like wat u say i am not the one getting scolded... i will nv understand..
correct.. i have nv been through wat u have been..
cause i always go i think.. and i thought u think this and so..
is like the u think i thought whu comfirm? thing...
i have nv go through ur stage..
just like the way u nv gone through mine..
i have no rights to comment no right to say.. tt the onli thing i can say to ask u to believe..
and so on...

just thing i wan to make clear...
i nv wanted u to be repeat the same thing...
i really mean u will be happy with him..
i dun wan to see u sad..


ya fred... just the way u think i am... ty for reminding...
running away is not a solution...
this is wat i have always do..
and i dun wan to..but was forced too..
cause i am too afraid to ..

da sao.. i scolded u is not because of i standing which side..
is i cannot take it tt you are scolding the person whu have done nthing wrong..
hope u will understand..
bear called me..
dun put the anger on him..
is me.. he will go on a millions ways just to see you happy..
dun make him sad just because of me..


btw glad tt u found the one for you..
he can bring miracles for you which noone does..
dun need to care wat other said about u..
believe in urself.. tt wat i wrote on ur 21 birthdae book..
cause u r easily influence by others no matter whu..
so please listen to urself.. believe in urself and also him..
Please be happy..=)
and still anything tt i can help just tell me..=)
it 12 plus i going to meet boss they all soon b4 they going off again..

first thing first...
Winty dun be angry with bear and of course her..
bear say tt because his char is the nearest to mine..
wat we really wan is to see our loved ones happy..
he understand this point very well..
so when u all r saying wat u all r ytd nite..

first... think of her... does she really need tis kind of treatment??
second.. me??? where did u put me when u all say those???
third and last.. where did u put bear, my bros and u urself???

winty i treat u as my elder sis..
i understand y u r angry... but is none of her fault ok?

still sick here..
cough until like blood is coming out..
lung going out of air..
so since tonite got be with god father and bros b4 they go tml getting mc lo..
things happen this weekend with godfather and gang back..

shall update tml or wat ba.. my arm r still not working well after fri's 16 jabs..=(
i am very sick now.. since ytd when doing duty...
biw with high fever.. last measured 39.5...
block nose, sore throat...headach also... damn sian...
ytd duty was like sux, i dun even know wat i'm doing...
in the morning.. when i went to wash up.. the ops room got no ppl then my sir come in..
see no one as my other guard wwent to surf web.. so i kena lo...
damn fuck tub...
nvm tt doesn't concern.. head very dizzy...
cannot intake fod todae at all.. sorry...

try to rest now ba.. since no one is asking me out also...
later need to take up at 4 to meet godfather..
ya think trouble is on the way..
got to face it...
it's kind of like late le =X
here to blog...

todae was my off dae plus hospital dae...
morning was just pure rotting at home plus reading up..
then afternnon went to hospital with cum and ping for my report..
as expected.. the report sux..
bla here and there.. more doc to see...
then went back...
went to eat at boon lay... seee i got eat ok....
even though it's like my first meal..at around 6 plus..=X
went home.. and i know wat happen..=)
same thing...zzzzz

after tt play some games and read up..
went to shoot balls with ping..
after tt is still chatting..
i really need chatting.. i need advice and thinking..
i need ppl to ttell me wat they think... am i doing it rite or wrong..

like ytd nite where almost all my bros gf/wife called... on conference call..
all telling me reason tt i am not gd....
i glad tt they tell me.. i wan to know all these things...
i dun like to guess.. i like to be straight forward...

still down with small illness..
sore throat is like getting worst...
think i'm going to be voiceless soon..
headach coming back also... plus here and there la...
but i'm still breathing... even though onli through mouth now..=X
=)
haha.. got to try and get more slp...
first is doc say...
next is i'm kena threaten...=X
good nite.. work work tml....
yoz... i wanted to updated this blog ytd de...
but when i just click here i was threaten by someone.. to go to slp..
so better listen.... sent to slp...

when i was like kind of happy tt i was slping.. tt idiot melvin called me at 8a.m to ask me wan to go breakfast ma? tt idiot.. reject him straight away... but i was hanging on a headach... maybe is the sheesha ba.. dunno...

20 mins ago went to cook cup noodles..
once again trying to eat since i say i will...
it's hard for me to lie to her...
i just can't..
where else to other it like so simple...
so the onli thing i can do is dun answer the qns lo..=X
but then right after i ate the cup noodle and press refresh so tt i can reply on the comment on FB..
something sent wrong...
the next thing tt op into my head was a very big TOILET word..
once again vomit... haha
i think i will just live on liquid food ba.. all the juice or watever la...
haha...

thinking of wat to do.. study??
blueprint???
slack???
go out???
rot???
do my own stuff??
i dunno... haha..
rot first...=)
bro ty for telling me.. i already knew...
he call me last nite..

godfather change his way of approach ytd when he call me..
usually it will be like 2 kid talking...
but the very first sentence tt come out from his mouth was my full name..
i knew something was not rite..

he pop me this " If anything happen to her wat will you do?"

i just say i will replace everything, i will be watever she wants watever she needs.
her leg her hands her blood. anything and everything i can do.

next thing he do was to say thanks..

he told me there is 2 report on his hand now..
good and bad which one i wan to hear
good one..
her full blood report is out.. all together 367 test made..
nth actually goes wrong.. everything is fine...

next is my last health report for this year..
it was onli half of the report..
and i actually just failed everything in the report..
i get scolded...
yes scolded.. he actually nv scolded me b4.. in this way..
i really dunno wat to say to him...
i felt like so... i dunno wat words to use..
when he gave me so much..
and i return him nth...even thought he nv ask for...

i still can't take food.. i still vomit..

tt all i say..
sorry dudes sorry father...
feel better after sweating out...
been quite long since then...

these few daes ppl around me suddenly ask this qns.." Choke, how can u act like nth happen or even smile when u know something is not right somewhere?"

say really if i dun smile or make fun of myself or wat.. i will breakdown..
i ain't no superman or heartless..
i rather face it my way...

afternoon called bear they all...
kind of like get scolded...
but watever they wan to say i understand..
they know me too well... bear and alfred..

tml will be fridae... i dunno wat i will do..
actually todae i got nth to do at work.. just slack
other then the force of sir asking me to change my citizen to singapore..
sian lo...

after tt.. i really wan to thanks uncle wee...
thanks for talking to me once again...
telling me wat to do so...
but i am still confuse....
like wat you say... i am someone whu dun like to listen to wat ppl say about rather get the facts myself.....
but the fact now i see is all bad.. nth gd..
not being angry or sad or emo..
but say really y do i have to go through this??

and for the hair cut too...
now i got a very kid haircut.. cause i am always a kid in his eyes..
the way he talk and act infront of me... is better than my own father...
able to make me speak is not easy.. i know..

for those whu dunno... uncle wee is my godfather father onli hairdresser..
he is 86 this year...
gd man...

i think.. y think so much when i know is him...
got to think for my own study le ba... 1 and a half year to go...
and then "bye"

bros.. without u all my alcohol cell gone liao la...
and i wan it back....
i wan to go eat with u all..
i wan the laugher... i miss them...=(
bro u win liao la..
now she dun frenz me liao lo..
u good liao lo...

now doing duty..but got to go out soon le.. one guard down.. so i got to stand by him.. got to take care of all the guards..
and i am still sick.. the worst thing is tt tml i got to go for my blood test at nuh.
good job liao lo...
dunno how bad this blood test will be liao...

still alfred u win liao la.....
eh bro so now u think wat??
come my tag box acknowledged relative meh???

todae thought tt i wan slack.. but then tml got to stay in camp then cannot study so todae need to..
study the whoel dae...
until just now went with cum go jurong west eat claypot rice which had been veru long since i went there with bear they all...
its' still nice...
but coem back.. i vomit again... damn sian... sick and tired of myself..
and then tml got to stay in camp sian ar sian...
it had been a rotting sat for me...
doesn't feel like studying or doing anything todae...
so i sit or lie on my sofa for the whole dae...
watch tv and listen to my mp3..
3 plus cum message me.. then he reply at 4 plus asking for tea..
and i wait until 9 he still dun appear at my doorstep for tea..
zzzz.. then ask him to go down dinner as i haven eat yet..
eat until damn full.. but once i reach home same thing happen.. camp in toilet lo..
lolz...
after tt since my father got another lorry back le..
thought of going to pray so i went with ping..
pray for the same thing again..
but once i reach home on my facebook first thing i see..
"i broke my fingernail"...
i was speechless for a moment. it was like 30 mins again i just pray and i come back and see the post was like 20 mins again..
but the next thing come to mind is still is she ok?
hopefully yes ba...
it 2 plus and i am still feeling damn awake...
i think i turning into "god" soon lo.. haha
zzzz i dunno wat happen sia...
whole dae nv eat then just now meet ping to eat...
eat one bowl of fishball noodle also cannot finish...
then finished my teh c.. haha
but i just came back from the toilet..
i just wasted my food.. i vomit everything out.. wtf lo...
sian.. this is one of the sideeffect ba... i think...

just now when i am at home at 7..
i decided to pack my drawer..
see alot of things... include my journal since pri sch..and is like 4 books..\
haha read all of it.. and laughing to myself.. like so stupid.. haha..
throw lots of stuff..
i got birthdae card.. haha.. kept all of them...
i see this birthdae which is on 2007 also the first present she gave me.. lolz...
haha.. then i got this mindset..
i have always been negaitive.. blaming myself even since i was young.. lolz..
haha..

after vomit... now i am hungry again.. but nth to eat.. sian....
tml morning then find cum eat ba.. da sao also there.. hahaha...
funny.. belinda like me to call her da sao.. she damn happy de.. lolz...

got to go study le..
taking bridging exam...
stress!
today is a public holidae.. but to me is just like a normal sat or sun..
since is ph.. i decided not to call melvin.. so he can go out with his gf.. as she is not working todae..
so i take a cab to warehouse todae...
it was so empty and cold...

it was then i realize tt i am not really tt mature as i think..
i feel like like a kid...
i keep looking on the phone..
looking at the door..
hoping someone will come in or my phone will ring...
i feel like a kid who need care and concern..
felt lonely and left aside...
been here the whole dae...
it's about time to go home lo...
back to a place where i rot again...
hey bro... dun worry like wat i always say i not going to die tt easily.. still got 18yrs more..=)

ya.. just like wat alfred say.. my white blood cell is down by 75%...
is something like an AIDS ppl?? haha
prone to all any illness out there...

so now i am down with flu, running nose , headache , cough , insomnia and fever..

i am just walking around at 38.5degree..

got 7 dae mc from camp mo.. but got tonnes of work to do...
so i will still be going back to camp..
cause course starting...

my phone is like no longer call a phone.. is like a alarm... haha
since it like damn free for me... start studying but like nth gets in.. zzzz
thinking of getting 2 more degree during this 2 yrs.. before i go over to get my own engineer degree.. =)...
i'm sorry... i think this is the onli thing tt i can do in my life..

i dun mean ignoring u..
i dun mean i dun wan to know anytihng about u..
i dun mean all tt...

wat i mean is me.... unable to start a conversation...
unable to show the care and concern even as a friend..
i just dunno how to speak up..
dunno how to start off..
onli know how to say sorry..

sorry
Melvin just asked me. why u nv like to smile and always got no emotion on my face ?

just then i think of my very own flaws.

I cannot handle and express emotions..
tt y i choose to have a plain face or nth at all..

btw thanks melvin.. got to spent the nite with me at warehouse.. sorry to take up ur time..
so wat if i can study now???
i just lose the meaning of life...

the mind and heart work on a diff line...

why i can just start a conversation?
always is the other whu start..
i dunno, i'm lost...
i got got 2 emails..
first is my full result of my this term uni...
Prof Eng Math AD
Prof Blue Print AD
Prof Aerodynamic AD
Prof Mechdynamic Part I/IV AD
Prof Cruise Engine Part I/IV AD

plus this:
Student CHOKE CHONG HWEE S8828299Z, an oversea student in UOB, achieved TOP SCHOLAR OF THE YEAR and BEST FRESHMEN AWARD.

next is..
CHOKE CHONG HWEE S8828299Z HAD BEEN ACCEPTED IN TO BACH OF COMMERCE IN UNI OF NORTHERN IOWA. AS AN OVERSEA ONLINE CLASS STUDENTS.
sat came...
another slpless nite for me...
wat got into me i dunno..message text but the send button not press..
cooling down?
dun think so.. it's like killing myself..blocking off from everything..
staying in warehouse just to hide..
wonder to myself y am i doing this...
i can't answer...
whu will???
i wonder on...
back to me le...
dunno wat is into me nowadaes.
i got this very bad thought in me...
i like ignoring her or trying very hard not to ask her anything... i also dunno myself strange enough..
my health had not been gd cause i cannot slp and i am taking medi for others.. to try out the side effects... tt me.. nv believe in theory and onli believe it when it happen to me... then kena scold le lo...
i just read stats and commerce book.. hard enough.. aleast for me ba...
strange me... nvm.. hope this feeling will be gone ba....
ok alfred stop these...
u know me very well and u also know i dun say all these..
whether i have done all those or not doesn't matter..
it's on free will bro...
i not doing all these for pity or watever....
so dun say le..
i do wat i think i need to.. doesn't mean it had to be known...
thanks..

like wat u say i am not the one getting scolded... i will nv understand..
correct.. i have nv been through wat u have been..
cause i always go i think.. and i thought u think this and so..
is like the u think i thought whu comfirm? thing...
i have nv go through ur stage..
just like the way u nv gone through mine..
i have no rights to comment no right to say.. tt the onli thing i can say to ask u to believe..
and so on...

just thing i wan to make clear...
i nv wanted u to be repeat the same thing...
i really mean u will be happy with him..
i dun wan to see u sad..


ya fred... just the way u think i am... ty for reminding...
running away is not a solution...
this is wat i have always do..
and i dun wan to..but was forced too..
cause i am too afraid to ..

da sao.. i scolded u is not because of i standing which side..
is i cannot take it tt you are scolding the person whu have done nthing wrong..
hope u will understand..
bear called me..
dun put the anger on him..
is me.. he will go on a millions ways just to see you happy..
dun make him sad just because of me..


btw glad tt u found the one for you..
he can bring miracles for you which noone does..
dun need to care wat other said about u..
believe in urself.. tt wat i wrote on ur 21 birthdae book..
cause u r easily influence by others no matter whu..
so please listen to urself.. believe in urself and also him..
Please be happy..=)
and still anything tt i can help just tell me..=)
it 12 plus i going to meet boss they all soon b4 they going off again..

first thing first...
Winty dun be angry with bear and of course her..
bear say tt because his char is the nearest to mine..
wat we really wan is to see our loved ones happy..
he understand this point very well..
so when u all r saying wat u all r ytd nite..

first... think of her... does she really need tis kind of treatment??
second.. me??? where did u put me when u all say those???
third and last.. where did u put bear, my bros and u urself???

winty i treat u as my elder sis..
i understand y u r angry... but is none of her fault ok?

still sick here..
cough until like blood is coming out..
lung going out of air..
so since tonite got be with god father and bros b4 they go tml getting mc lo..
things happen this weekend with godfather and gang back..

shall update tml or wat ba.. my arm r still not working well after fri's 16 jabs..=(
i am very sick now.. since ytd when doing duty...
biw with high fever.. last measured 39.5...
block nose, sore throat...headach also... damn sian...
ytd duty was like sux, i dun even know wat i'm doing...
in the morning.. when i went to wash up.. the ops room got no ppl then my sir come in..
see no one as my other guard wwent to surf web.. so i kena lo...
damn fuck tub...
nvm tt doesn't concern.. head very dizzy...
cannot intake fod todae at all.. sorry...

try to rest now ba.. since no one is asking me out also...
later need to take up at 4 to meet godfather..
ya think trouble is on the way..
got to face it...
it's kind of like late le =X
here to blog...

todae was my off dae plus hospital dae...
morning was just pure rotting at home plus reading up..
then afternnon went to hospital with cum and ping for my report..
as expected.. the report sux..
bla here and there.. more doc to see...
then went back...
went to eat at boon lay... seee i got eat ok....
even though it's like my first meal..at around 6 plus..=X
went home.. and i know wat happen..=)
same thing...zzzzz

after tt play some games and read up..
went to shoot balls with ping..
after tt is still chatting..
i really need chatting.. i need advice and thinking..
i need ppl to ttell me wat they think... am i doing it rite or wrong..

like ytd nite where almost all my bros gf/wife called... on conference call..
all telling me reason tt i am not gd....
i glad tt they tell me.. i wan to know all these things...
i dun like to guess.. i like to be straight forward...

still down with small illness..
sore throat is like getting worst...
think i'm going to be voiceless soon..
headach coming back also... plus here and there la...
but i'm still breathing... even though onli through mouth now..=X
=)
haha.. got to try and get more slp...
first is doc say...
next is i'm kena threaten...=X
good nite.. work work tml....
yoz... i wanted to updated this blog ytd de...
but when i just click here i was threaten by someone.. to go to slp..
so better listen.... sent to slp...

when i was like kind of happy tt i was slping.. tt idiot melvin called me at 8a.m to ask me wan to go breakfast ma? tt idiot.. reject him straight away... but i was hanging on a headach... maybe is the sheesha ba.. dunno...

20 mins ago went to cook cup noodles..
once again trying to eat since i say i will...
it's hard for me to lie to her...
i just can't..
where else to other it like so simple...
so the onli thing i can do is dun answer the qns lo..=X
but then right after i ate the cup noodle and press refresh so tt i can reply on the comment on FB..
something sent wrong...
the next thing tt op into my head was a very big TOILET word..
once again vomit... haha
i think i will just live on liquid food ba.. all the juice or watever la...
haha...

thinking of wat to do.. study??
blueprint???
slack???
go out???
rot???
do my own stuff??
i dunno... haha..
rot first...=)
bro ty for telling me.. i already knew...
he call me last nite..

godfather change his way of approach ytd when he call me..
usually it will be like 2 kid talking...
but the very first sentence tt come out from his mouth was my full name..
i knew something was not rite..

he pop me this " If anything happen to her wat will you do?"

i just say i will replace everything, i will be watever she wants watever she needs.
her leg her hands her blood. anything and everything i can do.

next thing he do was to say thanks..

he told me there is 2 report on his hand now..
good and bad which one i wan to hear
good one..
her full blood report is out.. all together 367 test made..
nth actually goes wrong.. everything is fine...

next is my last health report for this year..
it was onli half of the report..
and i actually just failed everything in the report..
i get scolded...
yes scolded.. he actually nv scolded me b4.. in this way..
i really dunno wat to say to him...
i felt like so... i dunno wat words to use..
when he gave me so much..
and i return him nth...even thought he nv ask for...

i still can't take food.. i still vomit..

tt all i say..
sorry dudes sorry father...
feel better after sweating out...
been quite long since then...

these few daes ppl around me suddenly ask this qns.." Choke, how can u act like nth happen or even smile when u know something is not right somewhere?"

say really if i dun smile or make fun of myself or wat.. i will breakdown..
i ain't no superman or heartless..
i rather face it my way...

afternoon called bear they all...
kind of like get scolded...
but watever they wan to say i understand..
they know me too well... bear and alfred..

tml will be fridae... i dunno wat i will do..
actually todae i got nth to do at work.. just slack
other then the force of sir asking me to change my citizen to singapore..
sian lo...

after tt.. i really wan to thanks uncle wee...
thanks for talking to me once again...
telling me wat to do so...
but i am still confuse....
like wat you say... i am someone whu dun like to listen to wat ppl say about rather get the facts myself.....
but the fact now i see is all bad.. nth gd..
not being angry or sad or emo..
but say really y do i have to go through this??

and for the hair cut too...
now i got a very kid haircut.. cause i am always a kid in his eyes..
the way he talk and act infront of me... is better than my own father...
able to make me speak is not easy.. i know..

for those whu dunno... uncle wee is my godfather father onli hairdresser..
he is 86 this year...
gd man...

i think.. y think so much when i know is him...
got to think for my own study le ba... 1 and a half year to go...
and then "bye"

bros.. without u all my alcohol cell gone liao la...
and i wan it back....
i wan to go eat with u all..
i wan the laugher... i miss them...=(
bro u win liao la..
now she dun frenz me liao lo..
u good liao lo...

now doing duty..but got to go out soon le.. one guard down.. so i got to stand by him.. got to take care of all the guards..
and i am still sick.. the worst thing is tt tml i got to go for my blood test at nuh.
good job liao lo...
dunno how bad this blood test will be liao...

still alfred u win liao la.....
eh bro so now u think wat??
come my tag box acknowledged relative meh???

todae thought tt i wan slack.. but then tml got to stay in camp then cannot study so todae need to..
study the whoel dae...
until just now went with cum go jurong west eat claypot rice which had been veru long since i went there with bear they all...
its' still nice...
but coem back.. i vomit again... damn sian... sick and tired of myself..
and then tml got to stay in camp sian ar sian...
it had been a rotting sat for me...
doesn't feel like studying or doing anything todae...
so i sit or lie on my sofa for the whole dae...
watch tv and listen to my mp3..
3 plus cum message me.. then he reply at 4 plus asking for tea..
and i wait until 9 he still dun appear at my doorstep for tea..
zzzz.. then ask him to go down dinner as i haven eat yet..
eat until damn full.. but once i reach home same thing happen.. camp in toilet lo..
lolz...
after tt since my father got another lorry back le..
thought of going to pray so i went with ping..
pray for the same thing again..
but once i reach home on my facebook first thing i see..
"i broke my fingernail"...
i was speechless for a moment. it was like 30 mins again i just pray and i come back and see the post was like 20 mins again..
but the next thing come to mind is still is she ok?
hopefully yes ba...
it 2 plus and i am still feeling damn awake...
i think i turning into "god" soon lo.. haha
zzzz i dunno wat happen sia...
whole dae nv eat then just now meet ping to eat...
eat one bowl of fishball noodle also cannot finish...
then finished my teh c.. haha
but i just came back from the toilet..
i just wasted my food.. i vomit everything out.. wtf lo...
sian.. this is one of the sideeffect ba... i think...

just now when i am at home at 7..
i decided to pack my drawer..
see alot of things... include my journal since pri sch..and is like 4 books..\
haha read all of it.. and laughing to myself.. like so stupid.. haha..
throw lots of stuff..
i got birthdae card.. haha.. kept all of them...
i see this birthdae which is on 2007 also the first present she gave me.. lolz...
haha.. then i got this mindset..
i have always been negaitive.. blaming myself even since i was young.. lolz..
haha..

after vomit... now i am hungry again.. but nth to eat.. sian....
tml morning then find cum eat ba.. da sao also there.. hahaha...
funny.. belinda like me to call her da sao.. she damn happy de.. lolz...

got to go study le..
taking bridging exam...
stress!
today is a public holidae.. but to me is just like a normal sat or sun..
since is ph.. i decided not to call melvin.. so he can go out with his gf.. as she is not working todae..
so i take a cab to warehouse todae...
it was so empty and cold...

it was then i realize tt i am not really tt mature as i think..
i feel like like a kid...
i keep looking on the phone..
looking at the door..
hoping someone will come in or my phone will ring...
i feel like a kid who need care and concern..
felt lonely and left aside...
been here the whole dae...
it's about time to go home lo...
back to a place where i rot again...
hey bro... dun worry like wat i always say i not going to die tt easily.. still got 18yrs more..=)

ya.. just like wat alfred say.. my white blood cell is down by 75%...
is something like an AIDS ppl?? haha
prone to all any illness out there...

so now i am down with flu, running nose , headache , cough , insomnia and fever..

i am just walking around at 38.5degree..

got 7 dae mc from camp mo.. but got tonnes of work to do...
so i will still be going back to camp..
cause course starting...

my phone is like no longer call a phone.. is like a alarm... haha
since it like damn free for me... start studying but like nth gets in.. zzzz
thinking of getting 2 more degree during this 2 yrs.. before i go over to get my own engineer degree.. =)...
i'm sorry... i think this is the onli thing tt i can do in my life..

i dun mean ignoring u..
i dun mean i dun wan to know anytihng about u..
i dun mean all tt...

wat i mean is me.... unable to start a conversation...
unable to show the care and concern even as a friend..
i just dunno how to speak up..
dunno how to start off..
onli know how to say sorry..

sorry
Melvin just asked me. why u nv like to smile and always got no emotion on my face ?

just then i think of my very own flaws.

I cannot handle and express emotions..
tt y i choose to have a plain face or nth at all..

btw thanks melvin.. got to spent the nite with me at warehouse.. sorry to take up ur time..
so wat if i can study now???
i just lose the meaning of life...

the mind and heart work on a diff line...

why i can just start a conversation?
always is the other whu start..
i dunno, i'm lost...
i got got 2 emails..
first is my full result of my this term uni...
Prof Eng Math AD
Prof Blue Print AD
Prof Aerodynamic AD
Prof Mechdynamic Part I/IV AD
Prof Cruise Engine Part I/IV AD

plus this:
Student CHOKE CHONG HWEE S8828299Z, an oversea student in UOB, achieved TOP SCHOLAR OF THE YEAR and BEST FRESHMEN AWARD.

next is..
CHOKE CHONG HWEE S8828299Z HAD BEEN ACCEPTED IN TO BACH OF COMMERCE IN UNI OF NORTHERN IOWA. AS AN OVERSEA ONLINE CLASS STUDENTS.
sat came...
another slpless nite for me...
wat got into me i dunno..message text but the send button not press..
cooling down?
dun think so.. it's like killing myself..blocking off from everything..
staying in warehouse just to hide..
wonder to myself y am i doing this...
i can't answer...
whu will???
i wonder on...
back to me le...
dunno wat is into me nowadaes.
i got this very bad thought in me...
i like ignoring her or trying very hard not to ask her anything... i also dunno myself strange enough..
my health had not been gd cause i cannot slp and i am taking medi for others.. to try out the side effects... tt me.. nv believe in theory and onli believe it when it happen to me... then kena scold le lo...
i just read stats and commerce book.. hard enough.. aleast for me ba...
strange me... nvm.. hope this feeling will be gone ba....
ok alfred stop these...
u know me very well and u also know i dun say all these..
whether i have done all those or not doesn't matter..
it's on free will bro...
i not doing all these for pity or watever....
so dun say le..
i do wat i think i need to.. doesn't mean it had to be known...
thanks..

Choke Chong Hwee...
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DeAtHkNiGhT
Alot of nick names..
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started to protect. om 28 july =)
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