Sunday, October 30, 2005 @ 10:18 | back to the top.
hee...very stressed for the coming exam..monday is chinese le....my worst subject of all times...i remember the last time i get a for mother eongue is pri 2 ba..haha...then all the way drop and drop..haha...dunno how to study for mother tongue....haha..but need to study...acctually i dun intend to study liao de..cause... i know will be the same de...c6..haha..but she ask me to study or dun tok to her....=X..haha so study ba...since it means no harm...haha...friday go sch get award..haha..a little badge..for cca..dunno wat..then mr bong in front of whole sch gif some of the taf ppl a prize cause cut down over 5 kg...i cut down 8kg so i got something too..haha..it is a skipping rope..dunno for wat..hhaha..then after tt....went hm..nth to do...then went to play pool... hand pain still can play pool rite..not bad har...=X..haha..all rite la..cause play with shuinan onli not need like play with jerome they all need skill... shuinan one u ujse thinking can win him de...but lastly we have the score of 5:5....haha..i lose 5 match and win 5...but i think he onli win once or twice cause other is i in black ball..haha...then after tt go hm...cook le...but my mum say my things not good to eat...then i accompany her to go down...but she eat i see onli...haha..then sat meet shuinan at 1.30 we go jp walk walk cause actually wan to meet people when their class finished..but they with their teacher went to eat..so we dun disturb haha..i buy le the "f"amous choc cake for someone but nv meet haha...then shuinan ask me buy for whu de...then i say foe myself can?..then he say i dun belive..so i take out and eat down all the cake....haha...since i haven eat..haha..then send shuinan hm..then i slowly walk hm..since i really got nth to do...then i go cut my hair..now i very shory le..no tail...nothing..damn short..wan put also cannot..haha..then at nite study mother tongue...study to 2.00a.m..haha...think first time i can study chinese for so long...haha...ok le..i need to go for cc de co soon...somemore i haven wash up..=X..hee..byEzz..Friday, October 28, 2005 @ 00:11 | back to the top.
hi..abt to go to slp.....come here tok tok awhile...very diffcult to type cause my right hand abit burnt..then mum wrap my hand with tape...so uncomfortable...haiz....dunno why..."her" had been playing cold war with me...no tok...sms little like none...bye bye ,hello also dun have...haiz..nth i can do.....sorry...me dun understand...i am not angry..but just confused..why u gif me cold shoulder???did i make u angry? did i do anything wrong?...u just tell me...i will and can change...sorry if there is sa need...but dun gif my cold shoulder can??? cold war is too tough for me from u...it hurts me...but u think like this is better..then ok...can tell me...dun wan to see me? tell me too....i will not appear infront of u....anything just tell me...todae is another boring dae..morning eat wat breakfast at jurong west..thne go jp play wat arcade..with shuinan..then he go sch meeting then i waited outside for him..then i ask him go mac study with me...he come..then "her" sms me tt they will be studying at BL mac too..ask me wan come anot..dun wan FORGET IT!!!..u know how much it hurts to see this sms...haiz...she come le...with her frenz..very happy...but i and her no commcaition..gtg cause need to go hm cook dinner..think she will not understand one..cause i go at 7...they still staying...not even a bye from her... me go hm le... reasiled tt my hand is too pain to hold the cooking pots...so i went down to packet for my family..still kena scolded by them say y no cook onli know how to go out play...haiz....they dun understand me too..haiz..i can do nth but gif them scold loh...haha..ok la..i tml still need to go sch...i go slp le..ZzzzZZzzzZZzzZZzzzZzzZZZZZTuesday, October 25, 2005 @ 21:47 | back to the top.
haiz....boring dae of my life...just finished dinner but onli drink water cause no mood...todae morning wake up at 7.30 cause shuinan call me...he nth to do...haha...then actually he wan to go k-box...but i no mood..haiz....cause nv get to see her todae..no message also..i nv message her cause think she busy ba...so dun wan disturb her...haiz...no mood to do anything...then go areana play pool but i anyhow play...there no ppl...then onli 2 of us....then i win 10:01..lolz..anyhow play also can...haiz...then go jp..he go see wat phone he going to buy...but ii fan him like hell...then rain veru huge..take 240 one round..he gif me fan until wan to siao liao...then i take 99 with him one round..fan him again..cause he is my bro ma....my two others bro going to be not free le...alfred and xiao xiong...alfred is begin called by his father in USA to go back..he wouldn't be able to find me until next year jan..haiz...but still wished him gd luck in his business..then xiao xiong is going back to malaysia also cause of father business..haiz...still wished him lauck la.....Bros workhard..we will meet together one dae and chat abt all we wan....Go Go Go!!ok,now is my things le....my now having "o" lvl....trying very hard to study but always thinks of her..happy tihnking of her...wander wat she is doing? whether is she fine...images of her smiling flow through my brain..haha..so happy... but i dun have time for her le...me dunno how..after "o"lvl i got to go SYCO,Work....haiz..then if she really work at her sister there then even worse..she work morning to evening then me from evening to midnite...Wa....HOW????? HEAVEN....pls..help me...teach me how....but she work also good ba...but the boss cannot bully her or i go kill him/her..=X.....me going back to my marriot hotel to work...shuinan working at there le....me after exam then go work...haiz...then need to go syco and co practices cause syco got pfm during dec..dunno she will go anot..haiz..nvm ba..since i at there also onli extra there..i so lousy..haiz...REALLY NO TIME LE..=(..i am going to cry...whenever i think of this qns...images comes out and tears cover my eyes...but i nv let them dropped cause i always think there is going to be a solution for everthing in this world..ok...i try to think of something ba...maybe change job or wat ba..haiz...dunno how..if u know pls tell me...and Heaven dun paly with me anymore ok...i have told u many things..and u have played with me alot of times...but this time pls...let it be ok....let her come to me can?..maybe no...but let let her smile more and laugh more...i really make my hearts bleed when i see her face sianz or sad or angry..pls...let her have the beautiful smile on her cute face..really damn beautiful and cute when she smile and laughs.....thanls heaven if u really help me..thanks...tml think she also not ffree..haha..lonely again ba..lolX....headache le..byeZ..
Monday, October 24, 2005 @ 13:34 | back to the top.
yoZ....boring at hm..haha...no need to go sch loh...haha..cause self-study le..haha...nthing to do...no ppl ask me to go out...haiz...nth to do damn boring..boring boring borging..BORING....Sunday, October 23, 2005 @ 04:56 | back to the top.
haha..just watch finished show at hm... very touching how i wished i could be like them...so happy togather..haha..sorry...this few daes nv update...no chance to use com...really...father at hm will nag at me..need to study..haiz....finished finished the notebook..haha..dunno she can read my words anot....not cfm ba..haha...let me think..tuesday nv go sch cause i need to go hospital for check up....haha...doc say better alot le..haha..dunno la...ask me to take care..then say look after me so many years le know tt i will not listen de..haha.... then wed..nv go sch again..cause is all science...sianz ma...cause thursdae is science practical...haha...thurdaes practical loh...ok la..but dunno i got write wrong anot..haha...then is keyln birthdae..go arena...but i go until 8 i go hm..cause my dad dun let me go out..then i take cab hm...luckily he haven reached hm..or i die again..haiz....then friday wan go sch de...but when i wake up got headach..then take bus to sch...it got worse..then meet shuinan gif him cd..then i go hm rest le...very pain..haiz....maybe cause wed finished the notebk at 3++ then late slp ba....cause have been staying up late to finshed the notebk fast for her to study...cause not much time le...she wan to pass onli can depend on her le...hope she will use the notebk ba...then nite go mac study with geraldine,kelyn and hwee qi... go hm at 10...see my dad face black black haha.... then shuinan sms sometihng very big..he told me tt he begin to like a gal... can see this is real..cause he tok abt it all the time...gd luck to him ba..=)..dun be like me can le...=X..then sat...which is todae..nono is ytd..haha..morning dunno why slp like pig intil geraldine message me say i gif the t-shirt ti mdn peng le ma..haha..then faster wash up then do the design..is touch up ba..cause i saved in my com one gone...die she see le will kill me...then after tt go mac study...after tt shuinan come my house.... we go eat at jurong west st?? dunno...near hong kah north cc there...we drink beer cause really no happy abt something..haha..drink a little onli then both act drunk..haha..lame like hell but chat alot..he told me something i dun belive....but he have no adantage to lie me abt tt...so..maybe it is truth..dunno..haiz....smk alot also... haha..then go back my house..he fell aslp on my bad..haha..then i watch tv... wake him up at 12.30..haha...then together watch tv..then 1.30 we walk hm together..i mean walk to his house...chat and chat..haha...bro ma...guy tok mostly abt gals la ok...haha...sad also....lolz...then walked back hm myself...raining somemore...haha..then come back cannot fall asleep cause shuinan tell me tt thing....can't belive it..haiz...then watch tv until now....haha..ok la i think i go watch tv until i slp...somemore tml still need to wake up for cc co haha....i wan go de...but shuinan not going he got to work..haiz...alone there...haiz...ok byeZ...Monday, October 17, 2005 @ 20:35 | back to the top.
yoz...back to life...dead for a moment...lolz.....nth la...cause i got nothing to up ma...haha...let c....sat i went out....with ger and shuinan....go pool...haha..play 6hrs+... $35.80.....haha..i treat them play..also dunno why.......haha..nvm they both my really gd frenz..really really gd..think more then frenz...more like my family members le....really love them...haha...then shuinan fever come my house..say wan to slp but nv slp..come my house eat and play...haha...then at around 1 i walk with him to his house..haha....fun cause walk until half go vending machine buy things like free..haha...then i keep saying wrong things then keep laughing..ppl see thought we crazy...haha..buddy forever..haha..then i walk hm...nth to do ba....walk and think of my own tghings...count the daes waited for her....haha...still short la....others wait for 3 yrs le..me going to 3 months onli....haha..then my exam...my furture...after exam....how to keep contact with all...5 yrs passes really damn fast...primary school my be fun but secondary is the best...all my mermoies are here in BOON LAY SEC gd or bad..i love all...here is where i found out whu i really love and wat love is....really..and hardworking...gd frenz.....all fun...ok now is story time...............haha
there was a boy whu had a tude in his heart crack where blood keep flowing out.....sometime it is really pain can feel...he knew it when he is in pri 1..he cried for a wk...u may think that he is really young dunno how it feel...he had to keep skipping sch for hospital....he had no frenz..he is like a monster in class.even teachers dun like to be close with him...he started to grow on his very own.....he doesn't wan his parents to have the angry or u all called sad face to gif me..why he can nv do his things rite...not study..no playing..all no.... in his pri 2 he start to be strong...hid everything inside him even the very pain he dun show out a bit...he just smile with all..=)...he started to onli go hospital during off sch hrs and when he really needs it...he started to have more frenz in pri3...fast he know lots lots...but he kept it a sercet....really noones knows....he started to play basketball to try whether it will be in pain...lucky it is not really pain and he enjoy it..he started playinh and pri4 he join the sch team..really gd....keep playing and playing...2 yrs past... he slowly onli go to doc twice a years onli...however maybe the heaven dun like him..he got muscles tear and a really big one...he knew it is going to be pain but he had tried wat even more painful then this..he keep quiet and when to hpspital to stay for 6 months..he cannot move his legs at all..he had his psle in hospital...really it is no gd feeling at all...he lose his frenz.... he felt alrite..then he moves to sec 1..he didn't tell anyone abt his past..he become a normal people..he is happy like hell haha....really happy..go on with life...stop basketball le....cannot play told by doc... he is sad..but nv show...he kept it all...he try all others...he knew all most all sport...he start to know a special frenz when in sec2 become buddy in sec3 ...really gd..now he told his stories to him acause he know he is going to be long buddies...really...and he started to notice a gal during his sec 4..but he dun dare to say cause he had dropped to na from express..then go to sec 5 realise she also liked him..happy awhile but broke off cause she liked others...haha..then becomes really gd frenz..more than frenz ba....haha...told her some of his stories...not to make her pitil him but to encourage her...there is someone worst then her..haha..i am not going to tell u whu this person is but dun guess...he dun like it...thanks...hee
Friday, October 14, 2005 @ 00:40 | back to the top.
just got back not long from sch de gradu nite..not bad..see all my frenz all so high and happy..really gd... me not really used to this kind of things....the really sad things is tt i have a really bad headache..till now it still really hurtz ok... dizzy too...dunno why..haha...i am so ugly can... i nv wear business suit out unless really need... feel so uneasy..nth much ba..cause i sit outside for a very long time cause of the headach... then after tt take phot with my class de..haha.. then nth much ba... geraldine was sent hm by her parents..she is so angry..and pulled a long face..think she ok ba...cause she still know her parents is care for her one..not like mine..onli know how to take away my freedom..sux ok...dun understand me at all...haiz..dun tok about them...shuinan is so tired..he started working....haha..he seem more mature...haha...ok le me got nth much...head really pain..i go take medi le..byEZWednesday, October 12, 2005 @ 15:50 | back to the top.
hi all...finally my com is back on use again..lolzz...too long vn write also dunno wan write wat...onli know now my head damn pain...headache everydae....dizzy also...dunno why..maybe dieing???...whu know....?lolzz all test ba and all this stupid classes teachers gif...damn stress... haiz...how to pass life.... i have lose my freedom le...kena scolded by father..then no freedom no money... he cut my pocket money by HALF..u know HALF...haiz...then eat away all my money... haiz..wat kind of father is this ...i dun even know... maybe he is not my father..=X..whu cares..haha..boring life of mine...still the same...haiz...nth inproved over the daes onli got worst.. my result is even worst... cannot let ppl see one.... not A n B.. all Cs then 1 D and 1F...wtf...F9 u know..all CH...dunno why cannot remember one...damn sucks....haiz..nth to write le... byEZ