Monday, February 20, 2012 @ 00:57 | back to the top.
my nose sucks now...running like fuck..
i think is because from fri till now nv slp much or well ba..
due to traveling too much ba..
haven been through woodlands checkpoint and tuas checkpoint 4 times..
can't stay there cause sat afternoon i got a meeting to attend cannot run.
went there to have a nite chat with bros..
check out the hotels..
and talk to those gang head there for so little help ba....
then left 3 of they there to enjoy then i need to be back..
nth much happen ba.. just in and out to ensure things runs..
nth to hide here ba.. this is my personal space..haha
whu cares la...
like wat my bros told me...
y not just be there..
my answer is simply..
not my status and right to be there..
simply ask back the qns to urself ba..
which friend will go ba..
all human r selfish ba..
i nv fail in wat pl ask me to do..
cause i am very objective person...
but in relationship.. i can't...
i wanted too.. but i can't...
ok the relationship is not just boy girl la..
include my bros and my group..
as much as i can help i will..
is because i seen too many of the sad cases happened before..
i just dun wish anyone around me to leave before i leave ba...
sometime whether i happy or wat doesn't matters..
cause right now.. i just wan those ppl around me to smile..
tt is my onli aim.. even i am tied in my time or money..
i will squeeze out from where ever i can..
this idea come long ago but i nv act as i think...
till the dae my own godfather whu teach me so much in my life tt i treat him better than my own father.. got cancer..
then is when i saw my dad and mum break down..
until now i still rmb tt very scence very clearly now..
is just tt heart wrecking.. even thought from young i always hate my dad..
then is one is my sis-in-law good sis went missing and found dead...
u see a lively person just look like zombie for weeks..
all this just teach me.. money is the worst thing on earth..
life and happiness is the most important things one can have..
i nv wanted ppl to know how rich i am...
i always bring just enough...
or sometimes not enough.. hee..
cause simply when u r rich u can nv find any true friend..
u all may say tt is untrue..
but i experience this before or even now...
with my bros.. is ok cause i know them for a long time..
next is with my group of course i'm happy..
cause they r my good friend listen to each others and gave advice no matter wat it is.they r my bros too.. just tt they nv go through the blood dripping and praying..
haha..
then there r times tt when i go out with my bros to meet someone of tt kind of cases..
or even in dragonfly..
i hate it..
after all.. wat i want is ppl around me to be healthy and smiling.. =)
Monday, February 06, 2012 @ 01:11 | back to the top.
i am here to rattle again...i just feel like i pass my whole life too fast...
which make my own mindset becoming very strange or stupid to ppl...
but i really feel tt woman r scary... without knowing they can feel...
let talk about my life..
from young... i was in basketball team which make me learn alot...
ok tt like everyone know...
let say something most ppl know.. which i was trying to hide as much as possible.
i was normal back then.. till i was sec 1..
i knew bear which is my bro now..by the way i got a total of 11 bro..
total we are 12 bros... haha.. must say.. later CHEE TAU say i nv say him again..
haha sorry la... most of the time bear, fred, gamer, ite and physco meet most of the time..
haha.. can blame him for all this, HE CHANGE MY LIFE TOTALLY... haha
cause he start my life to go into secret society!!! KNN. haha
too lazy to type how i got in.. but simply word.. through fighting.
was once a fighter.. but i wasn't in the secret society at all. is tt i just follow him around..
cause we r bros.. not i am under him.. haha..
is till i get to know boss..
boss wanted me to be there..
he treat me very good.. teach me damn lot of stuff...
about life , understanding ppl , how to handle tons of stuffs..
but nv teach me how to jio girl!!!! haha..
but he heng.. this kind of ah beng got so nice de wife.. fuck...
haha..
he teach me how to do trade, how to do trade, how to look at ppl how to handle ppl...
this is how i earn my money...
get back to wat i say woman r scary.. u know y...
most of my guys friend.. other then bros, ping and cum.. cause they know..
Btw my family know nothing of this..
other then them most guys think tt i am poor.. and it is la... i dun like to bring alot of money...
but girls always feel tt i got money...
simply example is cum gf bel..
cum told me.. bel say if her wedding.. she wan a BMW as her wedding car..
cum say.. he got no money to buy..
she say borrow lo.. cum say whu..
she say choke lo...
when cum told me i was like stunt... y me???
he did ask her.. she say dunno just feels..
scary rite???
i am rich.. and can say filthy rich..if u all still wonder wat rich ppl have..
simply... ask for 2 things.. one is american express black card..
it the onli card in the word tt got no credit limits.. u can buy an areoplane if u wan..
next is swiss bank acc book.. the content need to be view under a UV light..
i got both of them..
i know u all will wonder but i look so poor...
to me is tt i dun use the money i earn there..
i wan to stand on my own foot..
tt y i dun use the money..
i got lot of credit card but i bring none out..
tt y i am so poor but i like it..
i also dun wan to use tt money to make my life easier or to jio gal..
i push back how much stuffs from boss...
i dun go for brands alot...
continue tml or wat ba.. tired.. slack too much todae.. keep slping...
Monday, January 30, 2012 @ 15:45 | back to the top.
really a long time since i came back here..erm... let see..
ok firstly this few month izzit good at all...
tons of things handle and tons of things happen..
in the most simple form of words..
3 person die in 3 months...
wth...
plus my had been having headache since fridae..
it just like sudden blood rush or some explosion happen..
and the effect just stay..
i was quite worry tt is blood vessel tt broke..
as i think u all bro knows.. i have high blood pressure when i am awake..
and normal when i am aslp..
it get higher when i am thinking over things and stress about it...
so that y boss have been calling me asking to meet or something...
and bros..
i know it's my wrong for hiding this...but i need time to think about it myself...
i know u all have been asking me and boss...
it is me whu tell him no to tell..
yes it something not good..
i think it's time to let u all know..
sorry i cannot make it to speak right into u all de face...
as u all know all of us got the yearly health report..
YES.. something very wrong with me...
something tt just bring every hope and dream down scatter on the floor..
it may not be very correct but the possibly is alot higher..
yes my left eyes has nv been good...plus i always rub my eyes..
yes there is 30% of me to kena left eye cornea cancer in the coming 5 years.
and the other one is 15% to have my right-back brain cancer in coming 5 years too.
so no matter wat it's sometihng shocking to me...
tt y boss had been rushing me to do lots of things..
this and tt la.. tt y he had been clinging to me...
yup i think tt all tt i could say..
ya.. tt y chinese new year r all drinking and smoking..
bad year... and i am old...
tt all ba... no really in the mood or wat...
Wednesday, July 06, 2011 @ 23:30 | back to the top.
the week isn't any good week,somehow like the worst week of my life...
say really i tohught i was heartless...
alot of things i can dun care dun give a damn..
but until mon nite...
i woke up at 230a.m seeing my dad crying and my bro trying to quarrel...
i thought it was normal aat first...
then i see my dad kneel on floor..
the action just stuck me...
something serious happening...
then i went out... to see my mum hugging my father both of them crying and breaking down...
at tt very second, tears drop heart hollow...
the very image tt come to my mind is whether have i done anything wrong to make him this sad...
i dun totally blame my bro..
is actually all 3 of us...
neverless we care much...
but when i see my dad and mum break down...
it seem to me tt i am useless...
i totally hurt like nv b4...
tears keep flowing...
until todae.. i still have tt very feeling when i think about it...
after tt i went to drik.. again... bottles after bottles of hard condon bleu...
tears flow as i drink...
then ytd.. the same feeling stuck me..
giving me the very reason to drink.. so i call alfred...
this group of bros are even closer to me than my real blood bros...
they stand by 21/7 346 dae a year. and had been doing tt since i know them...
tt y this teach me to be.. always ready 24/7 for others... but noone really needs me cause i can do nth..
i am noone....
ytd was counselling session from alfred....
this bro of mine counsel me is diff from others...
usually we go to facts to counsel ppl..
but he is throught scolding...
i was scolded by him ytd...
yes he also use my account to post on my wall saying i am useless...
i agree tt y i nv say anything...
and he is damn right aboout me drinking....
i can drink no matter good mood or bad... and when the mood get worst the more i drink...
drinking doesn't solve the problems, and it doesn't help at all...
i dunno wat i can do...
the onli thing is to keep it within ba...
nv talk to ppl much about this very incident.. cause it still haunting me...
and other problems still arise...
it a bad week for me...
got to clam myself down and get ready or tml work...
got off for 2 daes le...
sat is drinking again.. thinking fridae i going to drink ba...
this is call a leopard can nv change his spots...
Friday, May 27, 2011 @ 09:08 | back to the top.
this time is really a long time since i had blog..actually nth to hide.. most of my blog u can see i about her...
no need to say whu u all also know la..
yes she is important aleast to me... in fact very...
i know u all always say u can always find a better girl somewhere out there..
i know, but u all should know tt sentence is hurting.. not onli to her.. but alot to me..
even thought of my feelings???
an example...
let say like this car.. honda civil ...
and pl around u keep say.. y not buy accord it alot better and all those...
correct u cannot refer a person to a car...
it was just an simple example to let u all have a mindset of how am i feeling at tt moment when u all say all those...
next... i am also not hapy with u all saying the one side story...
u always try to as fair as possible...
so.. i hate one side...
cause i nv know wat she is thnking...
for me it's a very hard thing....
u all were always saying i see how well u try her all those ..
u nv see the others....
how she look into my eyes..
when she smiles and laughing...
how beautiful she is...
she had nv say anything tt rejects me.. i mean in a way not saying anything bad at me.. or behind i think.. haha..
in a way when i see her smile or just peacefully sitting.. it seem like the time just flies... when i thought i seen it for like 5 mins.. it was actually 20 mins le...
kind of hate it...
haha.. but all this is to be kept right here in me...
i am in no position to do anything..
dun even talk about asking for her...
the way she is now, i felt hapy for her..
always missing her bf all those...
which is not like last time all her relationship is kept unknown...
which i believe she is putting in her most effort in it, which shows tt she really love him ba... =)
Monday, April 11, 2011 @ 23:44 | back to the top.
sorry bro nv see ur post la...too lazy to comment on tt la... haha
u know me de la... heee
kind of think about it.
i'm quite useless.. alot of things i can't do..
i know ppl around me like to use nice words la...
meaning i have put enough effort la.. u ahve done more than wat u should do la..allt hose shit..
but when problems arise...my mind can just go blank or jammed...
btw is not emo...
just felt down...
just like present...
i got tons of things to give but then ton of reason tt i can't give will come back in..
it's like using my own hand to slap myself...
happy tt i slap something...
sad is tt i slap myself....
lame rite???
haha.. continuing this action...
Tuesday, March 01, 2011 @ 18:18 | back to the top.
Bro, you should know the aim of us here.we know big boss is in some health problems, dun forget you too.
your liver is already have that 1 percent harden.
like what we have talk to you.
we know you always scold him, ask him go die all those.
but you do not mean it.
there like like aleast 4 of us which is always around him.
we find no reasons for you to cancel your study trip.
you are way cleverer than all of us.
got a chance to make tons of money not on the dark side.
and you and him is too alike both so stubborn.
please consider bro.