Sunday, March 19, 2006 @ 03:15 | back to the top.
haha..just out of bath..just now go for morning run..lolz...run until very far..run until shuinan house there...haha...tired now..but running in the nite is so cool...i got sunburn at my shoudler..pain lei..haha..nite got no ppl also....but haven cough and flu..haha..taking the sea coconut drink like plain water..haha..then scolded by lots of ppl by doing tyhis...why lei??? cannot meh??haha..nvm la.. i am used to it..dunno why..missing important person in my very lousyt life makes a lots of different... i felt so uneasy.... haiz... see my bro around me so concern abt me in someways.... sorry bros i let u all down....not tt i dun wan to follow wat u told me but.... not everything is so easy like u all think... to this stage of my life i haven nv treated a gal so good like i treated her...nv u know not even my mum....this is where i know wat is call sweet talks, where i know how to love someone...listen to her is so nice...not able to see her make u feel so worried...her smell which makes u so happy....lastly her smiles...let u throw everything away then jsut her....to todae i still can't let go sorry.....maybe u all will say this is ur thinking onli....but this is where i know wat is call heartbroken and wat is really a promise..this word is very the powerful...not just to her..but to everything u do and everyone... so i decided to rot..so bros stop pushing me to new gal force me to taek phone no..use my phone msg ppl...say wat i like to be ur friend...look for a galfriend.... i dun wan...not tt they are not good..not u all are not helping me is tt..this is not the way.. i tried very hard to go along u all de wishes....get ppl nos..but..wat is the use??? u think i like u all so handsome meh??i am not ok... i tried my best to smiles infornt of u all...and i will continue to be not letting u all realise.. i wrting this out cause i know u all cares abt me..even thought not many of u are my bros...and u all come from different part of my life.. i am very grateful of ur all....accompany me to find wat i wan...helping me think of many diff ideas for many others things help out in my really small life... i belive tt heaven send u all here is to help me... make me learns and go along with life..i wan to thanks god really... i choke chong hwee have not done any good deed to this point of my life....but all is crime and things tt ppl will dislikes.... i really wan to help my friends bros to be happy too.. i know this may be very hard but u all just need to tell me ur problem and i choke chong hwee use wat ever skill or wat to help u....i know i may make ur things worst but i like to lend u my small ears to listen ti ur big things...ok...thanks....to everyone and to her..