hiaz...my leg is very pain...just go c doc....he pushed very hard damn pain....then i shouted out...i long time nv shout le...very pain...but feeling very gd in my heart....haha..then take medi...pills...5 pilss each time..twice a dae...wa..i hate pills...then got drinks de also...the taste just simply SUX!!!!!..i hate it...my leg is damn pain...haiz...todae got sch loh...teachers dae celebration loh... first in class got yoga....but not doing...lolzz..then after tt go hall sit....dunno why not really happy...dun feel like seeing the perform..then onli listen to the songd then all is i hear b4 one... then i sing along myself loh...lame ba...sorry bros...u all come to sch but i nv go find u all...very sorry.....sorry...then go hm then go go rulang meet geraldinn they all...they go in sch find teachers and ex class mate..but me and shuinan sit outside the general office there act like there de students...lolzz...act like no time no c like tt...haha..lame...then drink water..i played with the can...to make mini can...haha..then cut my own finger...lolzz...lame ba...then go arena le....go there so full.....then i and shuinan go la kopi...lame ba...then he see one clean table de pretty..lolzz..then go back...they all wan play bowling loh...haha...play la...lolzz..play with surfan...then play alone...haha..my thumb de nail gif me bowl until useless le..lolzz...finished playing bowling already 6+ le....i actually dun wan go hm de...but...need to go see doctor..i am sorry everyone....sorry....somemore next wed still need to go...wa...pain like hell...haiz...whu tell me to play so much bb..love bb so much...but someone is on equally state as bb in my heart but..she..haha..dun tok abt it la...useless de..haha...it is impossible..haha..ok la very late le...leg also very pain i go slp le....and think where to go tml....haha..no money also...haha...ok la...goOd NiTe.....TaKe CaRe..=)
Boredom..full me up...todae nothing much happen...early in the moring wake up at 9... wash up...dream awhile more siting on sofa...then walk to cc for co...buy coke early in the moring to drink cause nth better to do...smk also...then go in for practice..then they all practice er hu da song...i sit in instrutment rm inside do nth....todae very very little ppl come... no sound from ppl mouth onli from instrutment....then i practice 1 song onli...then finished le...after tt nth to do...then remember tt i need rubber tube for d&t..go bicycle shop want the uncle see me le ask one qns...why u look so bored?...i answer...bored loh..haha..lame ba... then go hm rot...sit there with the tv on but thinking of ppl...dunno wat show i watch also..then suddenly my small bro ask me go play bb....very wired he ask me go paly bb...which he dun like at all...lame ba... go down also bored...then go hm...watch 1 hrs tv..le...go down buy dinner...i nth to eat...very bored...then nv eat much.....then hm rot again....then go fetch mother....now back to use come..later will rot again..before slping..... nv see shuinan and geraldine todae very weird..haha..then just now got call shuinan see how he..think he is fine..happily laughing....but geraldine i nv call her..i dun use to calling gal...message her loh..but nv reply...but hear from shuinan she is happy when he is on phone with her...so ok loh....i think i am the onli one bored ba....haha....nvm la...they all happy i happy also..he..=)...
just finished my dinner..all left over from ytd..hhaa...very full now...todae go sch de co...practice loh...same same...then after tt go jp eat loh...soo many ppl in jp....sianz..then go imm buy things tt is needed for this fridae bbq..lame.......but see ger face very pale..very worried abt her....always dizzy...haiyo...then coming back de time her face sudden black....so worried again..haiz..i also dunno how to take care of her....haiz...she always forget to bring medi out...dunno how..
yoz...todae late day in sch...then wake up late also loh..then forget todae shuinan got perlim go sch early...then i wait for nth under his blk..cause forget ma...haha..lame ba...then walk to sch myself loh....haha..then boring loh..haha...same loh...sch hrs....then after sch got science class loh...both science...bored loh..no ppl accompany me eat... so lonely....haha...after sch also lonely walk hm...no need to send anyone hm...so early reached hm so wired.....ger fell sick le....todae recess still see her face so pale....but hear her usually laugh with her frenz then i can out the stone in my heart down...or i will go fan her again..=X..haha...very lonely ba... think me...haha.. bo bian.. i now onli got 2 important frenz...one perlim one sick...at can i do?..,i dun even know..haha... just go on ba...todae get back math ca5...sux man..onli 25/30..sianz...highest 29 le... somemore very de easy le.....haiz...dunno how le la......stress.....
hey....noth loh...just come back from sch not long...cause got english class... so boring de class...then wait for ger..but dunno why she so angry... think cannot find us..then she went off first...then we go bus stop saw her...face so black...haiz...then go up bus...they all sit behind then i and shuinan sit infront...then reached le...dropped off...she walked damn fast think dun wan to see us or me ba.....dunno wat happen maybe is my fault ba...phone too lousy...haiz...
hee...finally find time to use com...sorry for not update ytd and the day b4 cause no chance to use com...but i dun tihnk anybody come and c my blog......haha..if realy pls write something on my tag even a space ok can...thx.. todae same life in sch loh...today math ca damn easy..=X..the ss damn diffcult...haha..no la cause i nv study...then after sch go jp makan...chicken rice again..haha... think the people going to know me le..haha.. then walk walk..shuinan always have electric in jp dunno why..haha...like to shock us...very pain le....haha..then send them hm..then now at hm rot loh....haha...i wan to go out and study but no ppl will accompany me cause i like to study at nite and in mac or fast food res...haha...ger they all got nite class socannot loh...then shuinan no need say can't even come out..haha...anywhere think next week go out study myself le...haha...work hard everyone....exam coming..gogo.....hee... ok i write to here le..byeZ byEZ
hi....haha..just finished dinner...cause afternnon also nv eat...haha.....very bored le...dunno wat to do... now just use few mins to update this blog..haha...after the lab we go central to eat loh...they all paly with the things tt they left eating..haha..lame ba...then nth le loh...all went hm...i went hm to rot loh..sit there walk up and there...lied here and there...then 8 go down packet dinner for my family de....then now rot again...some more father is back..haiz..boring le....haiz...haiz...think i go rot again......MiSs "HeR" So MuCh!!!!!
wahaha....lame ba..nth to do...just after co in sch...now in sch de lab...todae wait up very de late wors...haha....at 9.30 le......very late...actually slp even longer de is ger mag me.... all because of shuinan la...ask him call me nv call....then faster washed up....then come out loh...buy breadfast for them....mac...then take cab down to sch loh..haha....cause i cannot run,,,my middle fingers of my left leg swollen....very the pain when touch..haha..cause ytd got ppl jumped very de high then land on my leg..damn pain le....leg even cramped....haha...then go hm kena scolded by father cause of this....haha//lame ba....now i very de hungry..buy for them nv buy for myself..haha.....then haven eat....haha..think going le ba....lab going to close le....haha...i will write again...think tonite if i can use com..haha..ok la...byeZ..
hi...hee..nth to write much..hee...todae morning go sch loh..late day... haha...early in the morning ger voice so farnie..haha... all rite quite the same.....then go class loh... lesson are so boring...haha...nvm la whu tell me to be born in this world...got to study... after sch go science class loh.. 2 science in a dae..wan me to die...haha...but nvm la... all so boring..haha...then send them hm then go hm loh...haha..still got where to go....ger very afarid her phone will be taken by her mum cause her bill over alot..haha..but i tihnk nth happen but..think she get scolded onli ba... cause she still can msg me....haha...good loh..happy for her...haha...my father seem to be not happy with me..haha..i writing blog here...he nagging outside..haiz...haha....dun care abt his "singing".... me doing math paper1..very diffcult le....haiz....stress ar....haha...tihnk i go continue to do...or he will sing non stop...haha..bYeZ
haiz...todae same old sch dae....nv bring pe shirt todae...but got bring shorts....lame ba....then kena scold... then after sch got english calss but cancel...haha..then go co loh... new song...very diff...from last time... dunno how those juniors will do..haha... then go hm loh....haiz...todae not gd...ar... she not in gd mood..think something happen in her calss..then her bill too high her mum going kill her...haiz..i also dunno how to help her..haiz... then todae nv talk to her in the face of A WORD...haiz...feeling so sad.....geeting farer from ppl...haiz...dunno how to tok to her also....me....dunno...haiz... no one can help me ba... i am really useless..... steess is coming from everywhere now..haiz...got class everydae...so tired.... test coming also...wa lao...so cramp de time table...brain going to explose le..haiz...GoNE
here is a sad story....
Long ago...there was a boy whu nv wan to study..he is always in a happy go lucky....then when he goes to primary sch his subject dropped lik ehell....then he aslways hide himself at nite under to blanket to cry... for a very long time...over the years his tears dried up....now he wan to cry also cannot...he is unable to do it....haiz...then he now belive to try he best to study and dun care wat the result is as he has try his very best le..and there is nothing else he can do... everytime his father scold him he can onli sit there and listen..and now whu ever scold him he can onli llisten..he can't drop tear....nth he can do too... but a very bad feeling is in him...now even him thinks tt he is brainless and no heart at all....useless bastard...now he became more and more lazy...failure in everything he does... no moral at all...dun feel like doing anything at all... no frenz...haiz...he is loney...but i tihnk no one can help him... onli himcan help him useless but....haiz...
there this boy feeling very bad but think noone cares ba....
so telling u all this is because ask u all to work hard and be cheerful dun think so much just go for ur aim will do....dun be like this useless boy...ok?...
THE END
haiz...just come back from a walk round boon lay...hauiz...feeling not gd....haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz...think i make 2 ppl not happy todae..and they are important to my life...haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz....wat can i do???? feeling so useless...and anti social....haha..lame ba...not mood to joke around..... got ews jokes to share but no mood..haiz... in class also like tt...at hm also like tt...outside also like tt.....my life is from bad to worst..... haiz...need to study le..or o lvl comfirm failed....also dunno wan study wat?? english oral coming... on 23 august..haiz...another stressful things come.....and d&t too....haiz....so STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz...wan to make blog skin also no mood...haiz.... think this post is the haiz post....dunno la...stress ar......fu*k la chong hwee... u sux.....u useless... are u a guy or a gay??? u lame le....i scolded u!!!!!!!haiz....GonE
hiaz//todae is not a good dae for me.....go sch loh...then after sch actually got CH class de then cancel...then wait for shuinan then wait for ger....then wan send they both go hm de..then this bro of mine keep waiting to go hm...i see him everydae always gif in to me accompany me le...then accompany him go hm early todae...then ger angry le...haiz...i think i am the useless one ba...dunno how to make decision ba.....haha....i am an idiots... after that i walk hm loh...see so many bus 99 also dun feel like taking loh...then leg very pain think is old injuries ba....haiz... really think of alot of things when walking hm...and really damn loney without them...i feel so bored and fan without them...haiz....then i really think tt i am reallly useless....haiz....then reach hm le....duno wan to do wat...wan to message ger but think she is angrry ba.... fan her later she become more angry then i die le..haiz...me going to be isolated le ba......haha...nvm...bears like me are useless.....GoNe
yawnz...it is going late....me is just before bed time come tok tok..haha...todae go sch loh...same sch life...but abit diff todae...i lost 6kg....haha..mr bong face so shocked...haha..lame ba..dunno why cut down so much..i dun even feel it...haha.... nothing much also...tell u something... i haven been cutting down smk alot le....haha..think able to stopped fully soon ba...haha think cause of her ba...hee...dunno...nowadaes very stress le sch...dunno why..haha...work work work....all sch work....haiyo...haiz..dunno la.....think better slp early..or tml cannot wake uo..haha...good nite..take care..
hihi.....sorry long time nv come to chat...haha...dunno why la...dun feel like using com...boring com...dunno next time how to work..haha...hee...sorry for so long nv come see u....haha..now going to tok abt my life le...wahhaa....let start form 8 august...my birdae...haha..go sch loh...then kena spray hair...tio shirt also...haha..then go hospital see sharon..she down by fever..haiz..so ken lian....haha...bored her to death..=X..sorry...then go hm loh..haha...cause shuinan cannot go out loh...hahanvm..then geraldinn also cannot go out...somemore she got to stay overnite with her sis....so sad...somemore there damn cold haiz....somemore next dae got fever..haiz...i so worried abt her...btw get well soon..think too late..haha...u well le....haha...ok then 9 august....still at hm...say wan to do homework but lazy...haha..then stay at hm see national dae pardae..haha...lame loh...i finished seeing the army march off le..then nv see le..cause others so boring..haha...then dunno loh..wahaha...then now 10 august...where i go ar???? i also forget.... o.o...remember le.... go areana with shuinan ,ger and wei jie....yaya..haha...then go hospital together see sharon how...haha...she still lokking very plae tt time.....haha...then go hm slp loh...haha..then is 11 agust...is thurday....go sch loh..haha gif mr leow scold cause nv hand in foilo...haha...nvm la..used to it le...then afternoon...omg i forget again..sorry...i no brain de...haha..i got it...i go arena with ger and shuinan and hwee qi and syfan and irfan and 4/7 de....think so ba...haha..not correct pls dun scold me....=)..todae somemore ger start to cough..she also getting sick so worried....then is 12 agust le.....go sch loh...haha..got chinese 0 lvl result i got c6 and oral distintion..haha..happy???? not really...even though got pass...other may think i am happy...haha...but i am not.. cause i hid myself later in the nite to drop my tears..haha big secert dun tell ppl....haha...ger got b3 think she also cry ba...me also dunno how to help... cause ppl whu know me will know tt i really really scared of gal crying....see irene tt dae cry untill like tt i really feel sad..even though she like carzy...but she bring laughter....her chinese really good de...not onli chinese think study ba...haiz..dunno wat happen to her.....haiz...feel helpless.....ok ba...pass le...just study hard...put in ur best effort u will sooner or later get wat u wan...dun gif up....haha...also go cut hair...too stress ba....wan a change....very ugly.....ok then is 13 agust....is sat...moring meet shuinan and ger to go sch for co.... haha...we three like always together..haha..good ma....got frenz...then i call shuinan early his phone busy de...he say his sis use....then when it got throught..his mum say he go out le...but he is in toilet..lame ba.....haha....then go sch de co...mr ji drive me to cc to pick up my cello...wahaha....then after tt go jp eat lunch..ger couging got worst.....haiz...so worried...then after tt theysay go hm loh....so early reach hm is so wired to me..haha..but later int the nite i also go down play bb till 11+ haha...got my plam scratch...haha..pain le.....then go hm slp....ok then is todae le..haha...got cc de co in the morning...haha..there very little ppl.....haha...then onli practice one sing then go hm le...haha..i go luch with ger...at mac....she got cough le still can eat mac..pro le...haha..then she take bus hm..i also dunno wat i doing at tt time...nv send her hm..i crazy le..haha...sorry ger....sorry...then go hm rot loh...miss her...but dun wan disturd her so nv sms her at all......later i become very fan...dunno why she now coming to more sickness..haiz...worried......ok la...i tok to here can le.... sorry ppl...haha...my bro wan use com......hee...take care everyone....those sick get well soon...happy forever..haha....bye...good NitE..this take me 30 mins to write haha...
sudden those word past my mind...I wan to be with u every single dae of my life...i dunno wat will happen without u...now there something really wrong in my heart...cause i haven seen u todae....no matter wat happen pls stay happy..take care..and i will be waiting for u no matter how long it will be..until the dae my heart stopped......dunno why la...those word pass me..just wonder why there is always someone whu hurts others.....todae is a boring dae of my....damn boring nv go for cc de co cause father scold me say i always go out...no need study izzit...haiz..i dun gif a damn aby him....todae sharon go hospital...ger say she fever for 3 dae le...take care worss.....wish u get well soon....my also duuno why not feeling rite todae.....tml is my birdae liao...think of going out at nite wan to ask her...but she not cfm...shuinan tt dae use my hp msg her...haiz..nvm...i am really very happy liao...aleast got her with me in sch....haha...dunno why have been smking these few daes...very bad.....cause something is really wrong in my heart....nv have this feeling before so even me dunno wat i should do...haiz....dun feel like using com.....need someone to chat to...pls msg me if anyone know wat happen to me...even dunnno can also chat with me...thanks.....bYeZ bYeZ..
hEY!!!nth much..nth to do so come up have a chat with myself.....haha...lame ba....todae mring go sch loh.....then in sch....nth much happen..then after sch shuinan go with me to my chem class...then go jp buy things...they buy for their class banner de...then nth much..they went to sch de oppse in the voild deck to make...haha see they can make until so happy...feeling great for them..nice sch mates and class mates..but of course not my class la....haha..todae get the class make de t-shirt damn ugly some more $15 le..very exp...and i dun think i will be going to sch on mondae....cause i off myself for my birddae..haha..lame...see them really happy...can make so much fan...but me and shuinan very sianz..haha..nvm go accompany geraldinnn..but she also got her frenz...haha..we two very extra....then actually wan send her hm de...but shuinan wans to go hm first..and i dun think they wan me to stay also..cause i so extra......then go hm with shuinan loh...wat can i do?...haiz...nth much in my life..it is so boring.... me dunno wat happen to me...my sch table had been written by me for all sort of things....haha so lame....my books also...no mood study..haiz.....ok la..i also wan to study de...i wan to pass my o lvl..go poly....go on my life even though it is so sianz loh.....me still thinking mondae wan go where le.....nvm la....think shuinan also cannot late go hm cause 7th month is here.....think i will buy cake and sing myself..haha...nvm i am very happy this year le.... i got my every first biddae card..haha..so nice...and lastly.... i really miss the daes with my lao po....haha...=(..really miss those daes....haha..nvm..i just wan her to be happy...the person amy not be me...but whu ever the person is...if he /she make her sad...u will get it....haha...ok la...enough...i got lots of things to do later......byeZ.....
haiz...my feeling get abit better....but also like tt.....lucky got my really good bro...shuinan...even though he is always toking cocks..but always making ppl happy like a clown..but really gratefull to him......really..he a really got listener...anyone need ppl to listen to trouble can find him.... of course me also can la...even though my own problem haven sloved...but i think it can nv be solved..haha..it ok.. i willing to be like this...but need to buck up on my feeling...and make ppl around me buck up feeling also.....especially someone whu is very important to me...really....i wan ppl around me to be laughing...if can..every min....really.....i wan ppl in this world to be happy... there is no such thing as angry,sad,blue,feeling low,down,etc,all with not happy one to be GONE....i wan music too.....haiz..feeling down after reading blog.... she is abit like me...can act out a happy face for ppla round..but if alone or will the so call buddies...then will broken down.... feeling sad for her...but i can do nth..i just dun wan her to live in this world alone...i may not be importance to her...but dun wan her to be down.....if wan pls be infront of me..so i can really comfort her...dunno how to help her...think my brain bursting.......i have try alot of tings i can do to make her happy...but i failed.....wan to fan her also she wouldn't reply me....dunno...she say wan fan si wo...find me before sch,during recess and after sch. but nth of tt happen....haiz..dunno..maybe i am just an extra....Too sad so GONE..
haiz...dunno why..i have a very weird felling in my heart since last thurday..from 28/7...feeling is so bad...dunno why...and i really wan to get rid of this...very irrated..haiz....dunno why...todae go sch loh.... after sch go kfc makan...then i lose my lao po de name tag....haiz...dunno how i lose....after eating rushed bak to find..but cannot find haiz....then her dog also dropped but found by iren...nvm....think is no fate ba....haha...the wierd feeling is getting worst each dae...haiz...just now shave until cut my mouth...so lame wors.....haha...dunno why lao po feeling so sad....really wan to help her..but i can't do anything...haiz...feeling useless.....lameme...hate myself...dunno her story also...dunno whu she waiting also....haiz...feeling really useless.....btw..i felt i have changed...not social anymore..dunno how to laugh..dunno how to make ppl laugh also...always have i sad face...haiz.....dunno wat change me...haiz...feeling so fuck up....haiz....study had been dropping..nv wan to study....always slpy..haiz...dunno wat the fuck happen to me....hate myself even worst...moto of mine is to be happy so ppl around me will be happy also...but i think i failed..so i failed being myself...failed being a human..haiz...onli bring sadness to ppl around me...feel so guilty..haiz....dunno how to changed back liao....dunno how to study liao...dunno wat my future will be....cannot think...brian = useless....haiz...think i am getting from bad to worst liao...haiz....think i am going to be...sad go unlucky instead of happy go lucky... those wan to have luck one dun come near me...u will be unlucky....haiz...dunno wat happen to me...feeling so down now also...haiz....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ThIs Is ThE CaRd.. NiCe Ba... 
hi...todae really happy...moved in a way...think this is the first time ppl remember my birdae and celebrate..haha..even though haven reach..cause think they celebrating xianglin one..then make a "card" for me too ba..haha...anyway really happy....thanks... melissa,shihui ,syfan ,xianglin,mingjieand not least geraldinn.....haha...really happy..go jurong east de ktv..go singing....even though not first time go..but this is the first time i nv slp in it..haha..but dunno why very uneasy int here...think is me ba....cause she my wife not my stead actually i also dunno wat it means... i wanted to hold her hand but i scared cause is my wife not my stead so i can do nth...but see her singing so happily i also happy le...then wan to go hm le...father call..then scolded me say i 5 daes in a week is always out..then no need study izzit..then cause my mood from high to noth.....then they though i really tired...haiz..nvm it my hm affairs....so sad todae shuinan nv go..nvm next mondae make him happy.... but i wished my lao po can go out on mondae too...but i dun dared ask her.....maybe somedae later ba....nv eat dinner...haha..just wished everyone to be happy.....hee...

hiaz...my leg is very pain...just go c doc....he pushed very hard damn pain....then i shouted out...i long time nv shout le...very pain...but feeling very gd in my heart....haha..then take medi...pills...5 pilss each time..twice a dae...wa..i hate pills...then got drinks de also...the taste just simply SUX!!!!!..i hate it...my leg is damn pain...haiz...todae got sch loh...teachers dae celebration loh... first in class got yoga....but not doing...lolzz..then after tt go hall sit....dunno why not really happy...dun feel like seeing the perform..then onli listen to the songd then all is i hear b4 one... then i sing along myself loh...lame ba...sorry bros...u all come to sch but i nv go find u all...very sorry.....sorry...then go hm then go go rulang meet geraldinn they all...they go in sch find teachers and ex class mate..but me and shuinan sit outside the general office there act like there de students...lolzz...act like no time no c like tt...haha..lame...then drink water..i played with the can...to make mini can...haha..then cut my own finger...lolzz...lame ba...then go arena le....go there so full.....then i and shuinan go la kopi...lame ba...then he see one clean table de pretty..lolzz..then go back...they all wan play bowling loh...haha...play la...lolzz..play with surfan...then play alone...haha..my thumb de nail gif me bowl until useless le..lolzz...finished playing bowling already 6+ le....i actually dun wan go hm de...but...need to go see doctor..i am sorry everyone....sorry....somemore next wed still need to go...wa...pain like hell...haiz...whu tell me to play so much bb..love bb so much...but someone is on equally state as bb in my heart but..she..haha..dun tok abt it la...useless de..haha...it is impossible..haha..ok la very late le...leg also very pain i go slp le....and think where to go tml....haha..no money also...haha...ok la...goOd NiTe.....TaKe CaRe..=)
Boredom..full me up...todae nothing much happen...early in the moring wake up at 9... wash up...dream awhile more siting on sofa...then walk to cc for co...buy coke early in the moring to drink cause nth better to do...smk also...then go in for practice..then they all practice er hu da song...i sit in instrutment rm inside do nth....todae very very little ppl come... no sound from ppl mouth onli from instrutment....then i practice 1 song onli...then finished le...after tt nth to do...then remember tt i need rubber tube for d&t..go bicycle shop want the uncle see me le ask one qns...why u look so bored?...i answer...bored loh..haha..lame ba... then go hm rot...sit there with the tv on but thinking of ppl...dunno wat show i watch also..then suddenly my small bro ask me go play bb....very wired he ask me go paly bb...which he dun like at all...lame ba... go down also bored...then go hm...watch 1 hrs tv..le...go down buy dinner...i nth to eat...very bored...then nv eat much.....then hm rot again....then go fetch mother....now back to use come..later will rot again..before slping..... nv see shuinan and geraldine todae very weird..haha..then just now got call shuinan see how he..think he is fine..happily laughing....but geraldine i nv call her..i dun use to calling gal...message her loh..but nv reply...but hear from shuinan she is happy when he is on phone with her...so ok loh....i think i am the onli one bored ba....haha....nvm la...they all happy i happy also..he..=)...
just finished my dinner..all left over from ytd..hhaa...very full now...todae go sch de co...practice loh...same same...then after tt go jp eat loh...soo many ppl in jp....sianz..then go imm buy things tt is needed for this fridae bbq..lame.......but see ger face very pale..very worried abt her....always dizzy...haiyo...then coming back de time her face sudden black....so worried again..haiz..i also dunno how to take care of her....haiz...she always forget to bring medi out...dunno how..
yoz...todae late day in sch...then wake up late also loh..then forget todae shuinan got perlim go sch early...then i wait for nth under his blk..cause forget ma...haha..lame ba...then walk to sch myself loh....haha..then boring loh..haha...same loh...sch hrs....then after sch got science class loh...both science...bored loh..no ppl accompany me eat... so lonely....haha...after sch also lonely walk hm...no need to send anyone hm...so early reached hm so wired.....ger fell sick le....todae recess still see her face so pale....but hear her usually laugh with her frenz then i can out the stone in my heart down...or i will go fan her again..=X..haha...very lonely ba... think me...haha.. bo bian.. i now onli got 2 important frenz...one perlim one sick...at can i do?..,i dun even know..haha... just go on ba...todae get back math ca5...sux man..onli 25/30..sianz...highest 29 le... somemore very de easy le.....haiz...dunno how le la......stress.....
hey....noth loh...just come back from sch not long...cause got english class... so boring de class...then wait for ger..but dunno why she so angry... think cannot find us..then she went off first...then we go bus stop saw her...face so black...haiz...then go up bus...they all sit behind then i and shuinan sit infront...then reached le...dropped off...she walked damn fast think dun wan to see us or me ba.....dunno wat happen maybe is my fault ba...phone too lousy...haiz...
hee...finally find time to use com...sorry for not update ytd and the day b4 cause no chance to use com...but i dun tihnk anybody come and c my blog......haha..if realy pls write something on my tag even a space ok can...thx.. todae same life in sch loh...today math ca damn easy..=X..the ss damn diffcult...haha..no la cause i nv study...then after sch go jp makan...chicken rice again..haha... think the people going to know me le..haha.. then walk walk..shuinan always have electric in jp dunno why..haha...like to shock us...very pain le....haha..then send them hm..then now at hm rot loh....haha...i wan to go out and study but no ppl will accompany me cause i like to study at nite and in mac or fast food res...haha...ger they all got nite class socannot loh...then shuinan no need say can't even come out..haha...anywhere think next week go out study myself le...haha...work hard everyone....exam coming..gogo.....hee... ok i write to here le..byeZ byEZ
hi....haha..just finished dinner...cause afternnon also nv eat...haha.....very bored le...dunno wat to do... now just use few mins to update this blog..haha...after the lab we go central to eat loh...they all paly with the things tt they left eating..haha..lame ba...then nth le loh...all went hm...i went hm to rot loh..sit there walk up and there...lied here and there...then 8 go down packet dinner for my family de....then now rot again...some more father is back..haiz..boring le....haiz...haiz...think i go rot again......MiSs "HeR" So MuCh!!!!!
wahaha....lame ba..nth to do...just after co in sch...now in sch de lab...todae wait up very de late wors...haha....at 9.30 le......very late...actually slp even longer de is ger mag me.... all because of shuinan la...ask him call me nv call....then faster washed up....then come out loh...buy breadfast for them....mac...then take cab down to sch loh..haha....cause i cannot run,,,my middle fingers of my left leg swollen....very the pain when touch..haha..cause ytd got ppl jumped very de high then land on my leg..damn pain le....leg even cramped....haha...then go hm kena scolded by father cause of this....haha//lame ba....now i very de hungry..buy for them nv buy for myself..haha.....then haven eat....haha..think going le ba....lab going to close le....haha...i will write again...think tonite if i can use com..haha..ok la...byeZ..
hi...hee..nth to write much..hee...todae morning go sch loh..late day... haha...early in the morning ger voice so farnie..haha... all rite quite the same.....then go class loh... lesson are so boring...haha...nvm la whu tell me to be born in this world...got to study... after sch go science class loh.. 2 science in a dae..wan me to die...haha...but nvm la... all so boring..haha...then send them hm then go hm loh...haha..still got where to go....ger very afarid her phone will be taken by her mum cause her bill over alot..haha..but i tihnk nth happen but..think she get scolded onli ba... cause she still can msg me....haha...good loh..happy for her...haha...my father seem to be not happy with me..haha..i writing blog here...he nagging outside..haiz...haha....dun care abt his "singing".... me doing math paper1..very diffcult le....haiz....stress ar....haha...tihnk i go continue to do...or he will sing non stop...haha..bYeZ
haiz...todae same old sch dae....nv bring pe shirt todae...but got bring shorts....lame ba....then kena scold... then after sch got english calss but cancel...haha..then go co loh... new song...very diff...from last time... dunno how those juniors will do..haha... then go hm loh....haiz...todae not gd...ar... she not in gd mood..think something happen in her calss..then her bill too high her mum going kill her...haiz..i also dunno how to help her..haiz... then todae nv talk to her in the face of A WORD...haiz...feeling so sad.....geeting farer from ppl...haiz...dunno how to tok to her also....me....dunno...haiz... no one can help me ba... i am really useless..... steess is coming from everywhere now..haiz...got class everydae...so tired.... test coming also...wa lao...so cramp de time table...brain going to explose le..haiz...GoNE
here is a sad story....
Long ago...there was a boy whu nv wan to study..he is always in a happy go lucky....then when he goes to primary sch his subject dropped lik ehell....then he aslways hide himself at nite under to blanket to cry... for a very long time...over the years his tears dried up....now he wan to cry also cannot...he is unable to do it....haiz...then he now belive to try he best to study and dun care wat the result is as he has try his very best le..and there is nothing else he can do... everytime his father scold him he can onli sit there and listen..and now whu ever scold him he can onli llisten..he can't drop tear....nth he can do too... but a very bad feeling is in him...now even him thinks tt he is brainless and no heart at all....useless bastard...now he became more and more lazy...failure in everything he does... no moral at all...dun feel like doing anything at all... no frenz...haiz...he is loney...but i tihnk no one can help him... onli himcan help him useless but....haiz...
there this boy feeling very bad but think noone cares ba....
so telling u all this is because ask u all to work hard and be cheerful dun think so much just go for ur aim will do....dun be like this useless boy...ok?...
THE END
haiz...just come back from a walk round boon lay...hauiz...feeling not gd....haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz...think i make 2 ppl not happy todae..and they are important to my life...haiz...dunno wat to do...haiz....wat can i do???? feeling so useless...and anti social....haha..lame ba...not mood to joke around..... got ews jokes to share but no mood..haiz... in class also like tt...at hm also like tt...outside also like tt.....my life is from bad to worst..... haiz...need to study le..or o lvl comfirm failed....also dunno wan study wat?? english oral coming... on 23 august..haiz...another stressful things come.....and d&t too....haiz....so STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz...wan to make blog skin also no mood...haiz.... think this post is the haiz post....dunno la...stress ar......fu*k la chong hwee... u sux.....u useless... are u a guy or a gay??? u lame le....i scolded u!!!!!!!haiz....GonE
hiaz//todae is not a good dae for me.....go sch loh...then after sch actually got CH class de then cancel...then wait for shuinan then wait for ger....then wan send they both go hm de..then this bro of mine keep waiting to go hm...i see him everydae always gif in to me accompany me le...then accompany him go hm early todae...then ger angry le...haiz...i think i am the useless one ba...dunno how to make decision ba.....haha....i am an idiots... after that i walk hm loh...see so many bus 99 also dun feel like taking loh...then leg very pain think is old injuries ba....haiz... really think of alot of things when walking hm...and really damn loney without them...i feel so bored and fan without them...haiz....then i really think tt i am reallly useless....haiz....then reach hm le....duno wan to do wat...wan to message ger but think she is angrry ba.... fan her later she become more angry then i die le..haiz...me going to be isolated le ba......haha...nvm...bears like me are useless.....GoNe
yawnz...it is going late....me is just before bed time come tok tok..haha...todae go sch loh...same sch life...but abit diff todae...i lost 6kg....haha..mr bong face so shocked...haha..lame ba..dunno why cut down so much..i dun even feel it...haha.... nothing much also...tell u something... i haven been cutting down smk alot le....haha..think able to stopped fully soon ba...haha think cause of her ba...hee...dunno...nowadaes very stress le sch...dunno why..haha...work work work....all sch work....haiyo...haiz..dunno la.....think better slp early..or tml cannot wake uo..haha...good nite..take care..
hihi.....sorry long time nv come to chat...haha...dunno why la...dun feel like using com...boring com...dunno next time how to work..haha...hee...sorry for so long nv come see u....haha..now going to tok abt my life le...wahhaa....let start form 8 august...my birdae...haha..go sch loh...then kena spray hair...tio shirt also...haha..then go hospital see sharon..she down by fever..haiz..so ken lian....haha...bored her to death..=X..sorry...then go hm loh..haha...cause shuinan cannot go out loh...hahanvm..then geraldinn also cannot go out...somemore she got to stay overnite with her sis....so sad...somemore there damn cold haiz....somemore next dae got fever..haiz...i so worried abt her...btw get well soon..think too late..haha...u well le....haha...ok then 9 august....still at hm...say wan to do homework but lazy...haha..then stay at hm see national dae pardae..haha...lame loh...i finished seeing the army march off le..then nv see le..cause others so boring..haha...then dunno loh..wahaha...then now 10 august...where i go ar???? i also forget.... o.o...remember le.... go areana with shuinan ,ger and wei jie....yaya..haha...then go hospital together see sharon how...haha...she still lokking very plae tt time.....haha...then go hm slp loh...haha..then is 11 agust...is thurday....go sch loh..haha gif mr leow scold cause nv hand in foilo...haha...nvm la..used to it le...then afternoon...omg i forget again..sorry...i no brain de...haha..i got it...i go arena with ger and shuinan and hwee qi and syfan and irfan and 4/7 de....think so ba...haha..not correct pls dun scold me....=)..todae somemore ger start to cough..she also getting sick so worried....then is 12 agust le.....go sch loh...haha..got chinese 0 lvl result i got c6 and oral distintion..haha..happy???? not really...even though got pass...other may think i am happy...haha...but i am not.. cause i hid myself later in the nite to drop my tears..haha big secert dun tell ppl....haha...ger got b3 think she also cry ba...me also dunno how to help... cause ppl whu know me will know tt i really really scared of gal crying....see irene tt dae cry untill like tt i really feel sad..even though she like carzy...but she bring laughter....her chinese really good de...not onli chinese think study ba...haiz..dunno wat happen to her.....haiz...feel helpless.....ok ba...pass le...just study hard...put in ur best effort u will sooner or later get wat u wan...dun gif up....haha...also go cut hair...too stress ba....wan a change....very ugly.....ok then is 13 agust....is sat...moring meet shuinan and ger to go sch for co.... haha...we three like always together..haha..good ma....got frenz...then i call shuinan early his phone busy de...he say his sis use....then when it got throught..his mum say he go out le...but he is in toilet..lame ba.....haha....then go sch de co...mr ji drive me to cc to pick up my cello...wahaha....then after tt go jp eat lunch..ger couging got worst.....haiz...so worried...then after tt theysay go hm loh....so early reach hm is so wired to me..haha..but later int the nite i also go down play bb till 11+ haha...got my plam scratch...haha..pain le.....then go hm slp....ok then is todae le..haha...got cc de co in the morning...haha..there very little ppl.....haha...then onli practice one sing then go hm le...haha..i go luch with ger...at mac....she got cough le still can eat mac..pro le...haha..then she take bus hm..i also dunno wat i doing at tt time...nv send her hm..i crazy le..haha...sorry ger....sorry...then go hm rot loh...miss her...but dun wan disturd her so nv sms her at all......later i become very fan...dunno why she now coming to more sickness..haiz...worried......ok la...i tok to here can le.... sorry ppl...haha...my bro wan use com......hee...take care everyone....those sick get well soon...happy forever..haha....bye...good NitE..this take me 30 mins to write haha...
sudden those word past my mind...I wan to be with u every single dae of my life...i dunno wat will happen without u...now there something really wrong in my heart...cause i haven seen u todae....no matter wat happen pls stay happy..take care..and i will be waiting for u no matter how long it will be..until the dae my heart stopped......dunno why la...those word pass me..just wonder why there is always someone whu hurts others.....todae is a boring dae of my....damn boring nv go for cc de co cause father scold me say i always go out...no need study izzit...haiz..i dun gif a damn aby him....todae sharon go hospital...ger say she fever for 3 dae le...take care worss.....wish u get well soon....my also duuno why not feeling rite todae.....tml is my birdae liao...think of going out at nite wan to ask her...but she not cfm...shuinan tt dae use my hp msg her...haiz..nvm...i am really very happy liao...aleast got her with me in sch....haha...dunno why have been smking these few daes...very bad.....cause something is really wrong in my heart....nv have this feeling before so even me dunno wat i should do...haiz....dun feel like using com.....need someone to chat to...pls msg me if anyone know wat happen to me...even dunnno can also chat with me...thanks.....bYeZ bYeZ..
hEY!!!nth much..nth to do so come up have a chat with myself.....haha...lame ba....todae mring go sch loh.....then in sch....nth much happen..then after sch shuinan go with me to my chem class...then go jp buy things...they buy for their class banner de...then nth much..they went to sch de oppse in the voild deck to make...haha see they can make until so happy...feeling great for them..nice sch mates and class mates..but of course not my class la....haha..todae get the class make de t-shirt damn ugly some more $15 le..very exp...and i dun think i will be going to sch on mondae....cause i off myself for my birddae..haha..lame...see them really happy...can make so much fan...but me and shuinan very sianz..haha..nvm go accompany geraldinnn..but she also got her frenz...haha..we two very extra....then actually wan send her hm de...but shuinan wans to go hm first..and i dun think they wan me to stay also..cause i so extra......then go hm with shuinan loh...wat can i do?...haiz...nth much in my life..it is so boring.... me dunno wat happen to me...my sch table had been written by me for all sort of things....haha so lame....my books also...no mood study..haiz.....ok la..i also wan to study de...i wan to pass my o lvl..go poly....go on my life even though it is so sianz loh.....me still thinking mondae wan go where le.....nvm la....think shuinan also cannot late go hm cause 7th month is here.....think i will buy cake and sing myself..haha...nvm i am very happy this year le.... i got my every first biddae card..haha..so nice...and lastly.... i really miss the daes with my lao po....haha...=(..really miss those daes....haha..nvm..i just wan her to be happy...the person amy not be me...but whu ever the person is...if he /she make her sad...u will get it....haha...ok la...enough...i got lots of things to do later......byeZ.....
haiz...my feeling get abit better....but also like tt.....lucky got my really good bro...shuinan...even though he is always toking cocks..but always making ppl happy like a clown..but really gratefull to him......really..he a really got listener...anyone need ppl to listen to trouble can find him.... of course me also can la...even though my own problem haven sloved...but i think it can nv be solved..haha..it ok.. i willing to be like this...but need to buck up on my feeling...and make ppl around me buck up feeling also.....especially someone whu is very important to me...really....i wan ppl around me to be laughing...if can..every min....really.....i wan ppl in this world to be happy... there is no such thing as angry,sad,blue,feeling low,down,etc,all with not happy one to be GONE....i wan music too.....haiz..feeling down after reading blog.... she is abit like me...can act out a happy face for ppla round..but if alone or will the so call buddies...then will broken down.... feeling sad for her...but i can do nth..i just dun wan her to live in this world alone...i may not be importance to her...but dun wan her to be down.....if wan pls be infront of me..so i can really comfort her...dunno how to help her...think my brain bursting.......i have try alot of tings i can do to make her happy...but i failed.....wan to fan her also she wouldn't reply me....dunno...she say wan fan si wo...find me before sch,during recess and after sch. but nth of tt happen....haiz..dunno..maybe i am just an extra....Too sad so GONE..
haiz...dunno why..i have a very weird felling in my heart since last thurday..from 28/7...feeling is so bad...dunno why...and i really wan to get rid of this...very irrated..haiz....dunno why...todae go sch loh.... after sch go kfc makan...then i lose my lao po de name tag....haiz...dunno how i lose....after eating rushed bak to find..but cannot find haiz....then her dog also dropped but found by iren...nvm....think is no fate ba....haha...the wierd feeling is getting worst each dae...haiz...just now shave until cut my mouth...so lame wors.....haha...dunno why lao po feeling so sad....really wan to help her..but i can't do anything...haiz...feeling useless.....lameme...hate myself...dunno her story also...dunno whu she waiting also....haiz...feeling really useless.....btw..i felt i have changed...not social anymore..dunno how to laugh..dunno how to make ppl laugh also...always have i sad face...haiz.....dunno wat change me...haiz...feeling so fuck up....haiz....study had been dropping..nv wan to study....always slpy..haiz...dunno wat the fuck happen to me....hate myself even worst...moto of mine is to be happy so ppl around me will be happy also...but i think i failed..so i failed being myself...failed being a human..haiz...onli bring sadness to ppl around me...feel so guilty..haiz....dunno how to changed back liao....dunno how to study liao...dunno wat my future will be....cannot think...brian = useless....haiz...think i am getting from bad to worst liao...haiz....think i am going to be...sad go unlucky instead of happy go lucky... those wan to have luck one dun come near me...u will be unlucky....haiz...dunno wat happen to me...feeling so down now also...haiz....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

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hi...todae really happy...moved in a way...think this is the first time ppl remember my birdae and celebrate..haha..even though haven reach..cause think they celebrating xianglin one..then make a "card" for me too ba..haha...anyway really happy....thanks... melissa,shihui ,syfan ,xianglin,mingjieand not least geraldinn.....haha...really happy..go jurong east de ktv..go singing....even though not first time go..but this is the first time i nv slp in it..haha..but dunno why very uneasy int here...think is me ba....cause she my wife not my stead actually i also dunno wat it means... i wanted to hold her hand but i scared cause is my wife not my stead so i can do nth...but see her singing so happily i also happy le...then wan to go hm le...father call..then scolded me say i 5 daes in a week is always out..then no need study izzit..then cause my mood from high to noth.....then they though i really tired...haiz..nvm it my hm affairs....so sad todae shuinan nv go..nvm next mondae make him happy.... but i wished my lao po can go out on mondae too...but i dun dared ask her.....maybe somedae later ba....nv eat dinner...haha..just wished everyone to be happy.....hee...

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