cold down fromthe excerise...haha..tired....nth much haha..now alone at hm...wa...damn sianz......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..bored...
haha...ytd go watch chicken little..haha...boring la...really....=X...the show ok la...but too short loh... i just wake up not long....haha....ytd after watching chicken little with them i went to play frendly and trainning...until 10....tired..now whole body very tired lei....wth..haiz....muscles in pain..haha...nvm...like tt go down the road i am going to slim down..wahahahah..kidding la...where got so easy????haha... ok la...me going to meet rhino to go gym..he crazy ytd trainning liao todae go gym wth...wan me to die????haiz..nvm...cause maybe need to work at his place there...haha....hard labour...haha.....ok la me nth to write also..haha...miss her..hee...byeZ..
haiz..boring..miss her lots....but can do nth....

ok another boring daes of mine is going to past..dae by dae....my life rots...haha...ytd nv slp at all..rot and rot...then todae morning go cc de co...then shuinan and ger nv go...haha..i go there rot..forget to bring my scores then photocopy machine spoiled..then i become no scores..then i go to help daryl...bored...take out bass then nv touch...haha..then go luch with ai lian and others...haha..then come back rot... nothing much to write..cause i nth to do except to miss her.. llok at her photo and nth more...
haiz...boring life...haha..really bored...headach continues...life seem so bored at times.... and so times u wan times to past fast and some u wished the time could just stop...haiz...human ar human...always like tt.... thinking is just not rite when it is time..is just after tt then ur thinking come back...wth man...human most powerful animal in the world..so???? happy animal?? i dun agree...we may life gd bbut dun u think simple life like sniamls will be much better???? i am not toking abt working or studying.....is the thinkings of human changes as we grow by generration.. u knows...human thinks differently at diff ages.... this is so complaited tt we can get the hell answer out ourselves...oh man...u may thinks tt i am toking rubbish but u thinks... thinks abt the sad things tt happen to u.... wat is the source???? do u have fault??? or not??? u may tthinks not...but if u are not at fault....then how would it happen on u.. u say heaven or even god is making fun of u...but why dun u be yourself and dun be control by heaven or god??? be yourself tt wat makes ur life not god or heaven... u got to make ur own path out.... heaven or gods is good enough to send in many diff types of ppl into ur path....not to harm u...but to make u learn something good or bad. u learned...ok..i dunno wat happen to me...i just suddenly thinks of this when i see someone so sianz so boed and maybe sad...dunno..i know myself tt i am not feeling gd when someone around me is like tt...i may be fan at times..but i am thinking on u sides not on mine...ok...things can be told out...not to be kept...sercets are nth...someone know...so let it out..dun keep in yourself pls...haiz...enough..i feeling down too now...
haiz...another boring dae of mine past... no job avalible for me..haiz....no money= no play=no outings...haiz...boring..... todae went to play pool with shuinannth to do ba..haha..then pool i win 5:0 then 9-Balss 5:3..haha..bored la..dunno why...cannot concentrate in playing pool also..all tyco win him one..by 1 ball or just black ball...haiz...boring daes...seem so long...haiz....then after tt he went hm at abt 6...he cannot late go hm one de ma..his mom will scolded him....i understand..last time i am like this or worst then this....then now after exam...alot better just say when i am and i can go out....then i went to my house downstair de bb court...got ppl play..but i dun wan play team...leg pain come back le..haiz..then shoot shoot onli...then they play full court for trainning..then i become the tatics planner for them wth...waste my time onli...haiz...then come jeffery my vice-captain in my primary sch bb team..haha long time ago..he live just above me..haha...but he went to army le...haha...then now oc le...every week can come out..haha.. he ar...funny loh....but nv studies one..haha...but bb very pro....remember last time we train together so happy...haha...everydae together...haha...basketball is not to be play rough and not meant to be always winning... i may be pro or not...but when i play serious i very bad by myself while others say pro...but i long long time nv play serious...i think tt basketball is a very fun game where many joys and laughter comes.....good ma..play play onli... haha..thinks of my primary sch bb life is so fun everydae bb..haha..so lame...now?? cannot le...old le...play liao here pain there pain..haiz....old le la...haha...then i play until very late dad call from hm... i say at my house below de bb court... he belived but he say i am with those smking frenz....i can say nth....some of them are smking but i am not smking with them... they are human too...can tok one rite??? we speak human laugues and we play bb together..so???? wth...... to everyone... I HAVE QUIT SMOKING OK!!!!!!!!!!UNDERSTAND......haiz...nvm i know i have been i have been very bad...haha...nvm la...let him scolded ba..no comment whu tell he is my dad....haiz... blame myself for being naughty not others...haha...ok enough.... tml is going to be another boring daes for me....pls someone ask me out man...i dun wan to rot...anywhere anytime..pls just ask me...i dunno whu to go to..haiz.......ok it is late i going to be infront of the tv and rot le...i can't slp...byeZ
haiz...just wake up...dunno why slp so long... cannot fall aslp one..but eyes very de tired so closed eyes and ly there..haha..until now.....haha...boring day ytd....actually got go out one...then all throw me away... one cannot go out.....then the other say no need ma fa me to go out..haha..then rot all day at hm...damn bored man...i am going to go out todae...lolZ..but dunno where and with whu...maybe i am not liked by ppl ba...haha...go out myself ba...since i am a loner...boring...nth much happen..just tt i am rotting at hm or somewhere nearby all by myself....byeZ...
hee....alot better...no more fever liao...hee...but there is still headach every now and then...haha...ytd no time to update....haha...cause go syco....morning meeting shuinan at jp he say 7.30....but come at 8..wth....then meet james at mrt station..think he also kena trick by shuinan cause his face not rite...haha....then i no cello use...cause ji wan me to use jasmine one..but she nv bring hm..so morning de practice..i just sit there and rot....haha...listen to the music...nice ok.... must come for the pfm....haha....all tohugh i onli got 2 songs..haha..no group solo...haha..cause i got exam....then afternoon both of us...rot ar.....need to wait until 6++= then exam time...wth...then we sit infont of sch de kopitiam sit and la kopi..lolZ...rot ar...haha..then go in saff louge sit..cause got air con..haha...nth to do...sit for damn long atleast 4 hrs.....then 6++ take out cello and practice..haha...say practice but play 5 mins...walk 20 mins..haha....then got 3 other cello ppl whom i dun know caome and take the exam..haha....1 gal and 2 boys.....haha..werid ppl...haha...then 3 of them is not good....ji lao shi tell me one..haha...he say the gal abit better..but no basics..haha..so lame.....got her own cello...so nice..i wan also dun have..=(....mom dun wan buy for me..haiz.....ok then audrey xuan wei shuinan there practice like playing like tt..haha... i keep joking over there cause can see they are very nervous..haha..so i joke and joke...haha..then my turn le...but hor...my exam time write 6.35 le..but i go in at 7.45...wth....haha....then i go in and play....dunno why see the teachers my hands start to sweat..haha...lame ba...then keep playing wrong...then ji lao shi say.... dun nervous la...haha..then i try loh...then play finished the song...haha..short short onli...i know i play until very lousy..haha...think i either going to be out or i will in bass...haha...the teacher other then ji lao shi wan me to go bass ba...then shuinan..haha..he no need to say one cfm in one....his bass skill is so gd...unlike me....like shit...haha...then we went hm....i went to return perice her cello..haha...then went hm...when i on bus it started to rain....then i sit at bus stop...then ji lao shi call me..haha... come and nag at me loh..haha...dun tell u all wat he nag...come ask me la...haha..=P.....then wait le very long..then nvm walk in the rain..haha..long long nv walk in rain liao...hhaa...then reached hm...ji call me again..haha...lame....nag again...haha...then go bath.....haha..then nth le loh......later i am going out le...haha....byeZ....YEAH I AM GOING OUT!!!!!!
aloha....haha..nth to do...ytd have very sweet dreams..hee....but wake up my sick get worst.... my head spinning and pain...fever higher..cause i get colder.....wth...now gastric pain also...wth...pain...my heart pain just now also....i am going to die liao..haiz..idiot body..useless one... dunno wan for wat..haiz....

hee...ytd actually cannot slp one...then take out the jacket tt got her smell hee...love her smell..so nice...hee.... i realise just by looking at her i am very happy liao...during camp..i gto the keys so i can't slp need to patrol..hee...eyes very tired..but when i look at her slping i felt a feeling so nice..haha...she seem damn sweet when slping..damn nice..how i wished she were to slp beside me everyday and let me look after her....i will be damn happy..haha..know this is my own thinking hee... hee.... really i dun mind whether she is going to be mine or not...frenz is also gd... i just wished she is happy and live her life properly...nth more...i dun wished to be her most important person or wat....but need help can find me...hee...the gift tt i gif her is not for her to remember me but just a gift to remember this past..hee.. can throw away also nvm as long as i remember this...hee...thanks her for giving me this very nice and good menories in this very sch and this part of my very life..hee..thanks....

sorry..i am really sick ca't tok more....sorry...but i can't slp.....sorry..byeZ...pain..somemore alone at home....nth to eat or do...wth...byez
yoZ!!!...long time nv come to tyhis blog le...O lvl finished le...co caomp finished le..coming to syco exam le..tuesday...sch daes over..haha..time files..when u dun realise...haiz...haha..times files..but i am happy with it..haha...frenZ gone..times files..haha...going to be sianz...haha...o lvl seem diff..but pass le..haha..no money..cause no job...haha...
three daes two night camp in sch.... co camp..haha...fun...haha...many ppl sick... haha..then all complain here and there..haha...but ok la... can see teachers working very hard..me need to take keys so nv slp..haha..but aleast i make ppl slp..haha..especially someone..haha...shuinan get sick ther..haha..so i let him slp ba..haha..then i wake up all the time to check on those ppl..haha.. then morning i nned to help them prepared things...then practices also...haha...nvm la...i not complaining...cause is i wan de..hee....ok la..me now having fever liao...byeZ..
my bro is rite.... my father hope had become sad over the years and now to angry to me..haha..i understanding just like me getting worse and worse each year....he scoded me ytd..late homw money spender....he is going to cut my money again ba..i think...hee...think i am going to a road of depress.....i finally understand wat he hope for in me..but it is too late le...me have just killed myself..with no furture liao...my 2 most important for my ME course in poly is not going to do well...where am i going??? dover??? Bukit batok???lolZ..or even not studying anymore go out to work??? as sweeper???rubbish collecter???dish washer???lolZ...whu know???
I just know tt i am going down a dead road..now i reached the end.... i am just like murder whu had killed myself and running away..now came to a dead end of the road....i had no place to go....no way of my choice...i am sad...really sad...tears dropped...haiz...i am rally sad...going to be in depression liao...even though todae is the last o lvl paper..i dunno wat to say...simply i am sad...ytd i am unable to slp....i cried...not because of others...but for myself...why do i killed myself leaving no heart beat at all....i am lazy,like to play, do bad things,etc...all this cause my life...i dunno...confused..sad..depress now really...haiZ..I know tt i am going to be dead....think is a very gd new to all of u...i know i have been fan and always disturb u all....i am sorry..i will br gone for soon...and u all will not be able to find me to disturd u again.....i doubt ppl will care abot me...if there is tell me and i will sincerly say sorry to u..really...byeZ...-={[DePrEsSIoN]}=-
haiz..bored...wth....bored...no place to go...no ppl accompany me....i am a loner liao..wth..i dun wan...haiz...ytd really nth to do..whole dae in front of the stupid tv then at nite study my D&T..to quite late ba..haiz..todae got exam at 2....wth...why at 2...somemore is 2hrs and 30 mins..wtf..haiz..felling no gd.....dunno la..fan ar...........................................................................
hiaz...boring lei....message shuinan also nv reply me de...wth....bored..without his touch i also rotting at hm...lolZ....bored le.....ytd pfm...bored also..haha...but relaxed la...ok ba...i found out i got 2 sticky glue..haha..some of u wouldn't know one...haha...ytd pfm break i go opps playground sit..haha...bored....nth much ba....haha....then todae dun have co..haha..long long time nv eat with parents on this so call family dae..hhaha..then eat until i so full...then not at hm rot..wat is this family dae for??? haha..nth loh....bored...bored...i also nth to do....watch my tv until fall aslp just now....haha..rotting in process....ya.... i ytd slp damn early about 12++ to 1...cause promise ppl tt i will slp early....haha..then todae slp until 11.30 then is wake up by my mom one..haha..so long nv slp for this long liao..haha...i also cannot use com for long cause my bro wan to play the maple then i also nth to do..haiz..bored...bored bored bored.....ok la i go back to rot infront of my tv liao..byeZ
hee...just reached hm from mac...haha...alone sitting down there..morning go sch de co then go cc put my cello for tonite pfm...then come back hm bath..then go mac...they change meeting time nv tell me..haha..nvm la....then now back le...boring..just now rushed like wat..then they change time..lolZ..haha..nvm...nth much le ba..haha...byEz
just got home....mom ask my faster come hm then she not at hm wth....haha..todae fun dae ba... morning shuinan come my house type his time table..haha...then want to go eat liao..then geraldine message me ask me to accompany her go eat...then we went to meet her...then go her old house there eat....but i nv eat..lolZ..dunno why waited until full..lolZ..then go play pool... come joh and fan..haha...shuinan very lucky todae..keep winning and i am very the suay kena slap beat hit...haha...then pool also keep losing...then otw hm..i was helping shuinan to clean his shirt got chalk then he turn thought i was hitting him he hit me..i shocked then shouted out.... then geraldine shocked by my voice ba...suddenly so loud..she also nv listen to my really loud before..haha..so guilty now..sorry sorry...i shouldn't have shouted..sorry...=(..hope u are ok ba..sorry...now at hm so boring.....haiz..dunno why???.....tml need go sch de co..tml got pfm...then cello de scores i haven even read..wth...


there are many treats and tricks in this world...there is a reason why all this things come..hee
just come up to my com from my bed..ytd nv slp at all..cause my my stupid stomach or gastric..pain ok..now still in pain..i dun think i will be able to walk out of my house a step..it is pain..really pain...wtf man....ar......................................................................................................... O lvl going to finished..happy and sad...happy cause no sch no books no nagging....free from parents..able to go out in the nite......really onli this is my happiness..... my sad lot more....frenz gone....ppl gone...they not free.....how to meet them??? happyiness in sch gone....this is human thinking...when u have it...u just let it be...then when u are going or they are gone...u will feel the world is putting u into prison.....haiz....lot more sad think....wth man...shuinan come my house liao..i let him do his things liao...bye...
yoZ just back hm...no ppl at hm....going to be alone..hate the feeling of alone...wth....todae...morning wake up..nth to do..lolz....meet shuinan for breadfast one then become combine of breadfast and lunch..haha...cause i went to his house at abt 12..then he looked like just wake up like tt....hair standing like the cartoon dragon ball...haha.lame...then go his house there eat...cause no money to go jp eat....but after eating walk to jp also..lolZ..lame ba...see many ppl going to sch for poa exam....then there rot at the arcade..i am getting worse...too long nv go ply liao..now shuinan can win me liao....haha..nvm let him win ba...then abt 4.30 went to colour court...then lent ball shoot...haha..shuinan bb still lose to me...he still dare say no gal ma..no need to play like pro...haha...lame ba...then abt 5 liao...saw yong cai and gao wen...they finished f&n test liao...haha..then i and shuinan walk to his house...see no ppl..lolZ....then i lost my dog..dunno go where liao....=(((((..sad lei.....then walk back hm....haha..then nth le...now rotting in process..nth to do..no game to play also..haiz...
hi...long time nv write le.....hee...dunno wat to write also...hee... felling sleepy..haha...just wake up..hands tired from ytd de syco practice...i practice alone le....in the staff louge..haha...now i know which teacher is lazy and everytime go to the staff louge to rest....i was late for the practice..haha...not because of tt then i practice there one..hee..is because i nv pfm the fantasy song in the dec pfm....i got o lvl ma..so long time nv go then nv practice with them then i tell ji lao shi i dun wan to pfm tt song..he did ask me to pfm for the song before..hhaa...cause i lazy ba..SYCO exam is on the 29 nov lei..very fast...me haven really perfect the song...haiz......legs also tired....ytd run&walk the same place for abt 1hrs++..haha..finding things ma.....haha.....ytd walk hm with shuinan cause i need to return his sister the cello...then chat loh...dunno wat happen to him...i can't belive he say he dun wan to chio the gal he liked liao...haiz..he is giving up...i have nth to say....help him think of so much things he dun wan liao...maybe he is just notthose going to be "waiting " de guy ba.....nvm he is handsome ma..haha..mature in so ways...haha...i watch the just like heaven le.....haha...not bad...got laugh one got cry one..but not sad la...is too happy for them until cry..haha..but me???how to cry????lolZ.....later also dunno wan to do wat????borign....anyone will find me put????=XXXX....mr left 2 more paper and is end of bks life..haha....i realise shuinan is a lousy planner..and a lazy bum..haha..ytd in sch help him plan the time-table for co camp..then become all i say out one..he just stand there and write...haha....nth much le ba...dunno wat to write..sorry..byeZ..
boring ok.....damn bored....dunno wat.....haha...todae wake up by my phone..not cause it ring..it is because it droped..u know it dropped..then a sudden wake me up...it felt like my wife fell off my bed....i quickly pick it up...haha...heart pain even though it is an old phone....haha..but got mermoies inside..hee....then go cc de co....shuinan got go ok...haha...cause ger ask him go ba...not like me.. ask him go he will not move abit....haha...nvm he is a guy after all...lolZ....then after tt i make my scores for cello bass and for james he coming to perform next wk..haha..happy...we are back!!! the three of us..long time le..since i nv go for syco...three of us nv chat much...haha...gd frenz...to me is also a bro..everyone is a bro..=X...haha..then almost forget to eat my lunch...she reminded me...haha..or i dun tihnk i will remember....lame ba...then walk hm...buy newspaper...come back sit on sofa all the way to just now...haha...butt pain ok....boring life of mine...actually though shuinan rarely come can take bus with him..but he got ai lian de car ma...hee....so nvm..hee....dunno..laft geo d&t and sc paper 1 onli...just 3 more and i am free...still got to work le....or i have no money......boring life....
boring at hm...sianz like hell....play game...haiz...today wake up go co with shuinan..haha...mr ji shocked to see me..haha.....nv practice cello for a long time..then gif him say...haha..very lame..nth much le...haha..dunno la...still feeling not gd....shunan is gd..he keep making me laugh..haha...gd bro of mine....unlike the real one....



to the idiots whu fuck on my tag booard...so wat????say care abt me....go off....u make harm to me...tell dad....ask me to save money????he already cut my money by 50% liao...ask me save???? haha..all thanks to u..thanks you ar.....yaya..i am a liar u can say tt....so??? ask around...i haven been smoking for how long??? fucker...ya...maybe u say stress dun need snk one rite?? so wat? i liked...as if u nv try before....just one thing dun like dun come see my blog..i am not going to tell anything to u....stop toking the stupid u....get the hell off..i am feeling gd...
haiz...sianz.......................................................................................................sway ba.................todae english paper 1...i dunno wat the hell am i writing then i know i really going to failed english laio...stresss....then go smk before paper 2 start.........the paper also sux....sux to core man...i can't belive it.........................then kena caught cause the smell too strong ba...................nvm kena tok cock at onli.....from his toking i know he dun wished to caught me de.... he is care for other student.....from his toking...he say the smell may be discomfort to others.....from his voice...reallly a gd teacher.... really i am touched...by his ths concern....really...thanks you teacher...i am not kow ur name but ur face is in my mind..............thanks......but sorry...i think i will failed my "o"lvl liao............sorry to those whu put in effort in helping me...thanks....those whu put hope on me..i am sorry...scold me if u wan...but i am sad enough....sorry.........................................................................................................
yoZ...just finished studying my SS...haha...tml test le...devil is on the way to lead me to hell..lolZ...YEAH..todae is the 100th dae of waiting..haha..nth much ba...haha...cannot use long..next time free then tell u all something else ba...take care..and last to all "o" lvl one..GOOD LUCK AND DO UR BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ChEeRS.............
just woke up....dunno why nowadays i keep slping late....just read someone blog...quite sad..cause the person have so family relative problems...then i put myself into her shoe..it is diff to cope..really...without greeting relative...as for me i do have...but onli 1 treat me really gd..other then tt still ok... cause all they know i was one a really naught kid from young... from young forunte telling told my parents tt i am an unlucky star.. u keep him u either will go poor or he will be damn naught.... it come out both liao...i have done alot of things illegal and unable to face my parents even my bros... two of my bro are all better then me other then temper...all thry more handsome then me studies no need to say is like heaven and hell...then they are very gd to my parents...gd loh..haha not like me...everyday kena scolded by them...haha..then the poor thing also coming through le...haiz dun tok abt it liao..haha..tok abt my life liao...hee... nth much..just think of tt dae go mac study with them then see a very cute little boy celebrating his birthday there but his mum look away like it is none of her business..then keyln say so pitiful..haha..it is truth..the boy will feel very sad caused it happen to me..but at least he is better then me aleast his dad help him..but me??? none..i celebra on my own or..no celebra at all..haha..ok stop this sad thigns..haha...i am scared of books now....haiz..keep studying....haha..
haha..know it's not early and it is too late....haha..i always call ppl to slp early and i am always the last to slp or even not slping..am i selfish??..haha..think i am really sick le..whole body no force..haiz...morning woke up at 10..very late then go pay town council de money..then go hm... headache in the morning..then meet shuinan to eat lunch cause i dun wan eat alone....then he need to go co....i walk to jp..walk walk awhile..really awhile..not even 20 mins...walk one round then take bus hm le..cause become dizzy le....haiz..useless body...then at hm sit there then heart become to pain...WTf man..all come in one dae....then no energy to move..sit there..then mum call..ask me to cook... haiz..bo bian got to cook...cook half way dad come back...he nv like me cooking so he cook..then i go rest le....nv eat dinner...lolz...sick ma..then call shuinan chat abt crap..lolz...lame loh...he all brain is her her and her...haha...then help him think of ideas to woo the gal...i gif alot lei..i also dunno come from where de ideas..they just floated to my brain..haha.. then shuinan ask me why i nv use all these ideas before..i say dunno..haha..gif u use ma..u my bro..ahaha...then nth much le..look at the com..the com look at me....haha....
yoz!!!! just finished cutting my finger nail..ahah..very boring lazy to srudy...haha..fourth time bloging todae...lolz...haha..just now i cook dinner with my mum..but my mum just sit there and eat her orange and nag and nag at me....while i was so hardworking to cook for her...haiz...somemore not enough rice....wan me go down buy..but i lazy..=X.. haha..then add the unpolised rice..not bad lei the taste..haha..she keep nagging at me... think finally she got time to be alone with me this naught son to dig the things inside of me ba...haha..but luckly she dig nth but crap..haha...i keep toking crap with her...haha..then she go nag and nag...haha...say i dunno why seem happier at once and sadder and once..haha..then i tell her i study until crazy liao..haha..then she wack me..then i add too much salt to the veg..then salty..haha..then my dad fish back liao first mouth eat the veg then he ask my mum why so salty..haha..then i say dunno..my mum keep quiet..haha..lame ba.....todae listen to waiting for u and lonely until i can sing the whole song liao la...haha...bored...everyone sleep early pls..haha
wanted to rest but...dunno why just cannot go to slp...haiz....missing her ....really..haha..sorry i come here cause i got noth to do le...really miss her..onli 1 dae u know...haiz...dunno how....... how am i going to lgo on after exam??? haiz...how?...i am dead man.....i have no exp in missing a gal so much...maybe last time de relationship is i am still young and useless ba...play with ppl..haiz...regret now tt i play with her.....sorry..lolz..i am crazy come here write this...lolz..haha.. boring ba...miss her lot...ar.... when ever i look at a blank space her face come to my image...looking at her photo..haha..lame ba...haha.. maybr this is heaven telling me tt i can't live without frenz..lolz...life like this really sux man...think i later going to mac to study myself ba..cause i cannot study at hm de...dunno why....shuinan painting his house so gd...how i wished i could paint my house too...if i have a room of my own here i will paint her name big big there..haha..boring ba...byeZ
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YaWnZ..just woke up...haha...tired lei..dunno why..haha..todae is festival of light..haha...wished ppl celebrating it will be damn happy.....lolZ..dunno come here write wat...so early in the morning brain is empty....okok...let tok abt shuinan..haha..this bro of mine is 16 this year...tall like hell..look like skinny but no la...haha...he finished his "n"lvl le...think he can do it de..cause his studies not bad de...haha..he now working at marriot where i havd been working..haha...now he no time to accompany me le...told u all liao...once work = no time...me will be worst then him alot..cause i captain liao...more work then him..he is just at the bar...can change shift..i almost need to work everydae 10a.m to nite 11.30p.m or with O.T to 3.30a.m..so..hiaz..dunno how... i will got no time for anybody...just like the song LoNely...lolz...so bored...ytd chinese paper...see they all say the paper quite easy..but i see all chinese paper the same de..lolZ..still can do ba..NV SLEEP DURING BOTH PAPER LEI..lolz...last time chinese paper i comfirm will fall asleep de..haha...then after tt go watch movie..watch the andy lau one..all rite la...not really gd...not much emotions...=X..but quite sad la..if tt happen to me...i dunno how...haiz..haha...then go hm rot loh.....haiz....ok la...i go wash up then look at my books le....byEz
hee...very stressed for the coming exam..monday is chinese le....my worst subject of all times...i remember the last time i get a for mother eongue is pri 2 ba..haha...then all the way drop and drop..haha...dunno how to study for mother tongue....haha..but need to study...acctually i dun intend to study liao de..cause... i know will be the same de...c6..haha..but she ask me to study or dun tok to her....=X..haha so study ba...since it means no harm...haha...friday go sch get award..haha..a little badge..for cca..dunno wat..then mr bong in front of whole sch gif some of the taf ppl a prize cause cut down over 5 kg...i cut down 8kg so i got something too..haha..it is a skipping rope..dunno for wat..hhaha..then after tt....went hm..nth to do...then went to play pool... hand pain still can play pool rite..not bad har...=X..haha..all rite la..cause play with shuinan onli not need like play with jerome they all need skill... shuinan one u ujse thinking can win him de...but lastly we have the score of 5:5....haha..i lose 5 match and win 5...but i think he onli win once or twice cause other is i in black ball..haha...then after tt go hm...cook le...but my mum say my things not good to eat...then i accompany her to go down...but she eat i see onli...haha..then sat meet shuinan at 1.30 we go jp walk walk cause actually wan to meet people when their class finished..but they with their teacher went to eat..so we dun disturb haha..i buy le the "f"amous choc cake for someone but nv meet haha...then shuinan ask me buy for whu de...then i say foe myself can?..then he say i dun belive..so i take out and eat down all the cake....haha...since i haven eat..haha..then send shuinan hm..then i slowly walk hm..since i really got nth to do...then i go cut my hair..now i very shory le..no tail...nothing..damn short..wan put also cannot..haha..then at nite study mother tongue...study to 2.00a.m..haha...think first time i can study chinese for so long...haha...ok le..i need to go for cc de co soon...somemore i haven wash up..=X..hee..byEzz..
hi..abt to go to slp.....come here tok tok awhile...very diffcult to type cause my right hand abit burnt..then mum wrap my hand with tape...so uncomfortable...haiz....dunno why..."her" had been playing cold war with me...no tok...sms little like none...bye bye ,hello also dun have...haiz..nth i can do.....sorry...me dun understand...i am not angry..but just confused..why u gif me cold shoulder???did i make u angry? did i do anything wrong?...u just tell me...i will and can change...sorry if there is sa need...but dun gif my cold shoulder can??? cold war is too tough for me from u...it hurts me...but u think like this is better..then ok...can tell me...dun wan to see me? tell me too....i will not appear infront of u....anything just tell me...todae is another boring dae..morning eat wat breakfast at jurong west..thne go jp play wat arcade..with shuinan..then he go sch meeting then i waited outside for him..then i ask him go mac study with me...he come..then "her" sms me tt they will be studying at BL mac too..ask me wan come anot..dun wan FORGET IT!!!..u know how much it hurts to see this sms...haiz...she come le...with her frenz..very happy...but i and her no commcaition..gtg cause need to go hm cook dinner..think she will not understand one..cause i go at 7...they still staying...not even a bye from her... me go hm le... reasiled tt my hand is too pain to hold the cooking pots...so i went down to packet for my family..still kena scolded by them say y no cook onli know how to go out play...haiz....they dun understand me too..haiz..i can do nth but gif them scold loh...haha..ok la..i tml still need to go sch...i go slp le..ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZZzzzZzzZZZZZ
haiz....boring dae of my life...just finished dinner but onli drink water cause no mood...todae morning wake up at 7.30 cause shuinan call me...he nth to do...haha...then actually he wan to go k-box...but i no mood..haiz....cause nv get to see her todae..no message also..i nv message her cause think she busy ba...so dun wan disturb her...haiz...no mood to do anything...then go areana play pool but i anyhow play...there no ppl...then onli 2 of us....then i win 10:01..lolz..anyhow play also can...haiz...then go jp..he go see wat phone he going to buy...but ii fan him like hell...then rain veru huge..take 240 one round..he gif me fan until wan to siao liao...then i take 99 with him one round..fan him again..cause he is my bro ma....my two others bro going to be not free le...alfred and xiao xiong...alfred is begin called by his father in USA to go back..he wouldn't be able to find me until next year jan..haiz...but still wished him gd luck in his business..then xiao xiong is going back to malaysia also cause of father business..haiz...still wished him lauck la.....Bros workhard..we will meet together one dae and chat abt all we wan....Go Go Go!!

ok,now is my things le....my now having "o" lvl....trying very hard to study but always thinks of her..happy tihnking of her...wander wat she is doing? whether is she fine...images of her smiling flow through my brain..haha..so happy... but i dun have time for her le...me dunno how..after "o"lvl i got to go SYCO,Work....haiz..then if she really work at her sister there then even worse..she work morning to evening then me from evening to midnite...Wa....HOW????? HEAVEN....pls..help me...teach me how....but she work also good ba...but the boss cannot bully her or i go kill him/her..=X.....me going back to my marriot hotel to work...shuinan working at there le....me after exam then go work...haiz...then need to go syco and co practices cause syco got pfm during dec..dunno she will go anot..haiz..nvm ba..since i at there also onli extra there..i so lousy..haiz...REALLY NO TIME LE..=(..i am going to cry...whenever i think of this qns...images comes out and tears cover my eyes...but i nv let them dropped cause i always think there is going to be a solution for everthing in this world..ok...i try to think of something ba...maybe change job or wat ba..haiz...dunno how..if u know pls tell me...and Heaven dun paly with me anymore ok...i have told u many things..and u have played with me alot of times...but this time pls...let it be ok....let her come to me can?..maybe no...but let let her smile more and laugh more...i really make my hearts bleed when i see her face sianz or sad or angry..pls...let her have the beautiful smile on her cute face..really damn beautiful and cute when she smile and laughs.....thanls heaven if u really help me..thanks...tml think she also not ffree..haha..lonely again ba..lolX....headache le..byeZ..
yoZ....boring at hm..haha...no need to go sch loh...haha..cause self-study le..haha...nthing to do...no ppl ask me to go out...haiz...nth to do damn boring..boring boring borging..BORING....
haha..just watch finished show at hm... very touching how i wished i could be like them...so happy togather..haha..sorry...this few daes nv update...no chance to use com...really...father at hm will nag at me..need to study..haiz....finished finished the notebook..haha..dunno she can read my words anot....not cfm ba..haha...let me think..tuesday nv go sch cause i need to go hospital for check up....haha...doc say better alot le..haha..dunno la...ask me to take care..then say look after me so many years le know tt i will not listen de..haha.... then wed..nv go sch again..cause is all science...sianz ma...cause thursdae is science practical...haha...thurdaes practical loh...ok la..but dunno i got write wrong anot..haha...then is keyln birthdae..go arena...but i go until 8 i go hm..cause my dad dun let me go out..then i take cab hm...luckily he haven reached hm..or i die again..haiz....then friday wan go sch de...but when i wake up got headach..then take bus to sch...it got worse..then meet shuinan gif him cd..then i go hm rest le...very pain..haiz....maybe cause wed finished the notebk at 3++ then late slp ba....cause have been staying up late to finshed the notebk fast for her to study...cause not much time le...she wan to pass onli can depend on her le...hope she will use the notebk ba...then nite go mac study with geraldine,kelyn and hwee qi... go hm at 10...see my dad face black black haha.... then shuinan sms sometihng very big..he told me tt he begin to like a gal... can see this is real..cause he tok abt it all the time...gd luck to him ba..=)..dun be like me can le...=X..then sat...which is todae..nono is ytd..haha..morning dunno why slp like pig intil geraldine message me say i gif the t-shirt ti mdn peng le ma..haha..then faster wash up then do the design..is touch up ba..cause i saved in my com one gone...die she see le will kill me...then after tt go mac study...after tt shuinan come my house.... we go eat at jurong west st?? dunno...near hong kah north cc there...we drink beer cause really no happy abt something..haha..drink a little onli then both act drunk..haha..lame like hell but chat alot..he told me something i dun belive....but he have no adantage to lie me abt tt...so..maybe it is truth..dunno..haiz....smk alot also... haha..then go back my house..he fell aslp on my bad..haha..then i watch tv... wake him up at 12.30..haha...then together watch tv..then 1.30 we walk hm together..i mean walk to his house...chat and chat..haha...bro ma...guy tok mostly abt gals la ok...haha...sad also....lolz...then walked back hm myself...raining somemore...haha..then come back cannot fall asleep cause shuinan tell me tt thing....can't belive it..haiz...then watch tv until now....haha..ok la i think i go watch tv until i slp...somemore tml still need to wake up for cc co haha....i wan go de...but shuinan not going he got to work..haiz...alone there...haiz...ok byeZ...
yoz...back to life...dead for a moment...lolz.....nth la...cause i got nothing to up ma...haha...let c....sat i went out....with ger and shuinan....go pool...haha..play 6hrs+... $35.80.....haha..i treat them play..also dunno why.......haha..nvm they both my really gd frenz..really really gd..think more then frenz...more like my family members le....really love them...haha...then shuinan fever come my house..say wan to slp but nv slp..come my house eat and play...haha...then at around 1 i walk with him to his house..haha....fun cause walk until half go vending machine buy things like free..haha...then i keep saying wrong things then keep laughing..ppl see thought we crazy...haha..buddy forever..haha..then i walk hm...nth to do ba....walk and think of my own tghings...count the daes waited for her....haha...still short la....others wait for 3 yrs le..me going to 3 months onli....haha..then my exam...my furture...after exam....how to keep contact with all...5 yrs passes really damn fast...primary school my be fun but secondary is the best...all my mermoies are here in BOON LAY SEC gd or bad..i love all...here is where i found out whu i really love and wat love is....really..and hardworking...gd frenz.....all fun...




ok now is story time...............haha
there was a boy whu had a tude in his heart crack where blood keep flowing out.....sometime it is really pain can feel...he knew it when he is in pri 1..he cried for a wk...u may think that he is really young dunno how it feel...he had to keep skipping sch for hospital....he had no frenz..he is like a monster in class.even teachers dun like to be close with him...he started to grow on his very own.....he doesn't wan his parents to have the angry or u all called sad face to gif me..why he can nv do his things rite...not study..no playing..all no.... in his pri 2 he start to be strong...hid everything inside him even the very pain he dun show out a bit...he just smile with all..=)...he started to onli go hospital during off sch hrs and when he really needs it...he started to have more frenz in pri3...fast he know lots lots...but he kept it a sercet....really noones knows....he started to play basketball to try whether it will be in pain...lucky it is not really pain and he enjoy it..he started playinh and pri4 he join the sch team..really gd....keep playing and playing...2 yrs past... he slowly onli go to doc twice a years onli...however maybe the heaven dun like him..he got muscles tear and a really big one...he knew it is going to be pain but he had tried wat even more painful then this..he keep quiet and when to hpspital to stay for 6 months..he cannot move his legs at all..he had his psle in hospital...really it is no gd feeling at all...he lose his frenz.... he felt alrite..then he moves to sec 1..he didn't tell anyone abt his past..he become a normal people..he is happy like hell haha....really happy..go on with life...stop basketball le....cannot play told by doc... he is sad..but nv show...he kept it all...he try all others...he knew all most all sport...he start to know a special frenz when in sec2 become buddy in sec3 ...really gd..now he told his stories to him acause he know he is going to be long buddies...really...and he started to notice a gal during his sec 4..but he dun dare to say cause he had dropped to na from express..then go to sec 5 realise she also liked him..happy awhile but broke off cause she liked others...haha..then becomes really gd frenz..more than frenz ba....haha...told her some of his stories...not to make her pitil him but to encourage her...there is someone worst then her..haha..i am not going to tell u whu this person is but dun guess...he dun like it...thanks...hee
just got back not long from sch de gradu nite..not bad..see all my frenz all so high and happy..really gd... me not really used to this kind of things....the really sad things is tt i have a really bad headache..till now it still really hurtz ok... dizzy too...dunno why..haha...i am so ugly can... i nv wear business suit out unless really need... feel so uneasy..nth much ba..cause i sit outside for a very long time cause of the headach... then after tt take phot with my class de..haha.. then nth much ba... geraldine was sent hm by her parents..she is so angry..and pulled a long face..think she ok ba...cause she still know her parents is care for her one..not like mine..onli know how to take away my freedom..sux ok...dun understand me at all...haiz..dun tok about them...shuinan is so tired..he started working....haha..he seem more mature...haha...ok le me got nth much...head really pain..i go take medi le..byEZ
hi all...finally my com is back on use again..lolzz...too long vn write also dunno wan write wat...onli know now my head damn pain...headache everydae....dizzy also...dunno why..maybe dieing???...whu know....?lolzz all test ba and all this stupid classes teachers gif...damn stress... haiz...how to pass life.... i have lose my freedom le...kena scolded by father..then no freedom no money... he cut my pocket money by HALF..u know HALF...haiz...then eat away all my money... haiz..wat kind of father is this ...i dun even know... maybe he is not my father..=X..whu cares..haha..boring life of mine...still the same...haiz...nth inproved over the daes onli got worst.. my result is even worst... cannot let ppl see one.... not A n B.. all Cs then 1 D and 1F...wtf...F9 u know..all CH...dunno why cannot remember one...damn sucks....haiz..nth to write le... byEZ
sorry....i cannot blog for abt a week cause com hard disk crash...i use frenz com....sorry... somemore cough anf flu getting worst...sorry...sorry...byeZ
MOODLESS...............Dunno why so moodless todae.......damn sux........................dunno why...haiz...todae physics....i think quite easy ba....but i keep wanting to slp...so i bite my own hand to wake up.........then the mark is still there....haiz.. then go jp with they all.... they eat loh..cause i have no habbit to eat in the morining so nv eat....then see geraldinn headache..then suylfan vomit...lolzz...haiz now more and more ppl getting sick le...haiz...all must take good care... exam started...haiz..dunno how u all take o lvl...nvm me also...lolzz..nthing to update sorry...think lster go jp rot before going to study...ok...byeZ
hi all.....me just doing sometihng just now....now find time to blog le...soory lei...last few daes exam..now also la...but got study de ok....! just now got chem exam... i slp half way through my work..then mr bong come step on my leg....pain le...he think he skinny ar!!! haha jkjk..then go jp... thinking of eating but dun feel like cause everytime morning nv eat de..haha...then go frenz gal frenz de house.... cause they quarrel then i middle man loh... then i tok her something she shocked...she though i still have stead then she just now suddenly ask me 'i am jealous of u lei,choke, u still care so much for ur gal,then him lei? onli frenz" then i gif her bird face..she ask my why then i tok her.... she throw me away on 28 july le.... then she shocked..haha..see the face wan to laugh out loud...haha...she ask me then why u still care so much abt her things? i say dunno..u say my heart..lolzz..she then laugh..luckly after an hr of toking she realise that she is much better then me...maybe..haha..then got patch back with my frenz...haha... felt so jealous when see them together...haha..nvm..i am just waiting...cause i love her but she love others... it's ok...i will still be waiting...hahahahahaa...ok la not much...ya something... dunno i felt tt shuinan is changing alot...since he had been going out with 2 gal and 1 guy from his class..he changed alot... wan to tell him sometihng... just go for wat u wan anyhthing thing just find me..hee.....take care... ok la nthing much le............................................................



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wa..............help me......boring!!!!damn boring.....haiz...todae wake up late for cc de co..then faster wash up then go loh.....then not much ppl.... then see ger she tan until quite dark la..really..haha..then also red red..haha... not bad...lolz... then go eat after tt... me eat like eating alone like tt.....cause sit with ppl which like not toking my laugage...dunno wat topic to tok with them..haha..after tt...wan go cut hair de but many ppl....then go hm first loh....then rot...lolzz... then after tt abt 4.30 my small bro say he meet his frenz in jp..so i go with him out loh....print photo...so nice...hee...cause is "her" photo...sorry nv ask ur permission to print.....then go rot in arcade..complete my time crisis 2, and three counties... then play spul cailer 2..win ppl like hell cause too bored...with the win if 46 ppl... i am crazy..... then lose to one pro... crazy ba..wahaha..then walk walk loh...alone le...really damn bored.. then go back boon lay cut hair.... very ugly....nvm..i am always ugly...hee..then come back le...just reach hm not long... cook maggie mee..eating alone infront of the com..cause no ppl at hm...boring ba....wahaha...actually tonite wan to go out one..but shuinan not free...haiz..this is the borest year of atuman festival...lolzz...nv play with fire..not like last year..use fire make a heart for my frenz gal....damnn nice..but kena police scold..lolzz..but he and she damn gd now.... todae they going chinese to see those things....ask me go but dun wan to be light bulb..hee....alone loh...haiz...maybe burnt my own house..lolzz...hee...ok la boring like hell...i go play game....but it hink no game.. go window shopping ba...but no $$..haha..CyAz
yawnz..just woek up not long.....pig ba..haha...also nv slp much..though d&t finally finished can slp longer but no mood...haha...dunno why at the time i hand in my foilo, inside my mind is onli to msg her to tell her...lolz....lame ba...dunno why...nth much ba.... this few daes normal normal ba...better then my lonely life....exam also....haha...shuinan fininshed his perlim le.. then i just started...wtf... ytd go play pool loh... dunno why all miss skill...maybe i am really lousy....haha.. lousy le la...not like last time everytime go there play myself...then go nite studies...i think nv study one..haha... onli sometime...alone then study one..haha...nth much le ba..later then update ba...haha..to be continue........................
yoz....just reached hm not long ago...actually long le la...just fininshed eating my dinner haha...actually is small bro one...but he slping so i eat loh..lolz....but still pain..cause nv eat b4 eating medicine..wahaha..naughty ba..lolzz..todae nth much go sch...damn stress loh...haha...hand in d&t de thing...but i still got alot to do..this fridae is the last dae le....need to hand in to moe le...haiz...after sch go d&t rm do my artifact but until 3 onli cause mr foo not free...haha...he saw go meet his gal...dun wan tell us whu..ahhaa....then go with shuinan to arena..cause ger,qi they all there ma...then go down i poor he broke haha...after tt still got to borrow money from ger to pay...so pai seh...OMG...ahaha...nvm la...so close frenz le...haha...then go hm...my bro use the bathroom so long tt i amost felt asleep on the sofa....haha...but nv if not nv go for the nite class le....haha..after tt go to nite class..... quite boring actually cause i study my own they study their...felt so lonely...nvm la....i getting used to it...after tt walk to Pm with ger and surfan...ger meet her sis jes to eat...after tt surfan walk with me difference ways....hahha...then my bro come fethc me with my dad lorry..haha..cause it is time my mum off work too..hahaa.....ok la...me abt to go to rest le....ByeZ..
hi....i finallly find so time to blog...haha... busy and moodless the whole dae....cause todae no cc de co...so slp until very late 10....dunno why...maybr last few dae nv slp much ba....sick too... then wake up by father go down eat....eat alot todae...rice, roti prata, pinapple and a glass of grss jelly...haha...full like pig...somemore still eat ice-cream...so gd long time nv eat le... eventhough cannot eat cold de..=X...sorry sorry...then go hm rot rot.....boring like hell missing her but can onli look at her photo...lolzz..haha...this is the first time i even miss a gal like this...die liao...cause i know nothing gd will happen to this relationship..haha..nvm ba...let it be as it is....ok la then go brush my leather shoe....haha..shining le... sweat loh...gd feeling...then go down buy dinner...nth much le....OMG i forget to do my foilo...omg this the the stupid things i have been stressing for a very long time...tml got to fininshed to stick my whole artifact or i will fail my d&t..then my O lvl = gonE...haiz..stress like hell...no time... so sorry to anyone if going to find me after sch...me got to stay back in sch to finished my D&t cause foilo also need to hand in and i left alot more....damn it... i have been too lazy... the first 7 month of my life this yeear tis still ok..but just before my birddae 10 dae somthing really bad affect me....ahhaa...ok la...me got to rush my foilo le..sorry sorry....take care guys..and gd luck to alll having exam and...most important is to take really good care of ur health...ByeZ
still unable to slp after doing all those things below....arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....haiz...tml need to go to sch de co..then nite go pfm....haiz...STRESSSSS...HIAZ HAIZ................

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 83% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

hiaz...just smk finished...stress like hell...think of alot of things..abt study abt life and abt her..wat can i do? nth...just misses her damn lot onli can look at her pic and blog..and nth else....haha...think i will go back to my ols life le ba...go to happy go lucky life.... no mood everydae...sick le...todae cough and flu better but fever come and headache is worst like dunno wat.....just now go see doc cause of my leg..it still hurts okies.....pain like myself stepping on it..haiz...nth much ba but dun moodless.....haiz...dun care...exam coming...but dun care...now think of my d&t and her....nth else le...think i no chance le ba...lolzz....nono..is cfm no chance le...haha..just making myself more and more sad...angry with myself...she said will fan me will care abt me...dun i dun see any...nvm since she is tt busy..i sld keep away from her ba..haiz..stress and stress....how i wished i can just click deletle button in my brain and forget abt her.... but it simply write error not able to dele....haiz..sad like hell...cannot get to slp... like tt how to study?....fuking off....i go watch tv le la...stress..think todae unable to slp le..nvm i dun tihnk anyone will care or come to see this blog......byEz..SuXers
hiaz.....sick like hell...ytd finishsd writing blog...then see whether got ever anot then is 38.3...high...but still go to d&t...cause need to do...but i haven fininshed...my classmates see my like so stress there all come ask me..haha....but i is sick but also stress la.... think whole class i am the last one...haven come out with the look of the whole artifact....haiz...problems here and there......haiz...wan to cry le la....if crying help and if onli i can.......all sickness is still here but i am not going to gif in to it...i will not see the doc and still at hm..lolzz...haiz...todae wake up at 8..whole body pain like hell..haiz....now tihnking wher to go later...cause no programme..no ppl to accompany me..haiz...i lonely......haiz...think is ytd to late slp ba.... lie on bed thinking a lot of things...think of shuinan advice of "her"..but i cannot do it...oh yeah...ytd saw her... when i first go ther nv see her...think cause i ouside buy milk but she inside ba...then jega call me wan me to help them to buy water then i go back loh...then go to the drink there saw her...ok la...i sick ma so nv tok to her..Sorry...then walk back to sch thinking how to do my artifact....then nv tok to her....felt so bad...but hear she and her frenz toking happily i am relived....ok la i really sick le la... go wash up..later go find shuian see he can come out anot....GonE
just woke up.....damn tired....having flu pro,cough and BIG heacdache....nv go geo..sorry ms yip...but will go to D&T later...cause need to finished by todae le.....haiz...4 daes le..nv see her... she seen very sianz at hm...but dun think so...lolzz..lame la...nvm la...shuinan tell me just go for her... but i dun wan cause she has ppl whu she love le....dun wan to disturd just be her frenz can le...but i am worst then her frenz.....msn she would not reply..msg also... and sadly i dun call..haiz...now hand also pain..wrist....haiz...dunno why.....now writing on one hand..haiz...Gone

this is the gift from audrey..thanks... 

the front of the card... 

wat is in the card... 

gif for co de jounior...cute ba.. 
haiz...sick like hell...sianz ar....still need to go d&t..todae is from 9 to 12 de extended to 5...haiz..long le....but haven finished..tml still got start from 10 cause b4 tt got geo but i not going to geo....too tired...todae when during te 12 to 1 de break went to co rm...then shuinan practice his bass..then i fall asleep.haha lame ba..then he come call me wake up...cause phone rings....lolzz... nth loh...no movie todae also...first is shuinan say dun wished to watch but after tt i also cannot go..haiz.. say tml morning go but i got class...sorry shuinan...my hoildae is not like holidae is a d7t week for me...damn tired...cough ,flu headache..and very dizzy..dunno why...leg start to pain again..cause no medicine le...hhaa..then start to smk more le...haiz..alot of things..haiz...dunno la...one step at a time ba...see how loh...ok since i now using com tok abt the past... on my co de bbq my junior in co gif me something..very nice of them..hee..the photo will be up soon..hee...thanks you....yi zhi, melissa,xiangli,shi hui and li juan..thanks alot...u all work hard too...time really past fast.....ok next is audrey le....u seen changed..sorry i nv go syco de practice very long le...u seen so weak....but aleast u smile during class.. so relived....take care wors.... hear something bad happen to u..take gd care of urself and all the best for ur paino de test as well as ur sch exam...thanks for ur gif..thanks... some more yesterdae go syco..jia lin come late then come le sudden as me got miss her ma!..i shocked...lolzz...she have nv said tt infront of me...wierd..maybe too long nv see her ba.....then practice loh...mr ji also crazy...keep asking me to jio my sch de one girl....haiz....i nv tell him onli.. i also like her..but no chance de la....nvm le just dun care abt him la....haha..todae go d&t...whole dae nv eat..no time..haiz...someone run here and there...smelly like hell....now also haven eat.. no appt..no mood....haiz...dun care la... noone cares too....=0...nth le ba...i go bath le...damn smelly....
hiaz....dunno why not in mood todae....damn down....todae moring went for d&t loh... 8 to 12..then extended to 3....haiz...7 hrs le...damn tired loh....then also nv went movie again..think tml will go....dun care le...even alone also go le...cause no programme at all...haiz.... then nite go syco..practice loh...very tired..still sick..haiz....getting worse le...haiz...now and then got headache and dizzy loh...dunno why...duncare la...care for much for wat...no one care too... shuinan todae mood also not gd...bro not happy together...lolz...haiz...so much pressure..haiz... 2 daes nv see "her" le...miss her so much...=(....nth i can do...sorry...for those stupid msg....not send by me de...sorry... sorry to cause i also tok abt this to shuinan..then he do it...sorry..did not mean to fan u... u can c my name le deletle de.....nvm..nth important all just same things ever now and then.... haiz....haiz....tired le... go off le...
early in the moring....dunno wat to do..later got to go sch for class....haiz....not feeling well at all...cough, flu,headache,sore throat and etc..alot of illness come to me..dunnno why...however feeling low....so things tt happen i haven update...so maybe be later ba...hiaz....think going to be off from this world le ba.....cause from young already got heart problem...haiz.....fortune teller also say will not left long....haha...nvm....todae is the start of shuinan n lvl exam...haha...wished him gd luck.....hhaa......thinking of her now....wat can i do...she like others not me...lolzz.....haha..nvm be frenz ba....since wan to exam le.....after exam got to work somemore...haha...haiyo...no need think le la...I so ugly whu wan....haha...nvm..i have brought something for her....but...dun dare to gif her.....nvm...keep it ba....till somes dae it may have some use....and advice for her....'Go ahead with whu u wan...dun be sad...' and"choke advice...must do 4 things a dae...1st smile...2nd smile always....3rd laugh out....and lastly...take care of urself"...hee...i noe i have no rite to ask u do or stop u from doing anything...cause i know u dun love me...nvm...think it is abt time for me to stop irrating u le....sorry for fanning u for so long....thanks you for tourated me.....thanks for aleast a time where we are happy....
Thanks......................................................................................................................................
sorry for nv updste blog for long time..no chsnce to use com......now having headache haha...leg pain also...think todae late eat medicine so pain loh...hahaha.....todae...nothing much la...haha..go sch..then when wan to go d&t but wear slipper...scolded by leow..then nv go le..haha... then nite go co de bbq..hee..nth much also...the sad things is co is changing to gu zheng but i and shuinan going to tok abt this with ms ho on mondae ba...really sad le...4 years in co...work so hard le then wan to change...haiz...then go la kopi...haha...chat loh...then there got 1 like cc sell drinks de..haha..then play with his voice laugh until peng.....haha....head very pain...think go slp le ba...or tml cannot wake up for co...haha...Good Nite....
hiaz...my leg is very pain...just go c doc....he pushed very hard damn pain....then i shouted out...i long time nv shout le...very pain...but feeling very gd in my heart....haha..then take medi...pills...5 pilss each time..twice a dae...wa..i hate pills...then got drinks de also...the taste just simply SUX!!!!!..i hate it...my leg is damn pain...haiz...todae got sch loh...teachers dae celebration loh... first in class got yoga....but not doing...lolzz..then after tt go hall sit....dunno why not really happy...dun feel like seeing the perform..then onli listen to the songd then all is i hear b4 one... then i sing along myself loh...lame ba...sorry bros...u all come to sch but i nv go find u all...very sorry.....sorry...then go hm then go go rulang meet geraldinn they all...they go in sch find teachers and ex class mate..but me and shuinan sit outside the general office there act like there de students...lolzz...act like no time no c like tt...haha..lame...then drink water..i played with the can...to make mini can...haha..then cut my own finger...lolzz...lame ba...then go arena le....go there so full.....then i and shuinan go la kopi...lame ba...then he see one clean table de pretty..lolzz..then go back...they all wan play bowling loh...haha...play la...lolzz..play with surfan...then play alone...haha..my thumb de nail gif me bowl until useless le..lolzz...finished playing bowling already 6+ le....i actually dun wan go hm de...but...need to go see doctor..i am sorry everyone....sorry....somemore next wed still need to go...wa...pain like hell...haiz...whu tell me to play so much bb..love bb so much...but someone is on equally state as bb in my heart but..she..haha..dun tok abt it la...useless de..haha...it is impossible..haha..ok la very late le...leg also very pain i go slp le....and think where to go tml....haha..no money also...haha...ok la...goOd NiTe.....TaKe CaRe..=)
Boredom..full me up...todae nothing much happen...early in the moring wake up at 9... wash up...dream awhile more siting on sofa...then walk to cc for co...buy coke early in the moring to drink cause nth better to do...smk also...then go in for practice..then they all practice er hu da song...i sit in instrutment rm inside do nth....todae very very little ppl come... no sound from ppl mouth onli from instrutment....then i practice 1 song onli...then finished le...after tt nth to do...then remember tt i need rubber tube for d&t..go bicycle shop want the uncle see me le ask one qns...why u look so bored?...i answer...bored loh..haha..lame ba... then go hm rot...sit there with the tv on but thinking of ppl...dunno wat show i watch also..then suddenly my small bro ask me go play bb....very wired he ask me go paly bb...which he dun like at all...lame ba... go down also bored...then go hm...watch 1 hrs tv..le...go down buy dinner...i nth to eat...very bored...then nv eat much.....then hm rot again....then go fetch mother....now back to use come..later will rot again..before slping..... nv see shuinan and geraldine todae very weird..haha..then just now got call shuinan see how he..think he is fine..happily laughing....but geraldine i nv call her..i dun use to calling gal...message her loh..but nv reply...but hear from shuinan she is happy when he is on phone with her...so ok loh....i think i am the onli one bored ba....haha....nvm la...they all happy i happy also..he..=)...
just finished my dinner..all left over from ytd..hhaa...very full now...todae go sch de co...practice loh...same same...then after tt go jp eat loh...soo many ppl in jp....sianz..then go imm buy things tt is needed for this fridae bbq..lame.......but see ger face very pale..very worried abt her....always dizzy...haiyo...then coming back de time her face sudden black....so worried again..haiz..i also dunno how to take care of her....haiz...she always forget to bring medi out...dunno how..
yoz...todae late day in sch...then wake up late also loh..then forget todae shuinan got perlim go sch early...then i wait for nth under his blk..cause forget ma...haha..lame ba...then walk to sch myself loh....haha..then boring loh..haha...same loh...sch hrs....then after sch got science class loh...both science...bored loh..no ppl accompany me eat... so lonely....haha...after sch also lonely walk hm...no need to send anyone hm...so early reached hm so wired.....ger fell sick le....todae recess still see her face so pale....but hear her usually laugh with her frenz then i can out the stone in my heart down...or i will go fan her again..=X..haha...very lonely ba... think me...haha.. bo bian.. i now onli got 2 important frenz...one perlim one sick...at can i do?..,i dun even know..haha... just go on ba...todae get back math ca5...sux man..onli 25/30..sianz...highest 29 le... somemore very de easy le.....haiz...dunno how le la......stress.....
hey....noth loh...just come back from sch not long...cause got english class... so boring de class...then wait for ger..but dunno why she so angry... think cannot find us..then she went off first...then we go bus stop saw her...face so black...haiz...then go up bus...they all sit behind then i and shuinan sit infront...then reached le...dropped off...she walked damn fast think dun wan to see us or me ba.....dunno wat happen maybe is my fault ba...phone too lousy...haiz...
hee...finally find time to use com...sorry for not update ytd and the day b4 cause no chance to use com...but i dun tihnk anybody come and c my blog......haha..if realy pls write something on my tag even a space ok can...thx.. todae same life in sch loh...today math ca damn easy..=X..the ss damn diffcult...haha..no la cause i nv study...then after sch go jp makan...chicken rice again..haha... think the people going to know me le..haha.. then walk walk..shuinan always have electric in jp dunno why..haha...like to shock us...very pain le....haha..then send them hm..then now at hm rot loh....haha...i wan to go out and study but no ppl will accompany me cause i like to study at nite and in mac or fast food res...haha...ger they all got nite class socannot loh...then shuinan no need say can't even come out..haha...anywhere think next week go out study myself le...haha...work hard everyone....exam coming..gogo.....hee... ok i write to here le..byeZ byEZ
hi....haha..just finished dinner...cause afternnon also nv eat...haha.....very bored le...dunno wat to do... now just use few mins to update this blog..haha...after the lab we go central to eat loh...they all paly with the things tt they left eating..haha..lame ba...then nth le loh...all went hm...i went hm to rot loh..sit there walk up and there...lied here and there...then 8 go down packet dinner for my family de....then now rot again...some more father is back..haiz..boring le....haiz...haiz...think i go rot again......MiSs "HeR" So MuCh!!!!!
wahaha....lame ba..nth to do...just after co in sch...now in sch de lab...todae wait up very de late wors...haha....at 9.30 le......very late...actually slp even longer de is ger mag me.... all because of shuinan la...ask him call me nv call....then faster washed up....then come out loh...buy breadfast for them....mac...then take cab down to sch loh..haha....cause i cannot run,,,my middle fingers of my left leg swollen....very the pain when touch..haha..cause ytd got ppl jumped very de high then land on my leg..damn pain le....leg even cramped....haha...then go hm kena scolded by father cause of this....haha//lame ba....now i very de hungry..buy for them nv buy for myself..haha.....then haven eat....haha..think going le ba....lab going to close le....haha...i will write again...think tonite if i can use com..haha..ok la...byeZ..
hi...hee..nth to write much..hee...todae morning go sch loh..late day... haha...early in the morning ger voice so farnie..haha... all rite quite the same.....then go class loh... lesson are so boring...haha...nvm la whu tell me to be born in this world...got to study... after sch go science class loh.. 2 science in a dae..wan me to die...haha...but nvm la... all so boring..haha...then send them hm then go hm loh...haha..still got where to go....ger very afarid her phone will be taken by her mum cause her bill over alot..haha..but i tihnk nth happen but..think she get scolded onli ba... cause she still can msg me....haha...good loh..happy for her...haha...my father seem to be not happy with me..haha..i writing blog here...he nagging outside..haiz...haha....dun care abt his "singing".... me doing math paper1..very diffcult le....haiz....stress ar....haha...tihnk i go continue to do...or he will sing non stop...haha..bYeZ
haiz...todae same old sch dae....nv bring pe shirt todae...but got bring shorts....lame ba....then kena scold... then after sch got english calss but cancel...haha..then go co loh... new song...very diff...from last time... dunno how those juniors will do..haha... then go hm loh....haiz...todae not gd...ar... she not in gd mood..think something happen in her calss..then her bill too high her mum going kill her...haiz..i also dunno how to help her..haiz... then todae nv talk to her in the face of A WORD...haiz...feeling so sad.....geeting farer from ppl...haiz...dunno how to tok to her also....me....dunno...haiz... no one can help me ba... i am really useless..... steess is coming from everywhere now..haiz...got class everydae...so tired.... test coming also...wa lao...so cramp de time table...brain going to explose le..haiz...GoNE
here is a sad story....
Long ago...there was a boy whu nv wan to study..he is always in a happy go lucky....then when he goes to primary sch his subject dropped lik ehell....then he aslways hide himself at nite under to blanket to cry... for a very long time...over the years his tears dried up....now he wan to cry also cannot...he is unable to do it....haiz...then he now belive to try he best to study and dun care wat the result is as he has try his very best le..and there is nothing else he can do... everytime his father scold him he can onli sit there and listen..and now whu ever scold him he can onli llisten..he can't drop tear....nth he can do too... but a very bad feeling is in him...now even him thinks tt he is brainless and no heart at all....useless bastard...now he became more and more lazy...failure in everything he does... no moral at all...dun feel like doing anything at all... no frenz...haiz...he is loney...but i tihnk no one can help him... onli himcan help him useless but....haiz...
there this boy feeling very bad but think noone cares ba....
so telling u all this is because ask u all to work hard and be cheerful dun think so much just go for ur aim will do....dun be like this useless boy...ok?...
THE END
haiz...just come back from a walk round boon lay...hauiz...feeling not gd....haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz...think i make 2 ppl not happy todae..and they are important to my life...haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz....wat can i do???? feeling so useless...and anti social....haha..lame ba...not mood to joke around..... got ews jokes to share but no mood..haiz... in class also like tt...at hm also like tt...outside also like tt.....my life is from bad to worst..... haiz...need to study le..or o lvl comfirm failed....also dunno wan study wat?? english oral coming... on 23 august..haiz...another stressful things come.....and d&t too....haiz....so STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz...wan to make blog skin also no mood...haiz.... think this post is the haiz post....dunno la...stress ar......fu*k la chong hwee... u sux.....u useless... are u a guy or a gay??? u lame le....i scolded u!!!!!!!haiz....GonE
hiaz//todae is not a good dae for me.....go sch loh...then after sch actually got CH class de then cancel...then wait for shuinan then wait for ger....then wan send they both go hm de..then this bro of mine keep waiting to go hm...i see him everydae always gif in to me accompany me le...then accompany him go hm early todae...then ger angry le...haiz...i think i am the useless one ba...dunno how to make decision ba.....haha....i am an idiots... after that i walk hm loh...see so many bus 99 also dun feel like taking loh...then leg very pain think is old injuries ba....haiz... really think of alot of things when walking hm...and really damn loney without them...i feel so bored and fan without them...haiz....then i really think tt i am reallly useless....haiz....then reach hm le....duno wan to do wat...wan to message ger but think she is angrry ba.... fan her later she become more angry then i die le..haiz...me going to be isolated le ba......haha...nvm...bears like me are useless.....GoNe
yawnz...it is going late....me is just before bed time come tok tok..haha...todae go sch loh...same sch life...but abit diff todae...i lost 6kg....haha..mr bong face so shocked...haha..lame ba..dunno why cut down so much..i dun even feel it...haha.... nothing much also...tell u something... i haven been cutting down smk alot le....haha..think able to stopped fully soon ba...haha think cause of her ba...hee...dunno...nowadaes very stress le sch...dunno why..haha...work work work....all sch work....haiyo...haiz..dunno la.....think better slp early..or tml cannot wake uo..haha...good nite..take care..
hihi.....sorry long time nv come to chat...haha...dunno why la...dun feel like using com...boring com...dunno next time how to work..haha...hee...sorry for so long nv come see u....haha..now going to tok abt my life le...wahhaa....let start form 8 august...my birdae...haha..go sch loh...then kena spray hair...tio shirt also...haha..then go hospital see sharon..she down by fever..haiz..so ken lian....haha...bored her to death..=X..sorry...then go hm loh..haha...cause shuinan cannot go out loh...hahanvm..then geraldinn also cannot go out...somemore she got to stay overnite with her sis....so sad...somemore there damn cold haiz....somemore next dae got fever..haiz...i so worried abt her...btw get well soon..think too late..haha...u well le....haha...ok then 9 august....still at hm...say wan to do homework but lazy...haha..then stay at hm see national dae pardae..haha...lame loh...i finished seeing the army march off le..then nv see le..cause others so boring..haha...then dunno loh..wahaha...then now 10 august...where i go ar???? i also forget.... o.o...remember le.... go areana with shuinan ,ger and wei jie....yaya..haha...then go hospital together see sharon how...haha...she still lokking very plae tt time.....haha...then go hm slp loh...haha..then is 11 agust...is thurday....go sch loh..haha gif mr leow scold cause nv hand in foilo...haha...nvm la..used to it le...then afternoon...omg i forget again..sorry...i no brain de...haha..i got it...i go arena with ger and shuinan and hwee qi and syfan and irfan and 4/7 de....think so ba...haha..not correct pls dun scold me....=)..todae somemore ger start to cough..she also getting sick so worried....then is 12 agust le.....go sch loh...haha..got chinese 0 lvl result i got c6 and oral distintion..haha..happy???? not really...even though got pass...other may think i am happy...haha...but i am not.. cause i hid myself later in the nite to drop my tears..haha big secert dun tell ppl....haha...ger got b3 think she also cry ba...me also dunno how to help... cause ppl whu know me will know tt i really really scared of gal crying....see irene tt dae cry untill like tt i really feel sad..even though she like carzy...but she bring laughter....her chinese really good de...not onli chinese think study ba...haiz..dunno wat happen to her.....haiz...feel helpless.....ok ba...pass le...just study hard...put in ur best effort u will sooner or later get wat u wan...dun gif up....haha...also go cut hair...too stress ba....wan a change....very ugly.....ok then is 13 agust....is sat...moring meet shuinan and ger to go sch for co.... haha...we three like always together..haha..good ma....got frenz...then i call shuinan early his phone busy de...he say his sis use....then when it got throught..his mum say he go out le...but he is in toilet..lame ba.....haha....then go sch de co...mr ji drive me to cc to pick up my cello...wahaha....then after tt go jp eat lunch..ger couging got worst.....haiz...so worried...then after tt theysay go hm loh....so early reach hm is so wired to me..haha..but later int the nite i also go down play bb till 11+ haha...got my plam scratch...haha..pain le.....then go hm slp....ok then is todae le..haha...got cc de co in the morning...haha..there very little ppl.....haha...then onli practice one sing then go hm le...haha..i go luch with ger...at mac....she got cough le still can eat mac..pro le...haha..then she take bus hm..i also dunno wat i doing at tt time...nv send her hm..i crazy le..haha...sorry ger....sorry...then go hm rot loh...miss her...but dun wan disturd her so nv sms her at all......later i become very fan...dunno why she now coming to more sickness..haiz...worried......ok la...i tok to here can le.... sorry ppl...haha...my bro wan use com......hee...take care everyone....those sick get well soon...happy forever..haha....bye...good NitE..this take me 30 mins to write haha...
sudden those word past my mind...I wan to be with u every single dae of my life...i dunno wat will happen without u...now there something really wrong in my heart...cause i haven seen u todae....no matter wat happen pls stay happy..take care..and i will be waiting for u no matter how long it will be..until the dae my heart stopped......dunno why la...those word pass me..just wonder why there is always someone whu hurts others.....todae is a boring dae of my....damn boring nv go for cc de co cause father scold me say i always go out...no need study izzit...haiz..i dun gif a damn aby him....todae sharon go hospital...ger say she fever for 3 dae le...take care worss.....wish u get well soon....my also duuno why not feeling rite todae.....tml is my birdae liao...think of going out at nite wan to ask her...but she not cfm...shuinan tt dae use my hp msg her...haiz..nvm...i am really very happy liao...aleast got her with me in sch....haha...dunno why have been smking these few daes...very bad.....cause something is really wrong in my heart....nv have this feeling before so even me dunno wat i should do...haiz....dun feel like using com.....need someone to chat to...pls msg me if anyone know wat happen to me...even dunnno can also chat with me...thanks.....bYeZ bYeZ..
hEY!!!nth much..nth to do so come up have a chat with myself.....haha...lame ba....todae mring go sch loh.....then in sch....nth much happen..then after sch shuinan go with me to my chem class...then go jp buy things...they buy for their class banner de...then nth much..they went to sch de oppse in the voild deck to make...haha see they can make until so happy...feeling great for them..nice sch mates and class mates..but of course not my class la....haha..todae get the class make de t-shirt damn ugly some more $15 le..very exp...and i dun think i will be going to sch on mondae....cause i off myself for my birddae..haha..lame...see them really happy...can make so much fan...but me and shuinan very sianz..haha..nvm go accompany geraldinnn..but she also got her frenz...haha..we two very extra....then actually wan send her hm de...but shuinan wans to go hm first..and i dun think they wan me to stay also..cause i so extra......then go hm with shuinan loh...wat can i do?...haiz...nth much in my life..it is so boring.... me dunno wat happen to me...my sch table had been written by me for all sort of things....haha so lame....my books also...no mood study..haiz.....ok la..i also wan to study de...i wan to pass my o lvl..go poly....go on my life even though it is so sianz loh.....me still thinking mondae wan go where le.....nvm la....think shuinan also cannot late go hm cause 7th month is here.....think i will buy cake and sing myself..haha...nvm i am very happy this year le.... i got my every first biddae card..haha..so nice...and lastly.... i really miss the daes with my lao po....haha...=(..really miss those daes....haha..nvm..i just wan her to be happy...the person amy not be me...but whu ever the person is...if he /she make her sad...u will get it....haha...ok la...enough...i got lots of things to do later......byeZ.....
haiz...my feeling get abit better....but also like tt.....lucky got my really good bro...shuinan...even though he is always toking cocks..but always making ppl happy like a clown..but really gratefull to him......really..he a really got listener...anyone need ppl to listen to trouble can find him.... of course me also can la...even though my own problem haven sloved...but i think it can nv be solved..haha..it ok.. i willing to be like this...but need to buck up on my feeling...and make ppl around me buck up feeling also.....especially someone whu is very important to me...really....i wan ppl around me to be laughing...if can..every min....really.....i wan ppl in this world to be happy... there is no such thing as angry,sad,blue,feeling low,down,etc,all with not happy one to be GONE....i wan music too.....haiz..feeling down after reading blog.... she is abit like me...can act out a happy face for ppla round..but if alone or will the so call buddies...then will broken down.... feeling sad for her...but i can do nth..i just dun wan her to live in this world alone...i may not be importance to her...but dun wan her to be down.....if wan pls be infront of me..so i can really comfort her...dunno how to help her...think my brain bursting.......i have try alot of tings i can do to make her happy...but i failed.....wan to fan her also she wouldn't reply me....dunno...she say wan fan si wo...find me before sch,during recess and after sch. but nth of tt happen....haiz..dunno..maybe i am just an extra....Too sad so GONE..
haiz...dunno why..i have a very weird felling in my heart since last thurday..from 28/7...feeling is so bad...dunno why...and i really wan to get rid of this...very irrated..haiz....dunno why...todae go sch loh.... after sch go kfc makan...then i lose my lao po de name tag....haiz...dunno how i lose....after eating rushed bak to find..but cannot find haiz....then her dog also dropped but found by iren...nvm....think is no fate ba....haha...the wierd feeling is getting worst each dae...haiz...just now shave until cut my mouth...so lame wors.....haha...dunno why lao po feeling so sad....really wan to help her..but i can't do anything...haiz...feeling useless.....lameme...hate myself...dunno her story also...dunno whu she waiting also....haiz...feeling really useless.....btw..i felt i have changed...not social anymore..dunno how to laugh..dunno how to make ppl laugh also...always have i sad face...haiz.....dunno wat change me...haiz...feeling so fuck up....haiz....study had been dropping..nv wan to study....always slpy..haiz...dunno wat the fuck happen to me....hate myself even worst...moto of mine is to be happy so ppl around me will be happy also...but i think i failed..so i failed being myself...failed being a human..haiz...onli bring sadness to ppl around me...feel so guilty..haiz....dunno how to changed back liao....dunno how to study liao...dunno wat my future will be....cannot think...brian = useless....haiz...think i am getting from bad to worst liao...haiz....think i am going to be...sad go unlucky instead of happy go lucky... those wan to have luck one dun come near me...u will be unlucky....haiz...dunno wat happen to me...feeling so down now also...haiz....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ThIs Is ThE CaRd.. NiCe Ba... 
hi...todae really happy...moved in a way...think this is the first time ppl remember my birdae and celebrate..haha..even though haven reach..cause think they celebrating xianglin one..then make a "card" for me too ba..haha...anyway really happy....thanks... melissa,shihui ,syfan ,xianglin,mingjieand not least geraldinn.....haha...really happy..go jurong east de ktv..go singing....even though not first time go..but this is the first time i nv slp in it..haha..but dunno why very uneasy int here...think is me ba....cause she my wife not my stead actually i also dunno wat it means... i wanted to hold her hand but i scared cause is my wife not my stead so i can do nth...but see her singing so happily i also happy le...then wan to go hm le...father call..then scolded me say i 5 daes in a week is always out..then no need study izzit..then cause my mood from high to noth.....then they though i really tired...haiz..nvm it my hm affairs....so sad todae shuinan nv go..nvm next mondae make him happy.... but i wished my lao po can go out on mondae too...but i dun dared ask her.....maybe somedae later ba....nv eat dinner...haha..just wished everyone to be happy.....hee...

bored...all alone at hm.. no place to go..cause all is out with others..haha.. i dun really mind as long a they are happy... my motor happy pls..hee... my flu is etting better le but i am getting sore throat le..going to be no sound..haha...haiz..but i am really bored...dunno maybe getting a job....i know is not early but...haiz....my parents is asking me to get a job...see me so sianz and bored at home looking at my own ohone wishing it will ring..message or call also can... haiz..bored..if i get to work i can't do the things i wan...i onli wan to accompany her to anf fro work..but..haiz...dunno...todae is chirstmas le....MERRY CHIRSTMAS TO ALL!!!!!haha...blessed nites too....me?ahah...at home blessed myself ba....wished everyone happy always smile hang on ur face nv drop and smooth sialing in all things in ur life..and last of all....wan u all wan will come to u..if cannot contact me..haha......me like stans...haha..nono cannot haha..is ho ho ho!!! hahahahaha...i am bored..just to miss her..byeZ..
hiaz... i am sick.. my nose is getting worse...then i getting cough le...haiz..
my younger bro come back le..haiz....he got lots of birthdae present form his frenz... me???? haiz...dun tok abt it..it my own fault....haiz...sick sick....haiz...
haiz..just back from dinner....just a few mouth of rice i am damn full..haiz..moodless is eating less..just now with them la kopi also.. i wanted to call milo ice one then i call until teh ice...wth...dunno got make her angry anot..like i nv care abt her like tt....haiz..me useless..haiz..sad..
haiz....life just pass as it goes..haha..or wat else...haiz...really dunno wat is happening to me getting more and more groomy....even when i when to prctice my bb.... everytime my frenz got gal i will go disturb one....or when new gal come i will go act act wan court her like tt..but no more...dunno why no mood le....think this is childish...even when they say i gay..no comment...me stupid??? idiots??? no goals in life.....simply..I AM JUST A USELESS PERSON...haiz..dunno why...todae go sch sell uniform...ok la..not really tired...fun at times... then we go jp eat..no mood eat rice..so eat carrot cake loh...dunno way also..haiz..me and my brain..haiz...useless...then accompany ger to see doc..she sick le...awhile hot awhile cold..cough and flu.....GET WELL SOON ok????u still got to work..take care ar...then go shuinan house play majong awhile loh...no mood also..then even the flow of direction also wrong..wth..haiz...as the sky get darker my mood drop....by the time i reached the bus stop to go home...can't even smile out to shuinan to say bye....haiz..he still sak me at happen..but there is no answer..haiz..dunno why..no mood..come here rot rot..to scold myself to make me feel abit better..but sadly it does not ok..haiz...byez...no mood...................
haha..daes pass just like tt...todae many ppl birthdae...haha....happy birthdae to all haha... got sharon..my younger bro..kelvin...alfred..haah......but all away or not tt close ..haha...no persent for u all cause i am broke ...lolZ....dunno wat is lacking in my life...i getting bored and bored...dun feel like toking anymore.....haiz....dunno why.....nvm...
back from malaysia..sorry for those tt find me...sorry...go back also nth to do..haha..come back also....haha..all ppl working liao...or going aboard...haiz..think i am going to be bored le...haiz..nth to worite...byeZ
boring dae...practice and practice...haiz...bored...injury my right little finger tt dae during bb trainning then dunno how i slash my finger it got blood..haha...small cut onli la..haha... todae is my pfm liao...haha...useless one ba..hhaaha... i onli got 2 songs other then the encore ba...not cfm..haha...bored...need to go early... to practice abit more on my own..haha...last pfm le....for sy...haha..good luck...lolZ...not for myself.....haha..to others...=PPPPPppp...nth to write .....bored.... long time....haiz..nvm..forget wat i wan to write le.....me become assitant coach for jerffery tt team..haha...so nice can be coach..haha....go rest awhile then going out to pfm soon...byeZ...
just got back...tired....too long nv go gym liao....hands damn tired....legs too..now bady very stiff...haven cold down fromthe excerise...haha..tired....nth much haha..now alone at hm...wa...damn sianz......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..bored...
haha...ytd go watch chicken little..haha...boring la...really....=X...the show ok la...but too short loh... i just wake up not long....haha....ytd after watching chicken little with them i went to play frendly and trainning...until 10....tired..now whole body very tired lei....wth..haiz....muscles in pain..haha...nvm...like tt go down the road i am going to slim down..wahahahah..kidding la...where got so easy????haha... ok la...me going to meet rhino to go gym..he crazy ytd trainning liao todae go gym wth...wan me to die????haiz..nvm...cause maybe need to work at his place there...haha....hard labour...haha.....ok la me nth to write also..haha...miss her..hee...byeZ..
haiz..boring..miss her lots....but can do nth....

ok another boring daes of mine is going to past..dae by dae....my life rots...haha...ytd nv slp at all..rot and rot...then todae morning go cc de co...then shuinan and ger nv go...haha..i go there rot..forget to bring my scores then photocopy machine spoiled..then i become no scores..then i go to help daryl...bored...take out bass then nv touch...haha..then go luch with ai lian and others...haha..then come back rot... nothing much to write..cause i nth to do except to miss her.. llok at her photo and nth more...
haiz...boring life...haha..really bored...headach continues...life seem so bored at times.... and so times u wan times to past fast and some u wished the time could just stop...haiz...human ar human...always like tt.... thinking is just not rite when it is time..is just after tt then ur thinking come back...wth man...human most powerful animal in the world..so???? happy animal?? i dun agree...we may life gd bbut dun u think simple life like sniamls will be much better???? i am not toking abt working or studying.....is the thinkings of human changes as we grow by generration.. u knows...human thinks differently at diff ages.... this is so complaited tt we can get the hell answer out ourselves...oh man...u may thinks tt i am toking rubbish but u thinks... thinks abt the sad things tt happen to u.... wat is the source???? do u have fault??? or not??? u may tthinks not...but if u are not at fault....then how would it happen on u.. u say heaven or even god is making fun of u...but why dun u be yourself and dun be control by heaven or god??? be yourself tt wat makes ur life not god or heaven... u got to make ur own path out.... heaven or gods is good enough to send in many diff types of ppl into ur path....not to harm u...but to make u learn something good or bad. u learned...ok..i dunno wat happen to me...i just suddenly thinks of this when i see someone so sianz so boed and maybe sad...dunno..i know myself tt i am not feeling gd when someone around me is like tt...i may be fan at times..but i am thinking on u sides not on mine...ok...things can be told out...not to be kept...sercets are nth...someone know...so let it out..dun keep in yourself pls...haiz...enough..i feeling down too now...
haiz...another boring dae of mine past... no job avalible for me..haiz....no money= no play=no outings...haiz...boring..... todae went to play pool with shuinannth to do ba..haha..then pool i win 5:0 then 9-Balss 5:3..haha..bored la..dunno why...cannot concentrate in playing pool also..all tyco win him one..by 1 ball or just black ball...haiz...boring daes...seem so long...haiz....then after tt he went hm at abt 6...he cannot late go hm one de ma..his mom will scolded him....i understand..last time i am like this or worst then this....then now after exam...alot better just say when i am and i can go out....then i went to my house downstair de bb court...got ppl play..but i dun wan play team...leg pain come back le..haiz..then shoot shoot onli...then they play full court for trainning..then i become the tatics planner for them wth...waste my time onli...haiz...then come jeffery my vice-captain in my primary sch bb team..haha long time ago..he live just above me..haha...but he went to army le...haha...then now oc le...every week can come out..haha.. he ar...funny loh....but nv studies one..haha...but bb very pro....remember last time we train together so happy...haha...everydae together...haha...basketball is not to be play rough and not meant to be always winning... i may be pro or not...but when i play serious i very bad by myself while others say pro...but i long long time nv play serious...i think tt basketball is a very fun game where many joys and laughter comes.....good ma..play play onli... haha..thinks of my primary sch bb life is so fun everydae bb..haha..so lame...now?? cannot le...old le...play liao here pain there pain..haiz....old le la...haha...then i play until very late dad call from hm... i say at my house below de bb court... he belived but he say i am with those smking frenz....i can say nth....some of them are smking but i am not smking with them... they are human too...can tok one rite??? we speak human laugues and we play bb together..so???? wth...... to everyone... I HAVE QUIT SMOKING OK!!!!!!!!!!UNDERSTAND......haiz...nvm i know i have been i have been very bad...haha...nvm la...let him scolded ba..no comment whu tell he is my dad....haiz... blame myself for being naughty not others...haha...ok enough.... tml is going to be another boring daes for me....pls someone ask me out man...i dun wan to rot...anywhere anytime..pls just ask me...i dunno whu to go to..haiz.......ok it is late i going to be infront of the tv and rot le...i can't slp...byeZ
haiz...just wake up...dunno why slp so long... cannot fall aslp one..but eyes very de tired so closed eyes and ly there..haha..until now.....haha...boring day ytd....actually got go out one...then all throw me away... one cannot go out.....then the other say no need ma fa me to go out..haha..then rot all day at hm...damn bored man...i am going to go out todae...lolZ..but dunno where and with whu...maybe i am not liked by ppl ba...haha...go out myself ba...since i am a loner...boring...nth much happen..just tt i am rotting at hm or somewhere nearby all by myself....byeZ...
hee....alot better...no more fever liao...hee...but there is still headach every now and then...haha...ytd no time to update....haha...cause go syco....morning meeting shuinan at jp he say 7.30....but come at 8..wth....then meet james at mrt station..think he also kena trick by shuinan cause his face not rite...haha....then i no cello use...cause ji wan me to use jasmine one..but she nv bring hm..so morning de practice..i just sit there and rot....haha...listen to the music...nice ok.... must come for the pfm....haha....all tohugh i onli got 2 songs..haha..no group solo...haha..cause i got exam....then afternoon both of us...rot ar.....need to wait until 6++= then exam time...wth...then we sit infont of sch de kopitiam sit and la kopi..lolZ...rot ar...haha..then go in saff louge sit..cause got air con..haha...nth to do...sit for damn long atleast 4 hrs.....then 6++ take out cello and practice..haha...say practice but play 5 mins...walk 20 mins..haha....then got 3 other cello ppl whom i dun know caome and take the exam..haha....1 gal and 2 boys.....haha..werid ppl...haha...then 3 of them is not good....ji lao shi tell me one..haha...he say the gal abit better..but no basics..haha..so lame.....got her own cello...so nice..i wan also dun have..=(....mom dun wan buy for me..haiz.....ok then audrey xuan wei shuinan there practice like playing like tt..haha... i keep joking over there cause can see they are very nervous..haha..so i joke and joke...haha..then my turn le...but hor...my exam time write 6.35 le..but i go in at 7.45...wth....haha....then i go in and play....dunno why see the teachers my hands start to sweat..haha...lame ba...then keep playing wrong...then ji lao shi say.... dun nervous la...haha..then i try loh...then play finished the song...haha..short short onli...i know i play until very lousy..haha...think i either going to be out or i will in bass...haha...the teacher other then ji lao shi wan me to go bass ba...then shuinan..haha..he no need to say one cfm in one....his bass skill is so gd...unlike me....like shit...haha...then we went hm....i went to return perice her cello..haha...then went hm...when i on bus it started to rain....then i sit at bus stop...then ji lao shi call me..haha... come and nag at me loh..haha...dun tell u all wat he nag...come ask me la...haha..=P.....then wait le very long..then nvm walk in the rain..haha..long long nv walk in rain liao...hhaa...then reached hm...ji call me again..haha...lame....nag again...haha...then go bath.....haha..then nth le loh......later i am going out le...haha....byeZ....YEAH I AM GOING OUT!!!!!!
aloha....haha..nth to do...ytd have very sweet dreams..hee....but wake up my sick get worst.... my head spinning and pain...fever higher..cause i get colder.....wth...now gastric pain also...wth...pain...my heart pain just now also....i am going to die liao..haiz..idiot body..useless one... dunno wan for wat..haiz....

hee...ytd actually cannot slp one...then take out the jacket tt got her smell hee...love her smell..so nice...hee.... i realise just by looking at her i am very happy liao...during camp..i gto the keys so i can't slp need to patrol..hee...eyes very tired..but when i look at her slping i felt a feeling so nice..haha...she seem damn sweet when slping..damn nice..how i wished she were to slp beside me everyday and let me look after her....i will be damn happy..haha..know this is my own thinking hee... hee.... really i dun mind whether she is going to be mine or not...frenz is also gd... i just wished she is happy and live her life properly...nth more...i dun wished to be her most important person or wat....but need help can find me...hee...the gift tt i gif her is not for her to remember me but just a gift to remember this past..hee.. can throw away also nvm as long as i remember this...hee...thanks her for giving me this very nice and good menories in this very sch and this part of my very life..hee..thanks....

sorry..i am really sick ca't tok more....sorry...but i can't slp.....sorry..byeZ...pain..somemore alone at home....nth to eat or do...wth...byez
yoZ!!!...long time nv come to tyhis blog le...O lvl finished le...co caomp finished le..coming to syco exam le..tuesday...sch daes over..haha..time files..when u dun realise...haiz...haha..times files..but i am happy with it..haha...frenZ gone..times files..haha...going to be sianz...haha...o lvl seem diff..but pass le..haha..no money..cause no job...haha...
three daes two night camp in sch.... co camp..haha...fun...haha...many ppl sick... haha..then all complain here and there..haha...but ok la... can see teachers working very hard..me need to take keys so nv slp..haha..but aleast i make ppl slp..haha..especially someone..haha...shuinan get sick ther..haha..so i let him slp ba..haha..then i wake up all the time to check on those ppl..haha.. then morning i nned to help them prepared things...then practices also...haha...nvm la...i not complaining...cause is i wan de..hee....ok la..me now having fever liao...byeZ..
my bro is rite.... my father hope had become sad over the years and now to angry to me..haha..i understanding just like me getting worse and worse each year....he scoded me ytd..late homw money spender....he is going to cut my money again ba..i think...hee...think i am going to a road of depress.....i finally understand wat he hope for in me..but it is too late le...me have just killed myself..with no furture liao...my 2 most important for my ME course in poly is not going to do well...where am i going??? dover??? Bukit batok???lolZ..or even not studying anymore go out to work??? as sweeper???rubbish collecter???dish washer???lolZ...whu know???
I just know tt i am going down a dead road..now i reached the end.... i am just like murder whu had killed myself and running away..now came to a dead end of the road....i had no place to go....no way of my choice...i am sad...really sad...tears dropped...haiz...i am rally sad...going to be in depression liao...even though todae is the last o lvl paper..i dunno wat to say...simply i am sad...ytd i am unable to slp....i cried...not because of others...but for myself...why do i killed myself leaving no heart beat at all....i am lazy,like to play, do bad things,etc...all this cause my life...i dunno...confused..sad..depress now really...haiZ..I know tt i am going to be dead....think is a very gd new to all of u...i know i have been fan and always disturb u all....i am sorry..i will br gone for soon...and u all will not be able to find me to disturd u again.....i doubt ppl will care abot me...if there is tell me and i will sincerly say sorry to u..really...byeZ...-={[DePrEsSIoN]}=-
haiz..bored...wth....bored...no place to go...no ppl accompany me....i am a loner liao..wth..i dun wan...haiz...ytd really nth to do..whole dae in front of the stupid tv then at nite study my D&T..to quite late ba..haiz..todae got exam at 2....wth...why at 2...somemore is 2hrs and 30 mins..wtf..haiz..felling no gd.....dunno la..fan ar...........................................................................
hiaz...boring lei....message shuinan also nv reply me de...wth....bored..without his touch i also rotting at hm...lolZ....bored le.....ytd pfm...bored also..haha...but relaxed la...ok ba...i found out i got 2 sticky glue..haha..some of u wouldn't know one...haha...ytd pfm break i go opps playground sit..haha...bored....nth much ba....haha....then todae dun have co..haha..long long time nv eat with parents on this so call family dae..hhaha..then eat until i so full...then not at hm rot..wat is this family dae for??? haha..nth loh....bored...bored...i also nth to do....watch my tv until fall aslp just now....haha..rotting in process....ya.... i ytd slp damn early about 12++ to 1...cause promise ppl tt i will slp early....haha..then todae slp until 11.30 then is wake up by my mom one..haha..so long nv slp for this long liao..haha...i also cannot use com for long cause my bro wan to play the maple then i also nth to do..haiz..bored...bored bored bored.....ok la i go back to rot infront of my tv liao..byeZ
hee...just reached hm from mac...haha...alone sitting down there..morning go sch de co then go cc put my cello for tonite pfm...then come back hm bath..then go mac...they change meeting time nv tell me..haha..nvm la....then now back le...boring..just now rushed like wat..then they change time..lolZ..haha..nvm...nth much le ba..haha...byEz
just got home....mom ask my faster come hm then she not at hm wth....haha..todae fun dae ba... morning shuinan come my house type his time table..haha...then want to go eat liao..then geraldine message me ask me to accompany her go eat...then we went to meet her...then go her old house there eat....but i nv eat..lolZ..dunno why waited until full..lolZ..then go play pool... come joh and fan..haha...shuinan very lucky todae..keep winning and i am very the suay kena slap beat hit...haha...then pool also keep losing...then otw hm..i was helping shuinan to clean his shirt got chalk then he turn thought i was hitting him he hit me..i shocked then shouted out.... then geraldine shocked by my voice ba...suddenly so loud..she also nv listen to my really loud before..haha..so guilty now..sorry sorry...i shouldn't have shouted..sorry...=(..hope u are ok ba..sorry...now at hm so boring.....haiz..dunno why???.....tml need go sch de co..tml got pfm...then cello de scores i haven even read..wth...


there are many treats and tricks in this world...there is a reason why all this things come..hee
just come up to my com from my bed..ytd nv slp at all..cause my my stupid stomach or gastric..pain ok..now still in pain..i dun think i will be able to walk out of my house a step..it is pain..really pain...wtf man....ar......................................................................................................... O lvl going to finished..happy and sad...happy cause no sch no books no nagging....free from parents..able to go out in the nite......really onli this is my happiness..... my sad lot more....frenz gone....ppl gone...they not free.....how to meet them??? happyiness in sch gone....this is human thinking...when u have it...u just let it be...then when u are going or they are gone...u will feel the world is putting u into prison.....haiz....lot more sad think....wth man...shuinan come my house liao..i let him do his things liao...bye...
yoZ just back hm...no ppl at hm....going to be alone..hate the feeling of alone...wth....todae...morning wake up..nth to do..lolz....meet shuinan for breadfast one then become combine of breadfast and lunch..haha...cause i went to his house at abt 12..then he looked like just wake up like tt....hair standing like the cartoon dragon ball...haha.lame...then go his house there eat...cause no money to go jp eat....but after eating walk to jp also..lolZ..lame ba...see many ppl going to sch for poa exam....then there rot at the arcade..i am getting worse...too long nv go ply liao..now shuinan can win me liao....haha..nvm let him win ba...then abt 4.30 went to colour court...then lent ball shoot...haha..shuinan bb still lose to me...he still dare say no gal ma..no need to play like pro...haha...lame ba...then abt 5 liao...saw yong cai and gao wen...they finished f&n test liao...haha..then i and shuinan walk to his house...see no ppl..lolZ....then i lost my dog..dunno go where liao....=(((((..sad lei.....then walk back hm....haha..then nth le...now rotting in process..nth to do..no game to play also..haiz...
hi...long time nv write le.....hee...dunno wat to write also...hee... felling sleepy..haha...just wake up..hands tired from ytd de syco practice...i practice alone le....in the staff louge..haha...now i know which teacher is lazy and everytime go to the staff louge to rest....i was late for the practice..haha...not because of tt then i practice there one..hee..is because i nv pfm the fantasy song in the dec pfm....i got o lvl ma..so long time nv go then nv practice with them then i tell ji lao shi i dun wan to pfm tt song..he did ask me to pfm for the song before..hhaa...cause i lazy ba..SYCO exam is on the 29 nov lei..very fast...me haven really perfect the song...haiz......legs also tired....ytd run&walk the same place for abt 1hrs++..haha..finding things ma.....haha.....ytd walk hm with shuinan cause i need to return his sister the cello...then chat loh...dunno wat happen to him...i can't belive he say he dun wan to chio the gal he liked liao...haiz..he is giving up...i have nth to say....help him think of so much things he dun wan liao...maybe he is just notthose going to be "waiting " de guy ba.....nvm he is handsome ma..haha..mature in so ways...haha...i watch the just like heaven le.....haha...not bad...got laugh one got cry one..but not sad la...is too happy for them until cry..haha..but me???how to cry????lolZ.....later also dunno wan to do wat????borign....anyone will find me put????=XXXX....mr left 2 more paper and is end of bks life..haha....i realise shuinan is a lousy planner..and a lazy bum..haha..ytd in sch help him plan the time-table for co camp..then become all i say out one..he just stand there and write...haha....nth much le ba...dunno wat to write..sorry..byeZ..
boring ok.....damn bored....dunno wat.....haha...todae wake up by my phone..not cause it ring..it is because it droped..u know it dropped..then a sudden wake me up...it felt like my wife fell off my bed....i quickly pick it up...haha...heart pain even though it is an old phone....haha..but got mermoies inside..hee....then go cc de co....shuinan got go ok...haha...cause ger ask him go ba...not like me.. ask him go he will not move abit....haha...nvm he is a guy after all...lolZ....then after tt i make my scores for cello bass and for james he coming to perform next wk..haha..happy...we are back!!! the three of us..long time le..since i nv go for syco...three of us nv chat much...haha...gd frenz...to me is also a bro..everyone is a bro..=X...haha..then almost forget to eat my lunch...she reminded me...haha..or i dun tihnk i will remember....lame ba...then walk hm...buy newspaper...come back sit on sofa all the way to just now...haha...butt pain ok....boring life of mine...actually though shuinan rarely come can take bus with him..but he got ai lian de car ma...hee....so nvm..hee....dunno..laft geo d&t and sc paper 1 onli...just 3 more and i am free...still got to work le....or i have no money......boring life....
boring at hm...sianz like hell....play game...haiz...today wake up go co with shuinan..haha...mr ji shocked to see me..haha.....nv practice cello for a long time..then gif him say...haha..very lame..nth much le...haha..dunno la...still feeling not gd....shunan is gd..he keep making me laugh..haha...gd bro of mine....unlike the real one....



to the idiots whu fuck on my tag booard...so wat????say care abt me....go off....u make harm to me...tell dad....ask me to save money????he already cut my money by 50% liao...ask me save???? haha..all thanks to u..thanks you ar.....yaya..i am a liar u can say tt....so??? ask around...i haven been smoking for how long??? fucker...ya...maybe u say stress dun need snk one rite?? so wat? i liked...as if u nv try before....just one thing dun like dun come see my blog..i am not going to tell anything to u....stop toking the stupid u....get the hell off..i am feeling gd...
haiz...sianz.......................................................................................................sway ba.................todae english paper 1...i dunno wat the hell am i writing then i know i really going to failed english laio...stresss....then go smk before paper 2 start.........the paper also sux....sux to core man...i can't belive it.........................then kena caught cause the smell too strong ba...................nvm kena tok cock at onli.....from his toking i know he dun wished to caught me de.... he is care for other student.....from his toking...he say the smell may be discomfort to others.....from his voice...reallly a gd teacher.... really i am touched...by his ths concern....really...thanks you teacher...i am not kow ur name but ur face is in my mind..............thanks......but sorry...i think i will failed my "o"lvl liao............sorry to those whu put in effort in helping me...thanks....those whu put hope on me..i am sorry...scold me if u wan...but i am sad enough....sorry.........................................................................................................
yoZ...just finished studying my SS...haha...tml test le...devil is on the way to lead me to hell..lolZ...YEAH..todae is the 100th dae of waiting..haha..nth much ba...haha...cannot use long..next time free then tell u all something else ba...take care..and last to all "o" lvl one..GOOD LUCK AND DO UR BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ChEeRS.............
just woke up....dunno why nowadays i keep slping late....just read someone blog...quite sad..cause the person have so family relative problems...then i put myself into her shoe..it is diff to cope..really...without greeting relative...as for me i do have...but onli 1 treat me really gd..other then tt still ok... cause all they know i was one a really naught kid from young... from young forunte telling told my parents tt i am an unlucky star.. u keep him u either will go poor or he will be damn naught.... it come out both liao...i have done alot of things illegal and unable to face my parents even my bros... two of my bro are all better then me other then temper...all thry more handsome then me studies no need to say is like heaven and hell...then they are very gd to my parents...gd loh..haha not like me...everyday kena scolded by them...haha..then the poor thing also coming through le...haiz dun tok abt it liao..haha..tok abt my life liao...hee... nth much..just think of tt dae go mac study with them then see a very cute little boy celebrating his birthday there but his mum look away like it is none of her business..then keyln say so pitiful..haha..it is truth..the boy will feel very sad caused it happen to me..but at least he is better then me aleast his dad help him..but me??? none..i celebra on my own or..no celebra at all..haha..ok stop this sad thigns..haha...i am scared of books now....haiz..keep studying....haha..
haha..know it's not early and it is too late....haha..i always call ppl to slp early and i am always the last to slp or even not slping..am i selfish??..haha..think i am really sick le..whole body no force..haiz...morning woke up at 10..very late then go pay town council de money..then go hm... headache in the morning..then meet shuinan to eat lunch cause i dun wan eat alone....then he need to go co....i walk to jp..walk walk awhile..really awhile..not even 20 mins...walk one round then take bus hm le..cause become dizzy le....haiz..useless body...then at hm sit there then heart become to pain...WTf man..all come in one dae....then no energy to move..sit there..then mum call..ask me to cook... haiz..bo bian got to cook...cook half way dad come back...he nv like me cooking so he cook..then i go rest le....nv eat dinner...lolz...sick ma..then call shuinan chat abt crap..lolz...lame loh...he all brain is her her and her...haha...then help him think of ideas to woo the gal...i gif alot lei..i also dunno come from where de ideas..they just floated to my brain..haha.. then shuinan ask me why i nv use all these ideas before..i say dunno..haha..gif u use ma..u my bro..ahaha...then nth much le..look at the com..the com look at me....haha....
yoz!!!! just finished cutting my finger nail..ahah..very boring lazy to srudy...haha..fourth time bloging todae...lolz...haha..just now i cook dinner with my mum..but my mum just sit there and eat her orange and nag and nag at me....while i was so hardworking to cook for her...haiz...somemore not enough rice....wan me go down buy..but i lazy..=X.. haha..then add the unpolised rice..not bad lei the taste..haha..she keep nagging at me... think finally she got time to be alone with me this naught son to dig the things inside of me ba...haha..but luckly she dig nth but crap..haha...i keep toking crap with her...haha..then she go nag and nag...haha...say i dunno why seem happier at once and sadder and once..haha..then i tell her i study until crazy liao..haha..then she wack me..then i add too much salt to the veg..then salty..haha..then my dad fish back liao first mouth eat the veg then he ask my mum why so salty..haha..then i say dunno..my mum keep quiet..haha..lame ba.....todae listen to waiting for u and lonely until i can sing the whole song liao la...haha...bored...everyone sleep early pls..haha
wanted to rest but...dunno why just cannot go to slp...haiz....missing her ....really..haha..sorry i come here cause i got noth to do le...really miss her..onli 1 dae u know...haiz...dunno how....... how am i going to lgo on after exam??? haiz...how?...i am dead man.....i have no exp in missing a gal so much...maybe last time de relationship is i am still young and useless ba...play with ppl..haiz...regret now tt i play with her.....sorry..lolz..i am crazy come here write this...lolz..haha.. boring ba...miss her lot...ar.... when ever i look at a blank space her face come to my image...looking at her photo..haha..lame ba...haha.. maybr this is heaven telling me tt i can't live without frenz..lolz...life like this really sux man...think i later going to mac to study myself ba..cause i cannot study at hm de...dunno why....shuinan painting his house so gd...how i wished i could paint my house too...if i have a room of my own here i will paint her name big big there..haha..boring ba...byeZ
ARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALONE AT HM.............DAMN SIANZ AR...........SICK LIAO AR............. THINK NV SLP BA....STUDY STUDY AND STUDY.............ALL CAN GO OUT....WAN FIND PPL ALL GO OUT.................DAMN SIANZ AR............NOW I SEE BOOKS AND PAPER I SCARED LIAO LA.................SIANZ LIKE HELL..NONO..THINK HELL IS BETTER THEN HERE.............SHUINAN WENT OUT...ALL OUT...WTF...SIANZ AR..........................I AM GOING TO BE CRAZY LE LA.............................................................................BORING AR............................................................SOMEONE PLS COME...........I AM CRAZY.....................................................BOOK ARE FREAK.............. PAIN PAIN PAIN..............
YaWnZ..just woke up...haha...tired lei..dunno why..haha..todae is festival of light..haha...wished ppl celebrating it will be damn happy.....lolZ..dunno come here write wat...so early in the morning brain is empty....okok...let tok abt shuinan..haha..this bro of mine is 16 this year...tall like hell..look like skinny but no la...haha...he finished his "n"lvl le...think he can do it de..cause his studies not bad de...haha..he now working at marriot where i havd been working..haha...now he no time to accompany me le...told u all liao...once work = no time...me will be worst then him alot..cause i captain liao...more work then him..he is just at the bar...can change shift..i almost need to work everydae 10a.m to nite 11.30p.m or with O.T to 3.30a.m..so..hiaz..dunno how... i will got no time for anybody...just like the song LoNely...lolz...so bored...ytd chinese paper...see they all say the paper quite easy..but i see all chinese paper the same de..lolZ..still can do ba..NV SLEEP DURING BOTH PAPER LEI..lolz...last time chinese paper i comfirm will fall asleep de..haha...then after tt go watch movie..watch the andy lau one..all rite la...not really gd...not much emotions...=X..but quite sad la..if tt happen to me...i dunno how...haiz..haha...then go hm rot loh.....haiz....ok la...i go wash up then look at my books le....byEz
hee...very stressed for the coming exam..monday is chinese le....my worst subject of all times...i remember the last time i get a for mother eongue is pri 2 ba..haha...then all the way drop and drop..haha...dunno how to study for mother tongue....haha..but need to study...acctually i dun intend to study liao de..cause... i know will be the same de...c6..haha..but she ask me to study or dun tok to her....=X..haha so study ba...since it means no harm...haha...friday go sch get award..haha..a little badge..for cca..dunno wat..then mr bong in front of whole sch gif some of the taf ppl a prize cause cut down over 5 kg...i cut down 8kg so i got something too..haha..it is a skipping rope..dunno for wat..hhaha..then after tt....went hm..nth to do...then went to play pool... hand pain still can play pool rite..not bad har...=X..haha..all rite la..cause play with shuinan onli not need like play with jerome they all need skill... shuinan one u ujse thinking can win him de...but lastly we have the score of 5:5....haha..i lose 5 match and win 5...but i think he onli win once or twice cause other is i in black ball..haha...then after tt go hm...cook le...but my mum say my things not good to eat...then i accompany her to go down...but she eat i see onli...haha..then sat meet shuinan at 1.30 we go jp walk walk cause actually wan to meet people when their class finished..but they with their teacher went to eat..so we dun disturb haha..i buy le the "f"amous choc cake for someone but nv meet haha...then shuinan ask me buy for whu de...then i say foe myself can?..then he say i dun belive..so i take out and eat down all the cake....haha...since i haven eat..haha..then send shuinan hm..then i slowly walk hm..since i really got nth to do...then i go cut my hair..now i very shory le..no tail...nothing..damn short..wan put also cannot..haha..then at nite study mother tongue...study to 2.00a.m..haha...think first time i can study chinese for so long...haha...ok le..i need to go for cc de co soon...somemore i haven wash up..=X..hee..byEzz..
hi..abt to go to slp.....come here tok tok awhile...very diffcult to type cause my right hand abit burnt..then mum wrap my hand with tape...so uncomfortable...haiz....dunno why..."her" had been playing cold war with me...no tok...sms little like none...bye bye ,hello also dun have...haiz..nth i can do.....sorry...me dun understand...i am not angry..but just confused..why u gif me cold shoulder???did i make u angry? did i do anything wrong?...u just tell me...i will and can change...sorry if there is sa need...but dun gif my cold shoulder can??? cold war is too tough for me from u...it hurts me...but u think like this is better..then ok...can tell me...dun wan to see me? tell me too....i will not appear infront of u....anything just tell me...todae is another boring dae..morning eat wat breakfast at jurong west..thne go jp play wat arcade..with shuinan..then he go sch meeting then i waited outside for him..then i ask him go mac study with me...he come..then "her" sms me tt they will be studying at BL mac too..ask me wan come anot..dun wan FORGET IT!!!..u know how much it hurts to see this sms...haiz...she come le...with her frenz..very happy...but i and her no commcaition..gtg cause need to go hm cook dinner..think she will not understand one..cause i go at 7...they still staying...not even a bye from her... me go hm le... reasiled tt my hand is too pain to hold the cooking pots...so i went down to packet for my family..still kena scolded by them say y no cook onli know how to go out play...haiz....they dun understand me too..haiz..i can do nth but gif them scold loh...haha..ok la..i tml still need to go sch...i go slp le..ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZZzzzZzzZZZZZ
haiz....boring dae of my life...just finished dinner but onli drink water cause no mood...todae morning wake up at 7.30 cause shuinan call me...he nth to do...haha...then actually he wan to go k-box...but i no mood..haiz....cause nv get to see her todae..no message also..i nv message her cause think she busy ba...so dun wan disturb her...haiz...no mood to do anything...then go areana play pool but i anyhow play...there no ppl...then onli 2 of us....then i win 10:01..lolz..anyhow play also can...haiz...then go jp..he go see wat phone he going to buy...but ii fan him like hell...then rain veru huge..take 240 one round..he gif me fan until wan to siao liao...then i take 99 with him one round..fan him again..cause he is my bro ma....my two others bro going to be not free le...alfred and xiao xiong...alfred is begin called by his father in USA to go back..he wouldn't be able to find me until next year jan..haiz...but still wished him gd luck in his business..then xiao xiong is going back to malaysia also cause of father business..haiz...still wished him lauck la.....Bros workhard..we will meet together one dae and chat abt all we wan....Go Go Go!!

ok,now is my things le....my now having "o" lvl....trying very hard to study but always thinks of her..happy tihnking of her...wander wat she is doing? whether is she fine...images of her smiling flow through my brain..haha..so happy... but i dun have time for her le...me dunno how..after "o"lvl i got to go SYCO,Work....haiz..then if she really work at her sister there then even worse..she work morning to evening then me from evening to midnite...Wa....HOW????? HEAVEN....pls..help me...teach me how....but she work also good ba...but the boss cannot bully her or i go kill him/her..=X.....me going back to my marriot hotel to work...shuinan working at there le....me after exam then go work...haiz...then need to go syco and co practices cause syco got pfm during dec..dunno she will go anot..haiz..nvm ba..since i at there also onli extra there..i so lousy..haiz...REALLY NO TIME LE..=(..i am going to cry...whenever i think of this qns...images comes out and tears cover my eyes...but i nv let them dropped cause i always think there is going to be a solution for everthing in this world..ok...i try to think of something ba...maybe change job or wat ba..haiz...dunno how..if u know pls tell me...and Heaven dun paly with me anymore ok...i have told u many things..and u have played with me alot of times...but this time pls...let it be ok....let her come to me can?..maybe no...but let let her smile more and laugh more...i really make my hearts bleed when i see her face sianz or sad or angry..pls...let her have the beautiful smile on her cute face..really damn beautiful and cute when she smile and laughs.....thanls heaven if u really help me..thanks...tml think she also not ffree..haha..lonely again ba..lolX....headache le..byeZ..
yoZ....boring at hm..haha...no need to go sch loh...haha..cause self-study le..haha...nthing to do...no ppl ask me to go out...haiz...nth to do damn boring..boring boring borging..BORING....
haha..just watch finished show at hm... very touching how i wished i could be like them...so happy togather..haha..sorry...this few daes nv update...no chance to use com...really...father at hm will nag at me..need to study..haiz....finished finished the notebook..haha..dunno she can read my words anot....not cfm ba..haha...let me think..tuesday nv go sch cause i need to go hospital for check up....haha...doc say better alot le..haha..dunno la...ask me to take care..then say look after me so many years le know tt i will not listen de..haha.... then wed..nv go sch again..cause is all science...sianz ma...cause thursdae is science practical...haha...thurdaes practical loh...ok la..but dunno i got write wrong anot..haha...then is keyln birthdae..go arena...but i go until 8 i go hm..cause my dad dun let me go out..then i take cab hm...luckily he haven reached hm..or i die again..haiz....then friday wan go sch de...but when i wake up got headach..then take bus to sch...it got worse..then meet shuinan gif him cd..then i go hm rest le...very pain..haiz....maybe cause wed finished the notebk at 3++ then late slp ba....cause have been staying up late to finshed the notebk fast for her to study...cause not much time le...she wan to pass onli can depend on her le...hope she will use the notebk ba...then nite go mac study with geraldine,kelyn and hwee qi... go hm at 10...see my dad face black black haha.... then shuinan sms sometihng very big..he told me tt he begin to like a gal... can see this is real..cause he tok abt it all the time...gd luck to him ba..=)..dun be like me can le...=X..then sat...which is todae..nono is ytd..haha..morning dunno why slp like pig intil geraldine message me say i gif the t-shirt ti mdn peng le ma..haha..then faster wash up then do the design..is touch up ba..cause i saved in my com one gone...die she see le will kill me...then after tt go mac study...after tt shuinan come my house.... we go eat at jurong west st?? dunno...near hong kah north cc there...we drink beer cause really no happy abt something..haha..drink a little onli then both act drunk..haha..lame like hell but chat alot..he told me something i dun belive....but he have no adantage to lie me abt tt...so..maybe it is truth..dunno..haiz....smk alot also... haha..then go back my house..he fell aslp on my bad..haha..then i watch tv... wake him up at 12.30..haha...then together watch tv..then 1.30 we walk hm together..i mean walk to his house...chat and chat..haha...bro ma...guy tok mostly abt gals la ok...haha...sad also....lolz...then walked back hm myself...raining somemore...haha..then come back cannot fall asleep cause shuinan tell me tt thing....can't belive it..haiz...then watch tv until now....haha..ok la i think i go watch tv until i slp...somemore tml still need to wake up for cc co haha....i wan go de...but shuinan not going he got to work..haiz...alone there...haiz...ok byeZ...
yoz...back to life...dead for a moment...lolz.....nth la...cause i got nothing to up ma...haha...let c....sat i went out....with ger and shuinan....go pool...haha..play 6hrs+... $35.80.....haha..i treat them play..also dunno why.......haha..nvm they both my really gd frenz..really really gd..think more then frenz...more like my family members le....really love them...haha...then shuinan fever come my house..say wan to slp but nv slp..come my house eat and play...haha...then at around 1 i walk with him to his house..haha....fun cause walk until half go vending machine buy things like free..haha...then i keep saying wrong things then keep laughing..ppl see thought we crazy...haha..buddy forever..haha..then i walk hm...nth to do ba....walk and think of my own tghings...count the daes waited for her....haha...still short la....others wait for 3 yrs le..me going to 3 months onli....haha..then my exam...my furture...after exam....how to keep contact with all...5 yrs passes really damn fast...primary school my be fun but secondary is the best...all my mermoies are here in BOON LAY SEC gd or bad..i love all...here is where i found out whu i really love and wat love is....really..and hardworking...gd frenz.....all fun...




ok now is story time...............haha
there was a boy whu had a tude in his heart crack where blood keep flowing out.....sometime it is really pain can feel...he knew it when he is in pri 1..he cried for a wk...u may think that he is really young dunno how it feel...he had to keep skipping sch for hospital....he had no frenz..he is like a monster in class.even teachers dun like to be close with him...he started to grow on his very own.....he doesn't wan his parents to have the angry or u all called sad face to gif me..why he can nv do his things rite...not study..no playing..all no.... in his pri 2 he start to be strong...hid everything inside him even the very pain he dun show out a bit...he just smile with all..=)...he started to onli go hospital during off sch hrs and when he really needs it...he started to have more frenz in pri3...fast he know lots lots...but he kept it a sercet....really noones knows....he started to play basketball to try whether it will be in pain...lucky it is not really pain and he enjoy it..he started playinh and pri4 he join the sch team..really gd....keep playing and playing...2 yrs past... he slowly onli go to doc twice a years onli...however maybe the heaven dun like him..he got muscles tear and a really big one...he knew it is going to be pain but he had tried wat even more painful then this..he keep quiet and when to hpspital to stay for 6 months..he cannot move his legs at all..he had his psle in hospital...really it is no gd feeling at all...he lose his frenz.... he felt alrite..then he moves to sec 1..he didn't tell anyone abt his past..he become a normal people..he is happy like hell haha....really happy..go on with life...stop basketball le....cannot play told by doc... he is sad..but nv show...he kept it all...he try all others...he knew all most all sport...he start to know a special frenz when in sec2 become buddy in sec3 ...really gd..now he told his stories to him acause he know he is going to be long buddies...really...and he started to notice a gal during his sec 4..but he dun dare to say cause he had dropped to na from express..then go to sec 5 realise she also liked him..happy awhile but broke off cause she liked others...haha..then becomes really gd frenz..more than frenz ba....haha...told her some of his stories...not to make her pitil him but to encourage her...there is someone worst then her..haha..i am not going to tell u whu this person is but dun guess...he dun like it...thanks...hee
just got back not long from sch de gradu nite..not bad..see all my frenz all so high and happy..really gd... me not really used to this kind of things....the really sad things is tt i have a really bad headache..till now it still really hurtz ok... dizzy too...dunno why..haha...i am so ugly can... i nv wear business suit out unless really need... feel so uneasy..nth much ba..cause i sit outside for a very long time cause of the headach... then after tt take phot with my class de..haha.. then nth much ba... geraldine was sent hm by her parents..she is so angry..and pulled a long face..think she ok ba...cause she still know her parents is care for her one..not like mine..onli know how to take away my freedom..sux ok...dun understand me at all...haiz..dun tok about them...shuinan is so tired..he started working....haha..he seem more mature...haha...ok le me got nth much...head really pain..i go take medi le..byEZ
hi all...finally my com is back on use again..lolzz...too long vn write also dunno wan write wat...onli know now my head damn pain...headache everydae....dizzy also...dunno why..maybe dieing???...whu know....?lolzz all test ba and all this stupid classes teachers gif...damn stress... haiz...how to pass life.... i have lose my freedom le...kena scolded by father..then no freedom no money... he cut my pocket money by HALF..u know HALF...haiz...then eat away all my money... haiz..wat kind of father is this ...i dun even know... maybe he is not my father..=X..whu cares..haha..boring life of mine...still the same...haiz...nth inproved over the daes onli got worst.. my result is even worst... cannot let ppl see one.... not A n B.. all Cs then 1 D and 1F...wtf...F9 u know..all CH...dunno why cannot remember one...damn sucks....haiz..nth to write le... byEZ
sorry....i cannot blog for abt a week cause com hard disk crash...i use frenz com....sorry... somemore cough anf flu getting worst...sorry...sorry...byeZ
MOODLESS...............Dunno why so moodless todae.......damn sux........................dunno why...haiz...todae physics....i think quite easy ba....but i keep wanting to slp...so i bite my own hand to wake up.........then the mark is still there....haiz.. then go jp with they all.... they eat loh..cause i have no habbit to eat in the morining so nv eat....then see geraldinn headache..then suylfan vomit...lolzz...haiz now more and more ppl getting sick le...haiz...all must take good care... exam started...haiz..dunno how u all take o lvl...nvm me also...lolzz..nthing to update sorry...think lster go jp rot before going to study...ok...byeZ
hi all.....me just doing sometihng just now....now find time to blog le...soory lei...last few daes exam..now also la...but got study de ok....! just now got chem exam... i slp half way through my work..then mr bong come step on my leg....pain le...he think he skinny ar!!! haha jkjk..then go jp... thinking of eating but dun feel like cause everytime morning nv eat de..haha...then go frenz gal frenz de house.... cause they quarrel then i middle man loh... then i tok her something she shocked...she though i still have stead then she just now suddenly ask me 'i am jealous of u lei,choke, u still care so much for ur gal,then him lei? onli frenz" then i gif her bird face..she ask my why then i tok her.... she throw me away on 28 july le.... then she shocked..haha..see the face wan to laugh out loud...haha...she ask me then why u still care so much abt her things? i say dunno..u say my heart..lolzz..she then laugh..luckly after an hr of toking she realise that she is much better then me...maybe..haha..then got patch back with my frenz...haha... felt so jealous when see them together...haha..nvm..i am just waiting...cause i love her but she love others... it's ok...i will still be waiting...hahahahahaa...ok la not much...ya something... dunno i felt tt shuinan is changing alot...since he had been going out with 2 gal and 1 guy from his class..he changed alot... wan to tell him sometihng... just go for wat u wan anyhthing thing just find me..hee.....take care... ok la nthing much le............................................................



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wa..............help me......boring!!!!damn boring.....haiz...todae wake up late for cc de co..then faster wash up then go loh.....then not much ppl.... then see ger she tan until quite dark la..really..haha..then also red red..haha... not bad...lolz... then go eat after tt... me eat like eating alone like tt.....cause sit with ppl which like not toking my laugage...dunno wat topic to tok with them..haha..after tt...wan go cut hair de but many ppl....then go hm first loh....then rot...lolzz... then after tt abt 4.30 my small bro say he meet his frenz in jp..so i go with him out loh....print photo...so nice...hee...cause is "her" photo...sorry nv ask ur permission to print.....then go rot in arcade..complete my time crisis 2, and three counties... then play spul cailer 2..win ppl like hell cause too bored...with the win if 46 ppl... i am crazy..... then lose to one pro... crazy ba..wahaha..then walk walk loh...alone le...really damn bored.. then go back boon lay cut hair.... very ugly....nvm..i am always ugly...hee..then come back le...just reach hm not long... cook maggie mee..eating alone infront of the com..cause no ppl at hm...boring ba....wahaha...actually tonite wan to go out one..but shuinan not free...haiz..this is the borest year of atuman festival...lolzz...nv play with fire..not like last year..use fire make a heart for my frenz gal....damnn nice..but kena police scold..lolzz..but he and she damn gd now.... todae they going chinese to see those things....ask me go but dun wan to be light bulb..hee....alone loh...haiz...maybe burnt my own house..lolzz...hee...ok la boring like hell...i go play game....but it hink no game.. go window shopping ba...but no $$..haha..CyAz
yawnz..just woek up not long.....pig ba..haha...also nv slp much..though d&t finally finished can slp longer but no mood...haha...dunno why at the time i hand in my foilo, inside my mind is onli to msg her to tell her...lolz....lame ba...dunno why...nth much ba.... this few daes normal normal ba...better then my lonely life....exam also....haha...shuinan fininshed his perlim le.. then i just started...wtf... ytd go play pool loh... dunno why all miss skill...maybe i am really lousy....haha.. lousy le la...not like last time everytime go there play myself...then go nite studies...i think nv study one..haha... onli sometime...alone then study one..haha...nth much le ba..later then update ba...haha..to be continue........................
yoz....just reached hm not long ago...actually long le la...just fininshed eating my dinner haha...actually is small bro one...but he slping so i eat loh..lolz....but still pain..cause nv eat b4 eating medicine..wahaha..naughty ba..lolzz..todae nth much go sch...damn stress loh...haha...hand in d&t de thing...but i still got alot to do..this fridae is the last dae le....need to hand in to moe le...haiz...after sch go d&t rm do my artifact but until 3 onli cause mr foo not free...haha...he saw go meet his gal...dun wan tell us whu..ahhaa....then go with shuinan to arena..cause ger,qi they all there ma...then go down i poor he broke haha...after tt still got to borrow money from ger to pay...so pai seh...OMG...ahaha...nvm la...so close frenz le...haha...then go hm...my bro use the bathroom so long tt i amost felt asleep on the sofa....haha...but nv if not nv go for the nite class le....haha..after tt go to nite class..... quite boring actually cause i study my own they study their...felt so lonely...nvm la....i getting used to it...after tt walk to Pm with ger and surfan...ger meet her sis jes to eat...after tt surfan walk with me difference ways....hahha...then my bro come fethc me with my dad lorry..haha..cause it is time my mum off work too..hahaa.....ok la...me abt to go to rest le....ByeZ..
hi....i finallly find so time to blog...haha... busy and moodless the whole dae....cause todae no cc de co...so slp until very late 10....dunno why...maybr last few dae nv slp much ba....sick too... then wake up by father go down eat....eat alot todae...rice, roti prata, pinapple and a glass of grss jelly...haha...full like pig...somemore still eat ice-cream...so gd long time nv eat le... eventhough cannot eat cold de..=X...sorry sorry...then go hm rot rot.....boring like hell missing her but can onli look at her photo...lolzz..haha...this is the first time i even miss a gal like this...die liao...cause i know nothing gd will happen to this relationship..haha..nvm ba...let it be as it is....ok la then go brush my leather shoe....haha..shining le... sweat loh...gd feeling...then go down buy dinner...nth much le....OMG i forget to do my foilo...omg this the the stupid things i have been stressing for a very long time...tml got to fininshed to stick my whole artifact or i will fail my d&t..then my O lvl = gonE...haiz..stress like hell...no time... so sorry to anyone if going to find me after sch...me got to stay back in sch to finished my D&t cause foilo also need to hand in and i left alot more....damn it... i have been too lazy... the first 7 month of my life this yeear tis still ok..but just before my birddae 10 dae somthing really bad affect me....ahhaa...ok la...me got to rush my foilo le..sorry sorry....take care guys..and gd luck to alll having exam and...most important is to take really good care of ur health...ByeZ
still unable to slp after doing all those things below....arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....haiz...tml need to go to sch de co..then nite go pfm....haiz...STRESSSSS...HIAZ HAIZ................

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 83% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

hiaz...just smk finished...stress like hell...think of alot of things..abt study abt life and abt her..wat can i do? nth...just misses her damn lot onli can look at her pic and blog..and nth else....haha...think i will go back to my ols life le ba...go to happy go lucky life.... no mood everydae...sick le...todae cough and flu better but fever come and headache is worst like dunno wat.....just now go see doc cause of my leg..it still hurts okies.....pain like myself stepping on it..haiz...nth much ba but dun moodless.....haiz...dun care...exam coming...but dun care...now think of my d&t and her....nth else le...think i no chance le ba...lolzz....nono..is cfm no chance le...haha..just making myself more and more sad...angry with myself...she said will fan me will care abt me...dun i dun see any...nvm since she is tt busy..i sld keep away from her ba..haiz..stress and stress....how i wished i can just click deletle button in my brain and forget abt her.... but it simply write error not able to dele....haiz..sad like hell...cannot get to slp... like tt how to study?....fuking off....i go watch tv le la...stress..think todae unable to slp le..nvm i dun tihnk anyone will care or come to see this blog......byEz..SuXers
hiaz.....sick like hell...ytd finishsd writing blog...then see whether got ever anot then is 38.3...high...but still go to d&t...cause need to do...but i haven fininshed...my classmates see my like so stress there all come ask me..haha....but i is sick but also stress la.... think whole class i am the last one...haven come out with the look of the whole artifact....haiz...problems here and there......haiz...wan to cry le la....if crying help and if onli i can.......all sickness is still here but i am not going to gif in to it...i will not see the doc and still at hm..lolzz...haiz...todae wake up at 8..whole body pain like hell..haiz....now tihnking wher to go later...cause no programme..no ppl to accompany me..haiz...i lonely......haiz...think is ytd to late slp ba.... lie on bed thinking a lot of things...think of shuinan advice of "her"..but i cannot do it...oh yeah...ytd saw her... when i first go ther nv see her...think cause i ouside buy milk but she inside ba...then jega call me wan me to help them to buy water then i go back loh...then go to the drink there saw her...ok la...i sick ma so nv tok to her..Sorry...then walk back to sch thinking how to do my artifact....then nv tok to her....felt so bad...but hear she and her frenz toking happily i am relived....ok la i really sick le la... go wash up..later go find shuian see he can come out anot....GonE
just woke up.....damn tired....having flu pro,cough and BIG heacdache....nv go geo..sorry ms yip...but will go to D&T later...cause need to finished by todae le.....haiz...4 daes le..nv see her... she seen very sianz at hm...but dun think so...lolzz..lame la...nvm la...shuinan tell me just go for her... but i dun wan cause she has ppl whu she love le....dun wan to disturd just be her frenz can le...but i am worst then her frenz.....msn she would not reply..msg also... and sadly i dun call..haiz...now hand also pain..wrist....haiz...dunno why.....now writing on one hand..haiz...Gone

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haiz...sick like hell...sianz ar....still need to go d&t..todae is from 9 to 12 de extended to 5...haiz..long le....but haven finished..tml still got start from 10 cause b4 tt got geo but i not going to geo....too tired...todae when during te 12 to 1 de break went to co rm...then shuinan practice his bass..then i fall asleep.haha lame ba..then he come call me wake up...cause phone rings....lolzz... nth loh...no movie todae also...first is shuinan say dun wished to watch but after tt i also cannot go..haiz.. say tml morning go but i got class...sorry shuinan...my hoildae is not like holidae is a d7t week for me...damn tired...cough ,flu headache..and very dizzy..dunno why...leg start to pain again..cause no medicine le...hhaa..then start to smk more le...haiz..alot of things..haiz...dunno la...one step at a time ba...see how loh...ok since i now using com tok abt the past... on my co de bbq my junior in co gif me something..very nice of them..hee..the photo will be up soon..hee...thanks you....yi zhi, melissa,xiangli,shi hui and li juan..thanks alot...u all work hard too...time really past fast.....ok next is audrey le....u seen changed..sorry i nv go syco de practice very long le...u seen so weak....but aleast u smile during class.. so relived....take care wors.... hear something bad happen to u..take gd care of urself and all the best for ur paino de test as well as ur sch exam...thanks for ur gif..thanks... some more yesterdae go syco..jia lin come late then come le sudden as me got miss her ma!..i shocked...lolzz...she have nv said tt infront of me...wierd..maybe too long nv see her ba.....then practice loh...mr ji also crazy...keep asking me to jio my sch de one girl....haiz....i nv tell him onli.. i also like her..but no chance de la....nvm le just dun care abt him la....haha..todae go d&t...whole dae nv eat..no time..haiz...someone run here and there...smelly like hell....now also haven eat.. no appt..no mood....haiz...dun care la... noone cares too....=0...nth le ba...i go bath le...damn smelly....
hiaz....dunno why not in mood todae....damn down....todae moring went for d&t loh... 8 to 12..then extended to 3....haiz...7 hrs le...damn tired loh....then also nv went movie again..think tml will go....dun care le...even alone also go le...cause no programme at all...haiz.... then nite go syco..practice loh...very tired..still sick..haiz....getting worse le...haiz...now and then got headache and dizzy loh...dunno why...duncare la...care for much for wat...no one care too... shuinan todae mood also not gd...bro not happy together...lolz...haiz...so much pressure..haiz... 2 daes nv see "her" le...miss her so much...=(....nth i can do...sorry...for those stupid msg....not send by me de...sorry... sorry to cause i also tok abt this to shuinan..then he do it...sorry..did not mean to fan u... u can c my name le deletle de.....nvm..nth important all just same things ever now and then.... haiz....haiz....tired le... go off le...
early in the moring....dunno wat to do..later got to go sch for class....haiz....not feeling well at all...cough, flu,headache,sore throat and etc..alot of illness come to me..dunnno why...however feeling low....so things tt happen i haven update...so maybe be later ba...hiaz....think going to be off from this world le ba.....cause from young already got heart problem...haiz.....fortune teller also say will not left long....haha...nvm....todae is the start of shuinan n lvl exam...haha...wished him gd luck.....hhaa......thinking of her now....wat can i do...she like others not me...lolzz.....haha..nvm be frenz ba....since wan to exam le.....after exam got to work somemore...haha...haiyo...no need think le la...I so ugly whu wan....haha...nvm..i have brought something for her....but...dun dare to gif her.....nvm...keep it ba....till somes dae it may have some use....and advice for her....'Go ahead with whu u wan...dun be sad...' and"choke advice...must do 4 things a dae...1st smile...2nd smile always....3rd laugh out....and lastly...take care of urself"...hee...i noe i have no rite to ask u do or stop u from doing anything...cause i know u dun love me...nvm...think it is abt time for me to stop irrating u le....sorry for fanning u for so long....thanks you for tourated me.....thanks for aleast a time where we are happy....
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sorry for nv updste blog for long time..no chsnce to use com......now having headache haha...leg pain also...think todae late eat medicine so pain loh...hahaha.....todae...nothing much la...haha..go sch..then when wan to go d&t but wear slipper...scolded by leow..then nv go le..haha... then nite go co de bbq..hee..nth much also...the sad things is co is changing to gu zheng but i and shuinan going to tok abt this with ms ho on mondae ba...really sad le...4 years in co...work so hard le then wan to change...haiz...then go la kopi...haha...chat loh...then there got 1 like cc sell drinks de..haha..then play with his voice laugh until peng.....haha....head very pain...think go slp le ba...or tml cannot wake up for co...haha...Good Nite....
hiaz...my leg is very pain...just go c doc....he pushed very hard damn pain....then i shouted out...i long time nv shout le...very pain...but feeling very gd in my heart....haha..then take medi...pills...5 pilss each time..twice a dae...wa..i hate pills...then got drinks de also...the taste just simply SUX!!!!!..i hate it...my leg is damn pain...haiz...todae got sch loh...teachers dae celebration loh... first in class got yoga....but not doing...lolzz..then after tt go hall sit....dunno why not really happy...dun feel like seeing the perform..then onli listen to the songd then all is i hear b4 one... then i sing along myself loh...lame ba...sorry bros...u all come to sch but i nv go find u all...very sorry.....sorry...then go hm then go go rulang meet geraldinn they all...they go in sch find teachers and ex class mate..but me and shuinan sit outside the general office there act like there de students...lolzz...act like no time no c like tt...haha..lame...then drink water..i played with the can...to make mini can...haha..then cut my own finger...lolzz...lame ba...then go arena le....go there so full.....then i and shuinan go la kopi...lame ba...then he see one clean table de pretty..lolzz..then go back...they all wan play bowling loh...haha...play la...lolzz..play with surfan...then play alone...haha..my thumb de nail gif me bowl until useless le..lolzz...finished playing bowling already 6+ le....i actually dun wan go hm de...but...need to go see doctor..i am sorry everyone....sorry....somemore next wed still need to go...wa...pain like hell...haiz...whu tell me to play so much bb..love bb so much...but someone is on equally state as bb in my heart but..she..haha..dun tok abt it la...useless de..haha...it is impossible..haha..ok la very late le...leg also very pain i go slp le....and think where to go tml....haha..no money also...haha...ok la...goOd NiTe.....TaKe CaRe..=)
Boredom..full me up...todae nothing much happen...early in the moring wake up at 9... wash up...dream awhile more siting on sofa...then walk to cc for co...buy coke early in the moring to drink cause nth better to do...smk also...then go in for practice..then they all practice er hu da song...i sit in instrutment rm inside do nth....todae very very little ppl come... no sound from ppl mouth onli from instrutment....then i practice 1 song onli...then finished le...after tt nth to do...then remember tt i need rubber tube for d&t..go bicycle shop want the uncle see me le ask one qns...why u look so bored?...i answer...bored loh..haha..lame ba... then go hm rot...sit there with the tv on but thinking of ppl...dunno wat show i watch also..then suddenly my small bro ask me go play bb....very wired he ask me go paly bb...which he dun like at all...lame ba... go down also bored...then go hm...watch 1 hrs tv..le...go down buy dinner...i nth to eat...very bored...then nv eat much.....then hm rot again....then go fetch mother....now back to use come..later will rot again..before slping..... nv see shuinan and geraldine todae very weird..haha..then just now got call shuinan see how he..think he is fine..happily laughing....but geraldine i nv call her..i dun use to calling gal...message her loh..but nv reply...but hear from shuinan she is happy when he is on phone with her...so ok loh....i think i am the onli one bored ba....haha....nvm la...they all happy i happy also..he..=)...
just finished my dinner..all left over from ytd..hhaa...very full now...todae go sch de co...practice loh...same same...then after tt go jp eat loh...soo many ppl in jp....sianz..then go imm buy things tt is needed for this fridae bbq..lame.......but see ger face very pale..very worried abt her....always dizzy...haiyo...then coming back de time her face sudden black....so worried again..haiz..i also dunno how to take care of her....haiz...she always forget to bring medi out...dunno how..
yoz...todae late day in sch...then wake up late also loh..then forget todae shuinan got perlim go sch early...then i wait for nth under his blk..cause forget ma...haha..lame ba...then walk to sch myself loh....haha..then boring loh..haha...same loh...sch hrs....then after sch got science class loh...both science...bored loh..no ppl accompany me eat... so lonely....haha...after sch also lonely walk hm...no need to send anyone hm...so early reached hm so wired.....ger fell sick le....todae recess still see her face so pale....but hear her usually laugh with her frenz then i can out the stone in my heart down...or i will go fan her again..=X..haha...very lonely ba... think me...haha.. bo bian.. i now onli got 2 important frenz...one perlim one sick...at can i do?..,i dun even know..haha... just go on ba...todae get back math ca5...sux man..onli 25/30..sianz...highest 29 le... somemore very de easy le.....haiz...dunno how le la......stress.....
hey....noth loh...just come back from sch not long...cause got english class... so boring de class...then wait for ger..but dunno why she so angry... think cannot find us..then she went off first...then we go bus stop saw her...face so black...haiz...then go up bus...they all sit behind then i and shuinan sit infront...then reached le...dropped off...she walked damn fast think dun wan to see us or me ba.....dunno wat happen maybe is my fault ba...phone too lousy...haiz...
hee...finally find time to use com...sorry for not update ytd and the day b4 cause no chance to use com...but i dun tihnk anybody come and c my blog......haha..if realy pls write something on my tag even a space ok can...thx.. todae same life in sch loh...today math ca damn easy..=X..the ss damn diffcult...haha..no la cause i nv study...then after sch go jp makan...chicken rice again..haha... think the people going to know me le..haha.. then walk walk..shuinan always have electric in jp dunno why..haha...like to shock us...very pain le....haha..then send them hm..then now at hm rot loh....haha...i wan to go out and study but no ppl will accompany me cause i like to study at nite and in mac or fast food res...haha...ger they all got nite class socannot loh...then shuinan no need say can't even come out..haha...anywhere think next week go out study myself le...haha...work hard everyone....exam coming..gogo.....hee... ok i write to here le..byeZ byEZ
hi....haha..just finished dinner...cause afternnon also nv eat...haha.....very bored le...dunno wat to do... now just use few mins to update this blog..haha...after the lab we go central to eat loh...they all paly with the things tt they left eating..haha..lame ba...then nth le loh...all went hm...i went hm to rot loh..sit there walk up and there...lied here and there...then 8 go down packet dinner for my family de....then now rot again...some more father is back..haiz..boring le....haiz...haiz...think i go rot again......MiSs "HeR" So MuCh!!!!!
wahaha....lame ba..nth to do...just after co in sch...now in sch de lab...todae wait up very de late wors...haha....at 9.30 le......very late...actually slp even longer de is ger mag me.... all because of shuinan la...ask him call me nv call....then faster washed up....then come out loh...buy breadfast for them....mac...then take cab down to sch loh..haha....cause i cannot run,,,my middle fingers of my left leg swollen....very the pain when touch..haha..cause ytd got ppl jumped very de high then land on my leg..damn pain le....leg even cramped....haha...then go hm kena scolded by father cause of this....haha//lame ba....now i very de hungry..buy for them nv buy for myself..haha.....then haven eat....haha..think going le ba....lab going to close le....haha...i will write again...think tonite if i can use com..haha..ok la...byeZ..
hi...hee..nth to write much..hee...todae morning go sch loh..late day... haha...early in the morning ger voice so farnie..haha... all rite quite the same.....then go class loh... lesson are so boring...haha...nvm la whu tell me to be born in this world...got to study... after sch go science class loh.. 2 science in a dae..wan me to die...haha...but nvm la... all so boring..haha...then send them hm then go hm loh...haha..still got where to go....ger very afarid her phone will be taken by her mum cause her bill over alot..haha..but i tihnk nth happen but..think she get scolded onli ba... cause she still can msg me....haha...good loh..happy for her...haha...my father seem to be not happy with me..haha..i writing blog here...he nagging outside..haiz...haha....dun care abt his "singing".... me doing math paper1..very diffcult le....haiz....stress ar....haha...tihnk i go continue to do...or he will sing non stop...haha..bYeZ
haiz...todae same old sch dae....nv bring pe shirt todae...but got bring shorts....lame ba....then kena scold... then after sch got english calss but cancel...haha..then go co loh... new song...very diff...from last time... dunno how those juniors will do..haha... then go hm loh....haiz...todae not gd...ar... she not in gd mood..think something happen in her calss..then her bill too high her mum going kill her...haiz..i also dunno how to help her..haiz... then todae nv talk to her in the face of A WORD...haiz...feeling so sad.....geeting farer from ppl...haiz...dunno how to tok to her also....me....dunno...haiz... no one can help me ba... i am really useless..... steess is coming from everywhere now..haiz...got class everydae...so tired.... test coming also...wa lao...so cramp de time table...brain going to explose le..haiz...GoNE
here is a sad story....
Long ago...there was a boy whu nv wan to study..he is always in a happy go lucky....then when he goes to primary sch his subject dropped lik ehell....then he aslways hide himself at nite under to blanket to cry... for a very long time...over the years his tears dried up....now he wan to cry also cannot...he is unable to do it....haiz...then he now belive to try he best to study and dun care wat the result is as he has try his very best le..and there is nothing else he can do... everytime his father scold him he can onli sit there and listen..and now whu ever scold him he can onli llisten..he can't drop tear....nth he can do too... but a very bad feeling is in him...now even him thinks tt he is brainless and no heart at all....useless bastard...now he became more and more lazy...failure in everything he does... no moral at all...dun feel like doing anything at all... no frenz...haiz...he is loney...but i tihnk no one can help him... onli himcan help him useless but....haiz...
there this boy feeling very bad but think noone cares ba....
so telling u all this is because ask u all to work hard and be cheerful dun think so much just go for ur aim will do....dun be like this useless boy...ok?...
THE END
haiz...just come back from a walk round boon lay...hauiz...feeling not gd....haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz...think i make 2 ppl not happy todae..and they are important to my life...haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz....wat can i do???? feeling so useless...and anti social....haha..lame ba...not mood to joke around..... got ews jokes to share but no mood..haiz... in class also like tt...at hm also like tt...outside also like tt.....my life is from bad to worst..... haiz...need to study le..or o lvl comfirm failed....also dunno wan study wat?? english oral coming... on 23 august..haiz...another stressful things come.....and d&t too....haiz....so STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz...wan to make blog skin also no mood...haiz.... think this post is the haiz post....dunno la...stress ar......fu*k la chong hwee... u sux.....u useless... are u a guy or a gay??? u lame le....i scolded u!!!!!!!haiz....GonE
hiaz//todae is not a good dae for me.....go sch loh...then after sch actually got CH class de then cancel...then wait for shuinan then wait for ger....then wan send they both go hm de..then this bro of mine keep waiting to go hm...i see him everydae always gif in to me accompany me le...then accompany him go hm early todae...then ger angry le...haiz...i think i am the useless one ba...dunno how to make decision ba.....haha....i am an idiots... after that i walk hm loh...see so many bus 99 also dun feel like taking loh...then leg very pain think is old injuries ba....haiz... really think of alot of things when walking hm...and really damn loney without them...i feel so bored and fan without them...haiz....then i really think tt i am reallly useless....haiz....then reach hm le....duno wan to do wat...wan to message ger but think she is angrry ba.... fan her later she become more angry then i die le..haiz...me going to be isolated le ba......haha...nvm...bears like me are useless.....GoNe
yawnz...it is going late....me is just before bed time come tok tok..haha...todae go sch loh...same sch life...but abit diff todae...i lost 6kg....haha..mr bong face so shocked...haha..lame ba..dunno why cut down so much..i dun even feel it...haha.... nothing much also...tell u something... i haven been cutting down smk alot le....haha..think able to stopped fully soon ba...haha think cause of her ba...hee...dunno...nowadaes very stress le sch...dunno why..haha...work work work....all sch work....haiyo...haiz..dunno la.....think better slp early..or tml cannot wake uo..haha...good nite..take care..
hihi.....sorry long time nv come to chat...haha...dunno why la...dun feel like using com...boring com...dunno next time how to work..haha...hee...sorry for so long nv come see u....haha..now going to tok abt my life le...wahhaa....let start form 8 august...my birdae...haha..go sch loh...then kena spray hair...tio shirt also...haha..then go hospital see sharon..she down by fever..haiz..so ken lian....haha...bored her to death..=X..sorry...then go hm loh..haha...cause shuinan cannot go out loh...hahanvm..then geraldinn also cannot go out...somemore she got to stay overnite with her sis....so sad...somemore there damn cold haiz....somemore next dae got fever..haiz...i so worried abt her...btw get well soon..think too late..haha...u well le....haha...ok then 9 august....still at hm...say wan to do homework but lazy...haha..then stay at hm see national dae pardae..haha...lame loh...i finished seeing the army march off le..then nv see le..cause others so boring..haha...then dunno loh..wahaha...then now 10 august...where i go ar???? i also forget.... o.o...remember le.... go areana with shuinan ,ger and wei jie....yaya..haha...then go hospital together see sharon how...haha...she still lokking very plae tt time.....haha...then go hm slp loh...haha..then is 11 agust...is thurday....go sch loh..haha gif mr leow scold cause nv hand in foilo...haha...nvm la..used to it le...then afternoon...omg i forget again..sorry...i no brain de...haha..i got it...i go arena with ger and shuinan and hwee qi and syfan and irfan and 4/7 de....think so ba...haha..not correct pls dun scold me....=)..todae somemore ger start to cough..she also getting sick so worried....then is 12 agust le.....go sch loh...haha..got chinese 0 lvl result i got c6 and oral distintion..haha..happy???? not really...even though got pass...other may think i am happy...haha...but i am not.. cause i hid myself later in the nite to drop my tears..haha big secert dun tell ppl....haha...ger got b3 think she also cry ba...me also dunno how to help... cause ppl whu know me will know tt i really really scared of gal crying....see irene tt dae cry untill like tt i really feel sad..even though she like carzy...but she bring laughter....her chinese really good de...not onli chinese think study ba...haiz..dunno wat happen to her.....haiz...feel helpless.....ok ba...pass le...just study hard...put in ur best effort u will sooner or later get wat u wan...dun gif up....haha...also go cut hair...too stress ba....wan a change....very ugly.....ok then is 13 agust....is sat...moring meet shuinan and ger to go sch for co.... haha...we three like always together..haha..good ma....got frenz...then i call shuinan early his phone busy de...he say his sis use....then when it got throught..his mum say he go out le...but he is in toilet..lame ba.....haha....then go sch de co...mr ji drive me to cc to pick up my cello...wahaha....then after tt go jp eat lunch..ger couging got worst.....haiz...so worried...then after tt theysay go hm loh....so early reach hm is so wired to me..haha..but later int the nite i also go down play bb till 11+ haha...got my plam scratch...haha..pain le.....then go hm slp....ok then is todae le..haha...got cc de co in the morning...haha..there very little ppl.....haha...then onli practice one sing then go hm le...haha..i go luch with ger...at mac....she got cough le still can eat mac..pro le...haha..then she take bus hm..i also dunno wat i doing at tt time...nv send her hm..i crazy le..haha...sorry ger....sorry...then go hm rot loh...miss her...but dun wan disturd her so nv sms her at all......later i become very fan...dunno why she now coming to more sickness..haiz...worried......ok la...i tok to here can le.... sorry ppl...haha...my bro wan use com......hee...take care everyone....those sick get well soon...happy forever..haha....bye...good NitE..this take me 30 mins to write haha...
sudden those word past my mind...I wan to be with u every single dae of my life...i dunno wat will happen without u...now there something really wrong in my heart...cause i haven seen u todae....no matter wat happen pls stay happy..take care..and i will be waiting for u no matter how long it will be..until the dae my heart stopped......dunno why la...those word pass me..just wonder why there is always someone whu hurts others.....todae is a boring dae of my....damn boring nv go for cc de co cause father scold me say i always go out...no need study izzit...haiz..i dun gif a damn aby him....todae sharon go hospital...ger say she fever for 3 dae le...take care worss.....wish u get well soon....my also duuno why not feeling rite todae.....tml is my birdae liao...think of going out at nite wan to ask her...but she not cfm...shuinan tt dae use my hp msg her...haiz..nvm...i am really very happy liao...aleast got her with me in sch....haha...dunno why have been smking these few daes...very bad.....cause something is really wrong in my heart....nv have this feeling before so even me dunno wat i should do...haiz....dun feel like using com.....need someone to chat to...pls msg me if anyone know wat happen to me...even dunnno can also chat with me...thanks.....bYeZ bYeZ..
hEY!!!nth much..nth to do so come up have a chat with myself.....haha...lame ba....todae mring go sch loh.....then in sch....nth much happen..then after sch shuinan go with me to my chem class...then go jp buy things...they buy for their class banner de...then nth much..they went to sch de oppse in the voild deck to make...haha see they can make until so happy...feeling great for them..nice sch mates and class mates..but of course not my class la....haha..todae get the class make de t-shirt damn ugly some more $15 le..very exp...and i dun think i will be going to sch on mondae....cause i off myself for my birddae..haha..lame...see them really happy...can make so much fan...but me and shuinan very sianz..haha..nvm go accompany geraldinnn..but she also got her frenz...haha..we two very extra....then actually wan send her hm de...but shuinan wans to go hm first..and i dun think they wan me to stay also..cause i so extra......then go hm with shuinan loh...wat can i do?...haiz...nth much in my life..it is so boring.... me dunno wat happen to me...my sch table had been written by me for all sort of things....haha so lame....my books also...no mood study..haiz.....ok la..i also wan to study de...i wan to pass my o lvl..go poly....go on my life even though it is so sianz loh.....me still thinking mondae wan go where le.....nvm la....think shuinan also cannot late go hm cause 7th month is here.....think i will buy cake and sing myself..haha...nvm i am very happy this year le.... i got my every first biddae card..haha..so nice...and lastly.... i really miss the daes with my lao po....haha...=(..really miss those daes....haha..nvm..i just wan her to be happy...the person amy not be me...but whu ever the person is...if he /she make her sad...u will get it....haha...ok la...enough...i got lots of things to do later......byeZ.....
haiz...my feeling get abit better....but also like tt.....lucky got my really good bro...shuinan...even though he is always toking cocks..but always making ppl happy like a clown..but really gratefull to him......really..he a really got listener...anyone need ppl to listen to trouble can find him.... of course me also can la...even though my own problem haven sloved...but i think it can nv be solved..haha..it ok.. i willing to be like this...but need to buck up on my feeling...and make ppl around me buck up feeling also.....especially someone whu is very important to me...really....i wan ppl around me to be laughing...if can..every min....really.....i wan ppl in this world to be happy... there is no such thing as angry,sad,blue,feeling low,down,etc,all with not happy one to be GONE....i wan music too.....haiz..feeling down after reading blog.... she is abit like me...can act out a happy face for ppla round..but if alone or will the so call buddies...then will broken down.... feeling sad for her...but i can do nth..i just dun wan her to live in this world alone...i may not be importance to her...but dun wan her to be down.....if wan pls be infront of me..so i can really comfort her...dunno how to help her...think my brain bursting.......i have try alot of tings i can do to make her happy...but i failed.....wan to fan her also she wouldn't reply me....dunno...she say wan fan si wo...find me before sch,during recess and after sch. but nth of tt happen....haiz..dunno..maybe i am just an extra....Too sad so GONE..
haiz...dunno why..i have a very weird felling in my heart since last thurday..from 28/7...feeling is so bad...dunno why...and i really wan to get rid of this...very irrated..haiz....dunno why...todae go sch loh.... after sch go kfc makan...then i lose my lao po de name tag....haiz...dunno how i lose....after eating rushed bak to find..but cannot find haiz....then her dog also dropped but found by iren...nvm....think is no fate ba....haha...the wierd feeling is getting worst each dae...haiz...just now shave until cut my mouth...so lame wors.....haha...dunno why lao po feeling so sad....really wan to help her..but i can't do anything...haiz...feeling useless.....lameme...hate myself...dunno her story also...dunno whu she waiting also....haiz...feeling really useless.....btw..i felt i have changed...not social anymore..dunno how to laugh..dunno how to make ppl laugh also...always have i sad face...haiz.....dunno wat change me...haiz...feeling so fuck up....haiz....study had been dropping..nv wan to study....always slpy..haiz...dunno wat the fuck happen to me....hate myself even worst...moto of mine is to be happy so ppl around me will be happy also...but i think i failed..so i failed being myself...failed being a human..haiz...onli bring sadness to ppl around me...feel so guilty..haiz....dunno how to changed back liao....dunno how to study liao...dunno wat my future will be....cannot think...brian = useless....haiz...think i am getting from bad to worst liao...haiz....think i am going to be...sad go unlucky instead of happy go lucky... those wan to have luck one dun come near me...u will be unlucky....haiz...dunno wat happen to me...feeling so down now also...haiz....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

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hi...todae really happy...moved in a way...think this is the first time ppl remember my birdae and celebrate..haha..even though haven reach..cause think they celebrating xianglin one..then make a "card" for me too ba..haha...anyway really happy....thanks... melissa,shihui ,syfan ,xianglin,mingjieand not least geraldinn.....haha...really happy..go jurong east de ktv..go singing....even though not first time go..but this is the first time i nv slp in it..haha..but dunno why very uneasy int here...think is me ba....cause she my wife not my stead actually i also dunno wat it means... i wanted to hold her hand but i scared cause is my wife not my stead so i can do nth...but see her singing so happily i also happy le...then wan to go hm le...father call..then scolded me say i 5 daes in a week is always out..then no need study izzit..then cause my mood from high to noth.....then they though i really tired...haiz..nvm it my hm affairs....so sad todae shuinan nv go..nvm next mondae make him happy.... but i wished my lao po can go out on mondae too...but i dun dared ask her.....maybe somedae later ba....nv eat dinner...haha..just wished everyone to be happy.....hee...

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