Tuesday, August 02, 2005 @ 20:41 | back to the top.
haiz...dunno why..i have a very weird felling in my heart since last thurday..from 28/7...feeling is so bad...dunno why...and i really wan to get rid of this...very irrated..haiz....dunno why...todae go sch loh.... after sch go kfc makan...then i lose my lao po de name tag....haiz...dunno how i lose....after eating rushed bak to find..but cannot find haiz....then her dog also dropped but found by iren...nvm....think is no fate ba....haha...the wierd feeling is getting worst each dae...haiz...just now shave until cut my mouth...so lame wors.....haha...dunno why lao po feeling so sad....really wan to help her..but i can't do anything...haiz...feeling useless.....lameme...hate myself...dunno her story also...dunno whu she waiting also....haiz...feeling really useless.....btw..i felt i have changed...not social anymore..dunno how to laugh..dunno how to make ppl laugh also...always have i sad face...haiz.....dunno wat change me...haiz...feeling so fuck up....haiz....study had been dropping..nv wan to study....always slpy..haiz...dunno wat the fuck happen to me....hate myself even worst...moto of mine is to be happy so ppl around me will be happy also...but i think i failed..so i failed being myself...failed being a human..haiz...onli bring sadness to ppl around me...feel so guilty..haiz....dunno how to changed back liao....dunno how to study liao...dunno wat my future will be....cannot think...brian = useless....haiz...think i am getting from bad to worst liao...haiz....think i am going to be...sad go unlucky instead of happy go lucky... those wan to have luck one dun come near me...u will be unlucky....haiz...dunno wat happen to me...feeling so down now also...haiz....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1